Chapter 25; Fly Me Away

"Finally this thing is over." Justin sighed as the last fan had left and the security guy had closed our booth.

"Oh camoon, are you saying that you didn't enjoy this? I did." I replied and smiled at him. I was still sitting sideways in his lap inside our "Meet & Greet Justin & Cody" booth. Justin put the pen down his was holding on to the table and wrapped his arms around my waist.

"No I really did enjoy this. And I heard that we raised a lot of money for the charity. Broke some kind of record." he said and ran his hand up and down my arm. "Buut now that it's over, I can finally spend some time with you." he said and kissed my arm. He placed kiss after kiss to my skin and I just giggled.

"Stop it! That tickles!" I laughed and squirmed. He stopped and smiled at me and then just looked in to my eyes.

"What?" I asked when he just kept staring.

"You are just so beautiful you know that right?" he asked, his eyebrows raised.

"What?" I laughed and he held me tighter.

"Just remember that okay? No matter what." he urged me like it was really important for me to do that.

"No matter what." I repeated and he smiled. Then he took my leg that was pressed against his stomach and pulled it up and I got the hint and lifted it across his lap, so I was sitting in his lap facing him.

He smiled up to me and then took my face in to his hands and reached up and kissed me softly. I closed my eyes and let the world slip away, only focusing on his breathing, his warm hands and his body pressed up on mine. The kiss was slow, tender, and questioning somehow. I felt like he was touching and kissing me and the same time wondering if I was really, if I really was there. His hand moved up my side, up behind my neck and to my hair. He pulled me closer, needing more contact, more of me. He pulled away so that he could speak.

"I missed you so much that I didn't even know I could miss someone this bad." he whispered, his lips touching mine when he spoke. I smiled and wrapped my arms around his shoulders and rested my head on his shoulder. His hands moved from my hair around my waist and he hugged me tight.

"Don't ever leave me again." he whispered in a very small voice and held on tighter.

"Never." I whispered and moved my head closer to back of his neck and took a deep breath in. I have smelled his cologne, his shampoo and deodorant multiple times, but now I wanted to smell him. I knew that you could smell a person's own cent best at the back of their neck, just under their hairline. I took a deep breath and was right. He smelled like warmth, an old wooden house with a fireplace, wood, with a touch of something fresh, like early autumn morning at a forest, somewhere up in a mountain, far away.

I was completely relaxed until Justin's hands started to move down my back. I tensed up, because I mean after all that dirty talking and teasing and everything, I knew what was expected of me. A crazy fucking like rabbits night with possibly porn and sex toys and bondage.

"You okay?" Justin asked and pulled away so he could see my face. I bit my lip but nodded.

"Yeah." He studied my face and then looked down at my lap.

"I have something I need to tell you." we both said in unison. Justin looked up, just as surprised as I was.

"You go ahead." I said.

"No you say it." he insisted.

"Together?" I asked and he nodded. "In the count of three."

"Okay one, two three." I counted, took a deep breath and said "I can't have sex with you." To my surprise, he said the exact same thing. We looked at each other baffled.

"What? I mean, you go first." I said to him and he nodded.

"I mean I can have sex with you but...I can't fuck you. " he said and I looked at him very confused.

"I know that that makes no sense at all but Cody." he said and then his face became more desperate and he cupped my face with his hands. "I want this to be something special. I would be your first, and I don't want to take advantage of that. It's the opposite, I would be so honored if you let me do that, if you let me be your first. So I can't fuck you, I can only make sweet love to you." he said with such emotion that I felt like I was gonna start crying any second.

"Please say something." he whispered. I didn't, I only lunged at his neck with such power and speed that he yelped and the chair fell backwards to the floor with a crash. I didn't care, I only hugged him and felt tears prickle from the corner of my eyes.

"Oh god Cody are you okay?" Justin cried out and tried to pull my hands away from around his neck but I didn't let go.

"Cody? Are you okay?" he asked softer this time.

"I'm fine!" I sniffled to his neck.

"Cody?" he asked again. "Are you crying?"

"Maybe a bit." I said and refused to let go. Justin got up to a sitting position and pushed the chair away from under him and then carefully laid down again, me on top of his chest. Then he just rubbed my back and hair.

"I'm sorry that you felt pressured." he said softly after a while of silence.

"How...how did you know?" I asked baffled.

"I know you Cody. You are sweet and caring and gentle and just cute and I know that you like sex, but I always knew that you wanted your first time to be something special. Like in the movies." he said and kissed my neck.

"Like in the movies." I repeated and moved down a bit so that my head was resting on his chest. He kissed the top of my head and rested his hand on my waist.

"No matter how perverted you can be, I know that you are just as vulnerable as a small kitten inside." he said and I chuckled.

"Yeah I guess I am." I agreed and he ran his fingers through my hair.

"But if you let me...I can make it be the best thing ever happened to you. I have the perfect place for it and we could take it as slow as you want, just...Just make it perfect. I want to do that for you. I care about you so much that it almost hurts." he said and I felt the tears fall from my eyes again. I sniffed and felt how my tears wet his shirt.

"Cody? Look at me." he whispered and I lifted my head from his chest. He smiled and used his thumb to wipe away my tears.

"I will never hurt you again. Never. I swear." he whispered and kissed my cheek. I only smiled and kissed him on the lips. When we parted I laid back on his chest.

"So...Where is this perfect place of yours?" I asked.

"In Canada." he said I laughed.

"Then...Let's go."

"Are you guys serious?" Anna asked and did her motherly stare at us.

"Yes. I mean camoon, we have the weekend off, no meeting no nothing so we are free! And we could use some alone time together. " Justin said and pulled me close to his side. We were currently sitting in my hotel room, trying to convince why Anna and John should let us fly to Canada for the weekend.

"And you could get some alone time too." I said smiled sweetly. Anna looked at John who was standing next to her.

"We could use that." John said and shrug his shoulders.

"John! They are teenagers! We can't just let them leave to the other side of the world!" Anna said with a high pitched voice.

"Oh no we won't be alone! We will of course get security to come with us and they will totally take care of us." Justin jumped in and I nodded furiously next to him.

"Yes yes totally! We will be safe and sound! And there will be Justin's friends and family there so we will be very safe." I added and Anna looked at us over her reading glasses. I have never seen her with glasses before and for a second I wondered if she took them out and used them just for situations like these. Her eyebrows were burrowed and she had one hand in her hip.

"No." she said and turned around.

"Anna?" Justin asked with a serious voice.

"Yes Justin?"

"Can I speak with you for a moment?" Outside?" he asked. Anna looked at him but nodded and they walked out, but left the door open. I saw how they were talking seriously, Justin doing most of the talking, looking like he was doing business and trying to convince why this was a good deal. Anna nodded here and there and I wished now more than ever that I had learned how to read from lips when I was younger. It had been a big dream of mine, I don't know why. Maybe it had something to do with my love with the James Bond movies.

"I have never seen him so focused and determined." John said and I looked at him, not sure what he was talking about.

"Justin. He is not great at convincing people but when he is right and he has a good point, he usually gets his way." he continued and nodded towards where Anna and Justin were now smiling a bit. Then Anna suddenly jumped to Justin's neck and hugged him tightly. Then she took him by the hand and dragged him back to the room.

"You are leaving! First thing in the morning!" she stated excited and then took me by the hand pulled me to stand next to Justin, so that the three of us were now standing in this weird ring and Anna was smiling very happily.

"Oh my boys!" she said and then pulled us to a hug. I awkwardly patted her on the back and waited her to move away. When she did, she was wiping her eyes, but still smiling widely.

"Camoon Anna, let's leave the youth to be. We can go to grab something to eat." John said and wrapped his arm around Anna's shoulders and pulled her away.

"Have fun guys!" Anna yelled from the door and I heard it shut.

"What the hell did you say to her?" I asked Justin.

"Oh not much. I just told her what we were gonna do this weekend and because I know that she is a hopeless romantic, I used that to my advantage." he said and hugged him. I hugged him back and just took a deep breath.

"So what are we gonna do this weekend?" I asked him

"Yeeah about that. I can't tell you." he said and pulled away enough to look at my face.

"What do you mean? Why not?"
"Because it's a surprise. You'll see then." he said and kissed my nose. I pushed my bottom lip and tried the puppy dog face.

"Oh no you don't! I am not gonna fall for that!" Justin said and covered his eyes and started to move towards the door. He fumbled with the door handle but got it open.

"Hey where are you going?" I asked him confused.

"To my room," he said and backed out the room.

"Aren't you gonna stay here for the night?" I asked him

"Sorry I can't babe. I have a lot of planning to do and not so much time to do it." he said and peaked from between his fingers.

"Oh camoon please stay. I feel like cuddling." I said and stuck my bottom lip out again. He immediately closed his fingers and backed from the door.

"Sorry I can't! I really would like to but I can't-"

"Oh please babe! I like to sleep naked." I said with a suggestive tone.

"I am noot listening lalalalla not listening bye honey I'll see you tomorrow morning! We leave at noon!" he said and closed the door. I huffed and sat on on the bed.

"Well...I guess it's you and me tonight." I said talking to my TV.

Morning rolled around and I woke up at eleven when someone was moving around my room. I opened my eyes and found out that I was currently lying on the floor on my stomach. I was now looking under my bed and all the sheets and pillows and blankets were on top of me.

"Good morning honey!" came a cheerful voice near me. Then someone kissed my head and I started to wake up more.

"Evert?" I asked and rolled to my back. Instead I saw Justin who was moving around the room with a huge grin on his face.

"What no. All Justin. " he said and closed a suitcase.

"Oh okay. Ever has a habit on just walking in to people's rooms in the morning." I said and got up to sitting position.

"He does that to you too? Someone should teach him that that really isn't normal or okay in any standards." Justin laughed. I looked at me a while, how he was smiling and whistling and dancing around the room.

"Why are you so happy?" I asked him. He turned to me and walked to stand in front of me. Then he took me by the hands and lifted me up to stand in front of me. Then he kissed my cheeks and forehead.

"Because I know that I'm gonna be able to spend the whole weekend alone with you." he said and kissed my neck and then just nuzzled his head on the crook of my neck.

"Wow. You are really happy." I stated and felt him laugh against my skin.

"And you are very hot and very not clothed and we are leaving in like 45 minutes so eat and let's go." he said with one last kiss on my cheek he moved away.

"What? 45 minutes?! I haven't packed or anything and no-"

"I already packed for you." Justin interrupted me and nudged his head towards the suitcase on the floor.

"Oh wow. Why? And how did you know what to pack? And how long have you been here?" I asked amazed and walked over to the suitcase and nudged it with my leg, just to check if it was actually full. It was.

"Well I wanted you to sleep in so I just packed so you didn't have to get up. And it was better that I did because now you have no idea what we are gonna do all weekend." he winked and gave me a cup of hot chocolate.

"Aww thanks. You are awesome." I said and nudged him with my elbow.

"I know. It's hard sometimes to be this awesome, I mean everyone loves you and ouch!" he cried out when I stomped on his feet.

"Oh sorry, I didn't see you there. It must have been that huge ego of yours, clouded my sight. But I'm all good now!" I joked and he just showed his tongue at me.

"Oh wow I'm scared now." I said and rolled my eyes,

"You should be. I'm taking you across the ocean and I have the power to decide what we are gonna do all weekend so.." he said smiled his crookedly.

"Oh shut it." I said and walked to the bathroom.

Like Justin said, 45 minutes later we left the hotel and Justin insisted carrying both of our bags.

"Oh camoon I can carry my own bag! Have you seen these guns?" I asked and showed him my bicep.

"Oh camoon Cody, I'm trying to be a gentleman here and then you just had to show those muscles. I already know that your body is better that mine so thank you very much." he said and we excited the elevator.

"What? You think I have a better body? Really?" I asked him as we walked to the taxi.

"Yes I do. " he said and loaded the bags to the taxi.

"Oh wow. What do you like about it?" I asked and winked.

"Cody, we are not alone so stop that. Get in." he said and opened the door for me. I bowed exaggerating but stepped in. He closed the door and walked to the other side and got in.

"To the airport." he said to the driver and he nodded.

"Your abs." he suddenly said.

"What?"

"I like your abs. They are awesome." he said and didn't even look at me. I only smiled and looked out from the window.

When we arrived to the airport Justin rushed out and walked to my side of the car and opened the door for me.

"Wow thank you. You are really happy today." I said as he helped me out from the car.

"I told you, it's all because of you." he said and leaned to kiss me. I smiled in to the kiss and thought if all this was really real. I pulled away but Justin followed my lips.

"Umm Justin?" I got out before he kissed me again.

"Yeah?"

"You have to pay the driver." I said and he sighed and let me go. I smiled goofilly at the first stranger and they smiled back.

"Okay let's go." Justin said and took me by the hand and locked our fingers together.

We walked past the normal entrance and turned to him confused.

"Where are we going?" I asked him. He turned to look at me, smiled and kissed my cheek.

"You'll see in like 15 seconds." he said and kept walking. True to his words, a lady opened a door for us and I saw a big sing on top of the door saying "VIP". We arrived to a big lobby where we walked to a front desk and while Justin spoke to the worker I looked amazed around.

The lobby was huge, it had leather sofas, chandeliers, wood floors, paintings, little snacks on the tables, weird shaped tables..

"Our flight leaves now." Justin said to me while the worker gave our passports back.

"What? Now? We don't have to wait at all?" I asked him. He laughed and took my hand again.

"No, we don't." he said and guided me past the front desk, and out from a door. I didn't see a big plane anywhere, only a smaller plane.

"Where's the plane?" I asked him.

"Right there." he said and pointed the small plane.

"What? We are taking a private plane?" I asked him, my voice rising. He laughed and guided towards the plane.

"Yes we are. Anything for you." he said and smiled at me. I greeted the captain, who was standing in front of the plain. He greeted me, took our bags a we walked up the plains stares. When I got in looked around my mouth open. The plane wasn't huge, but the seats were at least four times bigger that the seats in normal plains. They were made from something green and really soft looking. There was small sofa too and it he back was a toilet and a kitchen. I wouldn't have been surprised if there was a small studio and gym back there too.

"Wow." I breathed out.

"I know." Justin said and walked past me. He sat on one of chairs and I followed him and sat next to him. The captain got in too and disappeared to the front of the plain. Soon the plain started to roll forward and I looked out from the window excited.

"This is so cool." I stated when the plain was rising towards the sky. I heard a small bling and then Justin stood up.

"D'you want something to eat?" he asked me and I just nodded and looked out from the window. Suddenly music started to play in jumped startled. It felt like the music was coming from inside the chair.

"The chairs have speakers built in to them." Justin explained and I sat down carefully.

"The control are on the left side." he continued and indeed I saw a small panel on the left armrest. I pressed a stop button and the music stopped.

"Cool." I said and Justin laughed.

Some time later he sat on the couch and patted the seat next to him.

"Come eat." he said and I got up and walked to the sofa and sat down.

"You can come a bit closer." Justin said and lifted his legs up. I got the hint and slid under his legs and he placed the on my lap, while leaning against the armrest. He placed a tray on my lap, filled with bacon, toast, eggs, fruits..My stomach grumbled and I dug in. Justin pushed a button on the table and suddenly a TV lowered from the ceiling in front of us.

"Wow." I breathed out, a peace of bacon half way to my mouth.

We ate and watched a stupid show about people getting hit in the nuts. When we were done I was very full and sleepy. Justin took the tray from my lap and placed it on the table. He took my by the shoulder and pushed me down to lie on his chest.

"Just sleep there." he said and threw a blanked from somewhere on top of me.

"Thanks." I mumbled and was soon lulled to sleep.

I woke up and Justin wasn't there anymore.

"Justin?" I asked and saw that it was almost dark outside, which meant that I must have slept a while.

"Yes?" came a voice from the back of the plain.

"Are we there yet?"

"Almost. Got like 5 min to go." he shouted back.

"Okay." I said and rubbed my eyes. "What are you doing?"

"I'm chancing my clothes. I left yours on the chair, put them on ." he answered. I looked at the chair and saw a big and warm looking blue winter coat, pair of jeans, woolen stockings, a beanie, gloves and winter shoes.

"Are we going to the north pole?" I asked him. He only laughed.

"No, but it's gonna be cold in there. " he answered. I got up anyways, and chanced in to the clothes.

"We start landing, so please sit down and put your seat belts on" the captain announced from the stereos.

I did as I was told and about 20 minutes later we were on the ground.

"Justin? Are you okay?" I asked as he didn't come back from the back of the plain.

"Yeah, I just wanted to wait till we landed." he said and walked out, wearing a suit.

"Why are you wearing a suit?" I asked him confused.

"Because Cody, this weekend is our one month anniversary and I want to celebrate it and only the best will do for you." he said and put a rose to his front pocket.

"What? It is?"

"Yeah." he said smiling and walked to me, took me by the hand and pulled me up.

"I'm..I'm not good with dates." I said blushing and looked down.

"It's all right. Me neither. But I want this weekend to be special." he said and kissed me quickly.

"Come on, I have a surprise waiting for you outside." he said and dragged me out. When I looked down I stopped on my tracks.

Outside, was a red carpet where the stairs ended. At the end of the red carpet was two horses and and wagon.

"There is an actual horse wagon there." I said.

"Yeah. You like it?" Justin asked and wrapped his arms around my waist from behind.

"An actual. Horse wagon."

"So you like it?" he asked again.

"With real horses."

"Cody!"

"What?" I woke from my doze and turned to Justin.

"So do you like it?" he asked looking at his shoes.

"I love it." I said and kissed him on the cheek. His face instantly lighted up and he smiled.

"Then let's go." he said and jumped the stairs down. At the last stair I stopped and turned to Justin. I locked our fingers together and we walked together to the wagon.

The actual wagon was made from wood, in the front sat the driver and on the back was a comfy looking seat for two people. It had like a million blankets on it, to stop us getting cold. The horses were both black, they had shiny black harness, with those funny looking patch things on their eyes.

"Sir." Justin said, bowed down and let me go first. I smiled, took his extended hand and got in. He followed me quickly and threw blankest on top of us.

"Are the gentleman ready to go?" the driver asked. He was in his sixties had long beard and a cheeky grin.

"We are. Justin said and the driver nodded and shouted something to the horses and the wagon started to roll forwards. I enjoyed the passing views, snuggling up to Justin's side. We drove through this small iconic city, it looked like it was from a post cart. It had small wooden shops, all from food stores to gift stores, restaurants, a hotel, everything that I imagined this kind of small village would have. I guessed we didn't land to a normal airport, but instead a small private one. We passed the village and went through a forest. We were always going uphill and when I looked to my left I saw that the village was now below us, only the lights from the houses shining through the darkness. It was getting cold so I wrapped the blankets around me tighter. Justin noticed that, he lifted his hand and wrapped it around my shoulders. I pressed against his side and we kept on climbing until the village was just a small cluster of lights below us. I looked forward and saw a small light on top of the hill. We kept on rolling forward and soon arrived to the top. There was this unbelievably cute cottage, made from silverish logs. I stared at in awe, it was the cutest thing I have ever seen.

"This is our destination. My family's cottage." Justin said and moved the blankets from atop of us. He stepped out from the wagon and helped me out too.

"It's so cool." I said and kept staring at the cottage. It had a small terrace with two chairs and a table and the front door was made from wood too. The door handle was made from a branch, it was crooked and way too big for the door. Justin thanked the driver and lead me up the terrace stairs and opened the door for me.

The cottage was small but very cozy. It only had two rooms, when you walked in, the was a small entry way where we left our coats. Then opened up a huge living/dining/bedroom. On the utmost corner from the door was a big dining table, it could easily seat eight people, made from wood too. Opposite of the table was a bed, made from the same silver wood as the cottage and in front of the bed was a fireplace. To our left was door the the kitchen and on the same wall, opposite of the dinner table was a small toilet.

"You like it?" Justin asked me and took his coat off.

"Yes it so...Cozy." I said and smiled.

I walked further in after taking my shoes off and felt a soft black furry mat under my feet.

'"My mum hates that mat. She says all it does is gather dust." Justin joked.

I looked around more and saw that there were paintings on the wall. Most of them looked like a child had drawn them and after a closer inspection I noticed a small signature at the bottom. "Justin 5 old." it read and I chuckled.

"You drew that?" I asked Justin. He came to stand behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his chin on my shoulder.

"Yeah. I was five old, as you can see." he chuckled. The drawing was a family portrait, with a four adults and a two small kids.

"That's my parents, my grandparents, me and the me. " he explained. I hummed and looked at the next painting. It was about little boy and a small girl.

"Was she your crush?" I asked teasingly.

"No, she was my imaginary friend when I was little. Her name was Toni, even thought she was a girl. We played all day, hide and seek, cards, with toys. " Justin said and kissed my neck.

"We actually have a dinner reservation, but we really don't have to go if you are tired or something." he said. I turned around in his arms and kissed him slowly.

"I'd love to go to dinner with you." I said when we were done. He smiled and took my by the hand. He put his coat back on and we walked out.

"Are we taking the local taxi again?" I asked and nodded towards the wagon that was still waiting on the yard.

"Yes we are." Justin said and wrapped his arm around my waist.

The ride back down didn't take long. I watched as the lights of the small city grew bigger and bigger as we zig zagged down the hill. We stopped in front of a small restaurant and stepped out from the wagon. Justin was instantly recognized and we were guided to a table next to the window. Menus were handed to us and I read it over.

"I have no idea what these foods are." I said after a while trying to figure out what the hell was a "Kraft Dinner" or a "Butter tart."

"I'll just have what ever you are having." I said and closed the menu.

Starters where a basic salad and for main course in front of me was now a plate of mash potatoes and something brown.

"What is this?"

"It's reindeer." Justin answered simply. I looked at him my eyes wide and then back at the plate.

"Reindeer? You guys eat reindeer?"

"Yeah, it's really good." Justin said and dug in to his own. I carefully touched mine and then took a small peace and put it to my mouth.

"Mmmmmmohmyfuckinggod."

"Okay Cody, someone might think you are getting a blow job under the table." Justin said with a straight face, but I saw a twinkle in his eye.

"But it's so good!" I exclaimed and ate more.

"Told ya." he said.

The rest of the dinner went by smoothly, we talked about our families, backgrounds, hobbies, just stuff you talk on dates. For desert was chocolate cake that we shared.

"I am so full I can't even move." Cody said and rubbed his stomach.

"Me too." I agreed. "Do you wanna head back to the cottage?" I asked and he nodded. I got the check, tipped generously and we left. We rode back up and I thanked Uncle-Peter, gave him some money and we watched as he left whistling to himself.

"Let's go in, it's freezing in here." I said but Cody turned me to face me, and slipped his hands under my open jacket and wrapped his arms around my waist. I lifted my hand to his face and felt his pulse under my thumb. It was dark, only the lights from the cottage shining through the darkness, making the shadows of the spruces and pines grow long. The sky was clear, all the starts shining brightly, making patterns on the sky. The air was crispy, I was sure that it was minus degrees by now. I took a deep breath in through my nose and smelled the forest, the old wood and Cody. He leaned and his lips hovered above mine, teasing before pressing against mine. He pressed his body against mine and it was perfection. I felt like I couldn't possibly feel any more than this. Like I was so happy that the only thing I could do was smile. I kept kissing Cody, hoping that he could feel just a slight bit of what I was feeling right now. It was all right here, all I ever wanted, and he was pressing himself against mine, his lips on mine, his breath moving against my skin, his heart beating fast.

"when the time comes, baby don't run, just kiss me slowly." I remembered this line from a song. He pulled away and I looked in to his eyes. The tip of his nose and his cheeks were little red from the cold but his fingers were warm on the small of my back. His blues were shining and I could see how happy he was too. Something fluttered in my stomach, moving up to my heart and wrapping around it. And all I wanted was that it would never stop, that Cody would never stop making me feel like this. I felt like I was gonna explode from all the happiness and... and....love inside me. Then it was clear to me, what I needed to say. I took a breath in, held him closer and whispered:

"I love you."

His eyes widened, I felt my hear skip a beat and the he kissed me again. It was desperate, fast and it was full of what he felt.

"I love you too." he said when we parted. I smiled as wide as I could but nothing I could do or say would ever show just what I felt right now.

Cody took me by the hand and led me inside. He kissed me and slid my jacket of my shoulders. His hands wondered, opening the buttons on my shirt. I pulled away and noticed that he was breathing fast.

"Wait wait. I planned that we were gonna go out tomorrow and do all stuff and then dinner and then..."I faded of. Cody just smiled.

"And then the next thing on the list was "take Cody's virginity"?" he chuckled and I blushed and looked down. He put a finger on my chin and lifted it up.

"I appreciate that you planned all this, that you brought me here and I am sure what ever you had in store for tomorrow was awesome, but...Justin, I am ready. I want to do it now." he said while looking me in the eyes. I didn't see a lie in his eyes, but really wasn't sure.

"But Cody are you sure, I mean it's late and it's been a long day and-"

"Justin shut up." he interrupted me. He then moved closer and cupped my face with his hands.

"I am ready. I want to do it now. You just said I love you and I said it back and... And I want to do it I- I want to have you, all of you." he said, his voice cracking. I looked in to his eyes and saw that he meant every word.

"Are you sure?" I asked him one last time. He looked me in the eyes and said only one word.

"Yes." I jumped at him, kissed his face, his cheeks, his nose his eyes.

"I love you." I whispered and kissed his mouth. He kissed me back and I slipped his jacket off. I pulled his cardigan off and squatted down and wrapped my arms around his tights lifted him up to my lap. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and I carried him to the bed. I laid him down on the white, soft as silk pelt.

"Wait wait Cody." I whispered to skin of his neck. I gathered all my strength and pulled away.

"What no don't go! I want to do this I swear!" he said and tried to reach for me.

"I know know it's just I planned-"

"To hell what you planned, this is good right here, this is perfect!" he said desperately and sat up.

"I know I know. Just give me a few minutes. Close your eyes." I said and he just stared at me.

"Please Cody, just a few minutes. Just keep them closed." I said and then he nodded and laid back down, closing his eyes.

I looked at him a while, how beautiful he was. Then I jerked back to reality and walked to the kitchen. There was a small wooden box, which I asked Uncle-Peter to gather and he did a very good job. I took out the small candles and put some on the table, on the chairs and on the windowsills and inside the lanterns than hung in front of the windows and on the three that hung above the bed. Then I walked over to the fireplace and lid it up. The fire started easily and I put some wood inside it. Then I used the last candles to make path from the door to the bed. I walked back to the box and took rose pedals and covered the inside of the path with them. I lid a couple of scent candles that smelled like roses and put them on the table and walked to turn of the lights.

When I was ready I walked to where Cody was still lying his eyes closed and took him in to my arms bridal style.

"Keep your eyes closed." I whispered and he did. I carried him to the door and turned to face the room and the path of candles leading to the bed. I held him in my arms and whispered again.

"Okay open your eyes." I said and he did. He looked at the room, the fireplace which was cracking peacefully, the candles that made odd patterns of light and shadow on the walls and ceiling. The patterns moved with the smooth movement of the flame and it almost looked like the room was alive. He looked at the path and the bed. He then turned to me, his eyes filled with emotion.

"I love you so much." he gasped out and then pressed his lips on mine again. I carried him back on the bed, my lips never parting with his. I laid him on the bed again, coming on the bed myself. His eyes were closed and I moved my hand down his chest, down to the hem of his shirt. He lifted his hands above his head and I took his shirt off. I kissed his jaw, down his neck to his now bare chest. His eyes stayed closed as I kissed every bit of him, moving slowly and gently., there was no rush. His chest moved up and down with his rapid breathing and I kept caressing his skin with my lips. I treated him like he was the most important thing in the world and right now he was.

His mouth was open and he breathed in gasps. He opened his eyes and looked down at me, his eye boring in to mine. I kept kissing him, moving down bit by bit, wanting to show him that every single little bit of him was important. I kissed each of his abs and he was breathing heavily. I got down to his belt and opened it slowly. I pulled his pants down bit by bit, kissing every centimeter that the jeans reveled. I kissed his thigh, his knee, the little mole under his knee and then finally took the pants of. I kissed my way up his other leg and up his side and back to his mouth. He capture my lips in to a wet kiss, his hands opening the buttons of my shirt. I wanted to feel his skin against my skin, needed to feel him against me, all of him.

He pushed the shirt of my shoulders and I threw it away. I pulled back to look at him. He was so gorgeous that I almost wanted to cry. The candles made odd patterns on his chest. I lifted a hand to his forehead and moved his hair away from his eyes.

"I love you." I said and a small smile appeared to his face, then growing wider and wider until he was grinning.

"I love you too." he said and kissed me again. I opened my mouth and our tongues slid against each other, making my toes curl and a shiver go down my spine. Our bodies moved up and down, resembling a wave, in the rhythm of our breathings. His hands came to my belt and opened it and pulled my pants down quickly. I kicked them away and pulled away again. We were both in our boxers and suddenly I felt so naked, so open in front of me. All my feelings were out there, where he could see them, look at them, understand or throw them away. His hand came to my face and with one finger he touched the side of my face, from my forehead down to my cheek.

Then he smiled, so honestly and sincerely and I knew that this boy in front of me really did love me. I kissed him fast again, our tongues battling, not aggressively, but to explore each other, to find out everything there was to find out. My heart was racing in my chest, the rest of the world didn't matter. All that mattered, all that was important right now was Cody, moving under me and all I felt important to make him feel as good as possible.

I moved down again, this time opening my mouth when I kissed his a path down his body, leaving wet kissed on his skin. He whined under me, bucked his hips up. I took the elastic band between my teeth and pulled it down. Cody was observing my every move, breathing through his mouth. When his boxers were gone he looked at me, his eye burning.

"Please Justin. I need you." he whispered and I shuddered at his words. I took a firm grip of his dick and sucked the tip of it to my mouth. His head immediately snapped back, his hips bucking up and low moan coming from his lungs. I slowly took more and more of him in, while holding him down with my other hand.

I licked and sucked, taking him in more and more. I fought to get to the end, but got him fully in to my mouth. I stayed down a second and his whole body was tense. I moved slowly up and he was shaking, his back arched up. When I removed my mouth he slumped back on the bed.

"J-Justin"

"Yea Cody?" I asked in a soft voice.

"I...I need you. I need you right now. All of you." he whispered looking me in the eyes, his chest moving up and down. I nodded, kissed my way back to his mouth. We shared a quick kiss because even thought we had all the time in the world, he needed me desperately and I needed him even more. I needed it more than I have ever needed anything.

I reached for the drawer next to the bed and took out lube and a condom. I kissed my way back down to his dick and then stopped to open the lube. I covered one finger with it and slowly circled around his hole. He tensed up so I kissed his hipbone. I pushed the tip of my finger in and he tensed up again.

"Relax babe relax." I said in a soothing voice. I kept pushing forward and he made a sound from displeasure. I kept pushing until I had my finger completely in him and gave him time to get used to it. When his breathing had calmed down, I began to move it out. He grunted again and when I was out and ready to push the second one in, I took the tip of his dick to my mouth. He moaned deeply, this time from pure pleasure. I kept pushing my two fingers in and he tensed up, but I sucked harder and he relaxed. I kept pushing until I was in completely and then out. I sucked his dick while I kept pushing in and out. He moaned under me, the pleasure winning the pain. I scissored my fingers, to get him stretched more.

"I can't Justin...I can't. I need it now. Please." he pleaded and I nodded. I moved up, rolled the condom on and covered with a lot of lube. I looked down at him and he nodded. I kissed him and lined up with his hole. I pushed in, very slowly. His eyes squeezed shut immediately and he bit his lip.

"Relax relax babe. It will hurt more if you don't loosen up. It will get better, it will I promise." I kept whispering sweet nothings to his ear, distracting him from the pain. When I was fully in he took a couple of deep shuttering breaths. He opened his eyes and a sweat drop made it's way down the side of his face.

"Move." he whispered and I nodded and kissed him. He felt perfect, this was all perfect and I wanted him to feel good so badly and I wasn't gonna last much longer and I just bit my lip hard. His breaths came out in very short gasps and I kissed his ear and his neck tried everything to make it better.

"I love you I love you I love you so much." I whispered and he wrapped his arms around my back and dug his nails in to my skin. I pushed in and out, slowly but sternly, knowing that I had to keep moving for it to get better. Cody was breathing hard, slowly relaxing.

"It's getting better." he breath out and I smiled. We found a rhythm, a slow and tender and Cody started to meet my thrust, moving his hips, I angled my every thrust differently so that I could find his sweet spot. Cody moaned from under me I smiled in to his skin.

"It's a lot better aah." he breath out and I started to move faster. His nails dug deeper and he met my thrusts harder and this was all I ever wanted, all I ever needed, this was it I thought to myself. He was so tight and it was all too much and I loved every second. We were sweating and moving against each other like it was what we were meant to do. My heart was pounding in my ears and all I could smell was Cody.

"I love you Justin." Cody whispered and kissed me again. The kiss didn't last long, because we were breathing so hard. Our bodies moved up and down, finding the rhythm, finding what felt good, what worked for us.

"I can't...I can't take it much longer." I moaned and Cody nodded.

I moved my hand down his chest and took a firm hold of his dick and started to pump his dick while I moved. He moaned and moved under me, his head thrown back, then burrowing it to my neck. He whined and turned and I loved him so much.

"I'm gonna come I can't take it." I huffed out and he only moaned response. I moved my hand faster and our movements became more out of control, just racing towards the finish line, fighting to get there, but loving the journey.

Cody breathing was nos just very fast gasps of out and in and then he held on to my neck, tensed up and came on my hand. I watched his face as he fell of the edge and then relaxed. It took me a couple thrusts and I was gone myself. I squeezed on the sheets and held my breath and then it was over. I rested my head on his chest, our bodies covered in sweat. Our chests were moving fast up and down, before we it slowly calmed down. I rolled to my side and looked at Cody. His eye were sparkling and he was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my whole life.

"I love you." I whispered one last time.

"I love you too." he whispered back and I kissed his cheek.

AUTHOR'S NOTES:

I AM SORRY FOR ALL THE SPELLING MISTAKES, THIS IS SO FULL CRAP THAT I DIDN'T EVEB READ IT THROUGH PROPERLY SO. SORRY

Oh my god I can't even. I have nothing to say. I feel like this is full crap, and I am not seeking for attention, I am just being honest. I felt like their -exspecally Cody's first time should be gentle and romatic and flyffu and not im-gonna-fuck-your-brains-out-like-a-rabit sex. I have no idea how to write sex in the first poalce and fluffy romatic sex is even harder oh my god kill me I am not gonna post this.

Tell me what you did or didn't think.

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