Chapter 23

Time flew by and all to fast and the two-week break that Jasper and Peter had was gone. I cried as soon as they pulled out of the drive. I would never ask him to give up his dreams, just as he would never ask me to change my dreams, which are only on hold at this point in time.

With Vicky and Char both are pushing, I'll be going back to school sometime after the twins are born to finish up my degree and become a vet. I was so pleased that Vicky and Jasper got along.

I've not seen much of Rose or Alice for that matter since I've been put on bed rest. They've both have called checking up on me. Summer is a busy time for both of them and they both know that Char will take good care of me.

The few times Rose and I talked about Vicky, she didn't seem to trust her motives for being here and from there out she keeps telling me to watch my back. I so want her come out and meet Vicky and see for herself, that Vicky just wants to get to know her mom.

I'm not sure when I'll get a chance to introduce them, but I hold out hope that my first friend I made in starting over will come to trust my daughter.

Char as mentioned a few times after I've gotten off the phone with Rose that Rose doesn't do friends and it shows just how special of a person I am to get Rose on my side. I'm glad I've got the friends I have because I know with all them on my side I will get to make all my dreams come true.

My time home in bed hasn't been as bad I thought it would be. I get a few hours of reading done each day, as well as lots of talking and planning for the future with both Char and Vicky. I think Vicky is more excited than Jasper about the baby. She so wants to be a big sister. Her eyes light up with joy each time she talks about them.

Esme keeps showing me ideas for the babies' room through emails, cause like Alice it's a busy time at the shop and she's not had a chance to come and really look at the room. I've told her I wanted it done in neutral colors since Jasper couldn't be with me when I could have found out their sex. I didn't find out and I wanted the room done long before they were due since with my age and that I was pregnant with twins, I was bound to go into labor early. She tells me that neutral rooms are more fun to design, because there are more variables.

As they grow and my stomach grows, I feel like such a cow and lying down all the time makes it where I'm gaining more weight than I would if I was up and walking around. I know from reading on the internet that preeclampsia can be deadly to both mom and babies, and I'll do what ever it takes to make sure all three of us come out of this alive.

Listening to Char talking about how much traveling the guys will do over the next few months it's mind boggling to think in just a few short months they will have made stops in over half the states. I didn't know rodeos were so popular in so many different states.

Summers come and gone and fall is approaching fast. The cooler weather makes it easier for me to deal with my expanding belly. I've not seen Jasper since his visit during the summer, but I still talk to him daily.

My blood pressure is still just on the low side of high, but my protein levels is still high and my placenta has shifted lower, which makes it where I can't go up and down the stairs any more. We've turned my library into a make shift bedroom since it is right across the hall from the downstairs bathroom.

Char or Vicky have to be right outside the bathroom when I use it as they have to help me walk from room to room. If my placenta shifts any more I'll be put into the hospital and I don't want to be in there.

Rose stopped by today for the first time in what seems forever. She rubbed my belly and told the twins to be good to me. Alice came also, but left Rose with me to go up and take the measurements for Esme. The plan is to have the room done before Christmas is here.

It was so good to see both of them. I could tell that something was off between Vicky and Rose and I knew that by the look of Rose's eyes she was in mommy bear mode. I just hoped that Vicky won't say anything to set Rose off.

Alice was bouncing around when she finally came into my room to visit with me. She said that after years of trying she finally has gotten pregnant. I hugged her and wished her an uneventful pregnancy compared to mine, she laughed.

As are visit came to an end I rolled onto my side to catch a nap. I was just starting to drift asleep when I heard loud and clear. "I'm the bitch around here and if you do anything to hurt your mom, you will have me to answer too. I've not figured out your game yet, but trust me I will."

I wanted to say something, but let it ride because I know Rose would only say something like that if Vicky had made a comment to set her off. I didn't want Vicky to be playing a game with me. I've come to love her more than I ever thought possible. I loved having a second chance with her.

However, I trust Rose with my life and if she feels something is off, then more than likely something is off.