Chapter 25

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Merlyn took a deep breath before she knocked gently on Morgana's chamber door. After knocking a second time, she heard Morgana's voice allowing her in. She gently opened the door and entered. She saw Morgana standing by her window, her arms around herself and the sun's hue on her. She was dressed in a red dress her hair let down wavy and pinned from her face by a gold brooch. She looked the epitome of a Camelot princess.

That only changed when she turned around. Morgana looked a sight. Her eyes were red and puffy and she looked tired and worn. Merlyn felt her heart go to the girl she had come to see as her honorary sister and closest friend.

"Morgana, are you alright?" asked Merlyn and even to her, the question seemed stupid and hollow. How could Morgana be alright?

"No. I am not Merlyn. I cant believe I had a mother Merlyn. A mother I never knew, a family I never knew because he lied. He lied to me, to you, to Arthur." said Morgana

"We will get past this Mo. We will."

"How? How do we do it huh? For my whole life I have been lied to Merlyn. I was told I had a mother who had died, that Arthur was my brother!"

"He is still your brother. That doesn't change." said Merlyn

"Yes he is but it doesn't change that I was cheated out of a life with my mother and sister. Why didn't he just let me go? Why didn't he let my mother raise me? He already had his precious heir didn't he? Why did he take me?"

"Morgana…" said Merlyn at a loss at what to do or say to make her feel better. she was still mourning and in loss.

"I always wondered you know," said Morgana in a much calmer voice. "I mean Arthur and I are different. We don't really share any similarities…"

"Except for your stubborn streak." said Merlyn trying to inject some humor. It worked. Morgana chuckled.

"Yeah that." said Morgana then she came and sat on the bed. "Growing up, I wished for a mother, a mother figure to guide me, to give me advice and to hug me when I needed it. Then you came. You certainly weren't my mother, but I had someone, a female there for me who I could trust and talk to. Merlyn, my mother was alive. She was there alive and I never knew her." said Morgana tears streaming down her cheeks. Merlyn could only comfort her hoping she would feel better.

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Arthur watched as Merlyn twirled with the food on her plate but none making it to her mouth. "Merlyn, are you alright?" he asked gently. Merlyn looked up at him and he could see the dimness in her blue eyes. "Talk to me my love."

"I am worried about Morgana Arthur. she is not doing alright at all."

Arthur sighed. "I know what you mean. I didn't know my mother because she was dead. Her mother was alive for more than half her life. I know what it means to long fro a mother." God knows how many times he had wished his mother had been around especially when Uther acted too harsh on him or was not around.

"She is barely eating. Julia said so and she spends her time looking at her bracelet."

"It's the only link she has to her family." said Arthur gently and Merlyn nodded. Arthur reached out and took Merlyn's hand gently. "Hey, we will do all our best to help her. She will pull through this. That much I know."

"I hope so."

"Now eat up love. Our baby needs the food ok?" Merlyn nodded and began eating.

They had taken to eating all their meals alone. They invited Morgana but she declined most times. None of them could bare being in the presence of Uther. Uther himself barely left his quarters. He only did to perform royal duties. Often times, he could feel Uther's eyes on him. Looking at his father (when he wasn't looking of course) he could see a broken man. A man who no longer had a future, whose dreams were shattered but he felt no pity.

If he hadn't lied and done so many despicable things, he might have forgiven him. Now…he didn't know if could ever forgive his father let alone trust him ever again.

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Merlyn was sitting on a settee in her chambers talking to Gwen. At least not everything was gloomy in Camelot. Gwen and Lance were going on well with a wedding et in 2 months time.

There was a knock on the door. It was Morgana. "May I speak with you privately?" said Morgana. Merlyn nodded concerned and signaled for Gwen to leave. Gwen left closing the door behind her.

"Morgana?"

"I came to tell you that I am leaving."

"What?" said Merlyn stunned. Of all the things she had expected!

"Leaving? What do you mean leaving? Where are you going?" asked Merlyn alarmed.

"I am going to try and find Morgause…"

"What! Morgana no…"

"She is my sister Merlyn, a sister I never knew and she is the one who can tell me about my mother."

"How do you know she can be trusted?"

"She told you and Arthur the truth didn't she? She didn't kill you and she gave me this bracelet that makes me not have nightmares." Ok Morgana was making some pretty good points here. "She is a good person. Beside its not like I am leaving forever. I am just going for a week or so."

"I don't like this Morgana."

"I am still going. My mind is made up."

Merlyn sighed. Damn that stubborn streak. "Do you know where to find her?"

"She said should I need her, I will find my way." Merlyn thought back to what had happened when they had gone looking for Morgause. Morgause had charmed Arthur's horse. Maybe she had charmed the bracelet in the same way.

Merlyn sighed and went to Morgana. "I am not going to say I like you going away but I understand the need to know your sister and find out about your mother. I just, please be careful and come back. We need you here too." said Merlyn.

"I know. I will be back. Will you let Arthur know?"

"You wont wait until he is back?" asked Merlyn. Arthur had gone for a hunt. He needed some time to unwind and just be free. She couldn't join him because of her condition (he had insisted).

"I cannot wait. The early I go, the sooner I come back." Merlyn nodded and took her coat. "Where are you going?"

"I am going to escort you of course and no I will not be alone. Its not like I can escape the knights even if I wanted to. Arthur ordered them to stay on my heel." said Merlyn with distaste and Morgana laughed.

"That is Arthur for you."

Merlyn left her chambers with Morgana and went to take her horse. With her was Sir Leon and Sir Charles.

Morgana and Leon rode in front talking. Things were going really well with the 2. They hadn't kissed yet but Morgana said they were close to… it was clear Leon felt strongly for Morgana and she for him and that alone told her Morgana would be back. If not for her and Arthur, then for Leon.

Hugging Morgana goodbye was painful. Even if she was going to come back, it still hurt a lot to see her go.

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"Do you think Morgana found her? Morgause I mean?" asked Merlyn as she looked out the dark night. Arthur walked across the room and circled his arms around Merlyn's waist feeling her still flat stomach wondering briefly how a little life was in there, a life they had created.

"I should hope she did."

"I miss her."

"We all do." Merlyn turned and looked at Arthur in surprise. "Hey we may tease each other a lot but she is my sister. I miss her presence even though all she lives for is to embarrass and tease me." said Arthur and they laughed.

"I hope she finds what she seeks and comes home soon."

The 2 of them looked outside at the cool night and hoped Morgana was safe and sound. She would be back and when she came back she will be healed.

There it is. How was it? I know Morgana went to see Morgause. I promise you Morgana will not be evil in this.

Tell me what you think.