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Jade didn't know what to do. Never in a million years did she EVER expect this to happen, never. She wasn't exactly mother material – she was a hunter and that was final, no other options unless she wanted to lose her family. She just remembered staring at the stick blankly, her jaw slack. Even though she felt a thousand emotions running through her body, at the same time she felt numb, hollow.
Oh god, what would Dean say? Sam? Her dad? A sudden fear welled up in her chest and her breathing picked up. They would be so disappointed in her, well, far beyond disappointed. They would also be livid – that Jade knew. They would shout and curse and make her feel like hell but deep down she knew they would be worried.
A door slamming brought her out of her frenzied worry and she immediately recognised it as Dean's footsteps. With shaky hands she wiped the tears from her cheeks and stood up, straightening out her clothes and fixing her hair. She looked at the white stick in her hand once more before throwing it in the waste bin and hurrying from the room. The more distance she put between herself and the truth the better – at least for now.
Dean looked up when she exited the bathroom, a smile on his face.
"Hey sis – I picked you up a burger with extra cheese, just the way you like it" He commented, passing her a paper bag filled with the most delicious food she had ever tasted. Unfortunately, she didn't feel like eating anything, she felt sick to her stomach – whether it was the morning sickness kicking in or the fear Jade didn't know. She stared down at the bag, mind drifting to other matters.
"Hey, Jade, back to the land of the living" Dean said, waving a hand in front of his face, "You okay… you seem a little… off?" He questioned, taking a massive bite from his burger even though his bright green eyes portrayed worry. Jade took a deep breath and forced herself to remain calm and act normal – Dean would get suspisious and she couldn't afford that, not now.
"Yeah, fine, probably just a stomach bug or something" She replied, trying with all her might to act normal, "Did dad say where we're headed next?" She asked, taking a small bite from the food to keep Dean off her back. If she wasn't eating then he would definitely know something was up – she ate like a horse.
"Yeah – small little town in Colorado, apparently there's been some teenagers going missing, dad's thinks it could be a rogue spirit but he doesn't know, we're heading out when he gets back from the hospital" And Jade nodded her head shakily. Their dad was checking up on a victim they had saved from a werewolf, see if she was alright and to give him her number if anything else happened.
"Okay, cool" She told him with a small smile just as Dean shoved the rest of his burger in his mouth ungracefully which, despite the situation, made Jade laugh lightly.
"Be up and ready in twenty minutes" He called out over his shoulder with a full mouth, strutting into the bathroom and locking the door behind her. Jade heard him turn on the shower water and shakily lowered herself on her bed, exhaling loudly.
She debated on whether or not to call Sam – she could tell him anything, they always did when they were younger but decided against it almost immediately. Even though he would be mad but then supportive she couldn't risk Dean or dad finding out because they would be the worse, way worse. Sam was always there for her and her him but she felt ashamed at even admitting it. She was only eighteen for crying out loud, eighteen years old, and she was pregnant by some guy she hardly knew. Then her blood ran cold. She was only a couple of months along right? Not more… she couldn't be, she would've picked it up before now surely.
She placed a hand on her stomach and felt the flatness there – if she was over four months along she would be showing by now right? That meant she wasn't pregnant by him. She refused to think of that creature, blocking the entire day from her mind. Even though she tried to reassure herself that it was definitely Chris' that niggling feeling never went away and it settled in her stomach, filling her mind with doubt.
Suddenly the bathroom door got wrenched open and Dean stood there, hair wet from his shower, his face morphed into anger.
"What in god's name is this?" He demanded, holding up the pregnancy stick in his hand. He wasn't looking at it though, his furious green eyes solely focused on hers. Jade's blood ran cold. Dean wasn't supposed to find that, no one was, hence why she threw the damn thing in the waste bin.
"Um… n-nothing" Jade stuttered, standing up and wringing her hands nervously.
"Well it sure as hell doesn't look like nothing" He replied with a hard voice, his left hand clenching and unclenching at his side. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes briefly as if he was trying to calm himself down.
"Look… tell me it's negative and we can move past this okay? Not another word spoken" He told her, his eyes suddenly turning pleading. Jade gulped. He obviously hadn't read it otherwise he would've clearly seen the little blue plus sign shining up at him – maybe he didn't want to though, maybe he hoped that it was all just a bad dream – hell Jade wished it was. She could always lie and say 'of course it's negative, chill bro' but that would just land her in deeper waters – Dean would find out, he always did.
He must've seen the look in her eyes because he suddenly dropped the little white stick and faced her and Jade could practically see the steam emanating from his ears – all he needed was a pair of bull horns and a nose ring to suddenly charge at her angrily.
"Y'know I thought you were the sensible one – I thought that maybe, just maybe, you weren't stupid enough to go and get yourself knocked up" He shouted, striding forwards a few steps and shaking his head, "Obviously I was wrong" And Jade's heart broke right then and there. Of course she had let her family down and it made her feel awful.
"Dean… I'm-I'm sorry" She told him quietly, feeling so small under his murderous gaze.
"Yeah? Fat load of good that does us now huh?" He spat, circling the room like an elephant on a rampage. Jade involuntarily took a step back, avoiding his wrath. She wasn't afraid of him, hell she could kick his ass (she'd done it more than once) but a mad and disappointed Dean was one to avoid.
"I don't know what else to say Dean, that I screwed up? I know that. I'm sorry? I hope you know that already" She stated, keeping a steady gaze with him. Dean peered into her eyes and he suddenly started shouting – loudly.
"Who's the father huh? God, I'm gonna kick his ass" He threatened loudly and Jade shook her head.
"No one important" She muttered, "It was just a stupid fling, forget about it" She suggested and Dean let out a whoosh of air, cracking his knuckles.
"God, I can't trust you to go anywhere alone" Dean thundered, his green eyes alight with fire. She had no idea where that came from – she was apologising and now he suddenly started screaming at her? She felt her blood begin to boil. Dean was her brother; couldn't he take it easy on her?
"I'm not a child anymore Dean" She screamed back – she didn't need Dean shouting at her right now, she didn't think her mind could handle it.
"No – you're just carrying one" He shot back and Jade deflated at that – why did Dean have to keep bringing that up? She knew he would be mad, well livid actually, but was it really necessary?
"Don't remind me" Jade whispered brokenly, feeling her eyes brimming with tears.
"Don't-don't remind you? Are you actually frigging serious?" He demanded, his sharp tone so angry it actually hurt her heart to hear it. It wasn't so much the fact she was getting told off, hell she deserved it, but it was the fact she let him down so much that he had to shout and ball. It made her feel a hundred times worse than she originally felt.
"Right… were gonna have to deal with this before dad finds out – and trust me if he does… it will be a hundred times worse" He threatened and Jade's stomach sunk. What did he mean deal with it? Surely he didn't mean what Jade thought he meant right? He wouldn't ask her to do that, would he?
"What do you mean 'deal with this', there's nothing to 'deal' with" She said a little more sharply than she intended. She didn't want to be a mom but there were other options rather than killing it.
"I mean… the next state we get to I'll take you to the clinic" He told her and Jade shook her head wildly.
"Dean have your lost your mind? I'm not having an abortion" She screamed at him, standing up straight. There was actual no way in hell she was going to do that… her conscience wouldn't allow her. It was just a defenceless little human that did nothing wrong except exist because she slept with someone… why should he/she pay for her mistakes.
"What do you mean you're not? You can't exactly keep it, not with our lifestyle Jay" And instead of being mad he sounded… sympathetic even, like he didn't really want to say it. Jade softened slightly, blinking away the tears.
"There's other options Dean but I can't just get rid of it, I can't" she said, her voice full of emotion it surprised even her.
"So… what? You'll just carry around this kid for nine months, hope dad doesn't notice and then ship it off, that's your plan?" He asked with a raised eyebrow, sounding doubtful but not as mad.
"I-I dunno… I'll figure that out later" She stated, just as their dad walked in the motel, a small smile on his face.
"The victim was alright, a little beat up but stable – you kids ready to hit the road?" He asked, swinging his duffel over his shoulder and watching them, waiting for an answer.
"yeah… we'll follow behind" Dean told him, nodding and putting on a fake smile.
"Okay, just don't stray from the road, we so need to get there A.S.A.P" he told them before ducking out of the room and jumping into his truck, zooming off. Once their dad was safely gone Dean dropped the mask and gently grabbed Jade by the arm before she could escape from the room.
"That's not going to work Jade and you know it – you're gonna ruin the rest of your life" he stated, peering into her eyes deeply that she had to look away to avoid those calculating green orbs. She was about to protest, saying he didn't know anything about her situation when a sudden sickness settled in her stomach, making her gag involuntarily.
She ripped her arm from Dean's grasp and ran full pelt to the bathroom, not even bothering to shut the door as she flung herself to the cold floor, leaning over the toilet. She retched and retched, just praying the feeling would go away when suddenly dean was sitting beside her, holding her hair and rubbing circles on her back soothingly, just like when she was a little kid and she got ill.
When it was over she wiped away the tears of frustration and combination of hormones and buried her head in dean's chest, forgetting she was ever angry at him or him at her. She gripped at his leather jacket, soaking up all the comfort he offered because he was her brother and she needed him, more than anything right now. She was crying, but not loudly, just sniffles and the odd hiccup.
Dean's arms encircled her too, gently stroking her hair. No words were needed; she knew Dean was comforting her because he wanted to not because he needed to or because it was his duty… and that made Jade feel whole again. She made some pretty stupid mistakes in her life but Dean helped her through, and Jade was thankful.
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