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Chapter 25: Scurrred

Bella:

I finally knew why the Cullen's drove so bloody fast.

This was friggen great!

At first when I jumped into the drivers seat of the Porsche I began at my old leisurely pace of a human driver. I was being careful and reserved...

yeah, that lasted all of about 60 seconds!

I stepped on the gas and tore a strip off the pavement! I finally understood the feeling, it was almost like running through the woods, I had no fear of crashing and it wasn't because I was virtually indestructible now - it was because my reflexes were amazing. I was in total control at over 120 miles per hour! I could see the pavement clearly, take in full detail of each tree we would pass - I could clearly study the bark and count the leaves! I had never ever driven this fast and I wanted to go faster! I think I laughed like a maniac all the way to the Cullen's driveway, and only stopped when I finally pulled over before I turned into it.

I grudgingly had to put the top up, it had begun to rain. It was a shame to be cut off from the nights air, it felt suffocating to be shut out from the scents outside the car.

Alice waited patiently, she didn't say a word, I wondered if she saw this coming. I looked up at her. "I'm scared." I whispered, not that she needed me to clarify.

"I know sweetie. You have nothing to fear."

"He doesn't know? None of them know?"

"For the next three minutes or so it's our little secret - they don't even know we're coming home today."

"He's going to be pissed."

"He'll take it out on me." she said shrugging.

"No, this was my decision. Thank you for not telling him, making up that story that I needed time...you were right. It's better this way. It gave me a chance to adjust to my new life and be in control for this. Show him this was a good thing."

"That's all he needs to hear."

"It's probably tearing him apart."

"Don't worry we'll explain. Just give him a bit to adjust. I can't see the outcome of this, because his mind is still so scattered with worry and fear that you don't want to see him anymore. But I know Edward, he'll be glad you're alive...so to speak."

I groaned, "Not a time for jokes.."

"Damn. My comedic timing is usually flawless."

"Alice." I whined.

Her twinkling laugh rang through the car and it relaxed me...a little.

"Bella, seriously, Edward is stubborn, but he will accept this and be happy. He'll probably just be pissed at first because you're missing out on human experiences."

"I don't feel like I'm missing out on anything. This is what I want. I want you, I want him, I want my family for the rest of forever."

"That's what you tell him then. Let him read you mind... Honestly, I think Emmett will be more upset about all this, he won't be able to make you blush ever again."

"You are such a comedian!" I said dryly.

"Suck it up princess. Lets get this show on the road."

I gave her a dark look for the princess comment but put the car in drive and we turned up the driveway.

"Deep breaths Bells."

Edward:

I had never felt so useless in my whole life. When we went to Florida searching for Bella. I couldn't even find her scent or any minds that had seen her face. I gave up after a few days. She didn't come here. Jasper had called Alice for me, I was too worried to deal with her perkiness.

When he hung up and came into the hotel room he was blocking his mind from me. He was singing some Taylor Swift song...Alice's usual blocking technique...I was instantly suspicious.

"What is it? Is it Bella? Are they hurt?" I had said jumping up.

Thats when my heart broke into a thousand peices. That was 4 days ago now, when Jasper told me about Bella's request.

Instantly I wanted to track down the Volturi and have them kill me. The pain was so deep I didn't want to go on. Bella had finally come to her senses. She didn't want to be in love with a vampire. She wanted a life I couldn't provide.

Jasper thwarted my attempts to ditch him and find the Volturi with his gift but he couldn't stop me resenting him for it. Hatred poured out of me the whole trip home, he never let me out of his sight since then, scared of what I was planning to do, scared of what it would do to the family.

He was blocking his mind from me right now...Mat Kearny song Breathe in Breathe out, playing in his head. I got up to leave the room. "Not now, Jasper."

His hand appeared on my shoulder restaining me. "No, now is the time. Sit down."

Reluctantly he pushed me back onto the sofa. I had no energy to fight with him.

"Listen to me Edward and listen carefully. You have to stop. Your emotions are killing me. You try to pour the hate on me but I'm an empath Edward, you can't disguise the pain you're feeling! Without sounding like Dr. Phil I'd like to help you."

"Too late." I muttered.

He ignored that and continued with the lecture. "Look, Bella hurt you. We all know it and so do you. But Edward try to understand it on a human level. This is a whole lot to get your head around for her. On one hand she has her life which is in jeopardy, she is being chased by the most ruthless of our kind. On the other hand she has you and the intense love she feels for you. And don't you roll your eyes at me, you know it's true! I know its true, trust the empath the love you two share is as strong as any, maybe even stronger than that in this house!"

I hung my head in my hands. "She doesn't. Not anymore. She wants a different life."

"No you can not simply turn off that feeling. Give her some time. She'll come back to us. Alice will bring her back to you."

We sat there longer and I didn't resist Jaspers calming serenity. I didn't have the strength. I was half of my person. My heart was with Bella to do with it what she choose.

Our heads snapped up as we heard a powerful engine roar up the driveway. Jasper and the family flew to the door. I stayed where I was. My hopes would not be raised. I wouldn't allow it.

I blocked their thoughts, I didn't want to see Alice come home alone.

I heard them greet Alice joyously, they were happy, very happy. Good for them. I thought bitterly.

Alice's mind still squeezed through my defences. Edward come out here and let me talk to you brother! She called.

"No." I said.

Fine, I'll we'll come to you.

I growled and stayed where I was. Wait, WE? My eyes widened, hope filled me up, "Bella?" I whispered.

"It's me." she whispered back. How had she heard that? I held my breath. I wouldn't believe it. It could not be real. I looked up as the door opened and the family piled in one after the other. I got up off the couch. The family slowly parted for me, revealing the most esquisite creature I had ever seen. Ribbons of shiny auburn hair sparkled in the moonlight, a flowing midnight blue shirt hung elegantly off her shoulders.

"Bella?" I said again.

"It's me." She repeated, her face was scared, worried almost.

I froze. There she was. My hopes, my dreams, my nightmares...stript of her humanity, forced into this life of self-loathing and bloodshed. Bella was now monster.

"You...you...ALICE!" I growled and tore my eyes from Bella, anger bubbling to my surface.

Ignoring Jasper's attempts to calm me and shoving him aside as he stepped in front of Alice, "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO HER!? Three days of pain, suffering a fire shouldn't have had to bear!" I was furious, there was no calming me down, I wanted to kill her, take away her life as she stole Bella's.

"ALICE! You know how I feel about this! You betrayed me!" I was ignoring the strong hands attempting to hold me back, I was too quick, in one fluid motion I threw Alice out the window and jumped through following her. They were calling my name but I didn't care. I was going to tear her apart, put her back together and tear her apart again for doing this. She stood up, made no defense, no attempt to protect herself, she didn't even use her visions to see where I would strike when I struck her in her head. She fell back about twenty feet and suddenly I tackled to the ground. Blind with rage I began to swing fiercely at my attacker. I was hit back. I was eventually pinned on my back, my hands and me on my back, knees pressed into biceps, sitting on my chest was Bella.

I froze. I had hit Bella. Remorse filled me, I looked away from her eyes. She was screaming at me, I couldn't make it out, my head was a mess. She took a swing and slapped me in the face. "EDWARD! LOOK AT ME!" Her voice was powerful, amazingly beautiful. She placed her hands on either side of my face and forced me to look at her. Her hands weren't warm anymore, they were my temperature, perfectly matched, smooth as silk. Her ruby red eyes locked with mine. I could still see the faint chocolate brown underneath. It was bliss. No longer did her scent bubble venom in my mouth, it smelt delicious in a different way. Nothing existed to me right now but Bella, my anger ebbed, and slowly went away. Love took it's place. Pain took it's place. She didn't open her mouth. We just sat in silence as I calmed down a bit and we both took in each other's features.

Bella:

I expected Edward to be bad but this was rediculous! He didn't come out at our arrival with the others. Alice had told them to be quiet so he wouldn't know until he saw me. I followed them in last and waited for him to discover me. At first he froze when he realized the change. I felt self-concious and wrapped my arms around my body. He didn't look pleased. Perhaps he didn't like what he saw. Then I watched as rage filled his eyes. He tore away from me and focused on Alice. Shouting and spitting hateful words. Before I knew it he had shoved Jasper aside and thrown her through the window! "No!" I shouted and scrambled out the door after them. Faster than anyone could reacte they were 5- feet from the house already. Alice was getting up making no threatening moves before Edward hit her. I had never seen him so angry! So vampire like...so dangerous! "STOP!" I yelled. "She doesn't deserve this!" Especially after what I did before to her, she's been through so much! "EDWARD!" He wouldn't listen, or he couldn't hear me I couldn't be sure. Before he could lay another hand on her I launched myself at him.

There was a deafening clap of thunder and we rolled across the mossy grass. He swung at me. He hit me! He didn't know me. I swung back. I was stronger. I was faster. I managed to flip him onto his back and I hopped to sit on his chest and dig my knees into his biceps, pinning his heads above his head. He stopped squirming. I kept shouting. I wasn't making sense. I shouted his name, Alice's name, stop, idiot, my fault - none of it mattered, it wasn't registering with him.

"Bella do you need help?" Alice asked. Jasper was at her side making sure she was alright.

"We'll be fine. Go inside, get away from his sight Alice. I can handle him."

She turned and dragged Jasper with her, he looked ready to kill Edward, I thought I heard Alice mumble "I don't doubt that."

I focused on Edward. He wasn't looking at me anymore. He looked ashamed...destroyed. "EDWARD LOOK AT ME!" He wouldn't. I grabbed his beautiful marble face in my hands and forced him to face me. We locked eyes. I looked deep into his black eyes, watching them slowly change back to my favourite topaz butterscotch and I was home. I just looked at him. Our eyes were locked but my peripheral vision was perfect, taking in all of his cut features, his defined chin, jaw and cheeks. Flawless. I took in his sweet honey lemon scent. I leaned closer and breathed in deep. I sighed in relief. Better then I imagined it. I could smell it when the fire burned but I didn't do it justice. I could fully appreciate it now with my heightened senses.

We were silent for a long time. Suddenly a brainwave hit me. He wouldn't listen to my voice, he would listen to my heart. I let down my guard allowing him in. Edward, can you hear me?

He nodded.

Good. Now listen to me. Hear only me. Do not listen to your own thoughts or anyone else's for a moment. I need to tell you this.

He nodded again, I nodded as well and raised one knee off his arms at a time. He didn't move. I repositioned myself so I was lying on top of him in the moonlight. My head against his hard chest. I sighed, and so did he, I felt his hand wrap around me pinning me against him. I smiled. He would listen.

Let me tell you my story... I replayed the events in my head, from lying to him in Charlie's front hall, to the drive home with Alice. All of it. All the tears, the pain and the words I said to Alice. He was silent and winced a couple times, chuckled at my mouth to jane, and continually rubbed his hands across my back. My own arms were pinned between his and my body so my hands played with his chest, traced the contours of his muscles.

Finally I got to my point, I whispered out loud, "This wasn't Alice's choice. It was mine. ALL mine. It was this or death. Aro offered me a choice between death and eternity with you. Is it so bad that I chose you?"

His arms tightened around me, "No, I just...I didn't want this life for you. You deserve better."

"Oohhh so you'd rather I be dead." I teased.

"Bella." he said sternly.

"Too soon for jokes? Sorry, Alice's comedic timing has gotten to me." A book whistled through the air and landed an inch think in the grass beside Edward's head.

He had to chuckle at that and I couldn't resist making him laugh harder and taking a stab at Alice again, "Sheesh, her aim's terrible."

I kissed his chest. "This is what I want. You happy."

"I am. I just wish this didn't have to be this way. You deserve human things Bella."

"Stop." I said breaking his hold and raising my self on my arms and looking down at him, "Not another word on what you think I'm missing out on. Do you hear me Edward Cullen? I want you. You and I - forever. This right here is perfect. Eternity. Together."

He didn't say anything, he simply gave me his crooked smile I love so much and raised himself to me, I leaned in and captured his lips. My lips no longer molded around his, they held their own now! His breath went into my chest, he tasted amazing, my lips parted more allowing his tongue in.

"Do you mind! Quit making out and get in here so we can talk to our baby sister!" Jasper shouted.

"Yeah, quit hogging the newborn!" Emmett added.

We ended the kiss slowly, taking our time. I missed you. I'm so sorry I hurt you. I'm so sorry I made you doubt us. I told him telepathically.

"I missed you to love. I'm sorry you felt you needed to run, but I NEVER doubted us, I doubted me. I'm sorry."

I pulled him up from the ground and led him toward the house, "Besides, we have eternity to make it up to eachother!" I giggled.

He surprised me as he swept me up bridal style in his arms, "Starting now." He flashed his crooked smile and I felt myself melt.

When we got inside we found the family waiting in the living room.

Edward put me down and held me at his side. He was beaming. I had never seen him so happy. I beamed as well. Esme came forward with Carlisle following and they both hugged and kissed me, "Welcome to the family...officially." Esme added and gave me a wink.

"Thank you."

Next Emmett came up, He wrapped me in a big bear hug, it felt like he was trying to squeeze all the air out of me, I returned the favour, I was strong enough now. He released and stepped back rubbing his ribs, "Ow." I smiled wide. he gave me a wink as well, "I'm really gonna miss that blush sis." Rosalie surprised me when she thwacked her hand upside his head. "Rose!" He groaned.

She hugged me and squeezed my hand, "Welcome Bella. I'm really glad you didn't die."

I laughed, her dry humor matched mine stride for stride, "Thanks Rose."

Jasper appeared in front of me. I widened my eyes, he and I had never been so close. He startled me further when he wrapped me in a hug as well. I hugged him back excitedly, "I've been waiting to greet you properly like this." he said. "Thanks Jasper!"

Alice pulled Edward and I to the couch with her and Jasper, Edward pulled me onto his lap.

"So Bella, would you like to tell us your story? Alice won't tell us, she said your transformation story is special, the first time it's told should be through you." Carlisle prompted me.

When I finished the story the room was quiet. Finally Carlisle broke the silence, "So Aro gave you the option?"

"Yep, he said he couldn't take my life away, he seemed to think I had some sort of power, mind blocking thing. His gift, Jane's gift and Edward's won't work on me. Though I figured out how to let Edward's work."

"And to do that you would lower your guard instead of forcing your mind into his correct?"

"Yeah but..oh...he was right? I have a power?"

"It certainly seems so." he said happily.

"So I have what..mind blocking?"

"Well we have a lot of time to think of a better name Bells!" Alice cheered while she laughed at the look on my face.

"Bella dear, can I ask...why did you leave us? Why run?" Esme asked.

I looked into her eyes, "I wanted to protect you. I knew they would come, and if I was here they would have more reason to kill you. I ran so they would follow and leave you alone. I ran because I knew if they tried to kill me you try to stop them. I couldn't take it if one of you got hurt because of me." Edward wrapped his arms around me and I put my head against his chest. I loved to curl up on his lap. I put my head in the crook of his neck. I breathed deep. Delicious.

"Bella, can I ask, how long have you been a newborn?" Jasper asked interestedly.

"Since the transformation began or since it finished?"

"Finished."

"About...twenty hours."

Everyone froze. Everyone but Alice. She was sitting beside me bouncing up and down excitedly. A huge grin on her face. "I know right!" she shouted.

"Not even a day old..." "So tame..." "Amazing.." "How?" "Dangerous!" A bunch of words and thoughts came out of different mouths.

I looked around curiously, wide eyed....this was not good.

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