By far, the angstiest chapter I've EVER written! Guess what musical the song is from? Also, guess which characters I'm relating the three to. Whoever gets it first gets a shout out in the chapter I get the review! Because I'm home sick and just typing, I have idea how far I'll go.
Disclaimer: Not mine. Neither is the song used in this chapter.
Those you've known and lost, still walk behind you
All alone they linger till they find you
Without them the world grows dark around you
And nothing is the same until you know that they have found you…
Flynn never thought he'd leave the Grid again. Yet, standing on the Sailer, he didn't know if he wanted to. He had watched as his daughter bid a tearful farewell to one of his best friends. He watched as the programs he befriended and created drive off to fight a dreadful enemy. He watched Sam get punched in the gut for trying to cheer Cassie up.
But he didn't do anything himself as the Sailer moved farther and farther away from the place he had lived in for twenty years.
Those you've pained may carry that still with them
All the same they whisper all forgiven
Still your heart says the shadows bring the starlight
And everything you've ever been is still there in the dark night…
Cassie curled up in a ball. By some sick twist of fate, this was the same Sailer she had ridden on when she had first kissed Tron. It caused her to hurt so much more inside. She had socked Sam in the gut when he tried to cheer her up. She knew it was a childish way of telling him to back off, but she was so consumed by her pain that she couldn't do anything but lash out.
When the northern wind blows (Though you know you've left them far behind)
The sorrows your heart holds (You walk on by yourself, and not with them –)
There are those who still know – (Still you know)
They're still home (They will fill your heart and mind)
We're still home (When they say there's a way through this)
Flynn walked over to where Cassie was curled up in a ball. He placed a gentle hand on her back. She looked up at him with empty eyes. He felt something wet on his foot. Glancing down, he saw his daughter had ripped off the gauze covering her cuts and was digging her nails into her soft flesh again. He pulled Cassie into his arms and held her, rocking her and murmuring in her ear, trying to bring back the vibrant, happy girl she had been.
Those you've known and lost, still walk behind you
All alone their song still seems to find you
They call you as if you knew their longing –
They whistle through the lonely wind, the long blue shadows falling…
They all felt the pain of separation. Cassie dealt with it the worst. She dug her nails into the soft, warm flesh of her arm. She gasped in relief as the nails broke through the thin skin and blood started to flow.
Flynn dealt with it by meditating on the deck. He could tell Sam and Quorra were avoiding him and Cassie. For some reason, they were taking it harder.
Tron just shut everything out. He hardened himself, trying not to think of Cassie. But everything started to remind him of her.
All alone but still I hear their yearning
Through the dark, the moon, alone there, burning
The stars too they tell of spring returning –
And summer with another wind that no one yet has known…
Tron zoomed back into the city alongside the others. He knew they wanted to know what he and Cassie had said to each other. He wasn't going to tell anytime soon. That was a private conversation. Right now, all he wanted to do was burn that last kiss into his heart. Burn that last moment with her into his memory forever.
But he didn't need to worry about that. It was already there.
They call me (When the northern wind blows)[ Still you known]
Through all things – [There's so much more to find –]
Night's falling (The sorrows your heart's known –) [Another dream, another love you'll hold]
But somehow I go on
You watch me (I believe…) [Still you know to trust your own true mind]
Just watch me – [On your way – you are not alone]
I'm calling (They're still home) [There are those who still know]
From longing (We're still home)
The Sailer approached the Portal, getting closer and closer. Sam and Quorra talked amongst themselves in the corner. They didn't want to bother Flynn and Cassie. Both were dealing with this. Both were taking this harder than them. Flynn, because he created this place and he spent so many years here.
But Cassie, because she had fallen so deeply in love.
And that, that was so much worse for her.
Now they'll walk on my arm through the distant night and I won't let them stray from my heart
Through the wind, through the dark, through the winter light
I will read all their dreams to the stars
I'll walk now with them, I'll call on their names, I'll see their thoughts are known
Not gone, not gone –
They walk with my heart…
Tron dodged the infected programs. He never said a word now, even though it had only been a short time since he had separated from Cassie. He slammed the disk into the program's chest as he thought of her. She should be standing next to him, fighting and laughing with violent glee.
Maybe he should've went with her. What was more important?
Her or the Grid?
Not gone…
Cassie stood up, cuts running up and down her arm. Many of them had stopped bleeding after a while. They burned, but they reminded her that she was awake. That this wasn't a dream.
That Tron wasn't a dream.
And I'll never let them go…
Both were important. Both were things he couldn't live without. What does he choose?
Not gone…
It couldn't be a dream. You don't feel PAIN in a dream, right?
I'll never let them go…
Tron felt torn. He loved Cassie. He did. But the Grid… It was his job to protect it.
Not gone…
Cassie dug her nails into her arm one last time for good measure. The pain shot up her arm. It burned.
Burned so much, in fact, that she didn't hear. Didn't hear the cry of her father as they were attacked. Burned so much, in fact, that she couldn't feel.
She didn't feel the disc smashing into the back of her head. Didn't even know she had blacked out.
I'll never let them go…
Tron felt it as soon as Cassie was hit. He could feel something was wrong.
You watch me, just watch me
I'm calling, I'm calling –
And one day all will know.
Wasn't I right? Angsty! :'(
It was so depressing to write this chapter.
We'll return to 1st person next chapter.
Chapter after next will be only Cassie's POV, as it will be another song. She'll be singing it.
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