Disclaimer:

I do not own Durarara! Or its characters. This is a fan fiction made purely for the enjoyment of others. Before reading this story there are 2 things you should know;

1 This story contains MALExMALE relationships.

If you do not like that sort of thing then this story is not for you.

2 This story contains child abuse on a high level, if you have a problem with that then once again this story is not for you.

Thank you.

This is a story created by me and Kurgy. The main concept was developed by both her and I, so any credit for this story also goes to her.

Izaya's POV:

Ugh.

I cant remember one time in my life were simple waking up seemed like a chore. I'd rather just stay asleep like this forever.

…those aren't good thoughts, are they? Alright, I'm getting up.

I squinted my eyes shut as soon as I opened them, the abnormally bright lights viciously assaulting my corneas. As I rubbed my eyes in an attempt to soothe the burning sensation, muffled voices came from outside the door.

Two I instantly recognized as Mairu and Kururi and the other was…Shinra?

Wait a minute, where am I? When the hell did I get here? Wasn't I at home with…Shizu-chan…

Thinking about that makes my stomach churn. I tried to strangle someone in my sleep, that's the kind of freaky shit that happens in manga, I mean, I'm not that fucking deranged….never mind.

But Shizu-chan, he…he went easy on me. Even after the whole 'trying to kill you thing' he still stayed in control of his emotions. He didn't throw anything or hit me. Not ONCE. Can you believe it?

Haha…I cant even force myself to laugh.

You have nothing to even say to me? After all of this, you still want me dead, huh? I guess something's will never change.

Oh yeah…Shizu-chan said that, huh?

All this time, is this what you really wanted?

Is it? I don't know. I just don't know…

Is this your idea of a fucking joke! Just to get me to care for you!

No. I really did want you to care. I needed you to care.

Tch, ya'know what? I don't think I ever did care about you. I just felt sorry for you.

That's probably true Shizu-chan. You're just a kind person. Kind enough pity a pathetic person like me. Shizu-chan…if I said I was sorry, would you believe me? Would you forgive me if I said it for the rest of my life?

I'm sorry.

Because I truly am. From the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry, for everything I've done to you.

Please don't leave me.

"No Shinra you don't understand!" I jumped at Mairu's sudden yell, turning my head to the closed door.

"Well, what am I not understanding? You were at home, and Izaya fainted, right?"

"BUT THAT'S NOT ALL!" Mairu yelled again.

"But that's all you've told me!" Shinra said defensively, I can almost see his expression in my mind.

The look of utter confusion.

Oh Shinra…

An awkward silence fell after that, not lasting very long before an angry groan and a loud bang rang throughout the apartment. I assume Mairu kicked something.

"Hey don't kick that you'll break it!"

Bingo.

"This is all Shizuo-san's fault!" She yelled, followed shortly by another loud bang.

…FUCK…

"Wait a minute…Shizuo? What does he have to do with this?" Shinra asked, genuinely surprised.

"Yelled…" Kururi answered vaguely.

"Yelled?" Shinra asked, confused.

"Yelled!" Mairu confirmed loudly.

"Yelled…" He said again.

"Yelled." Kururi stated.

"Yelled!" and there's Mairu…

Just how long will this go on?

"Alright, alright! He yelled! Anything else?" Shinra groaned impatiently.

"Iza-nii was on his lap!" Mairu hollered in an unnecessarily loud voice.

Shit, Mairu! You don't have to tell him that!

"He was….WHAT?" Was Shinra's stunned reply.

"Hugging." Kururi said blandly.

Oh god…..I knew they'd bring it up eventually, but was now really the best time?

"Wait, wait, wait….Let me get this straight. Shizuo yelled, and then hugged Izaya?" Shinra asked.

He's so stupid.

"No! We came home and he was holding Iza-nii on his lap, and then we went to bed, and then Shizuo-san was yelling at Iza-nii!" Mairu corrected.

Are they purposefully leaving the strangling part out? Cause I think that's important.

"You guys aren't making any sense!" Shinra shouted tiredly. "When did Shizuo go to your house? How did Izaya end up on his LAP? And how did all that lead to him yelling at Izaya? What did he say to him?"

"Well…" Mairu said quietly.

For the love of god Mairu, now would be the perfect timeto shut your trap for once. Shinra knows enough, please, pleasejust don't say anymore.

"He said…really mean things…"

Damn it.

Shinra sighed. I quietly got out of bed and snuck over to the door, pressing my ear against the cool surface of the wood, listening intently for his response.

"Lets just start from the beginning, alright? When you got home, what did you see?"

"Iza-nii sitting on Shizuo-san's lap."

….

….

"…and after that?" Shinra said, his voice cracking in an almost comical manner. Almost.

"Iza-nii said it wasn't like that and said Shizuo-san was helping him feel better."

"About what?" Shinra asked curiously.

"No idea." Kururi answered back.

"Alright…and after that?"

"Iza-nii told us to go to bed." Mairu answered again.

"And after that?" Shinra was beginning to sound frustrated.

"…."

"…."

They both fell silent, I can only guess trying to come up with some excuse for what I did. There's no point. There is no excuse for hat I've done, it just makes it worse that they're trying to come up with a reason for me.

"Iza-nii…did something bad…" Mairu said quietly.

"…Very…"

Another short silence fell before Shinra responded.

"What...did he do?" He said just as quietly as Mairu.

"He…" Kururi whispered.

Oh shit, they're really going to tell him.

"Well he-"

"NOTHING!" I yelled, slamming the door open.

They all three jumped, Shinra almost falling over, as I walked briskly into the room.

"Time to go home." I said grabbing the girls arms before making my way towards the door.

"H-Hold on a minute Izaya!" Shinra stammered, still slightly shocked. "I haven't gotten the chance to examine you yet! You shouldn't be walking around so much! J-Just go lay back down and I'll-!"

"Thanks." I said, cutting him off. "But I'm fine. And I really need to get the girls back home."

"But what happened with Shizuo?" He asked, worry coating his slightly high pitched voice.

"Nothing." I stated loudly. "Nothing happened. Bye Shinra."

And we walked out the door. The girls said nothing as I called a cab, throwing worried glances at me every now and then.

I feel disgusted. Why did I interrupt them? Shinra will find out eventually anyway, either from the twins or Shizuo, so why did I feel the need to hide it? Just so Shinra wont think any less of me than he already does? I'm so pathetic.

We walked into the apartment doors quietly. I turned on the lights as the twins took off they're shoes, setting them neatly by the door.

"Iza-nii?" They said in unison, walking up beside me as I turned on the kitchen lights.

"Hm?" I tried to sound normal, it didn't work.

I couldn't really speak, my whole body was shaking and my voice cracked slightly as I answered them.

How long was I like that? I don't know. Have I been shaking like this all the way here?

"Why did you do that to Shizuo-san?" Mairu sniffled behind me.

I opened my mouth slowly, almost choking as I spoke.

"I…I don't know…I just…"

Mairu began sobbing loudly as Kururi curled her fingers through mine, linking are hands together as she pulled me closer to them.

That night, the three of us cried together.

Author's note's:

Hey there! Its been a while huh? :P Well I'm back peoples! XD WAHAHAHAHA! I'm almost all better too, just got to stay inside and not move. Luckily for me I have a lap top! Which does not require me to sit up straight while I use it. Hurray! Anyway, sorry if this chapter seemed kind of forced, or rushed. I guess I'm kinda in a slump, so it's not written as well as my other ones. :,( Sorry…Anyway, I'm trying to update all of my stories so I have a lot of work to do!

Any and All reviews are greatly appreciated! Thank you for reading chapter 25!