DarkShadow At Midnight
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha!
Title: Incurable Therapy
Chapter Twenty-Five: Attached
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It'd been a week since Kagome got out the hospital. She'd been acting…like herself, sort of. Inuyasha NEEDED some space, she wouldn't let him out her sight. The only time he got away was if he had to take a shower, use the bathroom, and when she was asleep.
What was her deal? He sighed,
"Kagome, can I have my arm back?"
"Sorry." she said, letting go of his arm.
Inuyasha stood, "I have to use the bathroom."
She nodded and watched him go. Kagome sighed when he closed the room door behind him. After two minutes, her cell phone rung and she picked it up,
"Hello?"
"Kagome what the hell is your problem?" asked Sango. "F.Y.I, Inuyasha's half DOG demon, and half human. Neither can stay in one place for so long. You two need to get some air. Also, can you give Inuyasha some space? You're going to make the guy go insane."
Kagome glared, "Don't know what you're talking about."
"If you're worried about him leaving you so much…wait what'll happen now. Men need their space. You keep acting so attached to him, you're going to piss him off." sighed Sango.
Her eyes watered, "So he's leaving?"
"N.no! That's not what I said!" she yelled.
Kagome asked, her voice cracking, "Then what did you mean?"
"Aw man."
Inuyasha walked back into the room. He saw tears in Kagome's eyes and asked,
"What's the matter Kagome."
She shook her head and blinked back tears. Inuyasha glared, took the phone from her and spoke,
"Sango, I told you I didn't need your help."
…
"Yeah, I'm sure you didn't mean it." he grumbled.
…
Inuyasha frowned, "You're only making her even more-
…
"I knew that. Whatever. Later."
He hung up and put the cell phone on the dresser. Inuyasha got onto the bed and laid his head onto Kagome's stomach. She ran her now warm fingers through his hair. Massaging his ears.
Kagome was hesitating to ask but knew she had too,
"Inuyasha?"
"Huh?" he asked, loving the feeling of her silk-like, warm fingers on his ears.
Kagome smiled a bit when she fell the rumble begin in his chest,
"Do you…need some time away from me?"
He didn't answer and the rumbling sound stopped. Kagome stopped rubbing his ears, and took in a shaky breath,
"So you do. I understand."
Tears rose in her eyes but she blinked hard. Instead of going away, they slipped through. Falling down her cheek. Inuyasha removed his head from her stomach and got on top of her. Looking down into her sad eyes. He asked,
"Kagome please don't cry."
Inuyasha leaned down toward her and kissed her cheek. She sniffed and wiped them away. He asked,
"Why are you so attached all the sudden? Is there something wrong?"
"I don't want you to-
Inuyasha cut her off, "I told you already…I'm not going anywhere."
"…break my heart." she said, continuing her sentence after he spoke.
He looked confused now, "What do you mean break your heart? I would never break your heart Kagome."
Kagome swallowed the sob that wanted to escape her. More tears raising in her eyes. He whispered,
"Don't you trust me Kagome?"
"Yes." she answered, wiping at her eyes again.
Inuyasha looked even more confused, "Then why-
"I don't know. In the hospital I told you that when I woke up…I felt distant from you. I felt scared and alone." she whispered, stopping herself. "There's something wrong with me. I'm so sorry."
He shook his head, "No Kagome, don't be sorry, maybe you should go see your father. I think something's wrong. I'm worried about you."
"I know." she said, putting her hand on his cheek, all the sudden feeling tranquil…just by staring into his eyes, something more than acceptance calming her. "Inuyasha…I think I'm dieing or something."
Inuyasha shook his head, "No! Don't ever say that again! You aren't dying! You look fine! There's nothing wrong! You haven't even been having pains…for a week!"
"If the pain's gone," she whispered, feeling like it wasn't her talking, "something else is wrong. That's why I'm acting this way."
Inuyasha hissed, "You're not dying! I'm not letting you leave me."
"I don't want to leave you, but" she replied, looking into his sad eyes, "you'd be happier with someone else."
He growled, "No! You're not dying so stop talking about it!"
"You don't want to believe the truth."
Inuyasha glared, "It's not true."
"I love you." she whispered, her hand still on his cheek. "A lot."
Inuyasha whispered back, "I love you so much more Kagome."
He captured her lips into a hot kiss. Kagome gasped in the kiss when she felt his hand on her side, underneath her shirt. She gasped again when she felt his claws slice her flesh. The wound isn't deep though.
Inuyasha pulled away and kissed her neck, lifting her shirt a bit more. He bent his head down to the four marks and began to heal them. The feeling of his lips against her side gave her a tingling feeling.
He soon healed it and found her lips again. Kagome wanted to go further with him. She pulled at his shirt and he pulled away, panting,
"Not yet."
"Why not?" she asked.
Inuyasha pecked her on the lips, "You're so fragile Kagome…I just…can't."
"I'm not a little kid Inuyasha." she whispered, kissing his neck.
Inuyasha retorted, "You're still young. To young."
"I'm not REALLY fifteen you know." she hissed, glaring into his eyes.
He shook his head, "You stopped aging remember?"
"Inuyasha." huffed Kagome, wrapping her arms around his neck. "You stopped aging too."
He laid beside her, pulled her closer to himself by her waist. Inuyasha kissed her neck,
"I know but at a more appropriate age."
"That is?" she asked.
He answered, "Eighteen."
"Three years. So what-
Inuyash corrected, "Actually, I'm ten years older than you."
"I'm not fifteen Inuyasha!" yelled Kagome, pulling away from him and glaring into his eyes.
He wasn't teasing at all. Inuyasha actually thought of them as ten years apart in age. Kagome turned away from him and thought angrily, clenching her hand into a fist. She thought angrily,
"It's three years! He stopped aging at eighteen! Still three years."
"I'm only telling you what's true Kagome." sighed Inuyasha, running a finger from her shoulder, down her waist, to her thigh.
She shivered. He smirked at her reactions. Kagome took a deep breath,
"My father told me…if a cure WERE found…I still wouldn't get any older. The incident, permanently stopped me from aging."
"I'll feel a lot better if you were cured before something like that happens between us Kagome. You're still a virgin." he said. "Emotionally…you're not ready for something like that."
Kagome asked, "What if I'm never cured?"
His hand stopped roaming about her arm and side. Kagome felt tears once again when he didn't answer. Inuyasha sighed,
"Kagome…what if, by chance…you got pregnant? Would the pup have pains like you? What if you die after giving birth? What if you die when I mate you?"
Her eyes were shocked. Shocked into horror. Kagome wouldn't want her child to suffer like she is. What if the pup died because of this curse her father put upon her? This brought tears to her eyes. For something so innocent…to die…and never get a chance to live. Or what if the pup got some type of symptom? That wouldn't let he/she get older than ten or younger.
What if when she had the pup and it had to take meds like she is now. Kagome began shaking, tears falling down her face. Inuyasha sat up,
"Kagome?"
She let out a sob and shaking her head. Thoughts rung in her head,
"I'll never be able to give Inuyasha what he wants. He needs to be with someone…better then me. Someone he can have kids with. Without fearing what will happen when the pup is born. This love between us will dim and he'll eventually want someone more worth loving."
The woman's voice came back to her,
"I warned you of your struggle. Your heart won't survive this next heart ach. It'd been better to just die…alone. Be alone. Embrace the darkness…."
Kagome had zoned out, not even knowing she was shaking and sobbing. Inuyasha was yelling her name. He made her sit up and shook her. When the voice vanished, she panted, and looked around. Her sobs worsened. Inuyasha yelled,
"Kagome! Say something!"
She shook her head and pulled herself away from him. Kagome sobbed out,
"I'm sorry Inuyasha."
"Tell me what's wrong Kagome." he yelled when she stood up, putting on her boots and grabbing her coat.
Kagome looked at him, "Everything."
"Kagome, don't leave me!" he yelled.
The sobs kept coming, painful…ever word he said, "I need some time alone."
Kagome took her cell phone and left. Inuyasha stood there, stuck in his place. Confused. What did he say? He sighed and listened as he heard Kagome's car speed off. Inuyasha stood, got his shoes and jacket, grabbed his keys and left.
He needed to talk to Izayoi.
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"Kagome must be feeling really upset right now." sighed Izayoi.
He asked, "What did I say that was wrong?"
"Well," she started, "she may have started thinking how she wouldn't make you happy in the future. Also, maybe how it'd be horrible to have the pup and something's wrong with him/her. A woman thinking of something like that…it does something to us. Something so innocent having to deal with something you wouldn't want to pass down…it hurts.
"It also hurts to know you can't have any children. Oh Kagome."
It was like, just imagining being in Kagome's shoes killed Izayoi. It was tragic. Very tragic. She sighed,
"I really hope she doesn't do something dangerous. She's probably thinking you're better off without her. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to let her drive."
"Kagome." whispered Inuyasha, sighing.
Izayoi looked out, up into the diming skies, "She may also think…that your love for her would slowly dim. Just imagine Inuyasha. Being in her place. Not able to love. Not able to feel the sensation of life. Like your accident…she can't just up and go to the hospital and expect therapy. Soon recovery. It's like…like…a Incurable Therapy."
Just thinking of being in her place saddened him. Thinking of someone you thought you could trust putting such a curse onto him. Inuyasha looked at his mother and winced. That pain is unbearable. So unbearable he wanted to…
"No!" growled Inuyasha, shooting up.
She looked at him with sad eyes, "You're thinking the same thing I am aren't you?"
"She can't kill herself! What about the people that need her!" yelled Inuyasha.
Izayoi blinked, tears appeared in her eyes, "I…I don't know Inuyasha. She's strong…she's lived this long. Staying hidden from the truth. If I were her…I'd probably wouldn't of kept myself alive. She must feel alone. Not understood. Betrayed. So many emotions that'll drive her to her end. Go Inuyasha.
"Please find her."
He was horror stricken. Inuyasha turned and ran. Sniffing for her scent. It was far away but there. He took off running in that direction.
Izayoi looked over at the phone. Biting her lower lip. She pushed away her hesitation and picked up her phone. She dialed a number then put it to her ear. A deep, sinister voice came,
"If it isn't Mrs. Takahashi calling."
"I…" she started, her voice shaking, looking at the picture of InuTaisho on the wall. "I need your help."
He chuckled, "Wouldn't your husband be upset?"
"Will you or won't you?" asked Izayoi, her voice still shaking.
He smirked, "Very well…your request?"
Izayoi took a deep breath and began to speak.
With Kagome
Kagome sobbed as the pain throbbed through her. She felt nauseous, sad, and lonely. Kagome looked out at Tokyo, tears streaming down her face. She took glared down the cliff, ready to just jump off. Kagome scooted closer to the edge, and whispered,
"I can't go on like this. It's meaningless. Inuyasha wouldn't love her after a year, positive. He'd go after Kikyo again, then she'd end up pregnant with his kid, I'll find out, and he'd feel bad at first. Then I'd walk off, crying when I'm not around him. He won't come after me. Two hours later they find me dead, with a gun in my hand.
"I should save the pain and just…go."
Kagome didn't hear the sound of grass rustling behind her. If she did, she wouldn't of care. She moved closer to the edge. A pair of hands grabbed her by the waist and pulled her away, growling,
"Kagome! Don't do this!"
The voice WAS NOT Inuyasha. She rolled onto her back and looked into two familiar eyes. Kagome stopped breathing but managed to let out the person's name,
"K.Kouga…."
"What are you doing?" he asked, putting his cool hand on her cheek.
Kagome took his hand and pushed it away. She scooted away from him and glared,
"What are YOU doing here?"
"I'm not here to hurt you Kagome." he replied. "I'm here to help."
Kagome smacked his hand away, "How can you help me!? Hurt me more? Go ahead! I don't care anymore."
"Kagome, I'm sorry." he whispered, pulling her to her feet. "I was drunk. I didn't know what I was doing! I didn't know the party was at the club. I tried to call you…you weren't picking up."
Kagome glared, "I don't want to hear it Kouga!"
"Kagome! You know me! I wouldn't do anything like that! I was drunk!" he yelled. "Who was there for you when you felt alone, sad, and betrayed!"
Neither noticed Inuyasha had walked out in the clearing. He quickly hid behind a tree and listened.
Kagome looked into his blue eyes then looked away, "You."
"Who kept all your secrets?" he asked. "About your father."
Tears welled up in her eyes, "You."
"Kagome…I'll do anything…if only you'll forgive me." he whispered, put his hand on her cheek.
The tears fell, "My forgiveness doesn't matter anymore. I'm going to die…rather you want to believe it or not! Either I do it myself or in the future! Just let me go Kouga!"
"Never." he whispered, leaning close to her face.
Kagome stepped away, "I don't love you anymore."
"You're in love with that half breed Inuyasha. What can he do for you besides kiss you and tell you he loves you. He's to afraid to take risks. I am."
She glared, "Whose side are you on? You took the picture…with Kikyo…."
"I work for Naraku, sort of, and he has a cure Kagome. Inuyasha's mother called…not to long ago. She's taking a risk…just for you." he whispered, walking closer to her.
She sighed, "I don't want her to get involved with this. I don't want any of them to care about me anymore."
"Two hearts are better than one Kagome." he whispered, taking her chin and smashing his lips on hers, and slipping something into her pocket. (Inuyasha doesn't notice.)
Kagome gasped and memories of them rushed into her head. She sighed and pushed away,
"Don't do this Kouga! Stop! Please don't do this!"
"I know…deep down…you still love me Kagome." whispered Kouga.
Inuyasha's fist's were white as he clenched them. Anger surged through him. Did she kiss him back? No…she pushed away…but that look in her eyes. He felt betrayed. Kagome shook her head,
"No! I don't love you! I love Inuyasha!"
"Don't you remember when we use to come up here? You wanted to remember the days when you had nothing to worry about. I always defended you." retorted Kouga, pulling her closer to him.
She shook her head, tears falling down her cheeks. That's when Inuyasha stepped out,
"Get your hands off her."
"Inu…Inuyasha." whispered Kagome, looking towards him.
She pushed away from Kouga, still looking at Inuyasha. Inuyasha looked at Kagome then at Kouga,
"Kagome…what-
"Inuyasha, why are you here?" she asked. "Why can't you just let me go?"
He glared at her, "I love you Kagome, I'm not going to give up on you. You don't need Naraku…or Kouga…I'll find a cure for you. I'm sorry I'm making you feel like you're misunderstood."
Kagome took a step towards Inuyasha. Kouga took her hand,
"Kagome…later…he's just going to break your heart."
"I won't Kagome, unlike this bastard!" spat Inuyasha, glaring at Kouga.
Kouga took a step, "Why you-
"No!" yelled Kagome, standing in front of Kouga.
He looked down at her then backed away, "Fine. This is your own mistake Kagome. If you hurt her, I'm going to kick your ass."
He took one more look at Kagome before leaving. When he was gone, she turned towards Inuyasha. He was standing right in front of her, making her gasp. Inuyasha whispered,
"What were you going to do Kagome?"
"I…" she started, taking a step away from him. "I'm sorry Inuyasha."
He took her hand and pulled her into his chest, "Don't ever do that again. Do even think about trying to again. You're not getting out of my eyesight again."
"I-
Inuyasha cut her off, "Don't even think about saying you're going to die anyway, because you're not!"
"Inuyasha." sighed Kagome, relaxing in his arms when he tightened his hold on her.
He whispered, "Promise me you won't do something like that again."
"I promise Inuyasha." responded Kagome, tears in her eyes. "As long as you're with me."
He sighed a relief, "I'm not going anywhere Kagome. Promise."
"Thank you." replied Kagome, smiling.
He pulled away and kissed her. Kagome wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him back. Inuyasha's hand brushed past Kagome's pants pocket. He pulled away and looked at her confused. She asked,
"What?"
"What's in your pocket?" he asked, sticking his hand in her picket and pulling out a silver ring, then growling. "Why that-
Kagome sighed and took it from him, "Calm down would you? Kouga's not going to take this back."
"Wha…wait. Do you forgive him?" asked Inuyasha, his eye twitching.
She smiled and started walking towards the road. Inuyasha growled, crossed his arms angrily and followed. Grumbling. Kagome shook her head, then looked at the ring. Reading the engravings again.
She couldn't help but smile.
Please Review! And NO Kagome doesn't love Kouga, maybe a bit, but she's not going to go running after him. Go on and review!! -