They walked in silence, much to Syo's relief, who walked a few steps behind the younger idol. The blonde would occasionally scrub at his face, concerned that his cheeks may still be red or swollen from his recent outburst. He felt confused and disappointed. The confusion was that he wasn't sure about what he was disappointed about. He stared at Ai's back; his unnatural blue hair which fell short of his not too broad shoulders followed by a slender back and long legs (which were a bit too long for a fifteen year old). He felt a sinking feeling…why? Because…he didn't want Ai to have his back to him. Syo wanted Ai to turn around and face him again… He wanted Ai to comfort him like he did before.
"No!" the blonde mentally slapped himself. "What am I thinking? Why the hell would I ever want that?" Ahaha…ha…hah- "This is why no one likes me" The blonde's thinking circled into more self-degrading thoughts. "No wonder Natsuki left me…" Syo's walking pace began to slow down. " I have such a horrible personality" He stopped walking and looked at Ai's back, watching it get further away, "People try to be nice to me and I push them away" The small idol cocked his head back and looked up to the sky. He closed his eyes and exhaled heavily. "I wonder..if you've left me too now, Ai?" He released a tight smile, a sad, lonely smile.
Suddenly he felt something cold splash on his cheek and he quickly opened his eyes to receive the greying sky. "Oh, fucking perfect" he muttered to himself sarcastically. When he looked forward again his eyes widened in surprise. Ai had turned around and waited. No, in fact, he was walking towards Syo with his usual placid face and grabbed the dazed blonde by the arm.
"What are you doing? If you get soaked through, it'll affect your already weak disposition" The bluenette scolded in his usual way but Syo remained speechless. Ai had turned back for him… Syo didn't retaliate to his scold and let his senpai drag him at a fast past towards the bus stop. The blonde smiled properly this time and began to chuckle. His shoulders shook as his laugh increased. Ai stopped and frowned at him.
"What's so funny?" scorned the blue-haired boy, cautious in case he had done something embarrassing. Syo laughed even more as the rain began to fall heavily. "Syo!"
"Ahaha, I'm sorry" The blonde thrust his head back again and covered his face with the back of his free hand. "I just thought it was funny how tense I just was but when you grabbed me I felt like all the stress in my shoulders just dissipated. It's funny isn't it?" Syo chuckled with a sober tone.
"Syo…" Ai paused and frowned at the blonde. Syo was acting weird, and Ai was unsure of whether it was his fault or not or what to even do. The rain continued to fall down hard. If they stayed outside much longer, they were both going to get soaked through.
"Syo…Are you sure there's not something wrong with your head as well as your body" criticized the younger idol flatly. Truth was he was he didn't really want to say that. Maybe not saying anything at all would have been a wiser move, or maybe even a rare compliment, but he wanted Syo to act his usual way again. The arguments and avoiding had been a pain and just made the bluenette exhausted. They didn't seem to do either side any good.
"What! I'm being honest here!" Syo snapped, looking up to Ai.
"Uh-huh, of course you are" replied Ai with a feigning doubtfulness in his voice. He had missed teasing Syo.
"Why you-" The younger idol slipped his hand down the older's arm and connected their hands, entwining their fingers as he turned around and proceeded towards the bus stop again. Syo sighed, not bothering to finish his interrupted rant. He chuckled again quietly, letting himself be dragged away. "His hand is warm" he thought.
Sorry I've been absent for a while! Please forgive me! I was so busy with exams, I needed to pay attention to my lessons for once (since I usually write or draw during them) With that said though, thanks so much to all those who offered support! And my exams are all finished! W00t w00t! Hope you like the new chapter. Working on an AkaKuro fic too now, so be sure to visit my page when it's up if you're interested! (Ame is rain in japanese)