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"Nana Deb, have you seen Chester?"
"Chester?" she asked as she thought about it "You know I don't think I have" she replied as she watched her grandson's face fall "When was the last time you saw him buddy?"
"Uh not yesterday but the day before then" he replied
"Wait so you haven't seen him for 2 days and you're just asking me now?" she asked worried
"Well I didn't get to play with him yesterday and mama helped me try to find him last night. She says he's playing hide and seek with me."
"Did you see him in his cage?"
Jamie shook his head no
"Oh boy" Deb thought to herself out loud as she kept a smile to her face "Come on lets go and see if we can find him before breakfast" she said as she took his hand
"Jake deserves to know what?"
Silence
"Nathan" they both said in unison caught off guard
"Hey Peyton, how are you doing?" he asked pulling her into a warm friendly hug
"I-I'm good" she replied
He nodded "Where have you been?"
"Oh I went to visit my dad; had to clear my head"
"It's good to have you back" he added sincerely as she smiled
"Thanks. Its' good to be home; I-I'm surprised you don't hate me"
"Peyton listen okay. I can never hate you I mean we're friends, we go way back and yeah I don't agree with what you did" she nodded "but you just can't help who you love right?"
Peyton stayed quiet as guilt rushed over her "I know and I wish I could take it all back but I can't"
"Give her some time, she'll come around" he smiled
"So what does Jake have a right to know?" he asked again
"You know, I'm so hungry; Deb and Jamie are probably waiting for us so how about some breakfast" asked Haley
Nathan smiled at her "Well then lets' go eat"
"I'm actually going to get going. I haven't been back to the studio in 3 weeks"
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah I am Hales; I'll see you both later okay?" she replied as they said their goodbyes
"Nathan I'll be right back" he nodded as he walked towards the kitchen
"Peyton" yelled Haley as she stood at the front door as the curly blonde turned around
"If you need anything especially if you need me to go with you, I'd be more than happy too"
"Thanks Hales; it means a lot. I'll call you in a bit okay"
"Okay" she smiled
...
Silence
"Brooke? W-What's going on? Is all this true?" asked the gorgeous brooding blonde once he found his voice; staring straight at her
Brooke and Karen looked over at one another then back over to Lucas as they both noticed how all the blood suddenly just drained from his face leaving him rather pale looking
"Are you p-pregnant? Were you a-attacked?" silence "Brooke, say something; anything?" he pushed as she was unable to make eye contact with him as her heart was racing a mile a minute
As silence filled the air, she started panicking as she turned to Karen for help who had an apologetic look on her face.
"Will someone please tell me what's going on here?"
Karen sighed as it broke her heart to see the hurt, and confused look in her sons eyes "Brooke honey" she spoke now turning her attention back to the brunette she loves "I think it's time you two talked about everything" she nudged lightly squeezing Brooke's arm
Brooke sighed "I-I'm sorry, but I-I can't do this" she said once she found her voice brushing past him
"Brooke" they said in unison as Lucas gently grasped her wrist
"Luke-"
"Not this time" he shook his head "I want the truth; so please talk to me, help me understand what I-I just heard"
She took a deep breath closing her eyes just as she felt nausea take over her body once again; this time from being so nervous, worried and scared that she instantly hurried over to the toilet as she emptied out her stomach
He rushed over towards her as he held up his pretty girl's hair and rubbed circles along her back; comforting her the best he could
"What is taking you guys so long?" asked a curious Lily as she stood by the door tapping her feet. "Is Broowkie sick? Is she okay" she asked scared as she watched Brooke from behind hunched over
"We'll leave you two alone; come on sweetie lets go have some breakfast" she smiled taking Lily's hand as she squeezed her sons arm
"But mommy is Broowkie okay?"
"She's going to be just fine honey"
...
Peyton walked around her office as she picked up and put down picture frames sighing as she shook her head holding back tears. She then walked into the studio as her fingers gently glided across the instruments she had set up for the band to use.
"Look at the view; Brooke this place is beautiful but-"
"But"
"I just worry I'm keeping you from your life; I know you came down here for me"
"You know in New York I thought I had everything I ever wanted; money, celebrity, success. But you know what I didn't have? Sunrise with my best friend"
"Surprise" exclaimed Brooke
"You rented a house?"
"Well not exactly-"
"Brooke, you did not just buy this house! What were you thinking?!" shrieked Peyton
"What you don't like it?" she pouted
"No it's incredible"
"Good, that's your room right there" they then used their lungs to express their excitement
"No one knew that I cried myself to sleep every night or that I starved myself or that I slept around so I wouldn't get my heart broken again. Hell now that all my secrets are out; why not tell everyone that I even started cutting myself so I wouldn't feel the pain. Did you know that Peyton? -Of course not! While you and Lucas were happy in love, I was a broken record. Did you know that I even knew exactly where to cut myself knowing that I could just kill myself instantly" she said snapping her fingers "just like that, without any pain?! Did you? If it wasn't for Nate, I'd be dead by now."
"Hi, where did you sleep?"
"In my car, see I had this horrible dream last night that my best friend had feelings for my boyfriend, ahuh that wasn't a dream was it?!"
"Brooke-"
"Why now Peyton?" Why would you tell me you have feelings for Lucas when I have so much going on in my life right now, stuff you don't even know about?!"
"Well so do I, trust me. But I didn't wish for this. I wished for Jake!"
"Oh right, you wished for Jake after you wished for Pete then Lucas."
"I cannot believe this is happening again."
"It's not, okay it's not. It's just the last "
"The last time? Do you hear yourself right now? The last time you tried to steal my boyfriend he was on the damn door under ME!-"
"I don't want to steal him okay-"
"But you like him"
"Brooke I'm not going to do anything about it! I'll just bury it!"
"You can't! It's out like the time capsule, and you could have buried it and not said anything to me so what is that about?-"
"I don't know alright! I just wanted to be honest with you! I didn't want to make the same mistake I did last time, and you know what you even said last night at TRIC that you didn't really miss him."
SLLLLAPPP!
"Don't you dare, don't you dare twist my words around to make yourself feel like a back stabbing two faced bitch Peyton because you are and you know it!"
"Jake" she said as she sighed
"No Jake! Last night I pretty much lost my best friend who has always been there for me; found out all her deepest darkest secrets which she pretty much out'd for everyone to hear. God the pain Lucas and I caused her. I've never once put her feelings into consideration; I'm a selfish person Jake. When I told her that I had feelings for Lucas, I knew that they loved each other; come on he fought nail and tooth for her, but I didn't care." she sobbed
He pulled her into a hug. "Tell me Peyton" he said as he rubbed circles in her back "why did you do it? I mean, you came to Savannah unexpectedly, asked me to marry you and then in the middle of the night you dream about him? Why?" he asked still hurting from the memory.
She sighed.
"Am I a horrible person Peyton? Am I hard to love? Did I do something wrong? Tell me?" he begged.
She pulled away from him as tears streamed down her cheeks. "Jake you are an amazing person. God, you were the first person I ever fell in love with and part of me never stopped loving you."
"Then what happened? I need to know!" he said as he got up and paced the room. "Ever since you left my house I couldn't eat, sleep or even think straight. I was a real mess Peyton. I never knew it was possible to fall in love with someone so much that it hurts until I met you. Was it Jenny? Was it too much for you? Did we do something to chase you off? I thought you were happy with us?" he said as tears welded up in his eyes.
"Oh god no, you and Jenny are so important to me Jake.
"Important?" he chuckled. "You have a great way of showing important."
"It was just that" she said not knowing if she should tell him the truth.
"Just what Peyton?" he asked "Let me guess, it was because you were confused right? You loved us both but you didn't know who to choose? Is that it?" he yelled.
"No!" she cried. "It was just that I was afraid you'd leave me again!" she yelled. "There are you happy Jake?! I was afraid that you and Jenny might pick up and leave me again. My heart wouldn't be able to handle it Jake. I love you both so much it hurts okay?! I knew that Luke cared about me, and I knew that he would never leave me. He was my safety net."
Jake was speechless. "How could you Peyton?" he said in disbelief! "You just said that Brooke and Lucas were in love. LOVE! Doesn't that mean something?! How could you break up a relationship like that?!!" he exclaimed beyond dismay. "Brooke is your best friend, Peyton and you hurt her twice!" he said as he pointed it out. "She's always been loyal to you!"
"Can you not remind me" she yelled. "I know what I did was wrong and unforgivable, but I was scared Jake. People always leave me and when you came along you left me twice! You made me fall in love with you and then you broke my heart by running. I needed you and Jenny. Besides my friends, and Brooke you were my family! My dad was never around, both my mother's died and you kept leaving" she sobbed
"Peyton, don't give me that bull crap! You knew that if Nikki wasn't a problem Jenny and I would have stayed put"
"Well Nikki wasn't in the picture after you moved to Savannah. Why didn't you move home?" she asked
"Because you left to be with Lucas. I thought you loved him more than me, but that still doesn't give you a right to hurt Brooke or Lucas like that! "Safety net?" he said. "Unbelievable! You should have talked to me about it Peyton instead of running home scared."
"Well, I didn't tell him to stop fighting for her. She was the one who told him she stopped missing him." She exclaimed.
"Peyton, do you even hear yourself right now?" he asked completely flabbergasted. "You told her that you were in love with her boyfriend! Can you seriously blame her for being afraid that she might get her heart broken again from what you two did the first time? What happened to the Peyton I fell in love with? I feel like I don't even know you anymore."
"Peyton" she heard as she froze "Y-You're here" he exclaimed walking over towards her
...
Brooke stood in front of the mirror as she rinsed out her mouth feeling Lucas's strong powerful gaze on her as she closed her eyes not waiting to see the pain, hurt and confused look deep down within them. "Please don't be upset with me" she pleaded as tears streamed down her cheeks
"Brooke I could never be upset with you; I-I just want to know what's going on? Help me understand" he begged
Silence
"Take a walk with me?" she asked "There's something I want to show you that will explain everything" she said nervously
He nodded as he extended his hand out to her "Anytime, anywhere; lead the way" he replied smiling as their fingers entwine. "You're in your pjs; you sure you don't want to drive?" he asked her knowing she would normally never want to be caught dead out in public especially in sleep clothes
She looked down at herself and thought about it. "I want to walk" she replied not really caring if people saw her or not. He smiled squeezing her hand as they headed out the door. They walked for awhile in silence as he would glance over at her knowing she was deep in thought. She would shiver to the cool morning breeze as he wrapped his arms around her shoulder bringing her closer towards him. He knew she'd talk when she was ready too; even if the silence was killing him.
"Pretty girl, w-when did you paint your door black?" he asked uneasy at the choice of color knowing it was set to match her mood. "What the heck is going on?" he asked out loud in his head as he watched her push it open
"Oh uh a few days ago" she replied brushing it off like it was nothing as they went inside "I-I couldn't stand the door red"
"Guess things changed since I haven't been here for a few days" he sighed scolding himself "What? But that doesn't make any sense" he started saying as he followed her up the stairs "Red has always been your favorite color" he added utterly dumbfounded "You've always been the girl behind the red door-"
"Okay Luke, don't freak out on me" she warned as she took a deep breath.
"Why would I freak ou-"
She stayed quiet as she positioned herself right in front of her bathroom mirror where all the drawings she drew when the attack first happened outlined her face.
"Out" he asked as his mouth dropped open and eyes popped out.
She glanced up at him as she realized he was lost for words
Lucas felt as if his heart just stopped as he came face to face with something he never thought was possible.
"Luke" she said staring straight into his eyes
"W-What is all that?!" he managed to get out alarmed as he was unable to take his eyes off of all the writing
She sighed "M-My Revenge Diagram" she replied
"Revenge Diagr-" he started asking but was cut off
"You see you're right Luke, red was always my favorite color" she said as he listened puzzled "it made me feel brilliant, beautiful and brave; exactly the way you described me in your book, not to mention sophisticated, daring and loved. I was the cheery, happy, care-free, very-loved girl behind the red door" she explained staring at him through the mirror "but that all changed that night I got a-att" she paused as she took a deep breath unable to say it
He couldn't move as she spoke, afraid his body might give in; collapse even if he did. He felt all these emotions run through his body; from scared, shocked to frightened- you name it he felt it. He kept his eyes locked on the broken beautiful brunette he loved with all his heart. "Y-You got w-what Brooke?" he asked as his heart started rapidly beating already knowing the answer
She stayed silent breaking eye contact; looking away as she tried to hold back tears
"Y-You got w-what" he asked again as he had the courage to take a few steps forward now gently clasping her by the arms. He had to hear it himself; it had to come out of her mouth for him to fully believe it
"I-I uh" she said now terrified
"Tell me Brooke; tell me! Say it; say it! I want to hear it from you!" he replied raising his voice appalled but not once yelling at her
Tears formed in her eyes
"Pretty girl" he said slowly turning her to face him as tears now welded up in his own eyes "Please. I need to hear you explain what happened that night you took off suddenly" he begged slightly shaking as it broke her heart "The night you fell down the st-"
She closed her eyes nodding as her mind was racing. "I-I g-got A-Attacked!" she whispered loud enough for him to hear as tears began to roll down her cheeks. He gasped as he let go of her arms; stumbling backwards as if he was just burned
She panicked once she realize the truth came out of her mouth
"WHAT?!" he exclaimed now grasping her wrist; keeping her from walking away from him. "Y-You were what?!" he asked again as she wouldn't make eye contact with him.
"I-I got A-Attacked Lucas!" she shouted as the tears came streaming down her cheeks "I was A-Attacked, R-Robbed and almost R-Raped by those assholes my mother hired to steal my sketches!" she cried
"But you said you fell-"
"NO LUKE!" she shouted shaking her head "I didn't get tangled up in sheets nor did I really fall down the damn stairs! I was attacked in my store that night and I c-couldn't let you or anyone see how hideous I looked"
"I was A-Attacked, R-Robbed and almost R-Raped by those assholes my mother hired to steal my sketches!" replayed in his head making him feel as if he just got the wind knocked out of him. Her words hit him like someone just stuck a knife into his heart and stabbed him over and over a million times.
...
"Jake; what are you doing here?"
"I was driving by and I saw your car out front. I didn't believe it at first; but you really are here" he smiled "I've been looking everywhere for you" she sighed "Where have you been; and why are you hiding from me?"
"I'm sorry that you went through all that trouble Jake; I really am but it's just that I-I had to get out of town and I was missing my dad" she replied "I'm not hiding from you believe me"
Jake nodded unable to take his eyes off of the beautiful curly blonde "How is he?"
"Busy" she replied "Speaking of busy"
"Peyton, please don't push me away" he begged "I know you have a lot going on not to mention a lot has happened but I love you Peyton Sawyer. Always have and always will"
"Jake"
"No hear me out" he begged as she nodded
"I know that I'm to blame for confusing your feelings Peyton and I honestly don't blame you for leaving me or for running back into Lucas's arms. I was the one who told you to go back and figure out who was really in your heart; especially when I knew you loved both of us. The biggest mistake and regret I have is for letting you walk away from me; from us. If I had just stopped acting like a coward and not let Nikki get to me we'd be happy by now" he sighed "I swear to you Peyton that I'm done running, and the truth is that I came back for you. I've realized that these past 6 years without you in my life has been hell Peyton; Jenny and I both need you in our lives. Please give me a second chance to show you how much I; we love and need you" he said as he cupped her cheeks in his hands; starring deeply into her eyes.
"Jake"
"Tell me you don't love me and I'll walk away from you right now and I promise I'll never ever come near you again. Tell me that I can't save, worry or love you anymore"
Silence as her mind once again got the best of her
"I did coke with that guy but it was... it was one time and it was stupid. I know.
"You've got so much going on, why you would need a crush like that"
"I was weak. You don't have to worry about me, Jake"
"I know. But what if I want to? You're so strong, Peyton. You don't even know it. I mean, you got me through some pretty dark days. And I've been thinking that, if I can get all that from some words on a piece of paper, just imagine what it would be like to have the real thing every day. I'm just... I'm tired of running, Peyton. Come with me, let's bring Jenny back home."
"Hey when did you get back?" asked Lucas
"A few days ago"
"Hi; how's Jenny?" asked Brooke
"Hey; good. She's getting bigger every day"
"You getting scrawny; you better hit the weight room" joke Lucas
"Yeah" laughed Jake
"You still going to be here?" asked Mouth
"Yeah, yeah; I'm back for good now. I mean I got some messes to clean up; get a lawyer see if I could keep Nikki away but I'm done running"
"That's good, we need you here"
"Thanks"
"You good?" asked Lucas
"Yes, thank you for calling him; you're a good friend Luke"
-"I had to call in a few favors to get the breeze just right. How bout the stars? I told them not to go too heavy so they didn't look all 'Movie Moment'. You know, more than a million less than a billion"
"Right, you know, you wouldn't think just a stroll down the river would take so much planning!
"What are you kidding?! Romantic lighting, couple scattered about, music in the distance.
"You're just lucky I'm a cheap date" she laughed
-"How you feeling?" he asked smiling
"Happy" she replied
"Yeah me too; man we're going to be late"
"Weddings always start late anyways right?"
"Half an hour"
"Works for me"
"Peyton?" he said pulling her out of her train of thought "Say something please, anything" he begged
...
"I-I got A-Attacked Lucas!" she shouted as the tears came streaming down her cheeks "I was A-Attacked, robbed and almost raped by those assholes my mother hired to steal my sketches!" were the words that replayed over and over in his head like a broken record as he some what tuned everything else she was saying out. His mind got the best of him…
"You know how proud Keith is of your right now?"
"Oh I don't know about that"
"He is. Let Brooke help you out with this" said Peyton
"Why did she say something to you?" he asked
"No, I just know how you are; I'm the same way. She gave you her heart Luke, you should give yours back"
-
"So ma, I'm going to take off okay? Silence "Hello?" he knocks "Well I'll be on my cell if you need anything"
"Don't take it personally; she's been through a lot."
"I know" he sighs "She seems so hopeless"
"Yeah we're all going to get our hope back Luke. It's just going to take some of us longer than others"
-
"You okay?"
"Yeah I'm fine. I'm just thinking about how beautiful it is here. It's weird sometimes I have these moments that Keith's with me"
-
"He is"
"What's that scar there?"
"When I was six, I went on this camping trip with my mom and Keith It was the first time I ever went fishing and I accidentally hooked myself through my thumb"
"Sssss; ouch"
"Yeah hurt like hell; well I started crying" they chuckle "Except Keith takes out his pocket knife and cuts his thumb too and says if we rubbed them together we'd be blood brothers"
"That's sweet"
"Now whenever I look at the scare, I can remember the time and feel good but what about my mom? I mean you said everybody will heal eventually; but what if she doesn't? I mean she's just so angry and tortured"
"I know, but you've done everything you can, everything right whether she shows it or not in her heart your mom knows you're there for her. Promise"
"So what do we do now?"
"I don't know, have faith that she's going to get better"
-
"Hey pretty girl"
"Hey; I was gonna sleep in my car but I heard a noise and I think it was a bear or something"
"Where were you parked?" he laughed
"Right outside here"
"Well, have I told you how much I love you today?"
"Not really"
"Well I do; even when I don't tell you it means a lot to me to know you're there. It means everything"
"I am here. We both are"
"I know. It's good being here especially with you"
"I wish that it was me. I know that's horrible and I know that's selfish but, I watched you rescue Peyton and you told me you rescued Dan and sometimes I just wish you could rescue me"
"From what?" he asked
"From all of it" she replied
"Okay then. I will. If you promise to rescue me back"
"I promise"
"I PROMISED!" he said out loud as she looked over at him confused. Just then something inside of him snapped "NO; that's impossible!" he shook his head
"Luke, I'm sorry I didn't tell you or Naley or Rac-"
"I was A-Attacked, robbed and almost raped by those assholes my mother hired to steal my sketches!" he heard over and over "NO BROOKE! YOU FELL DOWN THE GOD DAMN STAIRS!" he shook his head again cutting her off as he stormed up to the mirror violently wiping off the red contents; totally ranting and raving like a mad man
"Luke?!" she yelled as she walked over towards him flabbergasted
"YOU WEREN'T ATTACKED OR ALMOST RAPED BY THOSE ASSHOLES YOUR MOM HIRED" he roared as his voice sent chills down her spine as it was filled with anger and rage. "YOU WEREN'T ATTACKED! YOU WEREN'T ATTACKED BROOKE!" Just then he heard it again "Almost raped by those assholes my mother hired to steal my sketches!" his mind got the best of him as he started thinking and imaging that some sick SOB was putting his hands and mouth all over his pretty girl. He closed his eyes as he could hear her voice screaming as it echoed in his head making him sick to his stomach. "No, no" she cried kicking and screaming as she tried to get out of his grip wincing in pain. Tears were now flowing down her cheeks. "Help, somebody please help me! Help!" she screamed once again. "Please, stop" she begged as he ripped the rest of her shirt exposing her bra. She tried to push him off as he placed kisses on her tummy, moving towards the valley of her breasts. "Please don't do this" she begged as she closed her shirt in front turning on to her side as she rolled up into a ball. "Stop! Please stop. Oh god! Get off me, don't do this!" she begged "URRRRRgh! He exclaimed livid as the next thing he did scared her to death. She watched as he slammed his fist into the glass over and over breaking it into pieces
"OMG LUKE!" she gasped covering her mouth in shock as she rushed up to him "STOP! PLEASE STOP!" she exclaimed trying to pull him away from the broken glass
"I was A-Attacked, robbed and almost raped by those assholes my mother hired to steal my sketches!-NO! YOU GOT TANGLED UP IN SHEETS BROOKE!! YOU FELL DOWN THE GOD DAMN STAIRS; THAT'S HOW YOU GOT ALL THOSE CUTS AND BRUISES! NO ONE CAN BE THAT CRUEL OR VINDICTIVE ENOUGH TO HURT SOMEONE AS SELFLESS, KIND, CARING, BEAUTIFUL AS YOU; NOT EVEN YOUR OWN GOD DAMN MOTHER!! You fell down the god damn stairs BROOKE!" he cried "YOU FELL DOWN THE GOD DAMN STAIRS! YOU WEREN'T ATTACKED!" he shouted louder and louder as tears poured down his face "OH GOD; YOU FELL DOWN THE GOD DAMN STAIRS!" he bawled as the smeared red lipstick that was all over his hands turned into blood from the few cuts he received from the broken glass
"LUKE, PLEASE STOP! YOU'RE BLEEDING!" she screamed as she tried to pull him away from the mirror as her tears continued streaming down her cheeks uncontrollably. "You're hurting yourself! Stop!"
"I-I DON'T CARE!" he barked. It was the truth; he didn't care! "I DESERVE TO GET HURT, I DESERVE TO BLEED, I DESERVE THIS PAIN; THIS PAIN IS NOTHING COMPARED TO THE PAIN YOU WENT THROUGH! I COULD'T PROTECT YOU LIKE I PROMISED I WOULD! YOU DESERVE TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO CAN AND WON'T LET YOU DOWN!!"
"LUKE STOP! PLEASE, YOU'RE SCARING ME" she shouted stepping in front of him as her tears turned into sobs breaking him out of his trance.
"Brooke; oh god" he cursed at himself "I-I'm so sorry pretty girl; I'm so sorry" he cried as he locked eyes with his broken beautiful girlfriend "Come here" he said as he wrapped his arms tightly around her as she fell into his embrace "I'm so sorry"
"Oh Luke" she cried "I wish I could tell you that I fell down the stairs, but I can't; I'm sorry I can't!"
"Shhhh" he said as they held on to each other for dear life. "Baby I'm so sorry I wasn't there to protect you. Please forgive me." He pleaded as they stood forehead to forehead as their tears continued to roll down their cheeks "I love you so much Brooke that it hurts."
"Luke, I never once blamed you for any of it" she said sincerely cupping his face with her hands "I-I didn't tell you or anyone because I was in shock, and I was s-scared; terrified actually." she sighed "I became this angry, cold and distant person and that's not who I am or how I want to live my life Luke. "I wanted revenge and I stopped believing in karma as I wanted to take action into my own hands. I-I even bought a gun and learned how to use it"
He was lost for words "W-What?!" he exclaimed taken back as he looked at her shocked; thank god he was sitting down
She nodded "I-I swear to you that I never ever intended on using it for any reason except to scare Victoria regardless of the state of mind I was in" he nodded as he believed her "Jamie was the one who pulled me out of my black hole"
"Where is it now?"
"I got rid of it"
"Thank god" he replied as he hugged her tighter
"I pushed everyone away and I'm sorry Luke; god you don't know how good it makes me feel that you know the truth. I'm sorry that I kept it from you" she cried "I love you so much with all my heart and soul; and just the thought of losing you that nig-" she stopped herself as she buried her face into his chest
"It's okay pretty girl, its' okay; let it out. You're safe with me; you're never going to lose me because I can't live my life without you" he replied as tears continued to stream down his cheeks
"You are the guy for me Lucas Scott" she said pulling him closer to her as she rested her hands on his chest "There's no one else I would rather spend my life with. I told Karen because she has always been the mother figure I never had. She made me realize that the love you guys had for me was more than enough than the love I've ever wanted from Victoria. All I wanted was her love Luke; a mother's love! Why couldn't she love me? I did everything she wanted but still it wasn't enough?! Why would she hurt me like that for stupid sketches?! Sketches I created a company with; the company I made her a part of" She then walked over towards her closet and threw out all her B/C clothes "I-I hate her! I don't want any of it anymore!" she bawled "Am I that hard to love?"
"Brooke you listen to me and you listen to me good. You make loving so easy and so natural that you light up a dark and gloomy room with your contagious cheery laugh and beautiful heart felt smile. You put everyone's feelings first before your very own even if it causes you heartache. You give everyone you meet the benefit of the doubt; you see the good in others even if it means giving them chance after chance to prove themselves" she listened as tears glided down her cheeks "Knowing and loving you pushes me to be a better person and I can't ever see my life without you in it. I would rather be alone than without you Brooke Penelope Davis. You have my heart and soul and without you I feel lost, confused and alone. You don't deserve to be a Davis; but I thank god for your parents because then I would have never met you naked in the back seat of my car" she chuckled through tears as she placed her hands on his shoulders "You asked me that night when that last shot went through did I feel it change and I did and you're right you don't get that many moments when you can say it all changed for you; but something else changed for me that night as well like a double whammy" he chortle as he cupped her cheeks with his hands "I met you" he said as she looked up at him affectionately "Some might say it was basketball, some might say it was my writing or even Peyton but you pretty girl" he said tilting her chin up so their eyes could meet "you were what changed for me that night. You came into my life; you're my past, present and future"
"Oh Luke"
"It might have taken me awhile not to mention mistake after mistake to realize that the one person I'm so in love with is standing before my very own eyes. I went to bed with you next to me last night, as I woke up with you next to me this morning" she smiled "and it made me realize that, that's the way our life is suppose to be. You and me, happy-in love; growing old together" she nodded as he took a deep breath as he got down on one knee pulling out a red velvet box
"Luke" she gasped as her hands automatically covered her mouth "Are you proposing to me because you walked in on my conversation with your mom; because if so-"
He pressed his finger against her lips as he silence her shaking his head no. "Brooke Penelope Davis, I love you from the bottom of my heart; with every ounce and fiber of my soul. I can't imagine my life without you nor can I imagine loving anyone but you. I want to spend the rest of my life growing old with you and being that power couple we're destined to be; the famous novelist and fabulous designer with our 2 beautiful boys" he said as he placed a hand and a kiss on her tummy rubbing it gently "or our little girl" he smiled as her tears continued to stream down her cheeks. "I'll coach little league, and you'll bake treats for the team; well you know you'll buy them" they chuckled as tears now rolled down his cheeks "We'll spend our summers at our beach house and winters in the south of France; but it wouldn't matter as long as we're together. Marry me Brooke; my pretty girl, my cheery?" he said as he wiped away her tears with his thumb "Make me the happiest man in the world and be my Brooke Penelope Davis-Scott; the last name on my behalf that belongs to you and only you just like my heart. Marry me"
Brooke was lost for words as her broody boy wooed her once again; blowing her out of the water with his passionate, loving, and amazing-mind blowing words. "I-I'm sorry I think I just heard you ask me to m-marry you" she replied once she found her voice
"That's because I just did" he smiled as he opened up the red velvet box that revealed a 3 Carat Round Cut Diamond TACORI.
She felt like she just got the wind knocked out of her as she couldn't breathe. There was too much excitement that jolted throughout her body. She took a deep breath as she got down on her knees placing her hands on his shoulder
"Marry me" he asked again as he caressed her cheek with his hand
"Luke" his heart started rapidly beating afraid of rejection after he poured his heart out. He was afraid she thought he was doing it only because she was pregnant
"I love you, love you" he smiled like there was no tomorrow "love you, love you, love you" she exclaimed as tears streamed down her cheeks
"Does that mean?" he asked with eagerness
She nodded her head excitedly "YES! YES! YES! A million YES!" she shouted "YES I'll marry you Lucas Eugene Scott" she said as he wrapped his arms around her
"Oh pretty girl" he exclaimed as he took the ring out of the box and slipped it on her finger
"It's beautiful Luke"
"Just like you" he smiled as she wrapped her arms around his neck pulling him in for a passionate, heated-meaningful long awaited kiss"
He then stood up as he twirled her around in circles as they laughed. A few minutes later the put her down as his hands found its' place on her tummy. "We're going to be parents?" he asked excitedly
She placed her hands on his "We're going to be parents Luke" she beamed
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"So, I'm seeing this girl and I think our experience levels are a little different, you know, but even so, I'm doing something with her that I've never done before. I'm falling in love"
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"I need you to know something. I... Look, I've never been happier than when I am with you, OK? I've never felt this much of everything. And if I could, I would stay with you here forever. But I just can't"
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"You did this, Peyton. You've given me hope. And I love you so much for it.
"I need you to get past this"
"No!"
"I need you to forget about me and move on. OK? You're too amazing to carry this around. You're too full of greatness and I love you too much"
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"You know, I coulda held you in my arms forever. It still wouldn't have been long enough"
"There's this on-ramp that I pass every day on my way to work. Every day I think, I could get on that on-ramp, and I'd be in Tree Hill in 6 hours, 24 minutes. And I'd be with you. But I'd be without Jenny. And I can't do that."
"You know that feeling you get on a Sunday where you just have the whole day to yourself, and it's been great, and then you remember you have to go to school the next day, so it ruins the rest of the night? I have to go home tomorrow, and so I've got that feeling. It's like Sunday night."
"I walked around Savannah all day today, and I couldn't shake that feeling of it being a Sunday evening. And it's always gonna be without you. You're the one that makes that feeling go away. So, yes, there are things about my life that I would miss. But I'd miss you more."
"I've spent a lot of time being miserable, Jake. It's like misery's an old friend. And it tricks you sometimes into thinking that it's just always gonna be there, that you can't be happy. But you can. You can walk away from pain, and I think being in love's the best way to do it. What do you feel when we're together?"
"Hope"
"Do you wanna get married?"
"Someday"
"You can't just fly into Savannah and then get in my head all over again, tell me you want to stay, and then ask me to marry you"
"Why not?"
"Because I might just say, yes"
"You said "I love you."
"Okay, well, normally, that's a good thing"
"You said "I love you, Lucas."
"When you decided that you weren't gonna go back to Tree hill, do you remember what you told me?"
"Yeah"
"You said that your father's not around, that Haley has Nathan, and that Brooke has Lucas."
"Okay, you know what? Haley and Brooke are my best friends and they spend a lot of time with their boyfriends. That's all I meant by that"
"Let me ask you a question. What if Brooke didn't have Lucas?"
"You're alone, Peyton. I get it. It makes all the sense in the world that you want a family"
"No, I want this family"
"Do you?"
"It seems like you're working really hard to push me away. So if you're not into me, just say so"
"No, that is not it. I love you, Peyton, okay? I don't want to believe there's another guy in your heart, but I think that there is. I think that you're afraid"
"Yeah, you know what? I am afraid"
"It hurt like hell the last time I lost you, and I don't want to do that again"
"Then don't"
"Look. Marriages fall apart all the time because people, they get caught up with the romance, and they're not honest with themselves. Well, I have to be twice as honest. Once for me, once for Jenny"
"What if I go back and my heart just aches for you like it has for months now?"
"Well, then I'll still be here. And if it's meant to be, we'll be together. Someday"
"Peyton?" she heard as it pulled her back into reality as tears filled her eyes. She stood there listening to Jake; the love of her life declare his love for her not knowing what to say or do as their past came flooding back "W-What if your promise isn't enough for me Jake?" she asked once she found her voice "What if you take off running again when Nikki decides to stir up trouble? I don't think I can handle another let down or heart break in losing you or Jenny once again" she replied
Jake felt his heart break into pieces as he realized how much he really hurt her "I'm sorry that I hurt you Peyton; I hate myself for it but it's a chance you're going to have to take on me. All I can promise you is that we'll be a family and we'll stick together. As long as we have each other everything will be okay. Like I said earlier, I'm done running Peyton. I want to be with you, share my life with you and someday have children of our own. All I ask of you is to give us a chance; and to continue loving Jenny as your own" she smiled "I love you Peyton, more than life itself. You and Jenny besides my parents are the most important things in my life and I want you to know that"
Silence
"Jake"
"I know it's a lot that I just sprung on you Peyton, but I just want to be with you" he said sincerely as tears continued to roll down her cheeks "I feel we wasted so much time and if you can find it in your heart to forgive me and come back to me, you'll make me the happiest man in the world
"Jake, I-I'm pregnant"
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"Come on Chester, we've got to grab a few of Jamie's things and then we can take off. I know he misses you, but he'll see you in a few days and everything will be okay" she grinned as she threw some of his clothes and toys into a duffel bag
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"This is going to sting Luke" she said holding his hand over the bathroom sink as she poured hydrogen peroxide to clean his bleeding, minor cut up hands
He nodded "It might hurt, but it doesn't compare to the hurt you went through Brooke" he sighed cursing himself for not protecting her from harm
"Luke, we already went through this, I don't blame you at all. You couldn't have known; I mean I stay and work late all the time"
"I know, but it doesn't stop me from feeling it" he groaned frustrated
"Okay baby" she said taking his cheeks into her hands "I love you for it; I do but please stop brooding. We have to move on from this horrible incident. It's taken me a long time to let go; I'm happier than I've ever been in quite some time now. We're going to have a baby Luke" she smiled as she rested her hands on her tummy "and we're engaged" she said shaking him back and forth as her hands then rested on his shoulders "We're finally getting our lives back to normal so lets just move forward and not look back okay?" she asked "I need to do this"
He smiled as he couldn't take his eyes off her "Okay, I'm sorry; you're right" he smiled "I guess I never thought about it that way. I mean you've dealt with it alone for quite some time now and moving on is the best and smartest thing to do. I'm relieved; ecstatic knowing that you've found a way to move on from this incident; granted I wish I could have saved you from dealing with it but I understand pretty girl"
"Thank you Luke"
"Now, lets' get this place cleaned up" he said taking the broom and dust pan from her hands. "I-I'm sorry about this baby" he said as she leaned against the bathroom door.
"Luke, we can replace the glass honey; but we can't replace your hands; I'm just glad you didn't break it or sprain it" she replied as he kissed her temple
"I know" he sighed "I guess I just completely lost it once those words sunk in" he explained
"I know Luke" she replied squeezing his arm as she walked over towards the pile of B/C originals that were lying on floor in the middle of her room. She picked them up as her mind got the best of her…
"Oh grow up Brooke. Boo hoo you had such a terrible life. You're father and I gave you the highest credit card limits and made sure your bank account was always stocked. You had no rules to follow growing up; god any kid would have wanted your life. Look at you now, you're a famous, wealthy designer; you'd be nothing if it wasn't for me. When I was your age, I dreamt of having a clothing line; oh having a business. Of all the things you have; but I stupidly fell in love and one morning your father and I got a little surprise." She said motioning over to her daughter "I told him I didn't want kids; it was never the plan but he wanted a son more than anything. And as soon as I got fat he had an excuse to jump into any bed he wanted too. When we had our baby girl I made sure I wouldn't be pregnant again. If I couldn't have my dream, you're father couldn't have his either" she exclaimed through cold eyes. "I probably took it out on you a little too much but you should be thanking me for giving you life. Do you understand that?"
"What time is the doctor's appointment pretty girl?" he yelled from the bathroom
Silence
"Brooke?"
"I do thank you and now I know it's not my fault. It was never my fault. I'm calling the lawyers tomorrow and I'm divesting my interest in Clothes over Bros" she said standing up as she looked down at her mother. "The magazines, the line you can have all of it" she then started walking away but stopped near the door. "Congratulations Victoria now you have a company and no daughter. You got your dream; and now I'm going back to mine" she said as she walked out the door as Victoria did not turn around.
"Brooke? You okay?" he asked worried as he wrapped his arms around her waist from behind; resting his chin on her shoulder as it pulled her back into reality
"Huh? Oh yeah I'm fine" she smiled
"So what time is our doctor's appointment?" he asked anxiously as his hands once again gently rested on her belly
"It's at 1:15pm" she smiled semi turning towards him as he kissed her cheek
"When did you find out? How far along do you think we are? Do you think we can find out the sex of our baby already?" he asked as they stood there not moving from their spot
"Whoa baby, slow down" she giggled at his excitement.
"I'm just so-"
"I know, me too; me too" she replied caressing his cheek. "I found out yesterday; I took about 10 tests just to be sure" she chuckled "I think I'm about 6 ½ to 7 ½ weeks along. Hales told me that at 16weeks is when you can find out the sex of the baby"
"Hales knows?" he asked
"Yeah who do you think I took the tests with?" she laughed
"We're going to have a baby" he beamed as his hands tightened protectively around her small frame
"Yes" she nodded her head "We're going to be parents' broody boy"
"You've made me the happiest man alive today soon to be Mrs. Scott"
"Soon to be Mrs. Scott huh; has a nice ring to it" she smiled as she admired her gorgeous ring. "It's beautiful Luke; everything about it"
"Just like you baby girl"
"What's on your mind broody?" she asked a few minutes later as the room filled with silence
He sighed "Earlier Y-You said that you were a-almost R-Ra-" he paused as he was unable to say it. "Did the bastard-"
"No" she shook her head
"Oh thank god" he exhaled "Tell me what happened baby" he begged
"Are you sure you want to know? I mean if we're going to replay what happened earlier with your hand and the mirror I would rather not tell you" she replied taking a deep breath as she closed her eyes recalling that horrible night
"I want to know and you have my word it won't happen again"
She nodded
"H-He pinned me down" she explained keeping her eyes closed as he listened "His mouth and hands roamed my body" Lucas swallowed a large lump that formed at his throat cringing "I-I kicked and screamed; he hit me to silence me. I was somewhat out of it but I heard him get into a verbal argument with his partner who came back to help me"
"Help you?"
"Yeah, his partner held a gun to his head; making him get off of me" Lucas's hands rolled up into fists as he continued listening "I-I pretended to stay knocked out as I listened to the whole conversation between the two. I-I thought; I was a-afraid that they might-"
He closed his eyes as he wanted to kill the SOB with his bare hands "Shhhh you're safe now I promise. I swear to you that I will never ever let anything ever happen to you again; even if it's the last thing I do. I would rather die than let anyone ever harm you in any way ever again pretty girl. If I ever find out-"
"Luke" he nodded as they stared deeply into one another's eyes; forehead to forehead. He then leaned down as he brushed his lips against hers as she deepened the kiss. "I love you" he smiled
"I love you too" she replied as she snuggled up against him "It's in the past now, no more looking back baby"
He nodded "Come on, time for lunch since you didn't have breakfast; not good for mommy or baby. You have two mouths to feed now" she smiled
"Oh we also promised Lily, Jamie and Jenny movie night tonight"
"How can I forget?" he smiled
"I'm going to call Haley and Jake" she smiled excitedly as she grabbed her phone. "We're going to have a blast tonight Luke" she beamed
"You mean after the kids are asleep right pretty girl?" he smirked winking at her as she kinked her eyebrows at him
"Naughty broody" he chuckled
Just then there was a knock at the door as Brooke started getting up "I'll get it" he said as he kissed her on the forehead "Tell Hales I said Hi" he whispered as she nodded
"Hi Tutormom" said Brooke as they started chatting away
"What are you doing here?" asked Lucas once he opened the door
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