Author's Note – This extra is something I wrote on a whim, when someone I love and trust wholeheartedly is leaving me very soon. Feeling torn in two, vulnerable and open – have you ever felt like this? Will you relate with it?

Long after Miki Kiyora had left his life, and he resolved to turn it around; Edward by chance one day stumbles upon an old letter in a draw that he never looked into. He gulped as he recognised the handwriting, and quickly stood up from his desk to lock the door before he read it.

After locking the door, he sat down, and began to read…

I wanted to believe in you. In us. How you made me laugh, and I made you laugh with me. How you opened up to me, and so did I. How we shared our hopes and dreams out in the open, unafraid of what would come next.

I had thought you were the only one for me. When we had met, you had intrigued me beyond belief, and as I got to know you more; soon enough it was I who would never let go.

Why are you like this? Why do I love you so much that it makes me cry to see you with another, when you don't give me the same attention that you used to – it hurts. It hurts so bad.

But it's nothing close to how it hurts when I don't see you. You invade my mind, and I yearn to go back. To the time when it was all about us.

I can take the fact that your work is important. I can take the fact that you aren't the perfect human being that I pictured myself with, but you are to me.

I had always thought of us as nothing but the best miracle in my life. And I knew you thought of me like that too. You always mentioned how it was difficult to readjust when I wasn't around, smiled as you told others that I would always take care of you… and I… I took that for granted.

So granted in fact, that when I realised it… it was far too late. I couldn't step back from what I had become so accustomed to.

As you moved on… it was only I, I who kept believing in the dreams that would never be realised again.

I kept dreaming. And I paid the price.

But I will always remember your touch. Your words. Your eyes that moved me to act the way I did. Your heart. Your soul. The personality that I could never fully grasp, but at the same time always kept me entertained.

As at day 1, I had loved you. Loved you for everything that you were, and everything that you weren't. You drove me up the wall at times, but I knew it deep inside.

No matter what, I will always stand by you.

With as much of my love as I can send to you,

xxx

Kiyora Miki

He sat there for moments, in utter disbelief.

She wrote this just before she left me. And left it here.

How long haven't I seen this?

He turned around to face the picture he had continued to keep with him. The only one that showed proof of his and Miki Kiyora's relationship.

Miki… where are you… and can you… can you ever forgive me?