Eli stood outside his apartment, debating how he was going to tell Sam of KC's death. Yes it had been a while since they had been a couple, but he knew that didn't change the fact that his sister was still in love with him.

He took a deep breathe before, turning the knob of the front door, and walking right in.

He could see Sam sitting in the living room reading a book. It was now or never, he thought to himself.

He slowly walked into the living room, and sat down beside her. "Sam, could we talk?" he asked.

Sam could hear a seriousness in his tone, she knew that whatever he had to say was important. She put down her book on the coffee table, "Sure."

Eli stared at his sister, trying to find the right words to say to her. "Yesterday, there was a student found at school, and at the time no one was sure what had happened-"

"OH MY! Were they alright?"

"At the time we didn't know. But today at school they told us who it was, and that he died. Sam…..it was KC. KC died."

Sam heart sunk. Had she heard her brother right. No this couldn't be. There had to be some kind of mistake. She shook her head, "No, you're wrong!"

"Sam, I wish I was. Believe me. But he's gone."

"How?" she desperately needed to know how he went.

"Suicide," he said sadly. Those weren't the words he wanted to say, but there was no way around it. KC had taken his life, and at this time no one knew why.

Jumping up, "You're lying. KC wouldn't do that. He's not like that," she began to cry. This wasn't the KC she remembered.

"I'm sorry Sam he did. Clare didn't want to believe it either."

Sam's anger began to flare up at the sound of Clare's name, the girl that was suppose to be there for him. "Where was she, why wasn't she there to stop this?"

"She was with me that night."

"How convient? She was with you when she should have been with her boyfriend. She never could choose between the two of you," she yelled. No really thinking that the words she was saying were hurting her brother.

"Sam, stop. We were working on a story about him, he was at practice."

"KC needed her, and she wasn't there. She didn't even see the signs. She says she loved him, but she didn't even see this coming. He's dead because of her!"

"SAM!" he wouldn't let her blame this on Clare."

"No, Eli. You may love her, but this is her fault. KC's dead because of her. I will never forgive her!" Sam said before storming out of the room.

Eli knew his sister would take it this bad, but he had never imagined that she would blame it on Clare. It was tradgic, but it was most defiantly not her fault.

Clare laid in bed. She hadn't left her room in over a week. Her mom had tried to get her to eat something, but she kept on declining. She knew that this couldn't be easy on her daugher. No one needed to lose someone this way.

She declined to see anyone that came by, including Eli and Alli. Everyone had even sent her flowers, and cards, and all of them ended up in the trash.

No one knew that she blamed herself more then anything. He had tried getting a hold of her that day, but she didn't have her phone on her, nor was she home when he had come by.

He had needed her, and she wasn't there. She could had stopped this from happening that night, but she wasn't around. She would never forgive herself for that. She had let him down.

Clare stared at the photo of the two that she held in her hands, "I'm so sorry, KC. I let you down. I wasn't worthy of your love."

Eli comes and sits down beside Declan. Looking defeated.

"She still won't see you?" Declan asked. Not that he was surprised. She just lost the love of her life, of course she doesn't want anyone around.

"Nope. Her mom says that she won't even come out of her room, or eat."

"Can you really blame her?"

"No. I just hate to see her like this."

"Because you still love her. Eli, you've got to let that go. It's not healthy."

"The heart can't help, what the heart wants."

"Yes, but the time is not right. She just lost KC. She's not going to be ready for any type of relationship for a long time. Right now I think you need to focus on getting Sam through this."

"You're right." Sam needed him more than anything right now. She defiantly wasn't taking this very well.\

Alli comes around Clare's house. She had gone by the church first, but hadn't seen Clare there. She wasn't going to let her miss this day. She knew in the end that she would regret it.

Knocking on Clare's bedroom door. "Clare open up, I know you're there."

"Go away. I'm pretty sure I've already made myself pretty clear on that," she yelled.

Bargaining into her room, not caring what her best friend would say. "Get dress," she said, as she began going through her closet to help her find an outfit to wear.

"Why, I'm not going anywhere."

Staring at her, "Yes you are, even if I have to drag you by your hair, you're going."

"No I'm not."

"Clare we both know that you will regret it in the future if you don't. KC was not only your boyfriend, but your best friend. You need to have a proper good-bye."

"I don't want to say good-bye," she cried.

Going over to Clare, putting her arm around her, "I know hun, but you have to."

"This was all my fault Alli. I didn't get his call, I wasn't home. He came looking for me, but I wasn't around. I could have stopped this."

"Clare, you don't know that. Please don't punish yourself over this. KC loved you with all his heart."

"How do I go on without him?"

She patted her back as she cried, "I don't know."