I'm sorry to those that expect smut. I do not write smutty stuff only fluffy. (Long chapter fyi)

Rey's POV:

"Don't come any closer."

He immediately dropped his hands that were outstretched to hug me.

"I only came back because I had to."

His face got serious. "Of course."

"I'm staying on one condition. Don't lie to me."

Ben smiled. "Alright."

I was afraid to get close again for some reason but I still did.

I reached out my hand and he grabbed it, walking with me inside.

He always had a blank face when he stared ahead.

"Listen, when the plan went down, I wasn't being controlled by the Dark Side. I regret letting it happen to you. I don't think I have it all down," he looked down at me, "but I'm getting there."

My heart warmed at his words. Except my feelings were interrupted when we passed his room.

"What're we doing?"

"I'm just taking you back to your room."

I looked down.

"Expecting something else?" I peered up at him and he was giving that smirk again.

"No, you idiot."

I pouted as my cheeks turned pink.

I went back to my room and stayed there for a a few hours. The Bond was open to both of us once again. It was hard to believe he was being honest earlier. For some stupid reason, I kept running back to him. I could've stayed at D'Qar forever yet I still
/had this urgent want to see him again.

Want. I don't need him. That's exactly what he told me that time when... That time. That time he was still my Ben.

I perked up.Ben!

After that day, he wouldn't even look at me. He never mentioned training to me. I tried to reach out to him with the Force but he'd never respond. It was like this for a few days.

I didn't want to be here if this is how we were going to be. We shared a connection and feelings. He admitted he loved me and I never said it back. I think I took more from him than he did from me. I don't know how many stupid moments I'll have.

I ran down the hall to his room and knocked on the door quickly.

Ben opened it and he was shirtless. I looked away, flustered.

"What is it?"

"I need to talk to you."

He let me in and shut the door behind me.

"I'm sorry for acting so rudely to you when you came back."

My head was bowed down.

"I understand." No, please don't be like this.

"Ben..." This is the first time he's been talking to me in days and that's all he has to say?

He walked past me.

"You know what I saw when I was on D'qar? I saw you happy and smiling and laughing. And I realized I could never make you do that without being in fear of something."

I took a step forward then stopped when he turned around.

He looked like he was ready to cry. I was trying to think of something to say as he walked up to me, grabbing my hands and holding them tightly. His dark eyes were holding onto my gaze.

"I want to be the one who makes you happy, now and forever."

I was shocked by his sudden words filled with compassion. Tears came to my eyes.

He brought one of my hands up to his cheek.

"I'm in love with you and it's driving me crazy."

"Ben..."

He wiped away a tear that fled down my cheek before leaning down to kiss me slowly.

He barely pulled away to breath.

Ben looked into my eyes and I realized I did feel it too. The boy I fell in love with at the Jedi academy is the man I'm in love with right now.

I giggled with more tears streaming down my cheeks.

"What? What's wrong?"

I shook my head. "I love you too."

Who knew the Scavenger would fall in love with the Prince?

He kissed me so slowly causing everything afterwards to be done just as slowly.

I was trying to grab something for support but all I got was air. He took a few steps backward, pulling me forward until he stopped to sit on the bed.

I was pulled into his lap as he began kissing under my ear.

"I was going to take a shower," he whispered.

I sighed in delight. This time was so different from last time. There was a hidden passion he was now unleashing. He moved differently as well but was still gentle.

"We'll take one later," I whispered back.

He pulled me into another passionate kiss. It was very longing, it made my heart ache.

I looked into his eyes before I took off my undershirt, exposing my bare skin to his. He began kissing a straight line down my neck to my chest.

I could feel he was tired of being scared. He lived so long cowering in the darkness, I never thought I'd be the one to pull him to the light. He's right. I don't need him. But he needs someone to show him the way.

He pulled me closer just to turn around so I was laying on the bed.

Ben pressed his body against mine. His hands were holding me tightly as if I'd disappear. I had a hand on his back and one running through his hair.

I knew he'd never go back if I had anything to say about it.

Ben's POV:

Her eyes were closed but she wasn't sleeping, not yet anyway.

I was propped up by an elbow, watching her.

"Rey?"

She took a moment to respond.

"Hm?"

I picked up her hand and kissed her wrist lightly. "I love you."

I saw a smile creep on her face as she opened one eye. "I know."

She scooted closer to me. I pet her wet hair away from her face and leaned down to kiss her forehead. I'm surprised she fell asleep before me.

I pulled her into my arms, cradling her against my chest.

My heart was so light. After all we've been through and we still find our way back to each other. My demons hide when she is around. Everything that keeps me up at night is gone. She really is stronger than she knows. I wish I could stay like this
/forever, with her in my arms, no First Order, no Resistance.

I should marry her.

Rey was still asleep when I woke up. Usually she is up before I am.

It was already really late, I'm sure Hux was going to scold me, like he does when I sleep in.

Rey, however does not have an excuse.

She was laying on my chest. Her cheek was pressed into me and her arms were pulled in close to her body.

I rubbed her back.

"Rey?"

I waited a couple seconds.

"Rey, wake up."

"Hm.."

Her response was so light, I barely caught it.

"We have to get up."

"No..."

"Yes."

She lifted her head and yawned.

"C'mon."

She rolled off me just to throw herself onto a pillow and cuddle it.

I went into the 'fresher and started getting ready. I was about to put my shirt on when I saw my back.

Red lineswere traced from my shoulders down like a pattern. Oh yeah. Rey dug her nails into my back and dragged them down.

Rey sat up in bed, holding a sheet up to her chest.

"I didn't mean to do that."

I looked over at her and put my shirt on.

"Well you did."

She had a wicked smile. I walked over to her and sat on the bed. "I know you liked it though. The way you moaned-"

"Okay! We don't have to discuss it."

She laughed. "Sorry. Look can I just stay in bed today?I don't want to train."

If I didn't train her, Snoke would get pissed. But I told Rey I didn't care anymore and I don't. I should prove that to her.

I wish we could go to an unknown outer rim planet and just live there together.

"Alright. I'll be out for a bit."

"Okay."

I gave her a quick kiss before leaving.

I stood there as Hux yelled at me. I barely heard what he said. All I could think about was Rey.

Hux suddenly brought up something that caught my attention.

"...and besides your weakness, you're barely even functioning. We either need to dispose of you or the girl. Just because you two are lovers doesn't change who you are, Ren."

Lovers? I never thought of her as my lover,I I suppose she is.

That word echoed in my head and affected me for some reason.

I'd never made love with anyone except Rey.

"Are you even listening?!"

I looked up at Hux. "Huh? Oh no, not really."

I didn't know how Hux knew. Maybe the way I looked at her or my body language. Whatever.

I came back to my room hours later and Rey was still asleep. She hasn't gotten up all day?