You gotta be cruel to be kind
"Damon I wasn't expecting till later in the day"
"Is what you told Cyrus what you really feel. Why didn't you tell me any of this?"
"Things have been so good with us so I didn't want to bring any heaviness to it and ruin things"
"This time has been amazing, we had sex in a dressing room. I am enjoying every minute with you, I just want to be that person you can bring anything to, the good and the bad.
"Thank you for looking after me"
Damon smiled a little as he brushed his fingers through her hair, "No need to thank me," he said looking down at her. "I really am sorry for getting so upset though. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings or upset you with anything. You make me be the better man I never thought I could be"
"It's okay. I should have explained myself better." she said, smiling at him. "Of course, I wasn't able to give you my present since I came to your apartment so suddendly. I was pretty excited to give it to you, but it can wait a few more hours I guess." she looked up to him and place a finger on his nose. "I could stay here with you all day, just looking at your smile."
"Let's go to my room my mother and Serena might be back any moment"
Blair lead him to her room, and they both sat on her bed.
"You got me a present?" He asked curiously. "Why?"
When have I ever needed a reason to get you a present?" she said, grinning at him. "I just wanted to. I was on my way to work yesterday when I saw it and I just couldn't resist."
"That is true," Damon said returning her grin with one of his own, "what is it?"
Don't get too excited now, it's just a little something but I want it to be a surprise. Just wait until I give it to you." she said. She really hoped he would like her present. Blair smiled as she leaned in for a kiss, and then pulled back to look into his eyes before leaning back in for another one. And another one. She giggled softly while her hands ran through his cheek. "You're too good to be true."
"I wouldn't say all that," Damon said giving her a smile. "I mean I know I'm a pretty good catch and all." He was teasing her of course. He was cocky but he wasn't that cocky.
Blair rolled her eyes at him, chuckling softly. "Well, you do have beautiful, sexy eyes" she said, thinking, "and hmm, I love the way your hair falls on your handsome face, and I maybe I think you're pretty hot." She looked up to him and smiled.
"Well you know if you were trying to make me any less cocky saying all of that didn't exactly help," Damon said with a grin looking at her.
"You were always pretty much in over your head already without my help anyway." she said, smiling. "Do you still remember the first time we met?" she asked, thinking back to that day at the playground.
"Yeah," Damon said laughing a bit. "I remember pushing you off the swing and you almost kicked my ass for it."
"Well, you were asking for it. You ruined my… I think it was Marc Jacobs. And the dress I was wearing was made my mom. I got into so much trouble for that." she said, remembering how Eleanor scolded her for not being careful enough. "You were such a prick. There were probably ten other kids in there and you just had to push me."
"I liked you," Damon said with a huge grin. "Just be glad I didn't dip your hair in paint."
"You have a weird way of showing it." she scoffed. "You're the one who should be glad that you didn't dip my hair in paint. If you had, I wouldn't have allowed you to be my friend and I'm about one hundred percent sure that I wouldn't let you be lying in my bed right now.
"It was puppy love Blair come on," Damon said grinning. "You can't fault me for that. Besides pushing you off the swing was my way of showing you that I loved you."
You sure do know how to spin words around, don't you?" she said, smiling at him. "I was six and I didn't even know you existed before you pushed me off that swing. You're just lucky I was so nice."
That's only because when I pushed you off the swing you realized you loved me too," Damon smirked looking at her, "don't try to deny that either. You were probably wondering who was the nine year old with the pretty blue eyes."
"You wish. You are too full of yourself." she said, laughing at him. "I had the biggest crush on you back then, when we were eight, I told Serena that you were the boy I wanted to marry. I've always loved you, but I was twelve when I knew… that I wasn't just crushing on you. Do you remember? That was an awful night, and you held me in your arms and told me that you were always going to be there for me no matter what.."
"Yeah I was fifteen," Damon said looking up at the ceiling at the memory. "You were so upset about something and all I wanted to do was protect you."
"I was upset about not being good enough for anybody.. that I was always second to Serena. Everyone loved her more than me, even my mother. That was the first time I ever forced myself to throw up. I didn't tell you, because I was so ashamed. And then you told me something I would never forget. You told me that I will always be number one in your heart." she said as a tear fell down her cheek.
Damon reached out to wipe away her tear, "And that will always be true Blair. There are plenty of people here who love you and who will always be here for you not just me."
"I know that now." she said, smiling up to him. "But that doesn't mean I want you in my life any less."
Good," Damon said giving her a smile, "because I don't plan on going anywhere anytime soon so…you're pretty much stuck with me."
"You better stay." she said, leaning up to kiss him. "I don't know what I would do if I lost you again. Especially now that I know what it's like to be with you… like this."
"I'm not going anywhere," Damon said reassuringly. "You're the only reason why I would stay in this city Blair."
Blair smiled as she looked deep into his eyes. She knew she could love him forever. It saddened her to know that nobody else loved him the same way she did. He deserved so much more. She could love him with everything she had and it wouldn't be enough.
Blair smiled as she looked deep into his eyes. She knew she could love him forever. It saddened her to know that nobody else loved him the same way she did. He deserved so much more. She could love him with everything she had and it wouldn't be enough.
"What?" Damon asked knowing there was something going on in that head of hers.
"I just wish you could have everything you want. That you could get everything you deserve. That's all." she said.
"Doesn't always work like that," Damon said looking down at her, "I've come to accept that kind of. But hey, this was the life I was given so I have to roll with it."
"It's nice, that you look at it that way." she said, her fingers dancing on his chest. "Someday, you will get it though. Everything you deserve, that is. But for now, you have me, and I'll try my best to give you kind of love that you didn't get from… other people."
"I know," Damon replied softly as he looked down at her. "I think I'm going to do it…you know…the music thing."
"Oh my god, Damon, I'm so glad. I've always thought that's where you belong." She looked up at him, "I think that's a perfect idea.. but, what about the business?"
"My dad can hand it over to someone in the company," Damon said with a shrug. "I don't want it.
"And what happens when you tell your father that you're not going to help him anymore?" she asked. She was scared for him. "Stay with me at the penthouse, please."
"I don't know what's going to happen," Damon replied honestly. "But I'll stay with you after I tell him. Promise."