I will get over you!

Shannon had fallen asleep pretty much straight after we had sex, typical! I was lying there, staring to the ceiling. For some reason i just couldn't sleep. Even though i had stayed here in the past, i just couldn't drift off. As i was lying there, blankly,
i started hearing a loud banging coming from above, shortly followed by loud female moans. At first i thought Matt and Reby, but then i heard Beth scream Jeff's name. A huge part of me wanted to scream and cry, but there was also a huge part of me
that wanted to forget him. It felt like they were having sex for hours before they finally stopped. Now there was no chance of me sleeping, so i went into the kitchen and poured myself a drink, a strong one! It was then that i decided, i will get
over him. I was fed up of being the one who got hurt and the one who always had her heartbroken. I didn't understand how he could go on as if nothing had happened the night before. From tonight, mine and Jeff's relationship would be business only.
I'll be civil with him if i saw him out and about, but we will no longer be friends.

Finally 8am came around. I was still sat up wrapped in the duvet, staring blankly into space. Jeff was the first one downstairs. "morning Lex. Did you sleep well?" i didn't even turn to look at him "haven't slept. I'm going home soon. Just waiting for
Shannon to wake up" i got no reply, well not until a few minutes later when he placed my clothes next to me "you'll need these if you're leaving. Is everything ok?" i let out a cocky laugh and continue to stare into space "i'm fine. Can you leave
the room please? I want to get dressed" the second i heard the door shut, i quickly clothed myself and gently shook Shannon. He looked at me with tired eyes before smiling "i'm leaving now. Get my number off Jeff so we can keep in touch" pressing
my lips against his, i leave him with a soft kiss before walking out the house.

It had been a week since Jeff's BBQ and we were both due in work. I was going to be at ringside while Jeff had a match against Moose, then i had a match against Jade. I had walked straight in and into the female locker room to get ready. Once i was in
my ring side gear tight black hot pants and a ripped black crop top and my knee high boots, i made my way to the entrance. Jeff turned up a few minutes later and looked to me confused "no face paint today?" i glanced over to him and laughed "that's
your thing, not mine." my gaze turned from him back to the space in front of me. I felt his hand on my shoulder "is everything ok Lex?" shrugging his hand away, i turn back to face him "it's Lexi or Alexis, only my friends can call me Lex. We will
have a professionalrelationship from now on. I need to get over you. Hearing you and Beth the other night confirmed it all for me" his face dropped hearing my words, but before he could say anything his music started to play.

It felt like i was stood at ring side for days. Time seemed to stand still. When the bell rang, i had never been so relieved. Jeff had won his match and now i had to get in the ring and celebrate with him. I done my job. Held up his hand and gave him
a hug. While we were mid hug he leans in towards my ear "i'm sorry you had to hear that. Please don't give up on us" i let out a laugh and shook my head "it's too late for that now" pulling away, i throw the guns and begin to make my way back up the
ramp, Jeff following behind. The second we were behind the curtain, i felt his tight grip on my arm as he pulled me to face him "i thought you were all asleep, i'm sorry. If i don't carry on as normal, Beth would have been hurt again. I need our friendship,
Lex" pulling my hand from his grip i start to walk off "i had sex with Shannon the other night round yours. I'm going to see where things go. I need to get over you!" i knew my words would hurt him, but i needed to say something to put him off persuing
me.

The second my match was over, i made my way to the locker room to grab my things. Then it was back to the hotel for the night. I know casting Jeff aside how i did was wrong. But what he was capable of was worse. My heart ached after everything that had
happened. It needed time to heal. For the next several months things between me and Jeff were rough. I still hung out with Reby and Beth, but i would only talk to Jeff when i needed to put on a front. No one suspected anything, because i had adapted
to being a broken woman. Every weekend i would go out and find a different guy to take home and sleep with. I was trying to heal a broken heart and a hole i had inside me. The friendship me and Jeff had was one of the best. But after everything that
happened, i just couldn't look at him the same. Every time i saw him my heart broke a little more, until the day it couldn't break any more. I became a cold, distant human being. I drink heavily every weekend and find new conquests. Jeff had stayed
clear from me for the last few weeks. Him and Beth seemed happy and that was all i ever wanted. Getting their happiness has caused my insanity. Maybe one day i'll be myself again. But for now, i am broken. I am a shell of the person i used to be,
with a heart of stone and a body full of alcohol.

Team xtreme was still going strong and the fans knew nothing of what was going on behind closed doors. I had become the master of disguise through the events that happened. I could easily put on and remove the mask when needed. I was going to need my
mask more than ever next week. We had a work party coming up and a signing. Just my luck team xtreme were the headline for the signing.