When Loghain reached Kallian's room, he found the door gaping and coming from inside the chamber, the Inquisitor's voice got to his ears.
"I heard that stars still cast light long after their death…I can't help but think about it whenever I see you,"
Kallian didn't answer, Loghain frowned as Kallian stayed silent…
"This man…the dread wolf, he wants to tear the veil to bring back his people?" Kallian finally spoke.
"Maybe, but what I am sure about is that if he succeeds every one of those filthy mages will be able to host a demon and thus become immortal and obtain some godlike powers…those abominations are a race of their own and are already born with half a conscience but after the destruction of the veil, we will all become their slaves…"
"I thought the dalish considered their mage keepers as the wisest,"
"wisest my ass, she's an old bitch who sent me to the conclave hoping that I would die because long ago my father preferred to marry a fine woman and not a half-mad bitch like her," Aya's face was twisted with disgust as she remembered their clan's keeper… "Anyway, do you have any regrets now that you have forced me to retire, knowing what your son will be facing?"
Kallian didn't speak… and Loghain held his breath.
"He chose to carry the weight of his father's name alongside the hard duties of an Inquisitor, and if we add to that the fact that he is a half breed with no strong identity to rely on, I can already hear solas rubbing his hands…" Aya laughed…
"What do you want from me?" Kallian's voice was weak and quivering…
"I want you to get off your high horse and realize your own foolishness…if my Kally were normal I would have never allowed her to marry your mixed-blood bastard…"
None of what Aya had said would have been able to shake Loghain or sadden him, but Kallian's resigned silence was unbearable.
"You surely speak with a great self-righteousness when you are carrying the child of your human husband," Loghain said as he stepped inside the room.
"it hardly matters, the truth will always be the truth even if the circumstances pushes you into the opposite path," Aya laughed, "of all people, I thought that you are the only one who can understand this," she added.
"You have a wild imagination, Lavellan," Loghain raised his eyebrow, mocking the dalish elf.
"I almost forgot one of your main traits, hypocrisy," Aya smirked, "putting the interests of your country above all, except when your daughter's position is threatened…implicitly acknowledging that a living together between different races is impossible and then fooling around with a flat ear…but deep down, you know that a mixed race dog has no value," Aya's words were unexpectedly hurting Kallian's soul…she had offered her children the best education, money, time , and the greatest teachers and yet it seems that she had failed…and maybe, what Lavellan was saying wasn't far from the truth…
"Speaking of pets, I must thank you for the thoughtful gift, you gave to Adaia," Loghain's voice was cold and so was his stare.
"Don't mention it," Aya smiled
"I will return the favor once you drop the snake you are carrying," Loghain said pointing at Aya's belly… Earlier he had found Adaia crying near the stairs...she was holding a kitten. He had sat beside her and asked her, expecting that she would send him packing as usual, but she had told him that the Inquisitor had gifted her this kitten explaining that he came from a litter her purebred cat accidentally had with a feral male... Aya had said 'they are neither beautiful like their mother nor strong like their father, I thought this one would make a perfect pet for you'…He didn't know what to say, and how to console a crying girl…Anora had never been this emotional…He simply held her in his arms as long as she allowed him to do so…
"You seem to have pressing matters to discuss, I will leave you to it hoping you both enjoyed your stay in Skyhold," Aya said before heading to the door…She was so sure about Caridin's future failure, she expected him to get rejected and to mess so badly that Leliana would come begging for her to retake the Inquisitor position… Even if Kallian seemed so unsure and staggering right now, Loghain had no doubts about the boy's skills.
Kallian…She was lost in her thoughts, still sitting on her chair, staring at nothing…it pained him to see her in such a state, at the same time he knew that it was the perfect moment to talk to her, all her certitudes were crumbling and so shall the wall she had built between them.