Her Secret
Thank you to all the lovely people who have been reading this! The bits in italics are flashbacks.
Chapter 25
The waiting, this was the part which Jay hated more than anything. Every time the doors to the theatre opened he couldn't help but look pleadingly at the person leaving with a pleading look on his face, still no answers. He was so angry with her, he know this was wrong but what had she been thinking refusing treatment? That is almost as ironic as a smoking doctor.
Jay tried to relive each moment in his mind form a few hours ago until now...
'RUTH! RUTH! RUTH! WAKE UP!'
'Someone page Mr Jordan and Dr Trueman, Jay wait outside with Liam!' Zoe had instructed him firmly
'No, I can help, I have to do something'
'Go now, for Liam's sake, he doesn't need to see this'
The time Jay spent looking through the glass of the Resus door felt like hours, no matter how hard his colleagues worked, Ruth wouldn't walk up. Typical Ruth always stubborn, doing the opposite of what everybody wanted of her.
Jay could see the painstaking look on Liam's face, each treatment was hurting him more and more. Every time a syringe or BP monitor went near her he flinched.
'Hey mate, you're looking tired, why don't I get my Nan to take you home?' Jay tried to seem as chipper and happy as possible, he used to do this as a child and he hoped that Liam bought it.
'I want to stay here, I want to see what's going to happen to Ruth'
'OK, if that's what you want'
The pair stood in silence watching every move of the ED team, Liam's eye's grew more heavy and he was practically sleeping on his feet.
'Come on' Jay took Liam into the staff room and settled him on the soft and waited for him to fall asleep
'You know, you are so like your mum! I know I haven't been around for long but I promise you whatever happens, I won't leave you. Your mum would kill me!'Jay gave a light chuckle to himself and walked towards the door of the staffroom and got out his phone.
'Hello Nan, its Jay, I need a favour'
'Yeah, OK when you get here just ask for me and someone will come and get me'
Another 30 minutes, still no news. Many of the ED staff had came to check on him, Tess had tried to make him go home, Charlie had brought his a coffee and Big Mac and Noel tried to make the time pass faster but he wasn't interested.
'Nan, thanks for coming. I know I didn't stay too much on the phone but...' She cut him off and gave him her signature look
'Jamshid, when were you planning on telling me you were home?'
'I know I should have but I've had a lot going on, Ruth is pregnant and is now lying in a hospital bed so if I'm honest Nan can I have the lecture later?'
'Don't you take that tone with me young man because you are not too old for a clip round the ear'
'Nan, this is serious, I need your help. I don't know what to do, My.. well I don't know what we are yet is having my baby and she is lying in a hospital bed and I have no idea what is wrong with her.' Tears emerged in Jay's eyes, he needed the wise old woman to tell him what to do as she had been doing all his life
'Oh come here my boy' His Nan wrapped her arms around the young nurse 'What do you need me to do?'
'Take Ruth's son home, he is in the staff room, sleeping. I'll explain everything to you later' He managed to pull a smile from somewhere within to reassure his Nan
'OK, your sister is outside in the car, I'll get her to drop us off at home. You better come and see me as soon as you can we have a lot to discuss, you and Ruth. I want to meet the mother of my great-grandchild'
With Liam gone Jay was now waiting alone, outside the ED where his Nan had left him, for news, of any sort, he hated not knowing what was going on. All he wanted was to wake up and be back to 4 months ago before he and Ruth broke up. He would have stopped her, made her trust him. Not run half way around the world to go on a jolly with Kelsey. He had, had enough wait he wanted to know what was going on, he had to go back into Resus.
'Noel, where had Ruth gone? She was here a few minutes ago' Panic was in his voice
'I've got no idea mate, sorry'
'WHAT DO YOU MEAN? SHE DIDN'T JUST WALK OUT OF HERE, SHE WAS ON CONSCIOUS' He couldn't control his temper anymore, he couldn't cope if anything happened to her or the baby
'Jay, take it easy, I'll find Dr Hanna'
'YEAH YOU DO THAT' He knew this wasn't Noel's fault but he had to do something, blame someone
'Jay, Ruth has been taken to theatre, she has intracranial pressure. We have hopefully caught it on time. They are going to relieve the pressure by operating. Nick has went with them'
'Why didn't anyone come and get me? Will she be ok?'
'We tried no one could find you, the surgeons are hopeful that they can rectify the problem' Zoe really didn't know how to act towards Jay, any other relatives she was fine, but these were her colleagues, her friends.
'And the baby'
'Maternity are on standby, stop torturing yourself there is nothing which could be done to stop this happening'
'It would have been spotted sooner if she had the scan though, wouldn't it?'
'Jay why don't you go and get some sleep in the on call room? You must be tired'
'I'm going to head up to Neuro and wait for her to come out of theatre, I won't sleep until I know she is ok' With that Jay wandered off towards the lift, noticing how his last two questions were ignored.
This was how he found himself counting the seconds pass as he waited for any news.
Another face emerged from the theatre, this time it was an unexpected one. Nick Jordan emerged with a solemn look upon his face, this was it, Jay knew it. He had the awful thought that his world was about to be shattered.
'How is she?' Tears once again started to stream down Jay's face before he was told anything, he assumed it was bad news, it always was where he was concerned.
'You can breath now, she is a fighter, they are moving her to ITU but it looks positive' Nick's face broke out in a smile as he saw the relief on Jay's face
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PS. My medical knowledge limited to what I have picked up at my Saturday job so some of what I have said could be utter nonsense haha