Sunday September 13, 2015

"Are you sure you have to leave tomorrow, it seems like you just got here."

"That's because I did and I don't have to but I don't want us to be a distraction on you since you have school."

"But you and Brendan won't and I actually like having you and him here, I like having the company. I get lonely here, you know. And I want to spend more time with my son." Spencer grabbed my hand. "Stay longer."

I stared down at our hands. "Spencer, I just don't think it's a good idea."

"Why?"

"Because... Look, I understand you want to spend more time with Brendan especially since you barely get to see him as it is, but Denver is my home and I should really get back. I've been gone long enough with the baby."

"What can I do to make you stay longer?"

"Spencer, there's nothing you can do or say to make me stay longer. This isn't my home and I only came to visit for the weekend. I wasn't planning on staying longer than Monday. And besides, I don't even have the baby essentials our son would need and I would need even if…"

Spencer didn't let me finish and leaned over giving me a kiss on my lips. I smiled and licked my lips when our lips broke and stared up into his blue eyes.

"Mmm…"

"You liked that, didn't you?" He murmured.

I didn't reply but with a smile and he leaned in to kiss me again. I just miss his kisses and I just miss him. He picked me up off the sofa and carried me into his room still kissing me. He laid me on his bed and got on top of me. This just reminds me of the time back in November.

"S-Spencer, we can't."

He stopped and stared down at me. "You're right we shouldn't, but we should." He continued to kiss me.

I heard Brendan start to cry, which was perfect timing because it seemed like our kissing was about to turn into something more. I pushed Spencer off me and got up and walked over to the extra room where he was sleeping.

"Aw, what's wrong baby?" I asked picking up my crying son. "Did you know what daddy was about to do to mommy and you didn't want to allow that?" I whispered. "I know I didn't want that to happen." I walked over to my diaper bag and grabbed a binky and put it in his mouth. "Shh, go back to sleep." I said softly rocking him. He grabbed a hold of my finger and held tight onto it. I saw Spencer walk in and laid next to me on the bed.

"How is he?" He asked.

I stared down at my son who was falling back asleep. "He just wanted me, that's it."

"I want you too. If I cry, do I get you?"

I smiled and pushed him with left arm. "Go to bed. You have class tomorrow."

He smiled. "But I am in bed."

"I meant your bed."

He smirked. "Technically this is my bed."

"I mean the bed in your room, the bed you slept in last night and the night before and so on."

He frowned. "I want to sleep in here with you and our son especially if this is going to be the last night I'll see you both in a while. Please."

"Fine, but no touchy, touchy with me."

"Ha, that's no fun, but fine, no touchy, touchy."

When Brendan finally fell back asleep, I gently laid him in the middle of me and Spencer and kissed him.

"I love you, goodnight." I whispered to him.

"I love you too, the both of you." Spencer whispered.

The next day, I woke up about 7:15 and Spencer was already awake since he has to get ready for his 8:00 class. Brendan was still sleeping, so I left him in the bed and walked out of the room to the kitchen where Spencer was cooking himself some breakfast.

"Hey Spencer." I said yawning. "What cha making?" I asked leaning on the counter.

"Some scrambled eggs. Would you like any?"

"Uh, no I'm fine."

"I really hate how you're leaving today, especially with what happened last night, the kiss or should I say kisses. Are you sure you can't stay longer? Come on, one more week."

I shook my head and bit my bottom lip. "Bren and I will just be a distraction on you and you need to focus on school and not on us."

He sighed. "When is your flight?"

"Umm…" I took my phone out to look. "Twelve."

"Oh, well it was real nice having you and him here, you know, and I wish you could stay longer."

"Yeah, I know, and it was nice seeing you too even if it was only for two days. So you are going to ask you mom if she can watch Bren when I go back to school, right?"

"Yeah, yeah… I'll text or call you with what she says but I'm sure she will. When will you start?"

"Well first, I have to apply and get accepted but I could probably start next semester, I mean if I get accepted."

"Don't worry, you will. If you can get into Yale, then you can get in to Denver."

Oh how I want to be at Yale. "Yeah I know… but I wish I was going to Yale instead."

"Denver may not be an Ivy League college, but it's still a great school."

"Yeah, I know but Yale is my dream school. I have always dreamed to go to that school and graduate becoming a journalist."

"And you will still become one, just at Denver and at least you went to Yale and lived out that dream even if it was only for a year."

"Yeah, I guess…"

Spencer looked at his watch and he needed to go so he wouldn't be late for class. He walked into the bedroom were Brendan was sleeping and gave him a kiss and told him he loved him and walked back out to give me a hug.

"Well have a safe flight back."

"Yeah, thanks for having us."

He smiled and headed out but he stopped halfway. "Lock up when you leave."

I nodded and closed the door behind him. I leaned against the door and crossed my arms. I love you Spencer.