I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!

CHAPTER 25

(Bella)

Friday night came around. Andrew was so excited, he was bouncing off the walls. I packed our stuff and set it by the door. Edward had called to tell us he was on his way.

"I hope you three have fun tonight," Dad said.

"I think we will. Andrew is so excited."

"Are you excited?" He asked.

"Dad, I miss Edward. It's killing me."

He hugged me. "Things are going to work out. It's good you two are taking it slow, you need this time."

"How long did it take for you to trust mom again?" I asked.

Dad smiled. "Quite awhile and it wasn't easy. I wanted to trust her, but it hurt like hell to know she had been with another man. I forgave her easier than I trusted her."

"I want to trust Edward," I said. Trying carefully not to think about the afternoon him and I had had sex.

"Keep talking, it will come," He said. "Talking is the key. Even if it's about painful things, talk through it. It's ok to get mad or even cry, but talk through it."

"Sounds so easy."

"I know Bella, but the more you talk the easier it gets. And it might be harder for you guys. You lost a child weeks after he started having an affair. That is a lot to take in, but you made it through Evan's death and funeral together, that in its self is a miracle considering how he acted when he got caught."

There was a knock at the front door. "Dad's here," Andrew called.

"I'm coming," I said wiping my eyes.

I stretched up and gave him a big hug. "Have fun with your family tonight. I know living is painful right now, but even you deserve some fun."

"I love you dad," I said.

"I love you to baby girl," I smiled at my nickname. I don't remember when he started calling me that, but it made me feel good when he did.

I walked into the living room, Edward was there waiting for me. He opened his arms the minute he saw me and I easily walked into his hug. I inhaled his scent, he smelled amazing. "Are you two ready?" He asked.

"Yes come on dad let's go," Andrew said pulling him out the door.

"Have fun kids," Dad said waving as we left.

"Where are we going? I'm hungry." Andrew said as we all got into the car.

Edward looked at him in the rear view mirror. "I thought we would get some pizza and then go get some movies," Edward told him.

"I want pepperoni," Andrew said.

"I know buddy."

The pizza place was kind of crowded, but we got a booth right away. Andrew sat across from Edward and me. "How was work?" He asked me.

"It wasn't bad. She's put me on the cash register, but its been easy," I told him.

"That's good. I'm glad you took the job."

"What can I get you?" The waitress asked coming over.

"We'll take a medium pepperoni and a medium cheese," I said.

Edward looked at me questioningly. "Cheese?" He asked.

"Its the only thing that looks good," I said softly. I knew he wanted me to eat.

"What could I get you to drink?" She asked.

"Kids fruit punch, and two cokes," I told her.

"I'll be right back with your drinks," She said and walked away.

Andrew was busy coloring on his place mat, Edward turned to me. "How are you doing really?" He asked.

I shrugged. "I'm trying."

"Have you been eating?" He asked looking at me in the eyes.

"Edward, I'm trying. I swear to God I am."

"Dad suggested we call the counselor that you had when you were pregnant, Patti."

"I swear I'm trying," I argued.

"I know you are baby, I know, but you look sad all the time."

"Edward, don't I have the right to be sad? I mean, I know you don't seem to be, but can't I be?"

"Yes Bella you have every right to be sad, its just the part of you not taking care of yourself that bothers me," I leaned over against the table wrapping my arms around my body. I didn't want to fight with him. "And Bella, I'm sad too."

The waitress set our drinks down. "The pizzas will be right out," She said and left.

"Lets talk about this later," I said.

"Ok," He sighed giving in.

I managed to eat a couple slices of pizza and drank most of my coke. I could tell he was about to comment, but I glared at him, shutting him up immediately.

Edward and I followed Andrew around the movie store as he looked at movies. I felt the urge to reach out and take his hand. Obviously he read my mind, he slowly slipped his hand into mine, it was as if he thought I would jerk it back. I needed more though. I dropped his hand, he looked sad, but I wrapped my arm around his waist and leaned into him. "This is better," He agreed.

Once we got home, I changed into pajamas and curled up on the couch. Edward put in Andrew's movie 'How to Train Your Dragon' and made him a bed on the floor of blankets. I could tell this was how they spent a lot of their nights together.

Edward sat down on the couch and I curled up against him. He wrapped his arms tightly around me and held me. It felt nice, like a little piece of my heaven was back. We weren't even half way through the movie, when I felt my eyes start close. "Just sleep sweetheart," He whispered.

I awoke the next morning wrapped in Edward's blankets. I didn't remember ever going to bed. "Morning love," He said coming into his room.

"Morning. When did we come to bed?" I asked.

"I don't remember the time, just that I carried you to bed, then I went and slept on the couch."

"I feel bad for falling asleep like that."

"Baby you were tired," He said heading back to the door.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"I have to get pancakes done before Andrew catches me using the box mix for pancakes, " He said grinning. I couldn't help but laugh as I got up with him.

Together we worked around the kitchen making breakfast. We joked around and made a huge mess. Edward grabbed me around the waist and turned me towards him. "What?" I asked. His lips met mine and I could feel his tongue begging for permission to enter. I parted my lips and moaned as his tongue caressed mine. "Edward." I moaned against his kiss.

He broke the kiss. "Sorry," He gasped.

"Do not be sorry," I said leaning closer to where I could rest my face in his chest. "You have nothing to be sorry for at least when it comes to kissing me."

Tears filled my eyes. No matter how much fun we could have in those moments, I would still take Andrew and go back to mom and dad's alone. I wasn't ready to live with him and yet, I missed him.

"Bella, why are you crying?" He asked.

"I'm ok," I said wiping my eyes and going into the bathroom.

(Edward)

Andrew's eyes lit up when he came into the kitchen and saw pancakes. "Morning buddy," I said ruffling his hair.

"I'm hungry," He replied wiping the sleep out of his eyes.

Bella came back into the kitchen and fixed him a plate of pancakes and placed them in front of him. "Thanks mom," He said picking up his fork and began shoveling them in.

I couldn't help but laugh as I watched him eat. "Is it good?" Bella asked.

He nodded, as pieces of food fell from his mouth. "Smaller bites buddy," I said.

Bella and Andrew stayed the whole weekend with me. It was fun, however, I was growing increasingly worried about Bella. She wasn't eating. During meal times, she would fix a plate of food, but would end up pushing it around with her fork. I tried not to make a big deal out of it, but she looked awful. And by that Sunday night she started pulling away from me. When I walked them up to the door to kiss her good night, a tear slid down her face and she went inside shutting the door without saying good bye.

SIX WEEKS LATER

Work was going great, I loved how low key it was at that hospital, although the long shifts tended to drag on and on, but I got to be one on one with more patients and felt that I could actually help them, and I enjoyed that.

I pulled into mom and dad's driveway. Bella had called me that Tuesday saying she had called Patti and made an appointment. I was pleased. I offered to take her and she gladly accepted. About a week after we had sex, she pulled away from me, she said it was nothing, but I think she was really regretting it. I had Andrew every weekend, but Bella refused to stay with me. I hated it, but was glad she'd asked me to give her a ride to see Patti.

Bella came out to the car and got in. "Hi," I said leaning over to give her a kiss, I could feel her tense up.

"Hey," She said softly. "Thank you for taking me."

"Bella, why have you been avoiding me?"

"Same reason I avoid everyone, I just want to be left alone."

"Do you regret having sex?" I asked.

"I don't know what I feel anymore."

"I hope Patti will help," I reached over and took her hand.

"I do to," She whispered. "Because I don't think you deserve me."

"Bella what are you talking about?" I asked pulling into the parking lot.

"I think I might want a divorce," She said tears were streaming down her face.

"What?" I asked. "I thought we were working on things?"

"I'm not who I used to be, I'm miserable, I want to die, I could go on and on. I think you'd be better off Edward."

My heart broke, this didn't all seem to have to do with my affair, something else was going on. "I'll fight for you Bella," I whispered.

"Am I really worth it Edward?"

"Yes."

"I just don't know anymore."

We silently got out of the car and Patti's office was in the same place, it hadn't changed at all. Bella signed in and came over to sit with me. "I love Patti and all, but I hate this place. I don't like the feeling I get here."

"I'll be here when you get done," I said trying to calm my shaking. I wasn't expecting her to mention a divorce. A few weeks ago I could have understood it, but I didn't now.

"I know. Thank you." I noticed a tear slip down her cheek. I wanted to reach over and hug her, but wasn't sure how to.

Patti opened the door. "Bella Cullen," She said smiling.

Bella got up without saying anymore to me. The minute Bella got close to Patti, Patti reached out and hugged her.

As I sat there waiting, I began looking through the pamphlets. There were some on eating disorders and depression. I grabbed both of them and began reading. I wasn't surprised that Bella fit the depression one perfectly. I hoped Patti would pick up on it immediately.

I sat there for what seemed like an eternity, when Bella finally came out, looking way worse than she did when she went in. She scheduled another appointment, then turned to face me. "Lets go."

I opened her car door for her and got in myself. "Bella?"

"She made me talk about everything. It wasn't a slow process, she just wanted to jump right in," She cried.

I reached over to hug her, but she pushed me away. "Do you want to go somewhere and talk about it?" I asked.

"No, take me back home," She said laying her head back and closing her eyes.

"Ok," I said softly.

The minuted I stopped the car in the drive way, she jumped out and ran into the house without so much as a good bye. I tried not to take it personally, but it really hurt that she was shoving me out of her life like that.

I got out of the car and walked towards the house, I at least wanted to see Andrew. However, dad met me on the porch. "We need to talk Edward."

"What?" I asked sitting down on a chair.

"I'm really worried about Bella. She's worse all of a sudden," Dad said sitting next to me.

"I know, we'd had a great time the last time she stayed with me and Andrew, but by Sunday night she'd pulled away completely barely speaking to me."

"Mom found two empty liquor bottles under her bed today," Dad said.

"That night that you all went out and I stayed with her, she was drunk. I forced her into a bath and forced her to eat," I admitted. "But all I saw was one bottle."

"Edward, something needs to be done quickly. She's losing too much weight. Mom said her skinny jeans are baggy and we can't get her to eat," Dad looked at me. "If she doesn't start eating soon, I'm admitting her into the hospital for IV fluids and if it doesn't work, I will take the next step and have her committed, however since you are legally married to her, you would have to be the one to do it."

"Is Patti going to be enough?" I asked.

"I don't know Edward, you might need to call Patti and talk to her yourself. She can't tell you what they talk about, but you can tell her what to look for."

"I will," I said. "She keeps telling me she's trying."

"That's just it Edward, I don't think she is. She's been locking herself up in her room at night. When Andrew is here, your mom and I are caring for him. She just physically can not do it."

"Did you know she's considering a divorce?" I asked him.

"She hasn't said anything to me about it," He said. "However, I'm not real surprised."

"Yah she sprung that on me on the way over there to see Patti."

"Edward, she is so messed up right now," Dad said sadly.

"I've failed as a husband and a father. I didn't realize how bad she was until today. I mean, I knew things weren't great, but I thought she was going to be ok."

"I know you are trying to get your life in order as well and this hasn't been easy on you either. Your mom and I know you both need our help."

I looked at him. "Thank you dad. I know I really messed up, but thank you."

"Your welcome son and when it comes to Bella, we will help you figure out her best care as well," He said."Are you still seeing your therapist?"

"I'm going twice a month," I replied.

"Good," Dad said.

When I got home later that night, I collapsed on the couch and didn't move again until my alarm went off at 6am. I felt more rested knowing that mom and dad were going to help me. I was also going to make a call to Patti at some point that day to talk to her and get some ideas of what to do.

I got to the hospital and found dad already there. "How were things this morning?" I asked.

"She was still asleep when I left. I told your mom to call if anything happened."

"I'll call Patti this afternoon."

Work was horrible, I couldn't concentrate on anything. Around 11am, dad sent me home saying he would place me on call to come back if I was needed.

Mom's car was in my driveway when I pulled in, however, it was Bella who was sitting on the porch steps, with her knees pulled up to her chest and her head buried in them. She didn't move as I sat down next to her. I began to panic.

"Bella, what's the matter?" I asked. "I thought you had to work today?"

She looked at me, she had been crying. "Nancy sent me home, I got sick at work."

"Well lets get you in and into bed," I said rubbing her back.

"I'm not sick, Edward," She whimpered.

"But you said, you got sick at work," I said repeating what she had just said.

She reached down next to her and picked something up. "I'm pregnant," She said handing me a positive pregnancy test.

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