Dear Shintarou,
Happy birthday!
I wonder how many years, months, or days will have passed until my brother finds this letter and gives it to you but my best guess would have something to do with the number 7; it is your lucky number after all. I can already imagine your shocked face wondering how in the world I would know and let's just say it's my sixth sense or maybe I should say seventh?
Midorima Shintarou, the great three point shooter who can shoot a high arc ball from anywhere in the court yet still make it in, the man who seems cold and apathetic but is actually a big softie, and more importantly the man who can say something absolutely adorable like nanodayo and still sound sexy doing it.
You are probably wondering why I entered your life in the first place, thinking over your past decisions, and trying to pinpoint exactly where everything went wrong. Or I could be wrong and I never knew you in the first place but I am confident that I know everything about you.
Anyways to answer your questions and help you get closure I shall answer your questions my dear. You probably don't remember this but we met before shutoku; in your teiko days.
It may have been fate that we met that day but it was also destiny playing with us that you forgot about me. Although I'd like to tell you about how we first met I'd rather have you remember it naturally so let's leave it at that for now.
Although I say that I know you would probably beat yourself up trying to figure out exactly how we met so I'll give you a hint. Think back to exactly why you started believing in Oha-Asa's horoscopes.
Hey Shintarou, I always thought that I knew you as well as the palms of my hand yet there was one question that I could never find an answer to.
Perhaps it was my wishful thinking but even if we started out fake I always thought that you were actually starting to like me. I guess that's stupid right? There is no way you'd come to like someone like me who forced you to be her boyfriend after challenging your pride.
If we had taken a different route, would everything turn out differently? Or was this an already predetermined path we are forced to take by fate.
Do you remember when I told you that I was your lucky item? I lied, forgive me Shintarou. I wanted you to believe that I was your lucky item, that being with me was a good thing but all I did was mess up your life and leave you hanging.
Our relationship was not perfect, it wasn't even close; it was a big lie and I was a big lie but out of everything that's happened there has always been only one truth.
I love you Shintarou.
It's as simple as that but even after all this time we've spent together I could never tell if you ever loved me so do me a favor will you?
If we ever meet again would you mind? Telling me the answer to this one question I would spend hours to no end yet still never find an answer to.
Honestly I want to cry right now, thinking about the one in a million chance that we'll ever see each other again but with your luck I'm sure we'll meet again.
I want to be selfish and ask you to wait for me but at the same time the uncertainty of the operation I'm about to undergo urges me to set you free.
You are a beautiful bird that's meant to fly, someone that's meant to become someone amazing and I don't want to hold you down by chaining you to me.
I'm sure you'll be happy shintarou, I'm sure you'll find someone amazing who'll love you but probably not as much as I do. It's not hard to love you shintarou, but I guess that wasn't enough...
If we meet again... No, next time we meet I hope I fall in love with you again shintarou. Actually, I'm certain I'd fall for you again so I should be hoping that you fall for me this time around.
I wonder what you look like right now, would you still have the same black rimmed glasses, soft green hair parted to the left, and an adorable tsundere attitude? Thinking about it now I can imagine an older version of you in a flowing white lab coat. Well I'm not sure which path you would take for the future but if you become a doctor then maybe we will meet again... And maybe you'll be the one to cure me and my broken heart.
Wow that sounded corny and cheesy. Sorry shintarou, I'm just trying to stop myself from crying. Ah, this is really bad. My vision is blurring and my hands are shaking... What should I do? I'm scared.
If you saw me right now, you'd probably think it's pathetic especially if you remember the way we broke up. It hurts you know? Seeing you kiss the girl, asking you for one last kiss but getting denied, and setting you free.
It hurts so much I don't know what to do so I'm not going to think about it anymore. I'm going to lock away my emotions and become a puppet for my father, just like he wanted I will marry seijuro and move on from you. I won't think anymore, I won't let my emotions get in the way, I won't let my love for you blind me from the future that's inevitable.
I won't let the past bound me because I live in the present, I won't keep looking at the present because I'll look forward to the future so there's one thing I would like to ask of you shintarou. No matter what happens to me, don't blame yourself because the only future I see for you is full of bliss and happiness.
I will always love you,
Yukina Tachibana