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Bella POV

I jumped and bumped into Edward causing him to fall down on the bed with me on top. I buried my face in between his neck and shoulder. He brought his arms around my waist and pressed me tightly to him. I couldn't help but bring my arms around his neck and press him to me even more, feeling every inch of him against me. Inhaling his amazing scent, I sighed in contentment. I heard him chuckle lightly, and thought about how much I had missed that sound, all of this. Suddenly the past three and a half months came rushing back to me. I disengaged myself from his embrace and got up from the bed, looking at him, his expression confused and hurt.

I managed a small smile for his sake and spoke willingly for the first time.

"Sorry for that." I said shyly, he continued staring at me, I could see another emotion in his eyes, regret maybe? He smiled once he registered what I said, and it was a sad smile, filled with hurt. We both stood there awkwardly, well I stood, he straightened himself so he was now sitting on the bed. "So… how did you come in?" I asked him the first thing that came to my mind. All I wanted right now was to hear his voice, and lose myself in it. He chuckled lightly once again and smiled sadly.

"Is that really important?" He asked, obviously noticing how I was trying to skip the subject in hand altogether. Even with the ironic tone he had used for his question I lost myself into his voice, it was the most beautiful sound of the world, only exceeded in beauty by his laugh. I found myself unable to utter a word after having heard his voice once again, my memory hadn't do him any justice, not even the picture he sent me. Edward in person is the most beautiful thing, my eyes can't help but stare. I nodded since I wasn't capable of responding. He sighed dramatically and looked at me, resting his elbows on his knees. "Your friend let me in." He answered, I can tell he was getting anxious that I was avoiding the topic to discuss.

"Matthew?" I asked him, he was the only friend who had a key to my room. Edward nodded grimly. We stood there for a few minutes, merely looking into each other's eyes, trying to read what the other wanted, trying not to show what we wanted. I wasn't ready to tell him I love him, to make myself vulnerable, besides he's got quite a lot to explain. "So what are you doing here in San Francisco." I almost slapped myself for asking such a stupid question, but I really wanted to hear it from himself. I wanted to hear him say the words that could either crush my world or make the happiest I have ever been. If he was here for me I wanted him to say so, in all its words.

"San Francisco is a really nice place, very…touristic ." Was his answer, I felt my face fall and had to suppress the sob that was threatening to overcome me. He came here because he thought this place is vacation-y, not because of me. Of course not, why would anyone, especially him, cross and entire state just to talk to you. I felt tears begin to make its way to my eyes, I closed them and turned around, I didn't had to hear any more. I had more dignity than to cry in front of him. All he had said in his letter was a lie, maybe it wasn't even him writing it, or maybe it was a joke, a very cruel, not-funny-at-all, joke.

I turned away from him as a tear spilled down my cheek. "Yeah it's nice in here." I said, trying to hide the fact that I was about to break down as best I could. I had my back to him, so he wouldn't be able to see the tears that were now streaming down my face.

"But I'm here for another reason." He said, and his voice sounded nearer to me than before, but I couldn't pay attention, I was trying to subtly clean my tear-stained cheeks. "a much more important reason." He finished and I could hear his voice just by my ear, his hot, unsteady breath in my neck. He took a hold of one of my arms and gently spun me around so I was now facing him. I tried to look away, cursing the tears that kept coming without any sign of stopping. "Bella I-I'm so sorry… please don't cry." He said while he cleaned the tears from my cheeks with his fingers.

I smiled at him a sad, resigned, wary smile. He noticed this and sighed in aggravation. "We need to talk." He said in a whisper and I nodded, not trusting myself to speak at the moment. He took me by my forearm and dragged me to sit in the bed. Once he sat down beside me he angled himself so he was looking at me, I kept staring directly at the wall. Looking at him would only make me vulnerable to him.

"Bella, these last three months… they have been…. What I mean is-for me at least-they were…" Edward began to say, but then he stopped himself altogether. I looked at him briefly and smiled before getting back to looking at the wall. He took a deep breath and then released it. "I've missed you." He said quietly, I kept my gaze away from his as I prepared myself to say it. We were silent for a few seconds until I spoke.

"I've missed you too." I said in a voice barely audible to me. He did seem to catch it though, because I saw him look at me and smile from the corner of my eye.

"Listen, Bella, I think I need to explain." He said in his cute unsure tone, I wasn't in the mood for it though.

"I think so too." Was my answer, he smiled once again, but not the smile I like, it was still filled with hurt and regret, as all the others he had given me today.

"I… well, I was stupid, I thought that-that making you leave would make me feel better about myself." What? Making me leave? Where? I kept staring at the wall. "It was stupid, I know, but Alice offered me an easy way out of it-" He wasn't able to finish his sentence because I spoke.

"Alice?" I asked. It had said something about Alice in the letter, I just thought that he had mean it in a 'blame the writer not the messenger' kinda way, maybe not.

"Yes, Alice, but it wasn't her fault, it was mine." He said, rushing into his sentences. I didn't understand a thing, Alice? Not her fault? Why would it be her fault.

"What do you mean 'Alice's fault'?" I asked him, I noticed how he looked at me, but I was still staring at the wall.

"Not her fault, mine, I listened to her, I lied to you."

"Listened to her?" What does he mean?

"Yes, she told me the reason you were staying was me, I felt… guilty." Was his answer, what is he talking about, staying, leaving, he, Alice, me. This isn't making any sense.

"Explain." I practically ordered, I still couldn't look at him, but I could feel his gaze on me.

"Back, when we first met, I felt so…" He paused a second, looking for the right word. "Engrossed by you… It was like you pulled me to you, with some kind of magnetic force or something." He chuckled lightly once he finished with his sentence. "I had never felt like that before, it was all knew to me. And if I'm being sincere I was afraid." He said, I immediately reacted to that word, he had said it in his letter, and now he was saying it out loud. I wanted to hear it, it was the only way I could be positive that he had written that letter.

"Afraid?" I asked him, still not looking at him.

"Yes, afraid of how vulnerable I was making myself, of how you could have such an effect on me, on such a short time." He said, pretty much repeating what his letter said, I looked at him for the second time since we had come to sit on the bed and he smiled once he saw my eyes looking into his, it wasn't a happy smile though it was wary. He continued with his explanation. "So after we'd dated a few times, I felt happy, but scared at the same time… it's a hard feeling to describe." He said and I nodded still looking into his eyes, I knew exactly what he was talking about.

"Well anyways, after we had dated you received the offer." He said. What? The offer? The only offer I ever received was the one that got me here, what has that got to do with anything? "Angela intercepted me one day, after training, sh-she told me you were thinking about rejecting the offer." So he was talking about the agency's offer. But why would Angela tell him I had rejected it? "She said I needed to-to tell you I would wait for you… to return… so you'd come here to train." He said. This seriously isn't making any sense. "So I did… or so I thought… at the party." He let out the word party like it was something bad. I recalled that, he had told me we would be fine. But the real question here is, why had Angela told him that?

"I was prepared resigned, to lose you for six months, and possibly forever." Edward kept going as I thought about possible reasons for Angela to do so. "But apparently you decided to stay, regardless of my speech." He said before he chuckled darkly, without humor. I was brought back to reality by this, Angela's reasons matter no more, all that mattered was him. "The next day, at the ice rink, Alice intercepted me… she said the reason you weren't leaving was because of me." I looked at him and spoke out of impulse, not of willingness.

"If you could make a sacrifice and let me go, I'd do the same for you and stay." I said. He looked at me and nodded, a small smile on his lips. It was still kinda sad, but definitely the best smile I had gotten this night.

"She said something like that, anyway, she needn't tell me leaving was good for you… because I knew it was what was best for you." He kept going and going and I couldn't get the puzzle pieces together, it was all so tangled, and nothing made sense. "Alice told me her plan and I, acting stupidly, followed her ideas." Edward said as his face turned grim.

"So I went directly to you and asked if we could talk." I recalled the conversation we had had the day after the party, I tore my gaze from his and looked back at the wall, not being able to endure watching him. This was the moment of truth, in which he either told me he wanted me or not.

"After we were outside of the ice rink, I lost all my conviction. I wanted to grab you and never let you go. But I knew I couldn't. I needed to do it for you, but the truth is I was trying to do it for myself, to stop the reason of my vulnerability." He had dropped his voice so much that it was barely over a whisper. "So I gathered my courage and told you I wasn't ready for a serious relationship. It was like stabbing myself. But you kept saying you could give me time, we could take it slow. It was as if every word that left your mouth pressed the knife even further into my chest. I couldn't take it anymore, so I kept lying until I said the worst lie of all." Edward seemed to prepare himself to what he was going to say next. I was registering his words, letting them sink one by one, deciphering their meaning and bringing the sentences together to get the idea. "I said I didn't want any relationship with you." He finished in a whisper. Then he turned to look at me and took my hands in his, speaking urgently.

"But Bella, that was the biggest lie ever, it was stupid of me to say such a thing, but you just wouldn't give up and I needed to stop you, so you could come and train." Everything was making sense now, But still it was kinda wacky.

"Wait, was Alice the one who told you to break up with me?" I said, looking at him once more, he nodded and his face showed nothing but regret.

"Yes, but she only did it because it was good for you." He said. So Alice was the one who made him break up with me. But she never would have forced him, she was too good to do that, wasn't she?

"But-" He didn't let me finish my question.

"But I shouldn't have listened to her, I should have found another way, so you could leave, without so much pain." He was wrong, I wouldn't have left any other way, I saw that now. I had forced my friend and the boy I love to lie to me, in order for me to take an opportunity I would have otherwise rejected. It wasn't their fault they had done it because they felt it was the best I could do. "Bella, I shouldn't have lied to you, I thought I was protecting both of us. You could get your opportunity at professional skating and I could get rid of the scary feelings that were making their way to me." I was speechless.

"After lying my guts out you said something along the lines of 'stay the hell away from me' and let me tell you, that stung me worse than anything before. So I did, I stayed away from you, until I couldn't take it anymore. I knew you were at the airport, I took my car and drove there, ready to tell you the truth. But after you saw me you merely looked at Alice and Rose and boarded the plane. I figured that was your way of telling me to stay the hell away from you, once again." He what? He went to the airport to make up with me? And there I was, thinking he wanted to make sure I understood we were nothing. If only I had stayed.

"I thought you wanted to tell me it was all over." I said, now looking at him.

"Of course I didn't, I wanted you with me more than anything." Was his response, and even as nice as this scenario looked I couldn't help but notice the use of the past tense, as in 'no more'. I wanted you…

He took a deep breath and released it before turning to look at me once more and squeezing my hands gently. "But… after you left, I was useless, all I could do was miss you, remember you. I felt so bad, but I was still happy, for you. Because, Bella, you have so much talent." He said with passion, and for the first time ever I believed him, anyone really, that I had talent. Because why else would they have wanted me here? Why else would I have trained with the juniors? I smiled as I realized this, I was good, maybe not the best, but good nonetheless. "Then I realized I was stupid for ever letting you go. I wanted to bring you back, but all I heard from Alice and Rose were good things about how you were doing, how much you had improved already. So I stopped myself from calling you, writing to you, anything. It was hell, really."

"Anyway, one day Alice came up to me and said she was going to visit you and she asked me if I wanted her to bring something to you." My breath caught in my throat. The letter! "But I lost my temper and yelled at Alice, I was trying to blame her, but if anyone is to blame here, it's me." He yelled at Alice? That must have been quite a scene.

"So I wrote the letter afterwards and send it with her, so I could get it out of my system." I dropped my gaze at the floor, where the letter rested. I smiled sadly at it. "And I realized then…the reason I missed you so much." He paused and released one of my hands, bringing his free hand up to my chin, Gently tilting my face up and in his direction. When he was done I was looking straight into his eyes, our faces not even a foot away.

"I love you Bella." He said before he shifted his hand so he was now cupping my cheek. "I truly do." He said while looking into my eyes. I felt elated to say the least, he loves me. Edward loves me!

"I love you too Edward." I whispered. I loved how his named rolled in my tongue and I loved how right it felt to say I love him. Edward smiled at me and leaned closer to me, pressing his lips to mine. I responded eagerly and brought my arms up around his neck, bringing him closer to me. He teased my bottom lip and I opened my mouth for him. We lost ourselves in the kiss, at some point he rested us on the bed so we were on our sides, still kissing. After what could have been hours of making out he parted slightly and planted a couple chaste kissed on my already swollen lips.

"Bella I need to ask you something." He said, never letting go of my waist. We were still laying on our sides.

"Mmhmm." Was all I could manage to say while I brought my head to his chest and laid it there.

"Would you like to be my girlfriend?" Edward asked softly. I disengaged my head from his chest and looked at him, straight in the eye, a smile on my face.

"I'd love to." I said right before he went crazy. Edward smiled my favorite crocked smile and I lost my breath.

"Thanks." He said before he began planting chaste kisses in my lips repeatedly. While mumbling 'I love you' every time his lips were apart from mine. I smiled and kissed him too before resting my head on his chest again. Sighing contently I allowed my mind to think of nothing but this moment. Edward lying here beside me, his amazing scent all around me, I returning from training, without having taken a bath. WHAT?!

I pushed Edward aside quickly as I rose from the bed. I turned to look at him and he looked surprised and hurt. "I need to take a bath." I explained and his expression returned to the usual cheerful one I love. I ran from side to side of my room, taking everything I needed on my way. I stopped for a quick peck and mumbled a 'just a sec' to Edward before I entered the bathroom and let the water run. I took a short but nice shower. After that I dressed myself, simple sweats and a tank top, besides we are only going to hang out here. I didn't even blow dried my hair as I always do, I was in a hurry to get to Edward as soon as possible. So I simply pulled it up in a messy bun and walked out of the bathroom.

Edward smiled once he noticed me and he literally gave me a once over, making me blush in the process.

"Hey there beautiful." He said and I blushed even further, throwing a sweater at him while giggling stupidly. It hit him straight on the face. "Is that what I get for saying the truth?" He asked me teasingly and I laughed. I sat on the bed beside him and he hugged me while I continued laughing. Suddenly my stomach growled and it was his turn to laugh. "So what do you do around here when you people are hungry." He asked me and I laughed . He rose from the bed and offered me his hand. I took it willingly and he yanked me up unexpectedly. I yelped at the sudden force and bumped into his chest lightly, he immediately brought his hands to my waist to steady me.

"We go to the cafeteria." I answered his previous question. He nodded and took a hold of one of my hands.

"Would you rather go out to a restaurant?" He asked me and I shook my head. He always insisted on paying and I didn't have a lot of money.

"No, the cafeteria is fine." I said and then I started walking towards the door.

"Is it okay if I go with you?" He asked me as I yanked the door open. I thought about it, I had taken Alice there pretty much everyday she stayed here, so bringing Edward shouldn't be a problem. Besides it would be a nice change for Matthew, he is always the only guy in the cafeteria since all the other guys live here in San Francisco, and therefore don't use dorms.

"Sure." I said as I walked out the door. I continued walking to the stairs but Edward stopped.

"Um…what is your friend doing outside your door…sleeping?" Edward asked me and I turned to look at the place he was watching. Matthew was seating against the wall by my door, his face peaceful from his sleeping. I frowned, what is he doing there?

"I have no idea." I said, trying to hold back my laughter. Edward watched me as I walked over to Matthew and leaned down. "Matthew." I whispered sweetly as I nudged his shoulder lightly. He woke up almost immediately.

"What-wh?-need-ea-eaves-dro-op." He said, still in his sleep and I chuckled lightly, he had been hearing my conversation with Edward.

"Matthew wake up, we are going to the cafeteria." I said and his eyes opened wider this time.

"What Cafeteria?" He asked , his voice heavy with sleep.

"The cafeteria, how many are there?" I asked him and he muttered something I couldn't catch before he brought himself up to his feet.

"Okay lets go." He said, stretching himself off. Edward was staring at both of us and Matthew laughed once he saw Edward's face, earning a blush from Edward.

"What did I miss?" I asked them both and Edward shook his head while Matthew laughed harder.

"Nothing" Edward said.

"We'll tell you later." Matthew said, nudging Edward's side. He laughed an awkward laugh and I looked at both of them, confused. Finally I shrugged, probably some stupid joke.

We walked down the stairs and into the cafeteria. It was merely ten o'clock, the cafeteria's busiest time. I entered first and then Edward, since he had a hold of my hand. Matthew was the last to enter and he did something that made Edward yelp. Every girl in the cafeteria turned to look at us then and I saw some eyes widen and some jaws drop at the sight of another boy here, especially Edward. They scrutinized his face and then most gazes focused on our hands, firmly clasped together. I saw jealousy, and even anger flash through some eyes and I felt myself blush at the attention we had attracted.

"I'm starving." Matthew said, not having noticed any of the attention we received and therefore effectively ending the girl's stare-a-ton. I walked along with Edward, he was clearly uncomfortable, as was I.

"Want corn flakes?" Matthew asked, opening and closing cabinets in his quest for the cereal.

"I'll get a sandwich." I said, as I took the bread out and opened the fridge for all the other ingredients. Once I had them out I turned to look at Edward. He kept glancing at the tables in which everyone sat, I bet he feels all the eyes on him. I smiled to myself. He is perfect and he is my boyfriend.

"What do you want." I said cockily. Edward smiled and I did too, after watching a few jaws drop at my tone.

"I'll have whatever you have." He said in his own cocky tone. I smiled and nodded.

"Sandwich it is." I said as I took four bread slices out of the bag. I asked Edward what he wanted his with and he offered to make his own sandwich. So after we had both finished we walked with our plates and glasses to the place Matthew was sitting, already devouring his cereal. I sat there and Edward took a seat by my side, immediately taking a hold of my left hand with his right, therefore struggling to maneuver his sandwich with his left one. I laughed at Edward's pathetic attempt to become a leftie and he glared at me playfully.

After we were done eating we simply set our plates aside and continued talking while girls left the cafeteria.

I was laughing hysterically with tears streaming down my eyes and all. I couldn't stop, it was the single most hilarious thing of all times.

"I can't believe you thought Matthew was gay!" I said and Edward just stared at me sheepishly.

"He e-even ask-ed me n-not to rap-e him." Matthew said, causing another round of laughter for the two of us. I managed to stop laughing and looked at Edward, he still looked sheepish. I smiled and looked at him.

"Oh come on, you know it was funny." I said, giving him my best pout. He smiled.

"I guess it was." He allowed and I chuckled lightly. Edward brought my back to his chest and squeezed me, bringing his lips down to my ear and saying "But I was scared to death." I laughed at him after he said that, turning to look at him and smiling, he looked back at me and smiled too, looking directly into my eyes.

Matthew stopped laughing and cleaned a tear that had escaped his eye. He looked at us and smiled.

"I guess I'll leave you alone." He said as he subtly left the table and took all our plates on his way. I kept smiling at Edward and he kept smiling back. After a few moments we heard Matthew leave the room and it was now empty.

"It's late." Edward said and I glanced at the clock, it was past midnight.

"Yeah It is." I said as he let me go and made us stand up. We walked outside of the cafeteria, hand in hand and I saw Edward turn in the direction of the exit. I yanked him and laughed. "The stairs are this way." I said, gesturing to the other side.

"I know, but my hotel is that way." He said, gesturing to the exit as I had done with the stairs.

"Do you have to leave?" I asked, pouting.

"You need to sleep." He said.

"But I don't want you to leave." I whined, just like a five-year-old would have. Edward chuckled.

"What other option is there?" He asked rhetorically.

"Stay." I answered nonetheless.

"Where?"

"Here" I said.

"Is that okay with you?" He asked and I nodded already taking a hold of his hand and walking to the stairs.

"It's perfectly fine with me." I said, I have no idea if this is permitted, but I had spent nights at Matthew's room, simply chatting and laughing and no one had said a thing.

"Okay." He said as we walked to my room. I slid the card and entered with him on tower. We walked to the bed and I turned to look at Edward, noticing what he was wearing for the first time. He had a much too long shirt and longer jeans. I guess Matthew lend him some clothes.

"Hmm. I think I have some extra pajama pants." I said as I opened a drawer and looked for the pants I had bought for my dad, he was in serious need of new pajamas.

"Gee! With cute bunnies and all?" He asked sarcastically and I laughed.

"Sorry no cute bunnies, those are mine, but yours have blue bubbles." I said as I finally yanked the pants from the drawer, showing them to Edward he smiled and nodded.

"Yay! Blue bubbles, although I really wanted those bunnies." He said, pretending to pout. I laughed and kissed his pout quickly.

"Sorry but the bunnies are mine" I said as I showed him the pajamas I had in my hands. He laughed and nodded. I handed him a souvenir t-shirt and I stepped into the bathroom to change.

After we were both changed into our pajamas and washed our teeth. Me giving him a new toothbrush. We were ready for bed. Edward laid on the bed as did I and he hugged me, I smiled and buried my face in his chest as he brought the blankets up to cover us.

I sighed contently and he kissed the top of my head.

"I love you." He said.

"I love you, too" I said quietly, right before I drifted to sleep, the best one I had had in months.

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