Wow. Okay. So I am so sorry.
I took a 5 month absence and I don't really have an explanation except that my mind and soul needed time to rejuvenate and relax. I pretty much took a social media break and stopped giving myself deadlines and stressing over the little things. I guess it was more of a mental health break. But I was cleaning out my room, found my VA books and suddenly, I had this urge to continue this story that I had created and want to finish! This story is so close to an ending and I WILL finish it! So I hope you aren't all too mad at me and will continue to read until the end even though I abandoned you for a while.

Thank you for staying with me though if you are sitting there reading this, because I REALLY appreciate it. Now lets onward with Chapter 25.

Freedomwriter2010

Chapter 25.

One Month later…

It had been a long month. The fact that Lissa and I had been away from Russia for close to two months was incredible. We had been able to experience so much culture in such a short amount of time, and I was able to spend a lot of time with my father, King of Turkey.

The past month had given a lot of time to try new foods, dress in new fabrics and meet many different people. I had met the royal advisors of Turkey and many had greeted me, telling me how much I resembled my mother, looks and attitude. I was grateful for the support I had from them.

In the past month I had also had my coronation in as Princess of Turkey. My father found it fit that I be sworn in as apart of the Monarch of Turkey, giving myself a title that I could never have imagined on myself. One minute I was the help, a courtesan and than Princess of Turkey. My world was moving at 100 miles per hour and it was all so much to take in. Luckily I had Lissa beside me, taking my worry from me and dressing me fabulously. I was forever grateful that Christian had allowed her to come with me.

Standing on the marble patio overlooking Turkish land, I couldn't help but think that in a month and a half I would be back in Russia for their winter ball. I was looking forward to it considerably, especially since I had been sick the past few days and medicine here was not settling my stomach.

I had been sick a couple days after we had arrived,but as I had suspected it was my body getting use to the change in location, and from the travelling we had done over sea.

" Ugh," Rubbing my stomach as I felt it nauseated once more, I walked back into my room that currently Lissa sat in embroidering another dress. This one though was for the winter ball. The emerald green fabric was beautiful already and I couldn't wait to see the outcome.

"Lissa, will you be making your dress as well?" I asked her, walking over to the vanity chair, sitting in front of her as she sat on a rug that covered the floor. She just looked up at me smiling. "Of course, I will be making originals for us BOTH. But I want to finish yours to be able to make the perfect finishing touches. Oh do you think Abe will give me gems if I requested them?" Her eyes shone, and I was glad she was finally comfortable calling my father by his name instead of "his Majesty." I laughed and nodded.

"Of course Lissa, he treats you as if you are his second daughter. I don't think they have had this many females in the palace since my mother.." We both giggled at the thought of being spoiled because they didn't know how to act around us females.

I sighed and looked out the window to where the sky was turning different shades of orange and pink. Thinking.

"What are you thinking about Rose?" Lissa asked, not taking her fingers away from the delicate needle work ahead of her. Even though she wasn't looking I shook my head.

"Nothing really… Just the fact that I wonder how Dimitri is doing? I miss him, his presence , him holding me.."

"Okay! I do not need to hear details of you and your guys 'rendezvous' " She laughed, a twinkle in her eye as she met my gaze. I joined in laughing with her. "Sorry Lissa.I have been craving him extra lately. I haven't been away from him this long before."

We chatted a little longer before moving around the room to light the candles as the sun set, letting the sky dim in light. It wasn't long before we both fell into deep slumbers and a dream taking me into another place of my mind.

Laughter filled the air. It was beautiful outside. The grass green and flowers in full bloom. I had a dress on that lifted in the window, creating a billow of fabric around me, but as it settles I noticed my abdomen, swollen with a child. Taking my hands to lay across my stomach I couldn't help my smile come forward.

It was then the laughter sounded once more and I looked up. My heart clenching in awe as I watched the man of my dreams slightly jogging away from a child trying to capture him. It wasn't until he swooped the child up into his arms that I realised that this little boy that we had created. He was beautiful.

As I approached them, I noticed the dream start to fade. And it was then I realised why I was waking up again.

I was cramping again and my abdomen was clenching continuously. Eyes wide my hands instinctively went to settle of my abdomen. It was just like that time… the time I lost our last child. This pain, I knew it already. No one had to tell me.

"LISSA." Swinging my legs over the edge of the bed, I walked slowly to my robe and tied it around me, the pain still going through my abdomen.

"Rose? Rose are you alright.."She asked rubbing her eyes again.

I shook my head. "Its happening again. Please, help me get to the physician here." Shock registering on her face, she all but jumped from the bed, grabbing her robe and helping me along to the door before Emin came into view as he must be stationed on.

"Emin!"Lissa frantic. "We need a physician, NOW." A sudden pain came through, and that was all it took before I felt myself faint into the darkness. The last thing I thought about was my child.

Im not sure how long it was before I started to wake up, but panic set in as soon as I could feel myself coming too.

"Lissa?" I asked. But I was met with another voice.

"Kizim." My father. He came to kneel beside me at the bed side. His eyes deep with worry.

"Baba? Where am I ?" He smiled at me warmly. "You are in the infirmary of the palace. Doctor Esma has attended to you. Kizim… Would you mind explaining to me what this is about?" Shame filled me and I couldn't help but look away, but then it registered to me.

"Baba, I know you are a man that is impatient, and I am sure you know more than I do right now." I told him quirking my eyebrow, trying to play the scarcastic role, while internally, my heart was breaking again. It wasn't until his next words that hope played a role within me once more.

"Heh.. You must be my child Kizim. Well. I was awoken early in the middle of the night by Aliah that you had been brought into the infirmary, bleeding and in pain, and I couldn't help but think someone had attacked you. When in fact it was for a completely different reason.

It was then I learned that my daughter, that I thought I had kept eyes on so well, was with child."

I gawked at my father. " You mean to say…. I didn't lose the baby?" I asked my hand flying to my stomach. My father with his lips in a firm line, shook his head no.

"Correct Kizim, but do you mind explaining why you would be in such a panic, or familiar with this? And why on earth are you with child already! You are not even married. Had I known you had been with Belikov sooner, a war would have raised!" He threw his hands up in exasperation.

Patting the bed, I nodded for him to sit while I told him everything. Meeting Dimitri, laying under the stars, our plan for me to be his courtesan because at the time of my status. I told him of my first miscarriage that had happened only two months ago. And in our stupidity had gone and slept together, not allowing my body full recovery. But in the moment we wanted to have one last moment.

Even though I was embarrassed telling my father this moments, moments of my love for Dimitri although leaving out details, I watched as he took it all in. Listening to me, listening at how I yearned to be near Dimitri. Maybe it was the hormones that had been giving me that kind of want at the moment. When I was finished I waited, waited for the storm to fly from my father's mouth. But it never came, instead his arms wrapped around my shoulders while we sat there, him pulling me into his side.

"Thank you for opening up to me about this. I know that we are still new to each other but, thank you. For telling me such precious information." He smiled staring down at his lap.

"I guess there is a new matter at hand now though. Princess of Turkey, pregnant out of wedlock." He gave a deep sigh and in this moment, I knew that I had done a shameful act . For no royal should be out of wedlock.

"I guess there is not other choice than let you marry King Belikov is there?" He turned his face towards me, with a sly grin. Gasping I placed my hands over my mouth. " Seriously baba? You will let me go back? But, who will be your successor ?" He gave a shrug.

"Right now, my duty as a king is trumped by the duty of being a father. Which I want your child, my grandchild to have - a father, something that you did not have growing up. I will contact Russia and set up the arrangements sooner than the Winter ball so that you may tell Dimitri and we can plan before word gets out. "

In that moment the physician knocked on the door, bowing slightly at our presence.

"good to see you awake princess. I presume your father has told you?" She gave a small smile, but in her eyes I could see the shame and disappointment. The people here did not take promiscuity lightly. It was taboo to be out of wedlock sleeping around. Although I was not sleeping around, I had still lost my innocence before giving myself fully to one person.

Standing in front of us, she clasped her hands in front of her body. "It seems that your uterine wall was contracting, and the spotting that had happened was completely normal. It seems there had been trauma from earlier correct?" I nodded.

"That makes this pregnancy a little bit more high risk, but the baby is still there, I can feel its pulse and there was no evidence of the fetus being expelled. It may be too soon to tell if the fetus is actually still alive. I say that with sincerity, but if you go about two weeks with expelling the child, I would have to say that the chances are greater for delivery. I will take my leave now. Please rest Princess, I have also prepared herbs to take that will increase your vitamin intake." Nodding to us she bowed slightly again and removed herself from the room.

This was all so much to happen, especially in another country. Looking at my father I clasped his hand.

"When will the boat be ready for us to return?" He chuckled standing.

"Give me about an hour, and I will have your details my dear daughter." And with that he left. It was moments later that Lissa came barging through the door, demanding answers. And so, I told her.

TBC

ALRIGHT GUYS. HERE IS CHAPTER 25 . I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT AND IM GLAD TO BE BACK.

Where do you see this story going? I already have been planning a second part but from Janine and Abes POV. Speaking of POV Dimitris will be next up for Chapter 26! Stay tuned, I will probably have it out within the next couple of days!

Much love!

Freedomwriter2010