A/N: Sorry for the long wait, been extremely busy the last week or so with no sign of letting up, but I thought you guys waited long enough for an update, so enjoy! :)

"Why the fuck should I let you talk to her Joe, huh? Give me one good reason why I shouldn't knock you into fucking next week." Jon said as he does everything he does to keep his anger in check.

Joe looks down, knowing that he fucked up royally with Amanda, putting his hands in his pockets as he looks back up at Jon's angry blue eyes.

"I wanted to apologize to her for what I said to her earlier, assuming you already knew by the anger in your voice," he said softly as he tries to keep from letting tears fall again.

"Amanda does not want to see you Joe, she doesn't like you right now so its best that you avoid her. As a matter of fact, Colby is booking two rooms at another hotel, one for Colby and I and the other for Amanda and DJ, so you can have this room. Give us about 10 minutes and we will be out of your hair."

Joe looks up in shock, "You guys are what? Gonna leave me here by myself?"

"Yep...you deserve it after how you acted towards her earlier. Are you fucking serious? You accuse her of that shit? What the fuck is wrong with you?"

Before Joe could answer, someone hollers from behind.

"Who is at the door Jon?" Colby yells as he hangs up the phone from making reservations at a nearby hotel.

"The fucking idiot of the year..." Jon replied in a snark tone, making Joe a little angry.

"Jon, that is uncalled for.." Joe said as he starts to get impatient.

"The shoe fucking fits, doesn't it?" he sneered as Colby comes up, even angier than Jon, making Joe very uneasy. He isn't the one to show fear or shy from anything, but his two boys being mad or upset with him? Doesn't like it at all.

"What the fuck are you doing here Joe? The nerve of showing your face right now!"

"He is here to talk to Amanda, as he says..."

"The fuck he is, do you realize its taken me and Jon everything we have right now to not kick your motherfucking ass down this hallway? What in blue hell is wrong with you?" Colby asked as he crosses his arms across his chest.

"Please, I just want to talk to Amanda, please?" Joe pleaded as he faces his two best friends who could seriously hurt him right now. Who could blame them?

"Give us one good fucking reason why we should Joe, one good reason" Jon asked in a stone cold glare with a voice to match it. Joe knows Jon could knock him out if he wanted to. He is that crazy to do it.

"Because I love her Jon, because I can't breathe without her, can't live without her in my heart. I know I fucked up badly, I have no excuse for it. I just want to let her know that I love her no matter what happens. I realize my mistake once it came out of my mouth and couldn't take it back. Please, let me at least just say my peace and I will leave her alone if she still wishes."

Jon and Colby looks at each other after Joe's confession, then looks at Joe, Jon doesn't move, but Colby speaks up. "You have 10 minutes, and make it worth it. You screwed up and she is more hurt than I have seen her since her near rape months ago. You killed a little bit of her sprit inside her. Its bad enough she can't have anymore kids, but for you to accuse her of doing it on purpose is low, even for you. You only did that with Melissa when she faked her pregnancy to keep you, but in Amanda's case, she said it in fear that she will lose you and still took that chance. She loves you Joe, but in all honesty, you don't deserve her love."

Joe looks down as Colby's words hit him hard. He was right though. He looks up at both and nods.

Jon steps aside as he follows Colby to where Amanda was sitting. Joe's breath stopped for a second. Even in her hurt state, she was beautiful, and no reason for him to hurt her.

"Amanda, Joe wanted to talk to you for a bit, okay? We will be in the back with DJ to see how much the munchkin cost me in video games!"

Amanda smile the first real smile since earlier. She nodded to Jon as both him and Colby turn to head in the back.

Amanda looks at Joe, her smile disappears, hurting Joe in the process. He would love to see her smile like that for him. He goes to sit next to her, but Amanda stops him.

"Don't come near me Joe, if you want to talk, sit in the chair over there. Because the thought of you next to me right now makes me sick."

Those words just tore at Joe's heart as he turns to slowly go over and sit at the chair at the far end away from Amanda. He knows she is hurting, but it didn't make it any easier when she said them. But who could blame her?

"Start talking" she said in a montone voice. Her love in her voice was gone as well as the sparkle in her eyes when she would see him. Just...gone...

Joe sighs as he runs his hands through his hair. He then puts his hands in his lap as he looks up at her.

"I'm sorry Amanda, so so sorry for what I said to you. You didn't deserve that from me."

"Apology is NOT accepted" she said as she gets up.

"Please...don't go..." he said in a fearful voice.

"Why not? After all, you said I got fixed to where I couldn't have kids anymore. So what's the point of me being here with you?" she sneered as she looked straight at him in the eyes.

"I shouldn't have said that-"

"YOU FUCKING RIGHT YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID THAT TO ME YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!" She screamed, taking Joe by surprise and bringing Jon and Colby to the room.

"Amanda?" Jon asked.

"It's okay guys, this needs to be said, please, let me say what I have to say then we can go.."

"Okay, we are right here if you need us, okay?" Colby said softly.

"Okay" was all she said as both Jon and Colby head back to the back.

Amanda, still looking at Joe, who never moved from his chair, spoke again. "You have no fucking clue how badly you hurt me Joe, seriously. You told me something in confidence because you knew you could trust me to be there for you. I told you something that was literally killing me inside because I THOUGHT I could trust you and be there for me, and how the hell do you repay me? By fucking ACCUSING me of getting fixed? How fucking dare you Joe."

Joe looks down again, tears threatening to fall again, this time because he knew how badly he hurt his baby girl. He just doesn't know how to fix this.

"I think its best if we don't see each other for a while, until you figure out what it is that you want, because it sure as hell isn't me. If you want kids, which I hope you do in the future, go find Joanie or even Melissa. Maybe they can help fill that in for you."

"Amanda, please, I need you, we can't break up, can't we try and fix this, please?" Joe pleads as he gets up and looks at Amanda, who is standing on the other side of the couch, with her arms folded.

"There isn't anything to fix Joe, and it was ME that needed you for once. You just don't get it, do you?" she asked harshly.

"No, I don't, I don't want us to break up, I know I screwed up, but please let me find a way to make it up to you, please. Just don't leave me, please..." he begs as he falls to his knees, putting his head in his hands.

"Joe, you need to find out what it is you want, I can't do this anymore. I have waited two months to see you again, to make love to you, to maybe meet your family, to do things with you, but that doesn't seem possible now. There may not be anyway to come back from this. This may not be fixable. You did the one thing you swore you would never do, and that is hurt me worse than Kevin ever did. We had some great times, but I guess our love wasn't strong enough. I am sorry that I can't be the woman you wanted with a son that I thought you loved. Again, maybe your two whores can fill those in for you."

"BUT I DON'T WANT THOSE TWO, I WANT YOU! ONLY YOU!" He roared as he hits the table with his hands, causing Amanda to jump back a bit.

"Well, I am sorry, but you can't have me right now. I wish you the best with your life. I hope that you find the woman who can make all your dreams come true. I am just sorry that it wasn't me."

"Amanda, I am begging you, please, one more chance, just one more chance..." he sobs as he tries to reach for her. "I can't live without you, breath without you. You have me heart baby girl, please..."

Amanda, trying not to give in to Joe's begging, looks at him with tears falling from her face, speaks in a softer voice, "I love you Joe, that will never change, but I can't be with you right now. It hurts to much to be around you knowing that I can't give you the one thing you have always dreamed of. You deserve to be a father Joe, and I hope you do. It just can't be me...so please, just let me go and let me and DJ be. I just don't want to hurt anymore right now."

And before Joe could respond, she turns and heads to the back to let the boys know she was ready to leave. Making him believe that he may have just lost the love of his life before life ever really began for them. He goes numb and slouches down as he watches them all leave, passing him by as he has not moved from the floor. He sobs as he heard the door closed behind him, knowing the lost of a woman is too much to bear...

Sooooooo...does Joe and Amanda still have a chance?