Chapter 25-We'll Meet Again Someday.
Delicate water of tears lied behind her eyes when she broke the brink of silence letting out the truth. "Idaho, Boise Idaho"
Truly she didn't want to do it, definitely not this way. Torrie had carefully planned it all out in her mind, how she was going to break it gently to John. She had mapped everything out carefully.
Deep down, Torrie knew this day would come. She and John would be standing one by one with the future in their hands, so many dreams. So many plans. Sooner than life turns around, she knew this day would come.
After all these years, Torrie knew and expected. There would be laughter, also tears. She never thought she would walk away with so much joy but so much pain. She had expected to feel all that kind of emotion as they parted.
It is so hard to say goodbye. Cruel sense of reality, doing the right thing. Torrie believed it was for the best. But of course, fate decided to step in. story of her life, how The blonde views it. Something dramatic happens, and she had to lie.
So once again, the friendship link to John was suddenly harbouring a secret. Torrie had to say goodbye, with more lies and secrets hanging above her head. God heaven knows if after they depart tonight, would it be changed forever?
Would Torrie lose John for good? Would the secret be the last strike? What does lie ahead on the open road, what will the light of the shadows bring?
One thing Torrie didn't want, was to lose John. He's been such a big part of her life, special to say the least. The most adoring, lovable and dependable friend she ever come to know. To have him not in her life anymore, would be one of the most horrific things to happen in her life.
The pink cell phone slipped from her ear, into her lap. Torrie sat down on the edge of her bed, touching her phone gently. She didn't want it to be like this, the only reason why Torrie planned it to very detail. In her mind, she had made a mental list how she wanted it to play out, like verses of a melody song.
She would return from the store, after making the hard decision. Torrie would make sure the last few hours she had with John, would be exactly like old times. Happy times, no drama. Just her and John, having a fun time together. Then she would tell him the news, sure it may not run smoothly but she wouldn't have to resort to lies and secrets.
One way or another, the goodbye would take place…..Torrie could only hope, at the end of the story, she would still have John someday. He wouldn't just become a distant memory and in the end, Fade away.
Thinking alone with her thoughts, Torrie remained sitting on the bed. Her mascara, fanned out lashes flicked up to the ceiling, before lowering underneath her eyes. Taking in a soft breath, trying to keep it all together, so John doesn't get suspicious.
She needed John to believe, everything was perfect and she would be joining him tonight and not leaving to go back home. Home where the heart is, that's where Torrie was heading, back to her childhood home. Boise Idaho.
Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining, as the term goes. One thing, Torrie could concentrate, is she was leaving Houston for a while. In a few hours, she would be flying back to Idaho to spend time with her family. She was able to escape Houston, she loved the place, it was a home to her. Lovely friends, but so many memories that the blonde wanted to forget.
Happy memories, she had shared with Nick Mitchell were shadowed with lies so the silver lining of this whole nightmare, was Torrie was able to spend some quality time with her family, and leave her past behind her.
The door of relationship lying in Houston would be closed tonight, Torrie couldn't be happier. She couldn't wait to go home, Torrie could be alone with her thoughts, most of all. Torrie can prove to herself, she can be strong, handle and make it through without running to John.
Once again, when she is comfortable and believe in herself. She can have John as her friend again, not a bodyguard.
"Darling, You know you can come here anytime you like, I can't wait to see you. You're brothers will be here too" Lana Wilson spoke to her daughter.
Torrie let a gentle smile on her face. "Thanks Moma, it will be late so I will book a room at a hotel and I'll…"
"No you will not, When you land. I'll get Travis to pick you up" Lana spoke in the phone.
Torrie smiled on "Thanks, I can't wait to see you."
"Neither can I, just curious. Why have you suddenly scheduled a visit?"
Torrie rubbed the back of her neck softly with her fingertips. "Just needed a break"
"Are you sure you're alright, honey?" Lana asked her daughter on the phone.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Just wanted to see you and the family"
"I'll have some homemade potatoes already cut up, waiting for you"
"Aww thanks, Moma. See you soon, cannot wait. I better go and get packing, bye" Torrie quickly ended the phone call when she heard John's voice.
John knocked on the door, Torrie shot up from her bed. She quickly ended the call and put her plane ticket in her beige handbag. Torrie brushed down her outfit, she had changed out of her summer dress into blue dark bootleg jeans, with a black ¾ sleeve sweater top with diamante buttons, with her black dolly shoes.
"Torrie"
Torrie brushed her hair back before she answered. "Yeah it's okay, come in" John opened the door, and stared right at the honey blonde.
"Everything okay? You've been up here two hours?"
Torrie put her hands on her hips, glancing down at the black suitcase lying on her bed. "2 hours? It's been two hours?" Torrie asked, in sudden shock.
John nodded "Yeah,"
"Oh god," Torrie knew that time would fly but she didn't think it would have gone that fast. Hearing two hours have already passed, The worry started to rise in her eyes and she had to try very hard to keep it all together, act like everything is normal.
Time was going to fly, she had a feeling. Torrie wouldn't be able to tell John everything she wanted to tell him but she had to give it a try. Torrie had to do what she's always lived her life by, take what you can and make the best of it.
"2 hours have already passed?" Torrie asked, in a quicker tone.
John nodded, a little curious why Torrie looked a little worked up. "Yes, everything all right?"
"Yeah, yeah fine. Just been…." Torrie trailed off, with her eyes fixed on the clock. Time was flying up, she was currently running out of time.
"Packing" John added, with a small grin.
Torrie breathed in softly, putting on a smile. "Yes, packing. That's what I've been doing. Exactly like that, packing" Torrie started to repeat herself.
John stepped closed, touching Torrie's hand. "Tor, are you okay?"
Torrie kept her eyes away from his friendly blue eyes, then she would be in more trouble, dealing with even more emotion. One look, that would be it. The truth was start slipping through her lips.
"Yeah….I'm fine, just deciding what to take and what…." Torrie's lashes looked up, saw the light of the ocean lying in John's eyes. "What…not to take" she added.
That moment, while she stared at John. Torrie wanted to take John with her, she wanted to so badly, to leave everything how it is.
"Well do you want to help you?" John asked.
His question made Torrie's gaze turn from John, to her bed. "Oh no, it's fine. I'm almost through. Almost there" Torrie's words had another meaning, the time was ticking she couldn't keep running what's coming.
She had to keep herself strong, and not cave in to fear of failure.
"Oh god, the dogs. I've got to go and see Honey" Torrie made her way to the door.
"I was going to say, why not bring them with you?"
Torrie turned from the door back to John. "Sorry?"
"Well I know you have a very special bond with them, and I wouldn't want you to come with me without them. It'll be fine"
"No, no it's okay. Honey will have them"
"Tor, I don't mind"
Torrie brushed her fingertips through her the top of her golden hair before she nervously answered. "No it's alright, they would be a handful. They love Honey so….it's not like I'm putting them in a kennel or anything…" Torrie kept speaking a little faster.
"Okay, well bring Chloe with you. She used to love travelling"
Torrie dryly coughed. "No, Pepper and Stewie love Chloe, they'll be upset if she's…not there…"
"Strange, didn't look that way to me"
Torrie needed to end this subject quick and fast, quite frankly she didn't know how much more lies she can tell before it makes her cry. Torrie was quickly running out of excuses.
"No It's fine, Honey is back from…her sisters…so I'll just go and see her. Be back as soon as I can" Torrie spoke.
John put his large hands on his hips, standing in Torrie's bedroom. He shook his head, with a dimpled grin across his face. The fast, organising Torrie Wilson was definitely something he was used too.
He remembered as the time dawns, on the wwe schedule she was the same. Even if there was hours left, Torrie was always running around like a headless chicken, not stopping to even take another breath getting her belongings together.
"Now that's the Torrie Wilson I'm used too, glad she's decided to show up" John spoke with a handsome grin spreading across his face.
Torrie stopped near the centre of the door, when she heard his deep voice.
"Used to be exactly like that before, it's going to be great" John told happily.
Torrie briefly let her eyes close, taking in a gentle breath telling herself to keep strong.
She turned back to look at John. "Yeah…it will be" a flash of a smile, she left through the door, made her way downstairs before John could say another word.
John stepped closer to Torrie's bed, he saw clothes folded in files. John grabbed them, and put them neatly in the suitcase. He thought he was being helpful, truly he was but he had no idea what was lying in her open zipped bag.
John picked up the clothes, and put the final pile in the suitcase. As he moved, the case. Torrie's beige handbag fell on the floor. Her purse, cell phone, ipod, make up accessories all fell out onto the floor.
"Oh damn it" John knelt down, he picked up her bag and placed everything back in the handbag.
John zipped up the bag, placed it back on the bed. He put a step forward, his foot stepped on a envelope. John knelt back down, and picked up the white envelope.
John saw it was a plane ticket, he opened it up to make sure she had got all the right information. But what John found, shocked him to his very core.
John's grin slowly faded, his head lowered down when he read, the printed text.
From-Houston Texas
To-….Boise Idaho.
He stood there in shock, before he softly sighed to himself. Torrie's words went through his mind. Once again, they were lies. She wasn't joining him tonight, she wasn't coming on the road, to be with him like old times.
Torrie was tricking him, not being straight with John.
John continued to read the destinations, it was a real plane ticket. Had the seat number, had the airports locations had the times, Everything was legit, it was all real.
He felt something else in the white envelope, he saw Torrie's passport with the documents. She was leaving tonight, as he thought but she wasn't leaving with him.
John's eyes lowered down, to the plane ticket that lied in his hand. He let a soft breath through his lips reading the ticket, the upset started to show across his face. He didn't understand it, why would Torrie say that to him? Then book a ticket? What in the hell was going on?
John had so many questions, but the answers wouldn't follow. One thing he did know….
Once again, Cena knew it.
Not only has he been lied to, he's also been tricked.
John looked up at the ceiling, with emotion started to show in his eyes. He had come to the conclusion, Torrie didn't want or need him to stay.
…..
"I can't explain now, but please can you look after Chloe, Stewie and Pepper?" Torrie asked Honey.
"Umm….sure, what's going on Tor?"
"I just can't explain right now, thanks Honey. You're a great friend thank you" Torrie gave a kiss to the puppies before putting them on the floor. She quickly hugged Honey before she literally ran out of the house.
"Torrie,"
"Honey, I will explain later on. I promise I just have to get out of here" Torrie turned on her heel, as soon as she turned. The windy breeze blew her golden locks off her shoulders.
Torrie walked back to her house, stepping on the concrete steps leading to her front door. Suddenly her legs lost feeling, Torrie's hand gripped around the railing as she fell down in a heap on the steps.
Torrie put her hand around her mouth, the tears started to surface in her eyes until she started to softly cry. She had tried so hard to be strong, keep it all together but at the same time, it was so hard to say goodbye. So exhausting, she was using all the strength she could to keep everything normal and not let John know anything.
Torrie brushed her fingertips under her eyes, to swoop the tears away. Torrie stood back up, bracing in another breath. One more thing she had to do….
Say a single, simple but devastating word.
Goodbye.
….
Torrie opened the front door, she made her way upstairs. "Right that's the kid's sorted" Torrie opened the bedroom door, and found nothing but a suitcase on the bed.
Torrie's eyes gazed around the surroundings of her bedroom. "John?" Torrie called.
"John? Where are you?" Torrie started to get worried, John was gone. How the hell can she leave when John is not here.
Torrie looked around, brushing her hair with her fingers. An act of nerves. "John" her eyes noticed a white evelope on the edge of the bed.
"Oh…." Torrie walked closer, she saw the envelope was still sealed. So it didn't look to her that John had seen the ticket.
"Oh thank god" she put the evelope in her handbag.
"John," Torrie kept calling.
He walked behind her. "Yeah"
Torrie felt a flutter of relief when she heard his voice, it told her. John was still with her. "Oh there you are" Torrie turned her body to face John.
"Yeah, I'm still here" John spoke.
Torrie smiled at him "You did my case, thank you. That gives me a moment to breathe" Torrie gave her pearly white smile to John.
All he did in return, is plaster a grin across his to hide the emotion he truly felt.
Torrie tucked a few of strands behind her ear, She opened up her handbag to check she had everything. "Right…" she opened up the evelope lying in her bag. She saw her passport, all the documents she needed but she couldn't find her plane ticket.
John stood there watching Torrie searching through her handbag. He held the ticket behind his back. "Lost something?"
"No, no…just checking I have everything" Torrie kept on searching. If John wasn't standing here, she would tip her bag onto the bed and search high and low right now.
"You sure?"
Torrie used both of her hands to let her fingers through her blonde hair. "Yeah…it's fine….you know me, I like to be organised…" John could see the tense look written across Torrie's face. He could tell, she was worrying about what he held behind his back.
"You lost something?" John repeated, slowly removing his hand.
Torrie mumbling to herself. "What the hell?"
"Looking for this?"
Torrie's hands stopped searching suddenly, hearing what John had said. Torrie gulped down before her head perked up to look at John. She watched him remove his hand from the back, holding the object. Torrie had been looking for.
Torrie stopped all movement, taking a moment to stop and stare at John. Her plane ticket was lying in his hand. John had found it, her plan once again had fallen apart.
Torrie took in another second to breathe, her head lifted so her eyes would gaze at John. She could see the disappointed, frustrated and upset look spread across his face.
There was no smile, no cute little dimples in his cheeks.
His ocean blue eyes weren't friendly, but there wasn't any ice cold shade lying in his eyes. All Torrie could see from his expression, she knew he was hurt by her actions.
"Where did you?"
"So I'm a little confused, I was hoping you could explain to me…." John said.
Torrie gulped the lump building in her throat. "Ummm…" her words came in a soft tone, everything she had planned. All the words she would say….had just gone up in smoke.
Torrie didn't know what to say after John's discovery.
"You said to me, you were joining me on to RAW…but RAW this week is not…In Idaho so why do you have a ticket to Idaho?" John asked, with confusion.
Torrie could feel the water of the tears pricking in her eyes. Her lips slowly slid apart trying to think of something to say. "Umm, well…you see it's my mum's birthday in a few weeks…so I thought I would go straight to there from…wherever we are….so I decided to book a ticket….since I did the other one" Torrie's fingers were in her hair.
Every time she was nervous, her fingertips brushed through her golden blonde hair.
"So where is the other one?" John questioned.
Torrie stared at John, speechless.
John glanced at Torrie, keeping his eyes fixed on her. He kept holding the ticket eying the blonde. "You know what hurts the most, right now. The fact this has today's date on it and you just lied to me again"
The worry rose in Torrie's eyes. "I…."
"For the record…..If you're going to keep lying to me, think of better lies"
Torrie's head lowered down to the carpet. "John…" she tried to say.
"For example, could have said you're going to Idaho tonight and joining me in a few days, you know something believable. Or here's a kicker. Surprised even me. You could have just told me that you wanted to go to Idaho…to spend time with your family after everything that's happened, I would have understood. Hell I would have said it was better for you" John explained.
Torrie glanced at John, folding her arms so her hands wouldn't lean on both of her elbows. "Ummm…John….I can explain" her eyelashes lowered down with a soft tone.
John glanced at Torrie. Stopping all movement, before his head shook. "but instead….You tried to trick me," John spoke in a hurt tone.
"John, please.." Torrie pleaded.
"No, I don't think so" He placed the ticket on Torrie's case and left through the door.
Torrie watched on helplessly, it only took seconds before the tears reflected in her eyes. After John turned his back, to walk away. She felt her heart starting to race. She couldn't let John leave, not like this.
She had to do something to stop him.
"John! No! wait" Torrie rushed out of her bedroom, down the stairs to stop John from leaving the house.
"Not like this, please" Torrie grabbed John's arm, he shrugged her off stumbling Torrie from the force he used.
"I'm…sorry…please, just let me explain…." Torrie pleaded with tears in her eyes.
"Explain? what so you can lie to me a bit more!" John snapped at her.
"No, no I didn't want this!. This was the last thing I want! please just let me explain" Torrie cried, doing all she could to stop John from leaving.
The hurt rose in John's eyes, with his deep voice cracking. "After everything that's happened between you and me, everything we said! I've had enough!"
"No, please" Torrie's crying voice pleaded.
"I've done everything I possibly can for you, you clearly want to get rid of me. You don't want or need me so I'm out of here,"
Torrie shook her head "No" she shuddered as she cried.
"I'm done here, more importantly." John leaned right to Torrie's face so she could clearly see the anger in his eyes, and the passion, serious tone cracking up.
"I'm done with you Torrie! From now on, you're on your own! Have a nice life" John shouted in her face, bringing Torrie to tears.
John flew the door open, and left the house leaving Torrie to cry out in his name.
"No, John! Please!" she screamed crying, but all she got in return was a gush of wind. Torrie slammed her door shut, both of her hands went around her mouth and nose.
She could feel the shudder of her breaths on the palms of her hands.
She closed her eyes, the tears started to fall down. Her legs buckled, she fell down to her knees onto the floor crying.
What had just happened, was horrific. It was the worst thing that could happen to Torrie.
The tears just continued to fall, like a never ending waterfall. Her head leaned on the wall, kneeling on the floor curling her knees. Her eyelashes lowered underneath her eyes coming to the reality.
Not only did she not get a chance to explain, there was no sweet emotional goodbye.
….
Hardly breathing, John opened his car door. He got in the driver seat slamming the door in force. John smacked the steering wheel with the heel of his hand. "Just leave," John turned his keys, starting the car.
John let his hand slip from the steering wheel, he took a moment to think. John took out his keys and leaned back on the seat. His hand rubbed his forehead, thinking of what he was going to do.
John went to open his door to go back, but a rush of anger made him turn the keys, revving the engine. "Just leave" he remembered Torrie's lies and tricking him.
John turned his steering wheel, drove up the road and left the street. Driving away from her house
More importantly, he left Torrie behind.
….
Torrie got back to her feet, she brushed her fingetips underneath her eyes, brushing the tears away. Torrie went to her cell phone, and rang John's number. She got exactly what she expected.
Voicemail.
Torrie let her lashes close, bringing her vision to black. "John, please it's Torrie. I'm so sorry for what happened. Look please just let me explain….please…" a single tear fell out of her eyes, landed on her cheek.
"Just come back" her phone slipped from her ear, finding herself crying alone.
John wasn't here to put his strong arms around her.
Her plan had backfired in the worst possible way.
Torrie let out a few more tears, her hand was shaking in emotion. She was very upset. Somehow, she had to make it right.
"Randy" Torrie dialled a number and walking around her hallway waiting anxiously for an answer.
"Please answer, please answer" Torrie said herself, with another set of tears in her eyes
…..
"Yes baby, daddy will bring you back a Barney. I'll see you in a few days. You be good for mommy" Randy spoke on his phone.
The door opened, Randy turned hanging up his phone. "John? I didn't expect to see you…"
"I'm going with you tonight, don't you dare ask" John said in anger slamming the door behind him.
"Emmm…could I at least have some facts"
John walked to the couch, sat down leaning his head back. "Torrie's not coming"
Randy slowly nodded his head, having to act clueless "She's not….what?"
"She's not coming with us tonight, she lied and tricked me! She's going to Idaho instead. Not having the decency to tell me the truth so I'm done with her. I have done everything I possibly can for her but I've had enough" John snapped.
"So you two have fallen out?"
"You could say that? I've finished with her for good. Torrie is on her own" John spoke.
John's phone started to buzzing for the 10th time. He immediately grabbed his phone and rejected the call putting his phone on the coffee table.
"I'd love a drink right now," John spoke.
"Drink is not the answer" Randy spoke
"Just can't wait to get out of here," Randy went on to say something else but his trade of thought was interrupted by the sound of his phone.
"It's her, what do you want me to do?" Randy said.
"Do whatever you want, I'm through with all" John spoke
Randy pressed the button, answering the call. "Hello" as he spoke to Torrie. Randy knew Torrie wasn't the only one that was involved in the plan. He knew exactly what Torrie was going to do but something must have gone terribly wrong.
"Better than nothing"
Torrie stepped closer, whispering something into Randy's ear. "I'm going to Idaho tonight, I'm willing to do whatever it takes"
The flashback went through his mind, as he heard Torrie's voice.
"Randy, thank god I got hold of you. Something's happened. John found out. He's gone. He won't answer my calls, please can I speak to him?" Torrie asked over the phone.
Randy could tell from her voice, Torrie was crying.
"Please Randy, I've tried to contact him several times. He's not answering please I just need to explain to him, please. I've even sent him something on twitter! Please" Torrie pleaded over the phone.
"Torrie,….John's not with me"
Torrie's soft voice received through the phone. "What?"
"He's not here"
"But…but he has to be…." Torrie stuttered over the phone due to the tears.
"No, I haven't seen him since I was at your house….I don't know what to tell you…"
"So if he's not with you, then where is he?"
Randy sighed softly. "I don't know"
"Oh god, what I have done? Oh my god. This cannot be happening. This is the last thing I want" Torrie cried over the phone.
"Look just don't panic, I'll come over and we'll sort this out together"
A breath of relief softened on the end, "Oh thank you so much"
Randy let his phone flip shut, he turned to John. "John…"
"I'm not going back, I don't care what she said"
"Fine, I'll go"
"Why?"
"I just need to speak to her, alright I'll be back" Randy left the hotel room, he was habourting two secrets. One from Torrie, and one from John.
All Randy Orton wanted was for all this to end, to move on.
Definitely get the hell out of Houston.
…
The knock on her door made Torrie jerk her head quick, turning her upper body so her golden blonde locks landed on one of her shoulders.
Torrie rushed to the door, "John" she dramatically called opening the door. Another blow pierced her heart when she saw Randy standing at the door.
"I thought you were….you haven't seen or heard of John have you?" Torrie asked.
Randy shook his head. "No" he lied.
Torrie turned her body around putting her hands around her mouth. "I can't believe this has happened, story of my fucking life. One thing, one person I screw it up" Torrie spoke upset with herself.
"Torrie, it's okay. Calm down"
"No it's not, it's not okay. I planned it out perfectly. I made sure we had a great last day….and I was going to say goodbye gently. Leave in happy tears. And now it's just gone so wrong" Torrie spoke softly.
"How the hell did it all happen?"
"I don't know, he found the ticket. I tried to lie and cover up but I only made it worse. This is the last thing I wanted. Now I have to leave…in a few hours, John's disappeared"
Randy sighed, lowering his gaze to the floor.
"We have to find him"
"We?"
Torrie turned her eyes towards to Randy. "Yeah, I'm sure he's still in Houston…we have to…"
"Torrie, I don't have time for this"
Torrie glanced at Randy, feeling alone proof all she needed. She felt the tears beginning to rise once again to her eyes.
"I just want to get the hell out of Houston, I don't mean anything by that but it's just too much, I don't have time for this crap okay. If that plane leaves tonight without me on it, I will be in deep trouble so I don't have time"
"What about John?"
"I'm sure he'll turn up at the airport okay? I know John. He'll cool down and he'll be at the airport" Randy told.
Torrie glanced at Randy before she lowered her head down to the floor along with her eyelashes lowering underneath her eyes "I didn't get to say goodbye…" her voice tone softened
"Well John can't stay angry with you, if he does. Tell you what I'll bug, bug and bother him until he gives you a phonecall and I'll tell him you're sorry I'm sure you two will be seeing each other in next few months okay?"
Torrie stood there hearing Randy's words, he made it sound so simple nothing was wrong with it. "I'm not going to be here,"
Randy stopped and turned around. "What do you mean?" he asked.
"I'm not just saying goodbye tonight, I'm saying goodbye for good"
Suddenly Randy became very interested. "I'm sorry…"
"Well for a while" Torrie added.
Torrie took in a breath before she started to explain. "What you said about me Randy….was horrible…"
"Torrie, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it I was just angry." Randy apologised
"They were horrible but they were true" Torrie started to say, Randy had titled his head to the side before he looked back at the blonde.
"John and I have so much history, we've been friends for….almost 8 years. Somewhere down the line, and I don't know haven't had the chance to pin point the moment where John turned into more of a bodyguard than a friend"
"You were right, when something does go wrong or trouble finds me. The first thing I do is run to John, and I do expect him to make it alright for me. I do and I have never realised just how much I have leaned onto him, hell leaned. I never realised how much I hold onto him, I know why?"
"Why?" Randy asked.
The tears started to bring the emotion to her eyes. "Because I'm scared of failing. I'm too scared to even try" her crying voice was noticeable.
"I never realised until today, just how weak and afraid I am right now"
"Torrie…"
"Because of being so scared, I'm selfish, I'm self centred. I knew way before John told me something was wrong. I saw it from the day I saw you two at the gym, from the look in his eyes. I knew something was seriously wrong and….I didn't even care…to ask…" Torrie told with tears reflecting in her eyes.
"When it all came out about Nick, he was there for me….even when I pushed him away, he came back. I didn't ask, I didn't even think….and you know what hurts me the most is that I don't even think I would have done anything to help at the time.
I wish I could lie to myself, but it's the truth.
"It's unfair, selfish of me. Pathethic and when John said he was going to stay with me.
That split moment, I was escastic and I wouldn't have cared if he got fired. I wanted to keep John with me so I don't face what's coming alone"
"John's not my friend, he's some kind of bodyguard. His issues, his life didn't mean a thing to me. The only thing I used to care about….was John looking after me. And I hate it! I hate myself! For even thinking it! I don't want it to be like this anymore!"
"I want to be strong! I want to be the girl I used to be. I don't want to seem and feel so weak and afraid. I don't want to run to John anymore, I want to handle it on my own and prove to myself I can make it through without someone standing there" Torrie continued to pour her heartfelt emotions out.
Randy stood there shocked.
"I want John to be proud of me, I want to be the girl he says I am. I don't want to see the smile…but the concern lying in his eyes. I want him to be happy, I want to be concerned for him. I don't want him to hold back because he's scared he'll upset me….I don't want any of this anymore….
"I want to be strong again, I want it to go back to way it was all those years ago. I planned it to every detail, I had written a letter and I was going to slip it into his bag and explain everything. "
"I want him to be my friend again…and Now….now…" her tears were falling. Her voice was cracking and stuttering.
"I have to leave in a few hours, go to and see my mum, dad and brothers with all this on my mind, I've ruined everything. I couldn't even say goodbye properly" Torrie cried.
"I was going to let him go, stay away until I have learned to handle whatever happens next. I'll be able to save myself without holding onto John, letting him sacrifice something.
"The reason why our friendship has lasted so long…is because of John… and I was going to let him go, so it can go on for many years. I've ruined everything" Torrie spoke crying.
Randy stared at Torrie, he had no idea she felt this way. "Oh sweetheart, come here" he walked closer, embracing Torrie.
"Why didn't you tell me before?" Randy asked.
Torrie let a single tear fall before she answered shuddering a breath. "Because….I only just realised it" Torrie let her eyes close, more tears fell down.
"I can't do anything without screwing up" Torrie muttered.
"Where's the letter?"
Torrie rose her head before she walked to her desk draw in her hall way. "Here" She handed it to Randy.
"I'll slip into John's gym bag, he's bound to look in there"
Torrie let out a gentle giggle through her tears. "If you see… him about to rip it up, please stop him…"
"Oh yeah of course I will, I'll hit a quick strike RKO"
"On the floor?" Torrie asked.
Randy grinned in comfort. "Yeah that way he'll be knocked out for a few hours so he won't be able to rip it up,"
Torrie let out a fragile smile, but the hurt of losing John didn't keep the smile on for long.
"Look Torrie, I'm sure you haven't lost John for good. He will cool down and I'm sure he will understand why you lied."
Torrie listened before she let her lashes lower. "I don't know what to do?"
"For what's it worth, I think you're being strong now. You're doing something to help John, that is already a step forward from what you used to do"
Torrie slowly nodded her head, "Yeah I suppose. You better get going"
"Yeah, listen have a lovely time in Idaho" Randy kissed Torrie on the cheek before he left through the door after a goodbye embrace from Torrie.
Torrie let her front door close, she leaned back on the door. Her eyes flicked up to the ceiling. She heard her phone ringing, Torrie picked it up and noticed the caller ID.
A gentle smile came on her face when she saw "Travis" It was someone she wanted to speak too, but she waited in hope. One day, she would see the name.
John Cena again.
"Maybe Someday"
…...
"You have to go back"
"I'd rather be in a arena filled with Cena haters then go back there" Cena spoke.
"John, trust me. You have got it so wrong"
John looked up at Randy. "Oh really? What part did I get it wrong? The part she said she was coming with us? She lied and tried to trick me. I go back there and she'll do it to me again and it's too much, I can't handle it again"
"John…Torrie's not playing games with you"
"How Guidable do I look? I know exactly what she'll do what she would say? I know Torrie Wilson, better than she knows herself"
"You have to go back there, you have to go back to Torrie's house".
"I'd rather swan drive into a deep fat fryer" John Cena said sarcastically.
"John,"
"I don't know why you're bothered about it…..I mean you're getting what you want. I'm going on the plane with you. I'll be at RAW so you get what you want"
"You honestly want to leave it like this with Torrie?" Randy asked.
"Yes, I'm through with it all"
"John, I know you. It's going to bother you, keep bothering you. And when you finally do snap I just don't want to be in the ring with you. I pity who is. Someone could seriously get hurt"
John rubbed his temple. "I told you, and Torrie that I'm done"
"John, we both know you don't want this. Look I swear to you. You go back to see Torrie. You will not be disappointed."
"You know what, I have another 5 hours yet. I'm going to get some rest" John walked towards the door but Randy stood in front of it.
"You don't see Torrie once more before you leave, I will bug you to the point where you are about to snap. I'll ring you every moment, I'll text you every second. I'll fill your twitter with spam. I won't leave you alone. So help me god, Cena. I will be you're worst nightmare" Randy told.
John blinked at Randy before he sighed. John picked up his car keys and left the hotel room.
Randy smiled to himself "Wow I didn't think that would work"
…..
An hour passed, all Torrie had for company was the four walls in her bedroom. As she sat alone leaning back on her wardrobe. Everything that has happened over the past week, whirled around her mind.
It was like a short story. Things happened, Torrie wouldn't believe. All Torrie could hope for was a happy ending?
The only happy ending she could think of. The only storybook ending, she hoped was for John to return. She wanted to see the light in his crystal blue eyes, the dimples in his cheeks. Feeling his presence, warm friendship feelings he brings.
She just wanted to see it one more time tonight.
"Better get ready" Torrie got to her feet, she walked to her bed and continued to pack the last things she needed.
She heard the door open downstairs, she walked downstairs. Once she got to the hallway. She wasn't expecting John, since she hadn't heard anything in hours.
"I'm doing fine, you don't…." Torrie walked into the living room, her lips slid apart when she saw the man standing in her living room.
Torrie stood there, with the shock lying in her eyes when she saw John Cena standing in her living room.
"John" her soft voice spoke, she let a soft smile come across her face.
"Hi" he spoke.
"You came back….I thought I wasn't going to see you again…"
"No I'm here, trust me wasn't by my choice. Randy kind of blackmailed me"
Torrie massaged her thumb on her arm, while she stood there. "Ohh" she softly spoke.
"Yeah, he told me to hear you out, so…"
Torrie blinked a few times, she felt the distant cold shoulder from John. He hadn't come back on his own accord, which did make the tears start to rise again. She hoped that somehow, she could save it before the time runs out.
"I'm listening…." John signalled for Torrie to speak, his hands firmly on his hips.
Torrie looked at John before she drew her hand at the back of her neck, grabbing all her blonde hair so it would land on her left shoulder. "John, this is the last…thing I wanted…it to play out….I didn't want this"
"Oh so how did you want it? Nice pinic on a summer's day? Sunset at the ocean? In the middle of the ring? What?" John asked with sacrasm.
Torrie looked at John, "Please, just let me explain"
"That's what I'm waiting for, firstly how guilable do you think I am? You think I'm stupid?"
"No, of course not….I…"
"So when I found the ticket, why did you lie again?"
Torrie shook her head, not having many answers. "I…don't know" Torrie muttered with a soft tone.
"Why did you lie to me? Why did you mess with my head when you knew what I've been through?"
"John, I don't know…..I don't have these answers" Torrie spoke.
"Look after all the years we have been friends, I've done everything I can to understand and support you. But this…" John shook his head confused.
"I just don't understand anymore,"
Torrie brushed back her blonde hair thinking of the best way to answer. "I…"
"Why did you lie to me Torrie?"
Torrie breathed out softly titling her head. "I don't know…"
"Why did you try and trick me?"
"I…"
"Why? Torrie! I've come here to get answer and you say…"
"I don't know"
"You don't know? So Randy tells me you have this whole explanation and all you can say to me is you don't know!"
Torrie lowered her head down "John please" in her mind, she was trying to come up with the words what to say. She didn't expect John to return so her mind had gone into a complete blank.
"After 8 years! I can't believe it means absolutely nothing to you! Well fine you want to leave it like this, then I'm okay with that" John walked back near the door.
"Have a nice life Torrie, what's left of it anyways!"
"No, please don't go…." Torrie pleaded.
"I knew it was bad idea to come back here,"
John was almost on the edge of leaving again. Torrie had to do something to stop him. She had no words, so she did the next best thing, her mind could come up with.
Torrie ran full speed at John, using every bit of strength to jump on John so he landed on the floor in the hallway with Torrie lying on top of him.
John found himself, suddenly yelping out in shock. He felt his back land on the floor. Torrie was sitting on top of him.
"Have you lost your damn mind" John spoke, with his hands beside him.
"I couldn't let you leave, not again. I just don't know what to say to you" Torrie spoke dramatically.
"You could start, getting off me"
Torrie got to her feet getting away from John. He took a moment to get over what just happened. John started to get back to his feet, he stood tall once again he was waiting for Torrie to explain.
"Why did you lie?"
Torrie kept hearing the questions in her mind, no answers were following. She had no problem telling Randy, but when it came to the most vital…Torrie was drawing a blank.
"Does our friendship actually mean anything to you?"
"Of course it does"
"Do you care?"
Torrie's eyes began to fill with emotion once again, being questioned. "Of course I care…" she emotionally spoke.
"Then why?" John screamed at her.
"Because it's too damn hard John!"
"What is?" John asked with sudden confusion.
"To say goodbye!"
"Good bye?"
"You don't understand….I wasn't going to leave like this…..but then Randy came, you two were about this close to tearing each apart. I just vented out, I had to stop it….I was going to stay true to you, and say goodbye after we had one last day, the way it used to be"
"What? I don't"
"I know I'm not making much sense but how this all happened, was the last thing I wanted. I didn't want it to happen. It's last thing I wanted…."
"Torrie, what is going on? I don't understand?"
Torrie closed her eyes, breathing in softly. "We've been friends for so long, and I can't describe how much you mean to me, you've always been there for me. I can't find a way to show how much you do mean to me"
"You've always be there for me, I'm so appreciative of that…."
"But somewhere down the line, you've become more than a bodyguard than a friend. It's not fair on you. Whenever something dramatic happens to me, you're the first I run too. I don't think of you or anyone else. I just expect you to help me and it's selfish of me because you have your own life"
John blinked his eyelashes a few times while he listened on to Torrie.
"So what I'm doing is leaving tonight for Idaho so I can handle, and deal with it my own way and prove not only to you, but myself that I can handle it"
"It's got nothing to do with you, I'm terrified of going my own way. I'm scared of what will lie in the future. The growing is scary but sometimes these things have to happen…."
"So it's not because you don't want or need me?" John asked softly.
Torrie shook her head. "No it's not, not for a second. I do still want and need you by my side John but…..I can't let myself cave in. I swear to you right now that if I did come with you, I will hold onto you and it will be unfair to you"
"So I'm leaving because it's for the best"
John looked up at Torrie before he spoke again. "For who?"
"Both of us"
"I can't go with you"
"Why not? I want to be there for you Torrie. What you have done for me….in the past, it means more than you possibly could know. You have been there for me in ways no other has been in my entire life….I can't just leave you now?"
Torrie let her cheeks stretch into a gentle smile, she felt the John she knew and loved so well. He had returned, and she was getting the goodbye she originally wanted.
"You can, John. I hope you know it's got nothing to do with you why I'm leaving. I have to because I have to handle it on my own. To prove to myself that I can handle alone"
"But….I wouldn't let you handle it on your own. I don't want you too."
"I know you want to help me John, I know you do but it's not fair. I won't let you"
John lowered his head to the side for a moment, before he glanced back at Torrie. "I want to be here for you, just come with me and Randy. Okay. And you;ll be fine…"
Torrie shook her head. "No I won't be, because it won't last forever…..you're so amazing to me. I don't know what it is you do but as soon as you leave. It hits me. You bring some kind of protective sheild that nothing can hurt me but I can't rely on you any longer, it's just not fair"
Torrie watched John's head lower down. She walked closer, and held onto his hand.
"I want to be strong, I want to be the girl you say I am. Want you to be proud of me" Torrie spoke, with a soft smile across her face.
Her tone of voice was quite soft due to the emotion, her crying soft voice was visible.
"I am" John told.
"No, I want to see the smile but no concern…."
"Tor, just come with me and Randy okay"
"No, I can't. don't you understand if I do then we'll never get it back to the way it was before. You'll be worrying and focusing on me I know you will be. What if one day, I have a very bad day and you're in some kind of match and fall and seriously hurt yourself…that would be all my fault"
"Well that's pretty simple…I won't,"
"You don't know that, I would never forgive myself…..I refuse to let that happen"
"I can focus on both"
"No I won't let you. I'm not risking you anymore John. It's not fair"
"Fair? I don't care what's fair. I'm not leaving you like this I may have been pissed off earlier but you know me, I would have come back…"
Torrie gently smiled "I know you would have, but you have your own life…"
"My life? Have you seen my effort to make a personal life. It's a train wreck…."
"My point exactly! You're marriage ended in August and you haven't been dealing with that, you have been constantly focusing on me. You see you told me, but if I had known before….you see, I don't think I would have been there for you…."
"What?" John asked softly.
"Nick not only benefited me, he…changed who I am? I don't want to be her anymore. This is the last thing I want, trust me."
"Then why do you want me to leave?" John suddenly rose his voice.
"Because it's for the best, for you, for me. For everyone!"
"John, I want you to be my friend again not by bodyguard. I want it to go back to the way it was before…..if I leave tonight, maybe someday we can go back I need more than you can give me John, and I don't want it to be like this anymore…"
"You see, thinking back…. Through my life…..I've always leaned on someone. Through my childhood it was my brother Travis, then it was my ex best friend Kim….then it was ex husband Pete…then….it was you" Torrie spoke.
"Each one of them, one day. Turned me away. You are the only one that hasn't….my brother Travis left the state to get away from me, Kim had an affair with my husband at the time…." Torrie looked up at John.
"I won't let you be added to that list,"
"I won't ever turn you away, I wouldn't do that?"
"I'm not letting you risk it for me. You're the greatest friend I've got. You have been there for me, more than my own family…."
"If l leave you, how am I being a good friend to you?" John asked.
Torrie reached her hand out, touching John's chest. "You're giving me the best gift a friend could ever give. Even though you don't want or like it. You would be believe in me, have faith that I can do it. That's the best gift anyone can get in return."
"I know you don't like it, but the look in your eyes tells me that deep down you know it's for the best" Torrie walked a little away.
John lowered his eyes towards the wall, before he turned back to Torrie.
"I'm not saying I doubt it, I don't like it. I'm scared to death for you but….I support it" John gently spoke.
Torrie felt the relief flutter in her heart when she heard his words. She took a moment before she let out a smile, to stop the tears from falling. Torrie ran back, and wrapped her arms around the back of John's neck embracing him.
John let a moment pass, before he put his hand on the centre of her back holding Torrie closer.
"Thank You" Torrie spoke.
John gently sighed, stroking Torrie's blonde hair. "You're welcome"
Torrie drew away, letting the sparkle of her smile show. "I'm so happy you came back…I'm glad I got to tell you everything I wanted" she spoke.
John grinned softly. "Do you have to leave now?"
"Soon, yeah"
John slowly nodded his head. "You know something Nick said to me, I didn't want to believe it…..but I'm not so sure now"
Torrie glanced at John. "What did he say?"
"In the end, I'd lose you."
"Oh and why do you think that?" Torrie asked.
"Well you saying goodbye right now is a big clue so I'm not so sure anymore" John gently chuckled.
"Well he's wrong, you're not losing me. I'll be seeing you again someday" Torrie spoke gently smiling.
"So you're leaving….to…"
"Make sure that amazing friendship…..to last for many years to come." Torrie told, with her hand on his forearm, before slipping into his side
She directed the smile at him, beaming a smile to stop the tears from falling.
"Okay, I understand you want to deal with it without me…but can I at least….drive you to the airport?" John asked, with a softten tone.
Torrie glanced at John, before she let out a soft giggle. "Yes"
"How will I know that you're alright? You're over it?"
Torrie tucked a few of her strands behind her ear. "When I'm ready I'll come and find you" she softly told.
"You will?"
Torrie nodded "Yeah, I'll always remember that I promise"
"You promise? I don't care where I am, what time. Mongolia, Europe, India, Australia, Africa you come and find me, okay?" John asked putting his hand on Torrie's cheek.
She gently giggled, letting a tear fall from her eye. "Yes I promise" her soft voice cried.
"What if you forget?"
"There's no way in the world, I'd forget. There's no way in the hell I'd ever forget you John and what you have done for me" Torrie spoke, her hand lied comfortably on his wrist.
"Okay, good" John smiled softly
"But you have to promise me something?"
"Anything?"
Torrie massaged her thumb on his wrist, "You have to promise me that you won't come and find me, no matter what. You won't contact me. Nothing. Until I come back….you have to promise me that?"
John listened, before he slowly nodded his head. "I promise. I don't break promises so…"
"I know, and I want you to know….that as life turns around. I'm still thinking of you don't think I'm not, if you see or hear anything. You'll be in my heart, a secret place that will stay forever. You'll be with me wherever I go"
"I'll be there always Torrie, you'll be in my heart, always have a place in my heart. I may not beside you, but I'll be here"
Torrie smiled on, before she hugged John.
"I may not be with you, but you've gotta hold on Torrie. Okay you have to be strong. Promise me that?" John kept his hand on the bottom of her cheek, touching her blonde silk, mirror shine hair.
Torrie nodded, while her hand gripped onto his wrist "I will, when it's hard to take…I think. What would John say?" The tears were in her eyes.
Their foreheads gently leaned, met. With both John and Torrie's eyes closing.
"I'll forget what you have done for me, I'll always remember you John" Torrie softly spoke.
"Me too"
"I guess it's true what they say…"
"What's that?" John asked gently
"Goodbye is the hardest word"
Torrie's eyelashes flickered up towards John, before she leaned into his chest. John put his arms around her, holding her in his warm embrace. He Didn't want Torrie to leave tonight, it pierced his heart….but he understood she has to deal with it all her own way.
"By the way,"
"Hmm"
"I am proud of you"
Torrie let a gentle smile shine, as she held onto John a little tighter.
…...
"Hey!" Randy said delighted when he saw Torrie and John walk into the airport.
"Hi" Torrie spoke.
"Everything alright?"
John nodded "Yeah it's all sorted" Torrie smiled softly leaning on John's shoulder.
"Great, I'm going…to….errr…you know what I've actually run out of excuses so I'm just going to leave you two alone for a bit. Good luck in Idaho Tor, take care" Torrie hugged Randy saying goodbye for now.
Torrie turned back to John. "John" she spoke.
John Cena turned his eyes from the board to Torrie. "Yeah"
Torrie got out a sparkle charm out of her purse, it was emerald green colour. It didn't look expensive. "This was given to me when I was 16, it's looked after me, bought me some luck. It was given to me by my brother Travis….I want you to have it" Torrie lied the charm in her hand.
John looked down at the charm. "Torrie, I can't except that" John said.
"I'm flattered really? But….I honestly can't…"
Torrie lied the charm in John's palm and close his hand, her eyes sparkled the same emerald. "I want you too, keep it safe. It may bring you luck. You'll be a 9 time champion in no time" she proudly spoke.
John chuckled gently, staring at her. "Tor, I'm already a nine time champion"
"Oh are you? Well ten time champion then" Torrie smiled again.
John looked at the charm in his hand before he stared at Torrie. "I'll keep it safe"
Torrie smiled on "Thank You"
"Tor, I wanted to say this to you….I just never found the right moment…"
"Say what?" Torrie asked.
John glanced at Torrie before he sat her down on the seat, he took her hand sitting beside her. "Every Rose Has It's Thorn, but it's still a rose. Still beautiful like you inside to outside. Nothing in this world is perfect, I want you to remember that"
Torrie looked at John, before she smiled sweetly "That's the nicest thing anyone has said to me, thank you so much." Torrie hugged John.
"I better go, my brother will be waiting…it's going to be late at night. He won't be happy if I'm not there when the plane lands…"
John stood there, "Tor, are you sure this is what you really want?"
Torrie sniffled, brushing away her blonde hair. "No it's not, but it's something I've got to do"
"But…"
"We take what we can Champ, and make the best of it. If I don't leave now…I never will" Torrie told as she hugged John.
John nodded while he tried his best to smile.
Torrie heard the boarding call, it had finally came. "I'll be seeing you" Torrie beamed her smile, with water of tears reflecting in her eyes.
"See you again soon" she turned away.
John felt flashbacks of memories from that single word, it's what Torrie and John used to say years ago.
"Very soon" he answered back.
Torrie turned back smiling brightly, she ran back over to him and hugged him tightly tightening her grip on his shoulders. "Bye, bye John" her arms drew away.
Torrie put her hand on John's hand, that lied the charm in his grasp. "Keep it safe"
John nodded, Torrie leaned in closer to place a kiss on his cheek but John moved. Their eyes met, that moment. They both knew what they wanted to happen.
A moment passed by, John pressed his lips against Torrie's. her eyes immediately closed feeling the gentle kiss on her lips. She felt John's fingers slip from her blonde hair brushing her hair back, using his fingers.
"Goodbye Torrie"
That was the sweetest goodbye, Torrie could ever dream of. Someday, the rose of friendship could blossom into something special. For now, it was just a goodbye kiss.
One final turn, she saw Randy standing beside John. She blew her kiss peace sign from her lips, that was the orginal Torrie Wilson. John and Randy knew it.
The peace sign of her fingers, with the pearly white smile on her face. Typical American good girl, Torrie Wilson.
They smiled back in return while they watched, Torrie disappear through the door
…..
"Randy,"
"Yeah"
"Do you think I could somehow burst through the door, avoid security and stop a plane? Without being fired and arrested?"
"I don't think so John" Randy grinned softly.
"Damn it"
"Oh we have a 5 hour delay" Randy told.
"Great got the delay, just the wrong plane" John sighed.
Randy looked at John before he placed a hand on his shoulder. "Man, you okay?"
John nodded. "Yeah, I've never been proud of her"
"You think she's going to be okay?"
A small spread across John's face, in belief. "I do" as he stood there, Randy knelt down and slipped a evelope into John's bag before he sat down on the chair.
"Coffee?" Randy asked.
"Yeah why not? I'd say everything's worked out for the best" John walked off to a café with Randy Orton.
"Talk a bumpy, crazy road….what an ending. I'll sleep well tonight" Randy sipped his coffee cup.
John smiled on. "It's not an end, it's a beginning" he sipped on his coffee while his hand held the emerald charm given by Torrie.
….
"Torrie! Tor! Torrie! Over here!"
Torrie came from the crowd after her flight, and saw her older brother Travis Wilson standing there. "Travis!" Torrie ran over and hugged her brother.
"God it's been months since I've seen you. How are you?" Travis asked.
Torrie smiled on, after she had landed in Idaho. "I'm doing fine"
"Oh come here!" Travis picked Torrie up, giving her a squeeze. "Come on let's get you home, moma's been up all night making sure she has all your favorites in.
Torrie giggled "Great, It's been way too long since I've been home. It's going to be amazing"
"Got that right, Tim's in the car. Matt's coming in a few days. Everyone's so excited to see you" Travis guided Torrie to his car.
She climbed in the passenger seat of the car, she turned towards the window and watched the images of her childhood home go past.
"I'm home" a delighted smile on her face.
….
"Finally out of Houston, god what a week. Next time I invite myself please say no" Randy spoke, collapsing on the couch in the hotel room. The location where RAW will be held tomorrow.
"I know, it's been pretty crazy"
"How do you feel?"
"Like weight has been lifted off my shoulders" John leaned back on the couch.
"Right well I'm going to get some rest, or else…I'll be asleep on the mat"
John chuckled "Okay, night Randy. Thanks for everything" Randy slapped hands with John before he left to go get some well deserved rest in his hotel room.
John leant his head back on the couch, he pulled something out of his pocket, it was the small charm, Torrie had given him less than 24 hours ago. He placed it in his bag, he pulled some things out and noticed a white letter.
"What the?" John picked it out of his bag, he saw it had his name on it.
He turned it over, and un did the letter and began to read it.
Dear John.
Before you continue to read this, it's not one of those breaking up letters. No idea why they call it "Dear John's?" anyways trying to be funny here, so you're probably wondering why I wrote this. Well knowing myself, I thought I would write everything I want to tell you incase I didn't have the chance, or have the courage to tell you.
So here goes,….firstly I want to apolglise if the ink is smudged, I'm staring at the pages, tears are falling.
I have never met anyone quite like you before in my lifetime, I don't think I ever will.
You're the greatest guy on the planet. I'm not just saying that, you truly are. The most hardworking, dedicated, passionate, respectable person I have ever come to know.
I'm thankful for all the times we had together, moments I'll keep like photographs hold them in my heart forever. I wish love, luck because the world for you, opens up.
I know it's hard, painful for what you have been through. I wish I could have been there for you. But just stay true to yourself, don't give up on your faith, love comes to those who truly believe it, I believe someday you'll find exactly what you're looking for.
I appericate all the times you have been beside me, being a true friend. Showing me that there is a true, honest guys out there somewhere. They aren't all just liars, cheats. You're everything a girl needs.
You're sweet, kind, genuine, warm. I'm speaking of girl's view right now. My own. One thing I'd appericate the most, is how you always managed to get me to smile at the most depressing times. I love you to death for that.
I never thought writing a letter would be so hard, there's just so much more I want to say but I can't find the words. As I'm writing, I remember a interview the ONLY one I was asked about you. I was thankful for that alone, so I could show that I do care deeply.
I'm going to quote exactly what I said, and I quote. "John's a great guy, obviously lives and breathes wrestling. People can say what they want about his wrestling ability but you've deserved everything he's achieved. I feel he's closest they have to the "The Rock" before you roll your eyes back I know you, lol. I feel you're better than him, to me you work a little harder. Push that little mile, to me that's heart.
Anyways back to the interview, where was I? oh yeah…..as I was going through my divorce, he was really concerned. He listened to what I had to say and I really appreciate that now" no shadow of a lie I said that. To me, you're the best WWE's got. Without you, they would be in trouble. Well you and Randy of course.
Now I don't want you to ever go doubting yourself, because you have no idea just how beautiful and amazing you are to me. I'm a silver example, how much you care about someone. I'll never forget and always appericate everything you have done for me over the years.
You always believed in me, and I'm truly thankful for that. I'm thankful for the time I got to know you, share many happy memories with.
Never Give Up. Stay true to yourself no matter what. Light, dark, bad, good, in different. Just stay true to yourself. Hustle, Loyalty, Respect.
Be the champion, I know you are. You have a heart of a champion. I adore that about you.
I'll Always Remember You. I know deep down you're heart is with me. You'll be with me wherever I go.
I'll never forget, I know I'll miss you but we'll meet again someday. We'll never fade away. Always Remember that.
Love Torrie
Xxx
John sat there, holding the letter before he let a soft grin come across his face.
…..
Torrie had got into her mother's house an hour ago, after catching up with her family. She went off to sleep, it had been a very long week. Torrie needed all the rest she could get.
Torrie stripped out of her clothes into a pair of white silk pjs, and a black strapped top. Torrie lied her head down on her pillow, she reached out for her phone, and scanned down the contacts. She left the dial on John. She continued to stare at it, it felt so hard for her not to press the call button.
She knew she was in for a very hard road, but when it became hard to take, she'll remember what John would say to her, that would help her through.
Torrie placed her phone back on the nightstand, she bought the duvets covers closer. She remembered when she was lying, cuddled up in bed with John holding her but he was nowhere around. Right now they were thousand miles apart from each other.
Torrie bought hand across her chest, in effort of comfort. She heard a buzz of her phone. She reached across, and opened the messsage.
There was no name, but she had inkling who it was.
"Always x" one last moment, perfect way for her to move on.
Reading the one word text, she knew John had received and read the letter, she knew this by the shine of her smile coming across her face/ she was happy John read it today because she hadn't began her own adventure yet.
Torrie put her phone back on the nightstand and lied her head back down on the pillow.
Torrie's eyes closed, while she drifted off to sleep believing in a different term.
Every Happy Ending, brings a new beginning? Torrie couldn't help but feel excited wondering what that could be? What did fate have in store for her next? she left everything that has happened behind, Nick Mitchell will become another picture for Torrie to burn and forget about.
As the golden blonde let herself dream, she wondered.
Would she get that storybook ending? Most importantly would the rose that bloomed so beautifully turn into something special.
This Story had ended, but a new beginning was on the horizon?
All Torrie could do right now, was wait for the dawn of tomorrow to come.
THE END.
Same the longest to the last, before you get the tissues out and pitch forks out. there will be definitely a sequel! but i wanted to end this story like this. I had plans to keep going but i didn't want it to drag along, I thought this would be a lovely way to end the story. Now don't worry, i will definitely do a sequel because we have to have John and Torrie meet again don't we lol. we will! :)
Anyways thank you so much for everyone that has reviewed, alerted, favourited this story. I have enjoyed every moment of it. I want to personally thank "Cena's Baby Doll" for months, she kept pricking and poking about this story when it was hiatus and i managed to get the inspiration back! i'm so thankful i did! so thanks a million girly!
I want to thank Matt "Destiny's diamond, i know that is about del rio? lol" i want to thank for all the lovely advice, reviews you've given me. again poking me to finish the story. if it wasn't for you, i'd have probably loads of new ones by now but i managed to get this one done first lol.
Sheree:another great friend, reviewer thanks again :D
Also want to thank, Ainat, she is out of doubt one of my fave reviewers. how she got into the story, made me love it even more it just shown a real interest so thank you!
Thank You to My sweetie, Koda "Freakierthanfreaks" you're amazing! you're talent for such a young age is lovely! thanks for all the reviews! i'm so happy and glad you liked the story. even though you went on and off with Cena lol. thanks again hun.
Want to thank Christina "Starstruck" i know she's enjoying herself in Italy lol. lucky girl hehe. can't wait to hear all about it. i want to thank her for being a constant reader/reviewer :) amazing girl!
Also want to thank Definingimperfection (I think that's right lol) Marnie. another great reader/reviewer and writer! thanks again.
Witney, for reading this story from the start in days! you are amazing! thanks so much girly.
Laura-rocktheworldlew. Lovely friend, reviewer and writer. when she does do a story :) thank you for reading from the start girly.
To everyone else that has reviewed, "AmberRose 23, StarsShineInYourSmile, Anomymous, cenarko1986 to name a few. i'm so overwhelmed by all the feedback. i need to stop or else i'll cry more. i've cried once as i wrote this chapter. to me, it was very emotional but i think it had a lovely ending :)
Let me know what you think one last time please, tell me who your fave character, favourite parts please. if not, just nice end review :) Every Rose is finished now but a sequel will follow on, sooner than you think lol.
My fave character was John Cena, so lovely in the story hehe :) i think Randy wins the entertainment character lol.
Thanks again guys! bye-bye for now.
xxKellyMariexxxx (Cenationxprincess)
PS, John Cena will be champion again! wait and see del rio :D