Jace's POV

It has been a month since it happened. clary still has not stepped a foot out of our room, she won't, she refuses to. I think she is ashamed maybe. Simon is freaking out because he can't come into the institute and clary hasn't come out. Quite frankly it's getting annoying he is constantly calling me, I told him to call isabelle about it. She wants to come out I can see it. She is afraid though and I don't blame her. I just got out of the shower and threw on some sweats and a T-shirt it's around 7 or 8 I'm sure. I walk into the room. Clary is in bed with the covers pulled up to her chest, I sit on my side. I turn my head to look at her ,but when I do she smashed her lips to mine. To say I was shocked is an understatement. We have only pecked eachother this whole month. I don't waste any time though kissing her back. I savor the moment and the taste of her lips. I feel her hands at the hem of my shirt, drawing it up to take it off of me. I pull away from the kiss

"Wait clary" she looks at me confused and a little hurt.
"You don't want to" she says weakily her eyes tearing up.
"No its not that of course I want to, but I don't want you to think we have to..if your not ready"I hurriedly say.
"But you have your needs" she mumbles I smile the biggest I think I have smiled. Before I can stop myself I say
"That's what my hand is for" clary turns a dark velvet red" I'm sorry..that was uncalled for" she smiles as she shakes her head.
"I want to" she says looking me directly in the eye "I don't feel..whole..and I want to..I don't want to feel like this and being with you makes me whole" she tries to explain.
"If you are sure then okay" she gives me a small smile then mumbles out "at least you won't need to use your hand anymore" she turns scarlet at her statement. All I can do is laugh "yeah that will be a relief" I lean down and kiss her softly.

Clarys POV

I lay back with our lips still connected. I pull at his hair getting a groan from him. I slide my hands down and take his shirt off tossing it on the floor. I run my hand along his back, abs, all of it. I love the feel of him, so soft, so perfect. I feel his hands at the end of my-well his shirt since that is all I was wearing besides bra and underwear. He throws it across the room. I bring his face back to mine and kiss him hungry, trying to makeup for all of the kisses that we missed in this past month. I bring my hands down to his jeans and unbuckle the belt and the button. I yank them down as far as I can, waiting for him to slide them down his legs. After he gets them down and off his legs he trails his mouth down to my neck, but this time instead of kissing my neck like he usually does he bites it. The shock causes my to jump and squeal both at once. He does a combination of biting, sucking, and kissing in the same spot on my neck bringing me this completely new sensation of pleasure. He trails his lips down to my breasts and kisses the exposed parts. He slides his hands behind my back and unhooks my bra. His mouth finds my boob immediately he massages the other with his hand. I feel like I have been moaning for hours. He switches and places his lips on my other nipple as his other hand massages the other once again.

He brings his face back up and kisses me sweetly he pulls back and I can see questioning in his eyes. I knot my brows together confused "can I try something" he asks. "Yeah of course" I say. He brings his head back down pecking kisses all the way down to my stomach and then lower. I feel his breath at my most intement place which causes me to squirm. He takes that as an invitation and kisses me *there* which cause me to jump,squeal, and moan all at once. He grabs my hips to keep them in place and stop moving. Then his lips are *there" again. He kisses no scratch that he makes out using his tounge and all. I whimper because I can't find anything to grab onto and it's driving me insane. Finally I reach down and grab onto his hair and pull tightly enough to hurt him but he doesn't make any motion of any pain. I feel his finger dart inside me. he is sucking on my clit and fingering me at the same time. My moans are so erratic that it's as if I could be hyperventilating. He pulls his finger out in time to catch my juices with his mouth. Once he has cleaned me up completely with his mouth he comes back up to face me. My eyes are still closed because I'm still trying to catch my breath. I finally open my eyes to him already staring directly into mine. I smile lazily causing him to smile. I use the strength that I have to flip him over so that I am on top. I kiss him slowly and swirl my tounge with his. I can taste myself on him. I can't quite determine the flavor. I slide down and pull his boxes down allowing not so mini jace jr to spring out. The sight of him makes my heart pound and my mouth water. I look at him and ask "can I touch it"

He laughs as if its the funniest thing in the world, but nods his head. I rub my index finger from the top to the bottom feeling the smooth, soft surface. I can see that his stomach is tightened. I remember what isabelle had told me, this is what guys like, but I don't know how. Maybe if I ask him, but I don't want him to laugh.

"How d-..how do i uh" he is shaking his head

"You don't have to" I nod but say "but I want..I want to at least try" he nods understanding my curiosity.

He grabs my hands in his and wraps them around his member tightly. He slides our hand up and down with a firm grip. He lets go so that I can do it on my own. I tighten my hands around him and slide my hand up and down. I hear a mix between a groan and a moan which causes me to look at his face as I keep my hands moving. He is staring at me, u can see the pleasure in his eyes, face and body. I want to give him more, I want to please him the way he did me. I stare at his member having an idea of what to do. I bring my face down to wrap my lips around him but draw back. My heart is hammering more than I thought possible.

Jace sits up and wrap his hand Around mine "clary you don't have to do this" "I know..I just don't know how and I don't want to hurt you" he nods. I mumble to him "will you help me" he swallows hard and nods his head and instructs

"Get alot of saliva in you mouth and spit it on the tip" I do as he says then look back at him "pucker your lips then you just go" he say like it's the simplest thing in the world. I do as he says. I slowly bring my lips down to his member and put it in my mouth. He is very big so it's hard to fit. But I make it work I think. I slide my mouth up and down his member slowly at first. I take him as deep as I can but it's only not even half way. I feel him squirming and moaning. I speed up my pace sucking along the way. I put one of my hands at the bottom half of his member and the other with his balls. The hand on his member I rub up and down while the other plays with his balls. My mouth is moving at a fast speed sucking constantly. Jace is a moaning mess his hands are in my hair, he grips it tightly but not enough to hurt. I feel him swell in my mouth then taste all his juices as they squirt out into my mouth I drink all of it, I take my last gulp then run my mouth back down to clean him up then crawl back up him. Jace just started at me for a minute until he finally says
"Damn that was the best I've ever had" I blush. I am sitting on his stomach running my hands through his hair. "How did you do the neck thing" I ask him "oh you mean this" he says and bites, sucks, and licks my neck all at once. I moan and nod my head at the same time. "Try it" he tells me "but I don-" he interrupts me saying "you will figure it out..try it" I bring my face down to his neck and do the same thing that I felt him do to me. I hear him hum so I'm guessing that I'm doing something right. I pull away and kiss his lips deeply. He rolls us over so that he is on top. He looks me in the eye asking for permission which I of course said yes to. I feel him enter me slowly which gets a moan from the both of us. He is being extra gentle and soft with every thrust. It's perfect, and exactly what I needed what we both needed to become one, whole.