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"Mr. Grey you have a visitor.'' I hear Andrea's voice over the office intercom. I sigh as I roll my chair towards the phone on my desk. Picking it up I make it a point to voice my irritation at her interruption. I had all my schedules planned each day. She knew there was no way I could have a visitor today. I had a big deal with another business in Seattle. I was trying to win their company over. The bastards were holding out on me though.

"Andrea I have no visitor set up for today!" I snap. She sighs on the other end. I hear muffled voices and Andrea comes back to the phone.

"Mr. Grey it's a Mrs. Armand." Her words make my heart stop. Deborah Armand? She was here right now. Why? The only thing I could think about was Nevaeh. Sending a text out to Sawyer I make sure to tell him to keep an eye on her. I knew she was being homeschooled right now but you can never be too safe.

"Send her in and block all calls and conferences until I tell you other wise."

"Yes sir." She hangs up and I sit back in my chair. I see the door open and in comes Nevaeh's mother. I can't stop the shock that takes over my face when I see her. It had been about three months since I adopted Nevaeh. She looked…good! Was she clean? Did she want a chance to raise Nevaeh now? My heart couldn't take the thought of my angel being away from me.

"Deborah I must say this is a surprise." I stand to shake her hand before offering her a seat. I stare at her and I can't believe this is the same woman who was in her apartment with junkie needles and empty bottles everywhere.

"Yes, I came here to talk to you Christian. It's about Nevaeh." My stomach turns at her words and I shake my head. I feel my fear rising to the surface.

"You can't have her. I will fight you tooth and nail. Nevaeh is my daughter. I love her and I wont lose her." She stares at me before cracking a smile. Looking down she plays with her fingers before answering me.

"I'm clean now. I've been clean for about two and a half months. After you came to see me I realized I wasn't doing my baby justice. I wanted her to be proud of me. I let a lot of bad things happen to her and I can never ever apologize enough. Nothing I say or do will ever make up for my mistakes." I see the tears pooling in her eyes and my heart goes out to her. She did this for Nevaeh. She loved her daughter. I could tell the day I asked for her signature. She had a look in her eyes that told me she loved Nevaeh but at that moment she loved the high more.

Here she was now though sitting in front of me clean as a whistle. What did this mean for my daughter and I? I know she signed over her rights but she could very well fight that in court now that she was clean if she wanted too. The thought was too suffocating for me to bear.

"So what do you want Deborah?" My gruff voice asks. Keep it together Grey.

"I don't want to be a burden on Nevaeh any longer but I do want to see her. I want to see her progress. I want to see how she's doing. I want to see how much she's grown. I can't help it Mr. Grey. I am her mother."

"You are not her mother!" I slam my fist down on the table. My anger was radiating off of me in waves. She's been sober for two fucking months and now she's her mother?

"Ye-"

"No, Deborah you are not! You weren't there for her when your drug dealer was beating her every night, you weren't there when he was carving her fucking skin like a damn animal as if she was worth nothing, and you damn sure as hell weren't there when he would go in her room at night and MOLEST her! What about all his "thug" buddies that took turns touching Nevaeh at night huh? What about when she would cry and scream for her mommy? Why weren't you her mother then!?" I scream as I push my chair away from my desk.

"Because I was broken!" She sobs, " I was fucking broken and I had lost everything. I had nothing to my name when my husband died. The drugs blocked it out."

I look at her in disgust as she cries in to her hands. She had nothing?

"You're wrong." My words are cold and dripping with hatred for this woman.

"What?" She stares at me in disbelief.

"You had Nevaeh. How is that nothing? She was your child. You were supposed to protect her. Now she's my child and trust me Deborah when I say I would kill to protect her." I look her square in the eyes as I said this. I wasn't playing. Nevaeh would never ever be harmed by this woman again. Nothing she said or did could ever make her a mother to Nevaeh. Sure she was her flesh and blood but she was never once a mom to her.

"I deserve a chance to at least see her." I can see the despair in her eyes and I don't know what to say. Would I have wanted to see Ella if she were clean and sober when I was a child? Maybe but, ultimately this decision wasn't up to me. It was up to Nevaeh. This was her "real" mom whether I considered her to be or not.

"I would have to talk to Nevaeh. It would be up to her. Christmas is coming up you will not see her on the holiday but maybe before or after if she allows it. I will have security with me. I will also be contacting my lawyer do not try anything Mrs. Armand." I warn her as she listens to me speak.

"Of course. Here is my number Christian. Please let me know what she says." I stare at the paper in my hands. How the fuck could this be happening right now?

"Wait." I call to her retreating form. She looks over her shoulders waiting for me to continue.

"If someone tries to hurt my daughter or if you try to get your hands on her or manipulate her or danger her in anyway…I will have you disappear. You will never see the light of day again. Understand?" She stares at me before slowly nodding her head. I watch as she walks out the door.

"Nevaeh?" We're sitting at the dinner table eating roasted chicken and mashed potatoes. It's been three months since the adoption and she was looking so much healthier. Ana and I had been getting pretty serious even though we have been only dating for these past couple months. She usually joined us for dinner but she had a date with her friend Kate tonight.

"Yea daddy?" She picks on her chicken before taking a big spoonful of mashed potatoes. I smile as she does this. My little girl loved anything that was full of carbohydrates. I swear she was such a tiny little thing but she could eat…a lot.

"So angel…Daddy has a question to ask you and I want you to be totally honest with me okay? " She nods her head as she looks at me. Grabbing her hands I gently kiss them before speaking.

"So do you remember your mommy Nevaeh?" I watch her as she processes my words. I see her freeze before she nods her head in uncertainty.

"Okay, well your mommy came to my job to see me today. She asked about you." She pushes her chair back before setting her tiny feet on the ground. Walking towards me she climbs on my lap and leans against my chest. She always did this when she felt sad, scared, or uncomfortable. I loved that she trusted me so much.

"Why?" She whispers.

"Well, Sweetheart she said she wants to know how you're doing. She wants to see how you look now and if your healthy and happy." I gently play with her hair knowing it was something she always asks me to do when she was upset.

"I am healthy and happy now daddy." I can see the wheels turning in her head and I take a deep breath. I wasn't sure how to say my next statement.

"Angel, she wants to see you. She got help from a doctor. She's looking healthy now. I think that the choice should be yours." She plays with my watch as she thinks it over. I hated this. Honestly I didn't want Deborah anywhere near my daughter but, I couldn't hide this from her. If Nevaeh found out when she got older that her mother was clean and I prevented her form seeing her in that state she would never forgive me. Every child of an addict dreams of the day that they can see their parent(s) clean and sober.

"Would you be mad if I said yes?" She bits her lip and I laugh at how much she has picked up from Ana. She did so many things that Ana would do even down to the blushing. I have no idea how the hell that happened but its the cutest thing ever.

"No, this is your choice Nevaeh. I will support you as your daddy in everything you do. So if you want this I will be there with you." I gently rub her arms. I feel her relax in to my hold and I place a kiss on to her forehead.

"I want to see her, but daddy you have to be there with me. I can't do anything without you." She whispers as she grips on to my forearms.

"Angel don't you ever sell yourself short. You can do anything you put your mind to, but I will be there with you. I have to protect you Angel. I love you more than anything." I smile as I pick her up, Holding her with one arm I grab our dishes with my other hand. Placing them in the sink I walk her upstairs to her room.

"If I see her will Ana still be my…friend." I place her on her bed. Frowning I sit down next to her.

"Of course Nevaeh. Ana loves you very much. She just wants you to be happy." She gives me a small smile before nodding. I sigh as I stand to get her pajamas. I knew Nevaeh wanted a mom figure in her life and I knew she wanted Ana to be that figure. I couldn't be happier about that. I just didn't want her to get her little heartbroken. I'm deeply in love with Ana and I do plan on asking her to marry me one day. I can only hope her answer will yes. I know she loves me but marriage has never really been a topic of conversation. It's a scary thing even when you know you're both in love.

"Here angel." I say as I giver her the clothes I picked out. "Lets get you cleaned up first."

Walking to the bathroom I set the temperature of the water before making sure she has a towel. Grabbing her bath sponge I pour the soap before leaving it on the side of the tub. It was silly to do all this but Nevaeh liked to use the whole bottle of soap for bubbles. After flooding the bathroom one time I've decided its best to just set her up before letting her bathe.

"Thanks daddy. I love you." She gives me a hug as she walks into the bathroom.

"Of course I'll be in your room. Once your done here change and I will read you a story." She nods as I leave the bathroom. I went to her room and picked out her favorite book. She loved Peter Pan and insisted that I read it to her every night. I didn't mind it was my favorite part of the day.

Ten minutes later I hear her tiny feet entering the bed room. I tuck her in to bed and give her a kiss on her forehead.

"Okay let's say our prayers before anything." Laying down next to her I smile as she sends a tiny prayer up. When I was a child Grace had me do this every night and I've done the same with Nevvaeh. I wanted her to have a chance to believe in something greater.

Grabbing the book off the bedside table I open up to the first page. Cuddling her to my chest I begin to read.

"All children, except one, grow up…"

"Christian I don't have a good feeling about this." Ana bites her lips as we watch Nevaeh make friends on the playground. She has become such a social butterfly. I softly smile as I see her help a little girl up after she's fallen. She was such a sweet girl.

"I know but Ana I have no choice. I mean I could deny her and then she'll makes a big fuss about it and tries to fight for Nevaeh. I don't want to cause her any stress. She's already been through so much." I wrap my arms around her. Here we were at the park across from my house waiting for Deborah to show up. It was December 15th and Nevaeh chose today to see her. It's been about ten days since I saw Deborah at GEH. I wasn't sure how today would go but as soon as I told Ana she insisted on being here. She even left her coworker in charge of the studio. It was so heartwarming to see her so protective of Nevaeh. I wanted to be with someone that I knew I could trust with my daughter. I was glad I found her.

"Ugh! I know but this lady has hurt Nevaeh. It's not fair that she thinks she can just waltz back into her life and be her mother after everything." She huffs as she crosses her arms. I softly chuckle while keeping my eyes on my daughter.

"Are you jealous of Deborah?" I ask in disbelief.

"Well, Yes I am. She is Nevaeh's real mom Christian but, I.. never mind." She whispers as she shakes her head.

"No tell me baby." I gently prod her.

"It's just I want to be her mother." I see her blush take over her face and I stand shocked. I mean I know we've been getting serious but we've been dating for only three months. I didn't know she wanted to be a mother to Nevaeh. Was it too soon? I don't know. When I first laid eyes on Nevaeh I knew she was meant to be my daughter.

"Ana Nevaeh was worried about you." I might as well tell her what Nevaeh had said to me when I first brought this up.

"What?" She turns to face me.

"Yes, she was worried. She thought that by agreeing to see her mom you wouldn't want to be her "friend" anymore, but really that little girl loves you and I think one day she would want to see you as a mother too." I smile as I give her a kiss before looking back towards my daughter. I see her on the slide and as I turn to the right I see her mother walking towards her.

"Nevaeh! Come here Angel." I call to her as I feel my anxiety set in. I didn't want Deborah talking to her alone.

"Daddy!" She giggles as she runs in to my arms. I see her mothers steps falter at her name for me. Seeing that I noticed she brushes it off and continues towards us.

"Nevaeh?" Deborah whispers. My daughter turns slowly staring at her mother. She wraps her arms around my neck and holds on to me with all her strength.

"Hi." She says. She doesn't try to reach out to her and I know she's feeling scared. I walk us over to the bench near by.

"Deborah this is my girlfriend Anastasia. Baby this is Deborah Nevaehs M-mother." I cough as I feel my self choking up. I couldn't look at this woman without thinking about her true intentions. I had my security scoping the park. I was on edge.

"Nice to meet you." Ana says politely. Deborah smiles slightly before looking at Nevaeh. I can see the tension on her face and wonder if its because I'm holding her.

"Nevaeh don't you want to talk to me?" Deborah gently asks.

Shaking her head my daughter does even try to speak.

"Why not? I've missed you." I can see the desperation on Deborah's face and I actually feel bad.

"You hurt me." Nevaeh whispers. I close my eyes at her confession. God if I could have shielded her from all that pain I would have.

"I...was sick. I am sorry. I got better. I went to the doctor and got help just for you baby." Deborah coos and I feel Ana stiffen next to me.

"You did?" Nevaeh shyly asks.

"Yes don't you miss mommy?" I frown as she says this. I knew she wanted Nevaeh but unfortunately she couldn't have her. She was my daughter.

"No. You're not my mommy." Deborah's eyes widen in shock as she looks toward me. I shrug my shoulders sheepishly. I never once told Nevaeh that Deborah wasn't her mother so I have no idea where that came from.

"Yes I am baby girl." I can see the hurt in her mothers eyes.

"No you're not. Mommies don't hurt their babies. Daddy never hurts me. He loves me so much and he treats me so nice. He calls me his angel. I really like it when he calls me that. When I'm bad he never hits me or says bad words. He puts me in time our takes away my toys. I don't feel afraid of him like I was afraid of you." A ball of emotion rises in my throat and I blink back my tears. Was this little girl only five? Because that speech made her seem so much older. Deborah inhales sharply and looks away. I see tears forming in her eyes and I'm not sure what to do. I mean I want Nevaeh to express her self honestly but, seeing her hurting does bother me. I never liked to see a woman cry even if it is Deborah.

"Nevaeh I know you're too young to understand but I was very sick. I had to get a lot of help and if I wasn't so sick I would have protected you. I'm sorry baby. I want to see you more often." My breath catches in my throat and I feel Ana grab my hands. She wanted to see her more often? God.

"No mommy, I don't want to see you again. I want to be happy with daddy and," she pauses to stare at Ana." hopefully one day Ana will be my new momma." Ana quietly sobs next to me and I squeeze her hand in mine. Deborah looks like someones ripped her heart out.

"Nevaeh my sweet girl. you're only five but you've grown so much." She whispers as she reaches out to her. Nevaeh pushes into my chest avoiding her touch.

"I wanted to see you mommy. I wanted to see you happy again. You look so pretty when your not sad but, I'm happy now. I have the best daddy in the whole wide world. I love him so much mommy. I don't want you take me back with you. I c-cant live with out my daddy." Nevaeh sobs in to my chest and I hold her close to me. I lean down and whisper in to her ear.

"Nevaeh you're not going anywhere. I love you so much and I would never let anyone take you from me. Do you understand me little girl?" I poke her sides. She giggles softly as she wipes her tears on my shirt. I snort as I rub her back. Well then I guess I was her personal tissue too now.

"Deborah, I gave Nevaeh the choice and I told her it was okay no matter what she chose. This is truly how she feels. I have no influence. We go to therapy and she's amazing at expressing herself now." I say apologetically. I knew this lady made a lot of mistakes and I truly felt angry towards her but, it couldn't be easy to realize that your only child wants nothing to do with you.

"I understand." She whispers while staring at Nevaeh cling to me. "Just promise me something?"

"Depends?" I say cautiously.

"Just give her this option every year on her birthday. I want her to know I will never stop loving her even if I did make mistakes. Maybe she'll change her mind one day." She speaks to me but I know she's really talking to Nevaeh. Looking down I see my daughter biting her lip. She was sad that she hurt her mom but she was being honest and she didn't know what else to say.

"I will Deborah."

"Thank you...I'm glad she found you. You have treated her so well please take care of her and Ana... I can see that you love her just give my baby the mother she deserves." Deborah stands and walks away leaving us in silence. I wasn't sure what to say. Nevaeh gives me a kiss before asking to go home. I look to wards Ana who sends me a tiny smile. I wasn't able to feel happy about this meeting because I knew it hurt Nevaeh and Deborah. Grabbing Ana's hand I walk both of my girls to the car.

So that was a little rough for me to write. I knew I needed to write it because Nevaeh is a smart little girl and she feels betrayed by her mom. She's not ready to see her but she does forgive her. She just wants to be happy with Christian and Ana now because they've shown her so much love. Christmas is coming soon and Ana will be meeting his family. Its going to be an emotional but fun day. This chapter was pretty emotional for me. What did you guys think? How did you feel about Nevaeh and her feeling or Christian? He's still a new dad so he wont be perfect but he's trying real hard for his angel. Poor Ana loves this little girl and wants nothing more to be a mother too her. Well its a good thing Christian will be proposing soon! So tell me your thoughts.