AN: Here's another update people. You're welcome, lol!

Bonnie groaned in pain as Damon roughly entered her fragile body. She gasped, tears forming in her eyes because it hurt so much.

She tried to push him off of her but he was too strong and continued to drive unmercifully into her tightness, her body not prepared for the harsh invasion.

He wrenched her thighs further apart. "Take all of it!" He growled, filling her to hilt.

Bonnie struggled to breathe, her delicate flesh burning with pain.

She couldn't believe this was happening. Damon had never been so violent with her. Bonnie didn't understand.

He began to thrust savagely into her. She screamed out. Oh god, he was going to tear her apart.

"Pleassse…Stoppp!" She wept.

Damon laughed. "Stop…I'm just getting starting. Did you honestly think I wouldn't punish you for leaving me Bonnie?"

"Please Damon…don't." She begged.

And then all of a sudden he began to pull out of her and Bonnie whimpered.

Thank god he stopped, she hurt so bad.

Damon lovingly caressed her face. "Tell me you're sorry." He softly demanded.

Bonnie was crying, her small body trembling beneath his. She would say anything to make him stop. "I-I'm sorry." She choked out.

Damon's jaw tensed as he lightly touched her quivering lips with his fingertips. "Now say that you'll never do it again."

"I'll n-never do it again."

Damon leaned his head down and kissed her lips and when he pulled back and stared down into her eyes, his were furious.

"Liiiar!" He hissed in her face and then viciously thrust back inside of her.

An ear piercing screamed erupted from Bonnie's throat.

"Hey, wake up…wake up you crazy girl before Plec comes charging in here!" Bonnie heard as she was jerked awake from the dream.

Her eyes shot open to see her roommate, Madison, hovering over her.

Bonnie's heart was beating so fast and she was breathing like she'd just run a marathon. She sat up in bed.

"I'm sorry." Bonnie panted, wiping the sweat from her brow.

Gawd, ever since Dr. Waters told her that she was being released, she'd been having these awful dreams about Damon, but this dream was by far the worst.

It felt so real.

Her mind was playing serious tricks on her, taking advantage of her trepidation about going home and twisting it into these horrible nightmares of Damon taking his anger out on her.

Because she knew without being told that he was furious with her for voluntarily signing herself into a mental hospital after the seventy-two hours evaluation period was over and she was deemed NOT a threat to herself or others and could go home.

But Bonnie needed more time away, those seventy-two hours was not enough for her. She considered going home to Ohio but she knew that Damon would follow her and she needed space to get her head together and that would never be possible as long as Damon had easy access to her.

She needed to go someplace he couldn't get to her, so she voluntarily signed herself into River Ridge, a private mental hospital located outside of Los Angeles.

Because Bonnie was a voluntary patient she was allowed to have visitors, but when Damon, Stefan, Morgan and Victoria showed up to see her, they were told that their names weren't on the visitors list and were turned away. Of course Damon raised hell and security had to be called. He couldn't believe that Bonnie was doing all this.

The Salvatores wouldn't find out until later that the only two people on Bonnie's visitors list were her parents.

Bonnie couldn't deal with seeing anyone else.

Her parents came to see her twice and that first visit Bonnie had been so scared that once she told them everything, especially about the abortion that they would turn their backs on her and not love her anymore.

Dr. Waters had been inside the room with them giving Bonnie her support, but all of that fear had been for not because Rudy and Abby had embraced Bonnie with tears pouring down their faces because they had no idea she was going through so much all on her own and what hurt them the most was the fact that Bonnie felt like she couldn't come to them.

Bonnie had cried because her parents were blaming themselves for her mistakes and the visit ended up turning into a three hour long therapy session with Dr. Waters counseling the Bennett family which allowed them to open up the lines of communication and really talk like they'd never done before. It was an experience that left the small family stronger than ever.

And as the days went by and Bonnie was getting the help she needed bits and pieces of what happened that fateful night started to come back to her, one very important thing being Damon yelling that he loved her.

Bonnie didn't know what to think of this.

But if she were to be honest, it scared her.

When Dr. Waters asked her why it scared her Bonnie didn't have an answer. By that time, her psychiatrist knew all about the triangle. Damon and Stefan were discussed during their daily sessions along with the suicide attempt, her childhood and issues of her racial identity, but the most difficult thing for Bonnie to talk about had been the abortion. It was during her session with Dr. Waters that Bonnie found out she suffered from depression and that it was a major factor in her trying to commit suicide. It had shocked the hell out of Bonnie. She had no idea but then it made sense because there was no way in hell all of that sadness and despair she was feeling was normal; Bonnie had felt weighed down by it.

But it was a relief to know what her problem was and be able to get treatment.

She'd been institutionalized for a month and Dr. Waters felt she was ready to leave the facility, though Bonnie wasn't so sure. She wasn't stupid. There inside those walls, she was able to get her mind right and think clearly, but once she left the safety of those walls it was a whole other story because Bonnie knew who would be waiting for her and she was afraid of getting sucked back into all of that craziness and everything she gained from her therapy sessions would be thrown out the window.

Her parents wanted her to come home, but Bonnie felt like it would just be prolonging the inevitable. She needed to get back to her life and that was there in California. Only Dr. Waters and her parents knew of Bonnie's plan of move back into her own home.

Damon would be blindsided yet again.

Her father was back at work, his arm fully healed, so she was no longer bound to Damon for the money to pay the medical bills. She could walk away now, but Bonnie knew that it wouldn't be that easy. Damon wouldn't let it be, especially now that he thought he was in love with her.

Madison saw how freaked out Bonnie looked. "Damn, that must have been some dream. What was it about?"

Bonnie licked her dry lips. "I-I don't remember." She said, lying.

Madison snorted, getting off Bonnie's bed and sitting down on her own. "You're lucky Nurse Plec didn't bring her big ass in here after hearing you scream out like that. You know she doesn't like you…personally, I think it's because you're black." The blonde said conversationally, pulling out a pack of cigarettes from under the mattress.

Bonnie thought that too, but the woman kept her distance, only giving Bonnie the stink eye when she thought no one was looking.

"Yeah well, she was probably taking her break. Or maybe she just didn't care because I'm leaving tomorrow." Bonnie said lying back down on her side facing Madison's bed.

"Yeah… lucky you." Madison said, lighting up a cigarette.

"You know those things are going to kill you Madison…you need to quit." Bonnie said, changing the subject.

The nineteen year old shrugged. "Well eventually something has to…at least this way it won't be considered suicide."

Bonnie had known this girl for a month. She'd tried to kill herself too. But the difference between her and Bonnie was that Bonnie no longer wanted to die.

"Bonnie, you don't need to be in this place…you never did." Dr. Waters said.

They were standing outside on the curb in front of the hospital with the taxi waiting for Bonnie to get inside.

Bonnie bit her lip and looked up at the older woman that reminded her so much of Miss Wilder from Little House on the Prairie.

"Then why am I scared to death to leave?"

Dr. Waters smiled sadly. She had become fond of the young women in the past month. She lightly touched Bonnie's face. "Because it's time for you to face your life and it's scary because you haven't decided what you want.

Bonnie released a heavy breath.

Dr. Waters hugged her. "Trust yourself Bonnie…if nothing else, do that."

After a moment, the older woman pulled away, letting Bonnie go.

"Thank you… for everything." Bonnie said with tears in her eyes.

Dr. Waters smiled.

Bonnie took one last deep breath and released it. "Good bye."

Dr. Waters watched her get into the taxi and waved. "Good bye Bonnie."

The taxi dropped Bonnie off in front of her home and she stood there for a long moment just staring at it.

It felt surreal being back.

Finally Bonnie cleared her throat and picked up her bag and walked to the front door, sliding the key into the lock and taking a deep breath before opening the door.

She walked inside putting down her bag and closed the door before locking it.

She looked around.

The renters had taken good care of her home. The furniture was in good shape, there were no holes in the walls or scratches on the hardwood floors, everything looked pretty much the same way she left it.

As she was walking to the kitchen, Bonnie realized she would need to go to the grocery store but that her car was at Damon's house. She sighed. She wasn't ready to see him, at least not yet. But she really did need to get her car.

Bonnie looked at her watch. It was Wednesday afternoon. Damon was at work and would be for the next three hours or so, which would give her enough time to get over there and pack her things without creating a scene.

Yes it was a cowardly thing to do but Bonnie had to do what was best for her in that moment.

She called for a taxi.

When Bonnie unlocked the front door and pushed it open, Lasher was waiting for her with his tongue out and tail wagging. Bonnie knelt down and scratched his shiny yellow coat.

"Hey boy...did you know it was me at the door?"

Lasher licked her face. Bonnie patted him one last time before standing to her feet. She then turned back to the door and closed it and punched in the security code so the alarm wouldn't go off.

Bonnie patted her leg. "Come on boy...come keep me company."

She went up the stairs rather slowly, memories of that night flashing through her mind. When she got to the bedroom, her eyes immediately went to the open bathroom door and she swallowed hard before crossing the room.

She turned on the bathroom light and stood there. Most of her memories of that night were a little hazy. But the memory that stuck out the most was the devastated look on Damon's face as he held her. It had made her feel so sad. Her trying to kill herself had hurt him.

She quickly pushed the brief thought aside, dismissing it. Nothing could ever hurt Damon Salvatore, lest of all her.

She looked at the floor and then the claw foot bathtub. No one would ever be able to tell that a gruesome, bloody act had occurred in this bathroom. It was spotless. She vaguely wondered who cleaned up the bloody mess.

Damon had, but Bonnie would never know that.

Bonnie didn't know how long she stood there inside the bathroom, but she was pulled from her thoughts when Lasher began to bark in the doorway.

She snapped out of it and walked into the bedroom going into the closet. She grabbed her suitcases and placed both of them on the bed and opened them up.

It took her a little over an hour to get all her things packed up. By the time the suitcases where packed they were too heavy to carry, so she had to bring them downstairs and out to her car one at a time and even that was a struggle.

She was out of breath and panting hard by the time she got the second suitcase into the car and had to stop and rest for a few minutes before going back to the house to get her jewelry box.

As she walked to the house, Bonnie tried not to think about Damon's reaction when he got home this evening and discovered all her things gone.

She ran up the stairs into the bedroom and walked across the room, grabbing the jewelry box from off the dresser and was back at her car a couple of minutes later, only to realize that she forgot to get the charger to her phone. Bonnie sighed, getting out of the car and jogged back to the house.

Lasher barked when she opened the door.

"Sorry boy, I know you're getting tired of me."

She ran upstairs into the bedroom and opened the top drawer of the nightstand and grabbed her charger. Moments later she was headed back down stairs and had just reached the bottom when the front door unexpectedly opened and Damon filled the doorway.

Bonnie froze.

The shock of seeing her there was very evident on Damon's face. They hadn't seen each other since the night at the hospital.

"You're home." He said.

Bonnie swallowed hard, briefly averting her eyes before looking back at him. "I got released this morning."

Damon closed the door. "Why didn't you call me...I would have come to pick you up?"

Bonnie shook her head. "It's okay I took a taxi cab."

Damon begged to differ, and how she kept trying to distance herself from him was taking a toll.

Damon slowly shook his head. "No it's not okay Bonnie...it's not even close to being okay."

Bonnie gripped the small charger in her hand.

Damon began to close the space between them. "You signed yourself into that fucking hospital...you wouldn't let me see you the entire time you were there...you get released...and you don't even tell me. What is all this? What are you trying to do to me?" He said gently taking her face in his hands.

Him touching her making Bonnie close her eyes.

Damon leaned his head down and kissed her lips. Bonnie slightly jerked back in surprise but he didn't release her, becoming persistent when she didn't open her mouth but just stood there.

She placed her slender hand against his chest trying to pull away and after a few moments more he let her go.

She took a step back. "Just stop okay."

"Why?" He asked, panting. "You've been gone for an entire month."

Bonnie hugged herself, for some reason feeling disappointed by his actions. "Is that all you care, the fact that you haven't fucked me in a month?" She shook her head. "You didn't even take the time to ask how I'm doing before trying to get between my legs but you claim to love me. No. You don't love me. You love fucking me. There's a difference."

Damon swallowed hard. Why did he keep fucking up when it came to her?

He felt so happy inside when he opened the door and saw her standing there. And instead of telling her that and asking how she was, he immediately went in on her and made everything about him.

Bonnie took the keys from her back pocket and slipped off his house key and handed it to him.

Damon didn't move to take it. "What are you doing?" He asked.

"What I should have done a long time ago…I'm ending this. Now please take your key."

He shook his head and the fear of her leaving him caused Damon to effortlessly revert back to his bastardly ways. "No. We have an arrangement and I'm not going to let you walk away from it."

"You don't have any other choice Damon." Her voice was so resolute that he became desperate.

"I love you!" He uttered with so much feeling that it silenced her.

But after a moment, Bonnie shook her head sadly. "Love and obsession are also two different things Damon."

Damon's jaw clenched. "That's not what this is. I'm not obsessed with you. It may look that way...but it's not."

Yes, maybe he was guilty of loving to hard and being selfish with her, but Damon had never felt this way about any woman and because he was trying to hold on to her with everything that he had it came off as obsessive.

"No, you're obsessed with what I represent. I'm your conquest. You were able to take me away from Stefan, the brother that you've been envious of since the moment he was born."

Damon grabbed Bonnie, bending his knees so that he was at eye level with her.

"I'm. In. Love. With. You…you hear me Bonnie… and I know my love scares you…but what's scaring you even more is the fact that you have feelings for me too, but you're ashamed of them because I'm the bad boy, I'm dangerous and unpredictable...I'm everything that you shouldn't want, but do. If I didn't force your hand then you would have remained in that passionless farce of a relationship that you had with my brother...and you would have probably ended up marrying him for the simple fact that he's safe! I didn't take you away from Stefan Bonnie…I gave you a way out and you took it!"

Bonnie's eyes filled with tears and she tried to pull away from him. "No. That's not true!" She cried. "You kept coming after me…you wouldn't leave me alone!"

He was changing everything around trying to make it seem like she wasn't happy with Stefan but she was...she was!

Then why did you have an affair if you were so happy Bonnie? A tiny voice whispered inside her head.

"I loved Stefan…I loved him!" She screamed hysterically, pushing away from him.

"I know you did Bonnie, but it wasn't enough. Something had to be missing otherwise you never would have succumb to me. Right or wrong?" He asked gently.

Silence filled the space between them as the tears shining in Bonnie's eyes finally fell.

She wiped them away.

Bonnie needed to leave, so without saying another word to Damon, she walked away.

She got to the door and opened it, but before she could take a step outside Damon was behind her and he closed the door.

He hugged her from the back, burying his face in her neck and Bonnie briefly closed her eyes.

He held her like that in silence for a few moments more before speaking. "I will be here when you're ready." He said quietly and then let her go, opening the door for her.

Bonnie swallowed hard before walking out. She didn't look back.