Grey's Anatomy: Out Here On My Own Chapter 25, a grey's anatomy fanfic

TITLE: Grey's Anatomy – "Out Here On My Own"

SUMMARY: Doctor Arizona Robbins has finally come to a decision after years of attempting to regain the love of her ex-wife. She didn't have the epiphany on her own; it was ungraciously shoved in her face by others. Is it finally time to move on and find some happiness or is she preordained to be alone?

Pairings: Arizona Robbins & OFC; Callie Torres & Penelope Blake.

RATING: M for mature readers.

DISCLAIMER: The television characters are owned by Creator Shonda Rhimes, ShondaLand, The Mark Gordon Company and ABC Studios. I have merely taken them out to play and will return them unscathed once my Muse is done. All original characters belong to the author. No copyright infringement is intended and no profit is gained from this storytelling.

A/N: Please feel free to review, follow or favour. Thanks to those who have taken the time to leave a comment. This is a longer chapter, hope you enjoy.

Chapter 25

Once the cake had been cut and distributed amongst the guests, Beverley set the children up in one of the nearby state rooms with movies, blankets and pillows. She had volunteered earlier in the day to chaperon them and ensure their safety.

When Owen and Jaimie finished eating, they snuck away from the others and returned carrying their guitars. They proceeded to set up three microphones in front of the karaoke machine and plug their guitars into amps while everyone else stopped talking when they realised what was going on.

Owen slung his instrument over his shoulder and waved to Callie, "Come on Torres, it's time for you to shine and share your talent."

Letting go of Taylor's hand, a grinning Callie kissed her before joining Owen and Jaimie. Turning on the middle mike, she looked to her girlfriend, "This was not my idea; it was all Owen's. He thought it would be great if a few of us serenaded our partners, so here goes. This song is for you Taylor, with all my love."

There was a collective sound of awws heard around the room as Owen turned to Jaimie and counted in. They both started to strum in perfect harmony then Callie began to sing:

You're my soundproof room
Where I let it all out
You're never there to judge me
When I'm full of doubt
Held close to your pain
You burn me body and soul
I know heaven will be waiting
When I lose control

And I'm out of my head
Running blindly to you
Caught in the moment with you

I breathe you in
You're beautiful
And angels fly to Babylon
To save the world for you
You loved me and I came alive
All of me on fire
Surrendered like I'm made of wax
Your flame, the kiss of life

You're my voodoo woman
With your body in paint
You'll always be my queen
My heart you can break
I'm all flesh and blood
And deep down I know
That heaven is here waiting
So I give you control

And I'm out of my head
Running blindly to you
Lost in this moment with you

If I fall I will break, I will shatter
When I'm with you all that doesn't matter
You're the everything I wanna know
I look at you and I see gold
If I fall I will break, I will shatter
When I'm with you all that doesn't matter
You're the everything I wanna know
I look at you and I see gold

I breathe you in
You're beautiful
And angels fly to Babylon
To save the world for you
I breathe you in
You're beautiful
And angels fly to Babylon
To save the world for you
You loved me and I came alive
All of me on fire
Surrendered like I'm made of wax
Your flame, the kiss of life
You're my soundproof room
Where I let it all out
You're never there to judge me
When I'm full of doubt

(The Corrs – Kiss Of Life)

At song's end, Taylor was a blabbering jumble and Callie received an embrace and passionate kiss when she returned to her side amid thunderous applause.

Arizona stared at an unsuspecting Jaimie and smiled with anticipation of her turn.

Stepping up to the microphone, Owen nodded, "Folks, that was the beautiful and seductive voice of our very own Callie Torres; the Ortho Goddess."

More clapping ensued along with hoots and cheers.

When it died down, Owen gestured to Alex, "You're up Karev."

A grinning Alex ran over and searched for Jo in the crowd. He found her at the bar with Meredith and Teddy, "Jo honey, I love you madly and want you to be my wife."

Jo was agog as her boyfriend sang the Goo Goo Dolls' "Iris". When Alex was done, she was crying and screamed, "YES BABY, YES I'LL MARRY YOU."

Loud applause filled the area followed by congratulation to the twosome. When the well wishes ebbed, Owen grinned at the Chief of Surgery, "Bailey, you're up."

A stunned expression graced Miranda's face as she waved her index finger at Hunt, "My man isn't even here you fool; he's at the hospital, so who am I supposed to be singing to?"

"I'm here Miranda," announced Ben while stepping out of the group.

With bulging eyes, Miranda's head tilted to the side, "How, why?"

Wrapping his arms around his wife, Ben explained, "I only have an hour baby and Owen told me about his plan. He kissed her tenderly before ushering her to the makeshift stage, "Make it good."

"Oh don't you worry about that honey; I will be dynamite. Torres, come up here and help me out. You too Hunt, cos this is all your doing." She had a quiet word to them and Jaimie once Callie was in place.

As Jaimie and Owen provided the music, the trio of Surgeons sang Snow Patrol's "Chasing Cars" in wondrous harmony. Ben was swift in showing his appreciation and love for Miranda by gripping her hand and hauling her outside for a private moment or two.

Owen's solo was next and Amelia was a crying mess by the time he got through Mr Probz's "Nothin' Really Matters".

Drying her eyes, Arizona went to the bar and ordered a shot of vodka from her dad.

Arching his right eyebrow, he asked, "A little Dutch courage Pumpkin?"

"Oh yeah, I'm shaking. Jaimie has no idea I am about to croon her."

"You'll be fine and Owen is looking for you."

Downing the drink, Arizona made her way over to Owen, and as Jaimie stepped to the side, dimples worked overtime, "Surprise." Leaning in, she gave her fiancée a kiss on the lips, "Obviously this song is for you. You are my everything and I can't breathe when you're not around. Jaimie, you showed me love at a time when I needed it most and I will be forever grateful. I love you."

"I love you more sweetheart," returned a teary Jaimie.

Arizona waited for Owen's intro than sang Faith Hill's "Breathe".

It was waterworks time for Jaimie as the melody ended and a fevered kiss followed once she discarded her guitar.

"That was brilliant," cheered Jaimie once the pair parted.

"Thank you and when are you singing?"

Grinning, Jaimie answered, "Right now, so scoot out of the way."

Giggling, Arizona kissed Jaimie again then moved towards Alex and Jo.

Picking up her instrument, Jaimie nodded to Owen and launched into action with an up tempo song:

You can run, you can hide
From all your desires
'Cause you're afraid but it's okay
I won't let you break this time

It's like you're running from the love
Tell me, are you brave enough?
As it's coming for you
Here I am, here I stand
You'll never know if you don't try

You can scream, fight, keep, try to push me away
Everyone else let you down but I'll keep you safe
Oh don't you know my love is unconditional?
Oh I'm here to stay, I will never change
I will take you so high you'll never fall
If you need that trust put your hand on my heart
Oh don't you know my love is unconditional?
Oh I'm here to stay, I will never change

When you're tired, when you're lost
I'll be the one to find you
When you feel the world doesn't have your back
I'm standing right beside you

Everyone can lose their faith
Fall out of love on different days
I've got enough for us both
Yeah, here I am, here I stand
I'll never gonna leave your side, side

No more Sundays alone, don't wanna be on my own
No, this is forever
Baby, you are my heart, you have awoken my soul
You know that I will never change

You can scream, fight, keep, try to push me away
Everyone else let you down but I'll keep you safe
Oh don't you know my love is unconditional?
Oh I'm here to stay, I will never change

All the best things happen
When you're losing control
When we're out on the edge
Heaven knows where we'll go
Oh, don't you know my love is unconditional?
Oh I'm here to stay, I will never change

(The Corrs – Unconditional)

An open mouthed Arizona stared at Jaimie while her heart raced and tears filled her eyes. Her chest constricted as adoration for her paramour washed over her and the teardrops trickled down her cheeks.

Alex slapped her on the back, "Holy crap Robbins your girl is amazing."

"Oh my god, that was fantastic," added a somewhat drunken Jo.

"I had no idea she possessed such a beautiful voice. It's the first time I have heard her sing," returned a grinning Arizona.

"Seriously dude, she's freaking super cool."

"I agree with Karev," stated Callie as she and Taylor joined them.

Taylor contributed with her two cents worth, "Jaimie is excellent at entertaining the troops and lifting morale. Last time I served with her, she taught some local kids nursery rhymes and they always sought her out during her downtime. They loved spending time with her and she never turned them away."

"What's not to love?" queried Alex. "She's the total package."

His comments earned a swat on the arm from Jo.

"And she's all mine," bragged Arizona with a chuckle and more than a dash of pride.

"Yes I am," announced Jaimie as she wound her arms around Arizona from behind. "All the kids are asleep and mum is ready to sing to dad."

"Is she as good as you?" inquired Alex.

"Where do you think I got my voice from?"

"Oh this is going to be good," suggested Taylor. "I get to watch my CO's reaction."

Rotating, Arizona watched the smile on Jaimie's face turn into a smirk and she gripped her hand, "What's that look for?"

Turning her attention to Arizona, Jaimie laughed, "Mum will not be going for the romance here; she'll be all about the humour instead."

No sooner were those words spoken than Owen turned on the karaoke music and Jaimie's mother belted out "Hey Big Spender" much to everyone's amusement, including Joel.

The evening remained light hearted with those staying onboard retiring to their allocated rooms shortly after two o'clock.

-o-

Arizona was already in bed when Jaimie entered the room carrying two chilled bottles of water.

"I thought you might be thirty after all that singing with Callie and my mother," she stated while placing a drink on Arizona's nightstand.

"Thank you and you look exhausted."

"I am, but I didn't want to leave your mum and mine to clean up. I'll just grab a quick shower and be with you."

"I'll be waiting honey."

Climbing into bed wearing her grey Army tee shirt and black cotton boxers seven minutes later, Jaimie nestled into the crook of Arizona's right shoulder and lay her hand on Arizona's camisole covered stomach, "Did you have fun tonight?"

"I did," replied Arizona behind a yawn.

Laying a kiss on the warm skin of Arizona's throat, Jaimie purred, "I love you so much, goodnight."

"I love you too and thank you for loving me the way you do."

"I will always love you Az that will never change."

Turning her head, Arizona latched onto smiling lips and sleep was forgotten about.

-o-

Sunday's dinner was filled with laughter and there was no mention of Jaimie's departure. As expected, Sofia remained by her side and prior to going home, she handed Jaimie several drawings depicting a recent day at the zoo.

"It's my favourite place," she explained. "And I have fun when you take me there."

"I have fun too Sofia and I'll take your pictures with me. I'll put them up on the wall of my room and think of you when I look at them."

Sofia's bottom lip began to tremble, "Mommy said I shouldn't cry cos you are going to be doing important work and I shouldn't make you sad."

On bended knee, Jaimie drew Sofia into her arms, "I'm not sad when I know you'll be here when I come home."

Nodding, Sofia bravely fought back the tears, "Okay."

"I have an important job for you while I am away."

Leaning back, brown eyes widened, "You do?"

"I need you to look after your mama for me and give her lots of hugs and kisses."

"I can do that," acknowledged Sofia with a smile.

"I also would like it if you draw me more pictures so mama can send them to me."

"Oh, I sure can Jaimie, love you."

"I love you too Sofia and when I see you next time, I want to hear you count all the way to one hundred."

Scrunching up her nose, Sofia shook her head, "Okay, but that's a lot."

"You can do it and I'll let your mommies know when you and I can Skype."

"That will be fun."

"Yes it will, but for now, it is time you got home to bed."

"Yeah, I have school tomorrow, bye."

"Bye sweetie."

The pair shared a lingering embrace before Callie reached down and took hold of Sofia's hand, "Grandpa is going to buckle you in and I'll be there in a minute."

Looking up, Sofia asked, "You gonna cry mommy?"

"Probably."

"You not allowed, no make Jaimie sad."

"I'll try Baby Girl. Now go with Grandpa."

"Okay, bye everyone."

Jaimie stood and pulled Callie into an embrace, "Thanks for being here tonight and please keep an eye on Arizona for me."

"I will," sniffed out Callie. "Keep your head down and your ass safe."

"I'll do my best and I'll call Sofia when I can."

"I appreciate that, take care."

"You too," returned Jaimie as she let go.

Callie turned and hugged Arizona and Barbara goodbye. Next were Luke and Teddy then Beverley and Joe. She was a sobbing muddle by the time Jaimie closed the door.

"Bloody hell, I detest farewells," cursed Jaimie as she viewed the glum expressions of the others. "Sofia was so stoic; it broke my heart."

"Yes she was," agreed Arizona, close to permitting her own tears to fall.

Daniel re-entered the house and with glazed eyes, spoke to his daughter, "Arizona, you and Callie raised on amazing child. She just asked Callie is she wanted a bedtime story to make her feel better."

Smiling, Arizona proudly responded, "That's the Robbins' influence dad."

"It sure is Pumpkin."

"Who would like a coffee or tea?" offered Beverley as the group moved towards the living room.

As people placed their orders, Arizona noticed Jaimie slip by and head to the study. She was about to follow when Luke's hand on her shoulder stopped her progress.

"Give her a moment Arizona. She'll be pulling herself together and putting on her brave face again before rejoining us. It's her usual habit when deploying. The Army side of her will be at war with her personal side. I've watched her go through this turmoil many times over the years and she needs to take care of a couple of things alone."

"Is there nothing I can do to help?"

"Yes, give her about forty minutes before you go to her. Mum is usually the one to do that, but now it's your turn. My sister is hurting Arizona, but it's a burden only she can carry. Jaimie explained it to me after her first overseas posting and the family respects it. Mum was going to have a word with you about it, but didn't have the opportunity tonight."

"So it's basically a ritual that she goes through?"

"Precisely and she will be in there gathering mementoes that are important to her for the trip. Jaimie will also write you and the family a letter in case she doesn't make it home."

"What?" exclaimed Arizona with shock.

"As you are aware, Jaime is always well prepared and being deployed is no different. She will pour out her heart in those letters and leave nothing unsaid. She will hand them out before she gets on the plane tomorrow with instructions not to open them until she's airborne."

A jolt of fear stabbed Arizona's chest as the thought of Jaimie not being in her life washed over her, "Holy crap."

"I know this is hard on you, but the last thing Jaimie needs is to worry about us."

"We've had that discussion and I fully understand her position."

"I had no doubts that you wouldn't. On a personal note, I apologise for not being around lately to have this conversation."

"You don't need to be sorry Luke; you've been busy with Teddy and work."

"Thanks and how about we grab a coffee?"

"Okay and thanks for the chat."

-o-

An hour later Arizona rapped on the study door with trepidation and waited for a response.

The door opened and a forlorn Jaimie stood to the side, "Sorry for taking so long."

"It's okay honey. Everyone has gone to bed and I am headed there too."

"I'm just about done in here."

"Luke spoke with me and is there anything I can do?"

"Uhm, yes there is. Do you know where the photo album from our weekend at Westport is?"

"It's in Sofia's room; she was looking through it the other day."

"Thanks, I wanted to copy a couple of the pictures."

A smile tugged at the corners of Arizona's lips, "Which ones?"

"I'm after the one of Sofia on a surfboard and the cute snap of her and you building a sandcastle. There's also a really good shot of you in that sexy dark blue bikini that I want to take with me along with the one of Luke and Teddy on the beach."

"Oh, the one with the sun setting behind them?"

"Yes, it's a great photo."

"It is and I'll go fetch the album honey."

"Cheers," replied Jaimie as she returned to the desk.

When Arizona arrived back, she handed over the book, "There you go."

Leafing through the pages, Jaimie removed the pictures then set about copying them with the printer. When she was finished, she returned the originals to the album and placed the reproductions into a photo wallet. "Okay, that's it. You ready for bed sweetheart?"

"Yes, it's been a long day and we could both do with an early night."

"You feel like a bath?"

"That would be so relaxing."

"And great foreplay," quipped Jaimie while nuzzling into Arizona's neck.

Giggling, Arizona retorted, "That's a bonus."

-o-

A freshly bathed and naked Arizona eased her frame on top of Jaimie's and moaned loudly as drenched centres meshed. "Oh good god," she whimpered. "You feel so good honey."

"You don't feel so bad yourself my little water nymph," remarked Jaimie with an explosive grin.

"You can talk, and I never knew you could hold your breath that long."

"Special Officer training my love," taunted Jaimie as her hands smoothed over the perfect curves of Arizona's backside.

"You must have been top of your class," noted Arizona before pressing her lips to Jaimie's.

The kiss remained unbroken as Arizona's fingers cradled Jaimie's head and a slow rocking commenced. Groans and gasps were swallowed when clitorises collided in mind blowing rapture and Jaimie's fingers dug into firm flesh.

Opening her legs slightly, Jaimie created more friction and a higher degree of pleasure. Arizona's hardened nipples pressed into Jaimie's and for the next fifteen minutes, nothing else existed outside their loving bubble.

As Arizona's body reacted to the excess dopamine coursing through her blood system, Jaimie reached up and held on tight. Their deep, tongue sucking kiss evolved into tender, short pecks as both rode the wave of their orgasm to the shore. Without stopping, the lovers caught another crest and tumbled over the precipice again before seeking out another natural high moments later.

Panting heavily, Arizona broke the kiss and gazed into tear filled pools of darkened green. As her fingers tenderly caressed Jaimie's face, she vowed, "I love you with all my heart and I will never love another."

A solitary teardrop trickled from the corner of Jaimie's left eye, "I've never love anyone the way I love you and my place is forever by your side."

Not wanting to cry, Arizona commented, "The sex is pretty awesome too."

"Sweetheart, it's bloody outstanding."

Squirming, Arizona asked, "Mmm, are you right to go again?"

"Crikey, you are on fire my love."

"What can I say? My super sexy fiancée makes me incredibly horny."

"That's really hot, but just give me a minute."

Lowering her mouth to the throbbing pulse on the side of Jaimie's neck, Arizona mumbled, "Sure, I'll just entertain myself while you catch up."

"Bloody hell woman, that feels good," responded Jaimie as her toes curled and her fingers ghosted over the small of Arizona's back. Her breath hitched when Arizona inched downwards and seized the rigid nipple of her right breast. Pushing her hips up, she attempted to find purchase with Arizona's body and ease the ache emitting from her core. She groaned when she found it against Arizona's belly.

As Arizona's lips and tongue played with the solid teat; her fingers grazed over her lover's soaked vulva then pressed into the extended clitoris.

Gripping Arizona's hips, Jaimie cried out, "Baby make me come."

In reply, Arizona took the nipple between her teeth and tugged ever so gently.

"Ugh, yes just like that. Love you Arizona."

Flicking her tongue back and forth rapidly over the plump node, Jaimie lifted up when digits entered her and she held on tight.

"I … love … you … baby," chanted Jaimie over and over before collapsing onto the mattress and wrapping her arms around Arizona. She instantly rolled her onto her back and crawled downward to capture Arizona's clitoris in an elongated suckle.

Arizona sat up and grabbed black locks and held on for dear life as shot after shot of ecstasy attacked her senses. "Oh god honey, so good," she screamed. She was done the instant Jaimie clicked her tongue against the tip. With her limbs shaking and her thighs clenching, Arizona experienced blinding flashes of white light behind her eyelids as she found release. She found it again as Jaimie lazily licked up her essence, only to produce more.

-o-

Raising her head, Arizona glanced to the side and read the digital numbers on the clock. It was ten forty. Jaimie was currently in the kitchen retrieving bottles of water for rehydration. The pair had made love for two hours and Arizona giggled when she thought about Jaimie saying she wasn't done yet.

Stretching, Arizona laughed again when the door opened and a shell shocked Jaimie appeared, "Don't tell me dad caught you again?"

Locking the door, Jaimie returned to bed and sat beside Arizona. Passing over a drink, she finally answered, "No, it was much worse than that."

Feeling cold skin against her hip, Arizona complained, "Hey, you're freezing. Where did you actually go?"

"I ended up going outside to the bar fridge."

"Oh crap, who was in the kitchen this time?"

"Luke and Teddy were. He was rooting her on the dining table."

Chuckling, Arizona retorted, "I am going out on a limb here in assuming rooting means intercourse."

"Yes it does. My brother was banging your bestie on our table … in the nude. Shit, we are supposed to eat breakfast there in the morning."

"Eww, just exactly where on the table; I'm not sitting there."

"You are safe; it's where I sit on the left side."

"The dirty bastards," commented Arizona before launching into another fit of the giggles.

Jaimie joined in, "I am never going to let them live this down. They have a perfectly good bed in a soundproofed room to utilise, but no, they chose our furniture to have sex on. I've seen Luke's bare arse before, but not while he's going at it with a near hysterical Teddy."

"I think we need to put a refrigerator in this room so you can avoid these situations."

Shaking her head, Jaimie swore, "Shit, I can't believe they were doing it on our table."

Pecking Jaimie on the cheek, Arizona pointed out, "Well it is a good spot."

"Yes, for us in our own home. You and I are going to stay at Luke's when I come home and we are going to root in every room and on every piece of furniture."

Arizona let out another chuckle, "Oh honey that is adorable."

"I'm serious Arizona. That is just bad manners."

Looking closer, Arizona detected a faint curl on Jaimie's lips, "You don't mean that, you're trying not to smile."

"You know me too well, but we are going to pay him back some day."

"I'm all for that."

Putting her empty bottle on the end table, Jaimie turned off the lamp, "The whole experience has ruined my mojo."

"Really?" complained Arizona disappointedly.

"Yes and while I get the distasteful images out of my mind, I'll give you a present."

"You got me a gift?"

Jumping out of bed, Jaimie stripped off her sleepwear and walked into the closet. Coming back to bed carrying a medium sized gift wrapped box, she got under the covers.

"I didn't get you anything," apologised Arizona as she was handed the package.

"I didn't expect you to, besides you gave me a spectacular ring. This is something I thought would come in handy."

Ripping off the paper, Arizona stared at the box of Duracell batteries and laughed, "Very funny."

"I thought so and you can use them on that little pink vibrator you have hidden in your underwear drawer."

Blushing, Arizona confessed, "I haven't used it since we met."

"Did you before?" inquired Jaimie with a crooked left eyebrow.

"Uhm duh, of course I did. I was on my own for some time, so I bought it after the divorce during the lean years."

"So, you didn't stop using it once you starting your dating spree?"

"No, I only went through that stage for a short time."

Leaning into Arizona's right ear, Jaimie asked, "Do you plan on utilising it while I'm away?"

"Unless you want me to end up in prison for murder, then that would be a yes. I'll become too frustrated and use a brick on some unsuspecting person in a fit of rage."

Giggling, Jaimie straightened up and squeezed Arizona's knee, Karev told me about your threats to hit him with a brick and I won't be jealous of your vibrator."

A loud guffaw came from Arizona, "That's very kind of you."

"Is it waterproof?"

"Yes and before you ask; I'll use it while I am in the bath or shower thinking of you."

"I'm impressed you will be taking care of yourself in my absence and not getting your freak on in jail with some top dog."

"You are easily impressed honey and four months without your love making won't be pleasant. I may end up needing more batteries."

The grin on Jaimie's face was almost feral, "That's a real turn on sweetheart. Do you want to show me how you will use it?"

Shaking her head, Arizona returned the smile, "No, I prefer to have you in person."

"Good answer and my mojo is fully restored."

"Yay for me," celebrated Arizona while straddling Jaimie's lap.

"Yay indeed my love."

-o-

Up next: Departure day arrives and people are on the move.