When Trixie made it back to the kitchen she noticed Andrea in there washing the dishes while Lori paced the floor. Frowning Trixie took the plates her and Daryl used over to Andrea and glanced around to see if she needed help but heard Maggie and Beth yelling from the room Beth was in. She glanced to Andrea as she frowned and stared at Lori then shook her head before finishing the dishes. Trixie grabbed a towel and started to dry, wanting t stick close incase Andrea needed her.
"Wheres Hershel?" Andrea and Trixie glanced to Lori as she went to go out the front door but Andrea scoffed and shook her head.
"It's a family affair, he doesnt want to find out yet. Well let them work it out."
"that's working it out!" Trixie overheard Maggie screaming now, angry for some reason and when she turned to Andrea and questioned her Andrea glared to Lori and nodded to her.
"Lori found Beth holding onto the knife she had from lunch. Beth's going a bit suicidal."
"Oh my god. Did she do anything yet?"
"No."
"Good, then she is just scared."
"Scared! She tried to take her life!"
"No she didn't! She took a knife! No reason to be scared of that, its when she stops fighting that you have to be scared." Lori glared right to Andrea before walking up to them and shaking her head in disgust.
"Really? You really belive that?"
"Yes! Youre being selfish Lori. This could have been handeled better you know."
"How so? Enlighten me." Trixie frowned as Lori crossed her arms and Andrea put the plate she was washing down into the sink to turn and dry her hands on her shirt.
"You shouldn't have taken that knife away for one."
"Excuse me?" Trixie now had to stare at Andrea for that comment too, it was confusing her as well as Lori as Andrea sighed and held her hands out to try an calm Lori.
"You were wrong, like Dale taking my gun. That wasn't your decision. She has to choose to live on her own. Has to find her own reason." Lori scoffed as she glared to Trixie for back up but Trixie was actually seeing what Andrea was talking about now.
"Hey, im going with her on this. When I was like that I had to find my reasons. We all do at times."
"Well what do you want me to do for her? Tie a noose?"
"Lori if she is serious she will find a way." Lori shook her head as Andrea frowned a bit and looked to Trixie with pain in her eyes.
"That doesnt mean I can't stop her or let her know that I care."
"That has nothing to do with it Lori." Lori turned to Trixie now as she stepped up beside Andrea and she agreed with Trixie.
"She only has so many choices in front of her and she believes the best one is suicide."
'That's not an option." Lori glared between the two as they glanced to each other for a moment before looking at their own hands. They both knew what it was like contemplating suicide and they both pulled through because they found something worth living for. Beth had to as well now.
"Of course it is Lori. She doesnt need to be yelled at or treated like a child."
"No she needs a loaded gun right?"
"I had one and didn't do it." Lori glanced to Trixie as she eyed the girl, she was really starting to get on her nerves with the false bravery she was putting up.
"well than you'll understand if I don't send you in there to see her."
"Hey, we came through it."
"Yeah, and became such a productive members of the group." Lori gasped a bit as she just let that comment slip but it was too late. Trixie and Andrea glared at her as she walked around them, going to finish cleaning the dishes but Andrea and Trixie turned to look at her, not letting her off the hook just yet.
"I contribute. I help keep this place safe."
"The men can handle this on their own. They don't need your help."
"Im sorry what would you have me do?" Andrea crossed her arms across her chest as she glared to Lori now, making her tun to stare at them both before sighing and points to them.
"Theres plenty of work to go around. Dishes, laundry, collecting food."
"Oh are you serious! We got food, I help collect that."
"No Daryl collects the meat, you sit around and wait on him, your pregnant not helpless! And you, you dont care about anyone but yourself. You sit up on that RV, working on your tan with a shotgun in your lap."
"No I am on watch for walkers. That is what matters not fresh mint leaves in the lemonade."
"And we are providing stability, trying to creat a life worth living. We do our share Lori!" Lori scoffed at Trixie as she shook her head out of disbelief. Wondering where this was coming from Trixie glanced to Andrea who looked as if she was fuming and about to explode on her at any moment.
"Look, I went after Rick. I took down two walkers."
"After crashing Maggie's car!"
"And don't act like you are the only one who can take care of herself! You begged me to get Daryl to go after Rick to begin with until I told you to do it! Hell I only told you that because I went after Daryl you could go after your own man!"
"But you crash before you get there and have Shane come save you. Ever apologise to Maggie for that by the way? Crashing her.."
'You two are insane!" Lori glared at them as she tightened her fists at her side. Trixie stood now, fully ready for a fight as Andrea walked closer to Lori and got right in her face.
"No. You are. And you are the one that's self-centered, the way you take it all for granted."
"My husband is out there for the hundredth time! My son got shot! Don't you dare tell me I take this for granted!"
"That's just it Lori and you don't get it. Rick came back from the dead, Carl too and now you got a baby on the way. The rest of us, weve piled up our losses. Andrea, Daryl, Carol and Beth…but you….."
"You just keep on keeping on. Weve all suffered." Lori gaped as she turned from Trixie to Andrea before she put her hands on her head as if she was having a headache, which she probably was, and then pointed to Trixie.
"You havent suffered, you have only gotten and gotten just like…."
"You? Like you? Yeah, I am grateful for what I do have and for what I have gotten but I was lucky! I was lucky Lori! And don't tell me I havent suffered! You forgot all about me at the Quarry, you didn't give a damn that Merle got left behind, my only other friend other than Andrea and Daryl. You don't know about what ive seen before meeting up with this…this…group or whatever we are! You don't remember I lost my father in this mess and yes I am lucky! But you go and tell Beth that everythings going to be ok. Tell her that she'll get a husband….a son….a baby or hell even a boyfriend! She just has to look on the bright side like you right? Not everyone is going to be as lucky and you…or me…and for us to take it for granted is disgraceful to those that don't have it as good. Which Lori, is why you'll never catch me playing house and acting like queen bee. Laying down rules for everybody but yourself. Selfish bitch." Trixie threw the towel she had down on the ground before shoving past Lori and walking out the front door, leaving Andrea to stare at her before following Trixie and leaving Lori to stand in shock at what just happened.
"Trixie!" She paused, halfway to the tent, as Andrea caught up to her and frowned when she noticed Trixie was still angry as could be.
"What!"
"Hey, calm down, I just…I wanted to thank you."
"For what? Telling her how it is? Making me out to be better than everyone?"
"No…for letting her know what she needed to hear." Trixie laughed as she gripped her head before shaking it and dropping her hands to her sides.
"Andrea…we all have out faults and our good. For her, its always thinking things are going to go right. Whatever. She doesn't stop to think about what might happen if we don't get out of here, what could happen if one of the guys god forbids goes down in the woods. What could happen to us if you don't watch for walkers or I don't make sure Daryl is alive to bring us food. She only thinks about herself and that's the truth. She wont listen to it though and I know in the next couple of hours she will be right back out here trying to push us around and tell us what to do. Now you see why ive never been a group person, now you know why, other than you, I usually only talk to Daryl! Why hes the only one I can fully trust!" Trixie picked up the antler piece that Daryl had put on her necklace and showed it to Andrea, making her question it before she got closer and took the thing from her…nocing the heart on the top first.
"He gave this to you?" Trixie chuckled dryly as she nodded.
'Yeah why?" Andrea smiled before shaking her head and covering her mouth.
"I seen him with this. I always wondered what it was. That night when he came back with the two big bucks. I was worried over you, because of what happened, and when you were trying to cope and heal without talking to us he was there…carving into this thing. I wondered what it meant."
"It's a piece of the antler from the buck that almost killed him. Merle had to push him aside because he wa so focused on getting food for us he didn't see the buck watching him. It got jammed into a tree, that's how he got the easy kill. I guess he kept it for a reminder, or that's what he says. Of how…when hes not around to protect me….somehting bad happens." Andrea frowned a bit before hugging Trixie tight to her and running her hand over Trixies hair.
"It means something doesn't it? He wouldnt have kept it for no reason."
"Its like a good luck charm."
"I think it might mean a bit more than that." Andrea smiled as she leaned back and shook her head before glancing over to the RV and nodding. Trixie glanced but shook her head as she looked back to the tent.
"I got to make sure hes alright. Carols been constantly chasing him since yesterday. Like she owes him something."
"Well, if you get bored, ill be up there…working on my tan apparently." Trixie chuckled before she nodded and watched as Andrea dropped her hands and went to head to the RV. After she took a few deep breaths she found herself grabbing the antler and twisting it in her fingers. Andrea couldn't be right but then again who knew, Daryl had ways fo surprising her. Turning to the tent Trixie wet to see if Daryl was alright and when she saw he was out again she sighed.
"Always leaving when I need ya huh? Jeez man…thoguht you would have learned." Trixie chuckled before she saw Daryls old shirt on the ground and shook her head. Picking it up she gathered the other clothes there and started to put them away when she noticed his crossbow missing. He was hunting, she smiled at this thought, and then grabbed her tea bottle she still had out there and started to head to the RV.
"Hey."
"Think I can catch some rays with you? Daryls hunting."
'Bringing in food huh? Sure come on up." Trixie smiled as she sat next to Andrea and looked out over the fields.
"Always this quite?"
"Well, we havent had a walker yet come in."
"Well except Daryl." Andrea laughed with Trixie as she remember how she swore he was a walker and shot him, almost killing him, but then Andrea frowned a bit before she touched the side of her head and glanced to Trixie.
"Hows he…ya know?"
"Oh! Oh its fine. Hes healing good actually. The stitches are supposed to fall out once they have done their job, either that or hell cut them out when hes ready. I took the big bandage off the day after and have just kept a small bandage on it."
"Hes lucky to have you."
"Hes not the only one lucky Andrea. You have us. You have me…and Dale…and Daryl even though he doesn't act like it." Andrea laughed as she looked around and noticed Carol smiling to them. She went inside the RV, making Andrea glance over to Trixie again and then to her belly.
"So….got names?" Trixie looked at her a bit shocked but then realized what she was talking about when she put her hand over her stomach and chuckled.
"No….we havent talked about that. Its still way to early. Im only like…maybe two weeks, three at the most? I cant keep track of time around here."
"Dale can, with his watch and all!" The girls laughed again before the front door of the house slammed and they noticed Lori leaving the house angry.
"Maggie must have told her off. Poor girl shes got to be tired."
"Yeah, hey ill be right back." Andrea got up and went to go inside the house, leaving Trixie up on the RV alone as she looked around and noticed the guitar there. Picking it up she started to strum a few chords to nothing in particular as she gazed out over the fields. Nothing was in her sight and as she glanced to the sides she smiled when everything seemed clam. sighing as glanced over to the barn she noticed Lori talking with Hershel, probably about Beth, and when Trixie rolled her eyes she heard someone coming up the ladder. glancing to the side she saw Andrea and smiled.
"Back so soon?"
"Huh? Yeah…Maggie needed a break."
"So whos watching over Beth now?" Andrea frowned before she shrugged and sat back down.
"I don't know…herself I guess."
"Ah, the ill show you card. Youre letting her have her space to do what she will so she can get past this thing and we can go back to normal?"
"Yeah…lets go with that." Trixie chuckled as she leaned back in the chair she was in and picking on the guitar while Andrea picked up the rifle she had and kept an eye out on the field. The day was rather quite for once.