Time for another virtual hug! This may be my last update for a while...I know...I know...I'll miss you too. I have a huge Career Report due and I had to interview an actress and all this so, that's why I am posting this.
I'll have a super long update for you when I get through with my report I promise!
Love you guys!
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Last time on...Not Until Your Gone...
Jesse's lifeless body fell to the floor, and my heart stopped beating.
And never wanting to see light again, I fell into complete darkness
Jesse?
Susannah, where are you?
I can't see anything...
Just follow my voice.
I can't.
Susannah, please. Just follow my voice!
I can't...
"Susannah?" I looked up to see a tall dark figure walking towards me. "Jesse?"
"No, Susannah. I'm not." He said in a deep voice. I looked around me. It was gorgeous. Clouds were all around us. The sunlight was coming through the clouds...
"Am I in heaven?" I asked. He laughed and said, "I guess you could say that...follow me." He took my hand and lead me to another part of the clouds. "It wasn't your time, Susannah."
I sighed and he looked down at me."I can just shift back...stop it."
"No. Marc's put a curse on you, Susannah. You can't. Only I can help you." I still couldn't see his face. "I can give you another chance at life."
"What about Jesse?"
He nodded, "Yes, and him too." Then he said, "But you'll have to go back."
"Back...as in...back through time?"
"Yes."
"If I'll be alive with Jesse, I don't really care."
"Take my hand." I did and closed my eyes...
"Suze! Time for school, sweetie."
What the heck? My head was pounding. I walked over and looked in the mirror. I screamed.
I was 6 years younger. Literally.
Maybe that guy was God.
I walked down the stairs and saw that everything was like it was when I was in high school. "Hey, sweetie. Are you ok?"
"Huh? Oh, yeah. I just have a head ache."
"Your face gives me a head ache."
"Watch it, Bradley." I snorted when Andy called him that. Dopey glared at him as he walked back into the kitchen.
I followed mom into the kitchen and sat down. I looked at the newspaper that was on the table.
December 19.
Why did that date sound so familar?
"Suze, are you ok?" She asked me. "You look sick."
"Yeah, I'm fine." She put her hand to my forehead.
"Ok." She said. "Just call me if you get sick at school, ok?" I nodded.
What the heck is going on?
"Querida, are you ok?" Jesse asked me that night after our date. I looked up at him and said, "Yeah, Jess."
He looked at me. I smiled, "What?"
"Nothing."
"What?" He didn't answer...all he did was kiss me. "I love you, Jesse."
He smiled against my lips, "I love you too, Susannah."
"Marry me, Susannah."
I smiled against his lips, "Whatever you say, cowboy."
Now I knew why that date sounded so familar. This was when Jesse asked me to marry him. This is when everything started going downhill.
I could get my life back.
I would never move out to NY. I'd stay here. Where I wanted to be.
With Jesse.
"Susannah?" He asked when I broke apart from him.
"I'm sorry...it's just...I really don't feel good."
"Ok." He said as he started his car back up. "I'll take you home."
When I got home, I laid back on my bed and closed my eyes...
"What is going on?"
He slowly walked to me, "Susannah, that's what you wanted, right?"
"I don't know." I said as the fog clinged to my legs. "I mean, I guess...but...what about Marc?"
Then everything went dark.
"Exactly. What about Marc?" The man said as we walked through the hall. "Susannah, do you love Jesse?"
"Duh."
"More than life."
Sadly, I had to think about that one. "Um, sure. Yeah." The man laughed and I felt a sharp pain in my side.
"What the hell was that for?" I yelled. Then, realizing I was in a hospital waiting room, I shut up.
"It doesn't matter, Susannah. No one can hear you." He said as he walked down the hall.
"Did you just kill me?" I asked as I caught back up to him. He looked down at me, even though I still couldn't see his face, and said, "Temporarily." When he saw my expression, he said, "Susannah, I gave you that one chance."
"But you said-"
"I know what I said." He opened one of the doors. "But maybe you'll see, that somethings are meant to be."
Tears filled my eyes. "What are you saying?"
He sighed, "Maybe Jesse was never meant to be alive."
Those words pierced my heart.
"Now...what I'm going to show you your life...one when you keep Jesse alive. My offer. Or one where you let him go."
"You're insane."
"Susannah, he was meant to die-"
"He's only 26, and you're saying he is meant to die?" I yelled.
"Sometimes the good die young."
My eyes grew wide and I said, "Forget you!" I ran down the hallway. My eyes were filling up with tears as I ran.
"Querida!" I heard Jesse yell. I immedialty spun around. This Jesse was older. "You're not suppossed to be walking around."
An older me walked over to Jesse. I was smiling...something looked different...
I know what looked different...
I was pregnant.
So, I guess Jesse finally let go of his morals
"Jesse, I'm pregnant. I don't have a life threatening disease." I said as he kissed me. He pulled back, just a little and said, "But, Susannah-"
"I guess this is what I got for marrying a doctor." I said as I rolled my eyes. He laughed and kissed me again.
"Susannah-" I looked behind me to see that man walking towards me. I turned away from the future me and looked at him.
"See? We're happy."
"Now."
"What do you mean, now?"
"Come." He held out his hand and I followed. When I opened my eyes, I was in a huge, goregous home. "Where are we?" I asked. He just shook his head and watched.
"I can't believe you, Jesse!"
"Why is it always my fault?" He yelled as he followed me. I had a little girl with black curly hair on my hip. She looked just like Jesse...
But she had my eyes.
"Ella, go play." I said as I put her down. She nodded and ran up the stairs. I noticed that she didn't go all the way. She only went out of thier sight and sat down. A ghost materialized beside her and put his arm around her.
"Fine!" I tuned back into future me and Jesse. Jesse walked out of the door and slammed it. Future me started crying.
"Mommy?" The ghost dematerialized.
"What baby?" I asked as I wiped my tears away. Ella just looked at me and ran up and threw her arms around me.
I looked away from us and turned back to the man. "So? Jesse and I always argue."
He sighed, "But not like this." He took my hand again and when I opened my eyes, I saw Mario walking to our door.
I answered the door. "Mario, what is it?" I asked when I noticed his cheeks were tear stained.
"Suze, Jesse-" But he didn't have to finish it. I knew what he was about to say. I broke down in tears and Mario put his arms around me.
Once again, I turned to look at that man, "You're insane! None of this is going to-"
"Susannah, it wasn't his destiny to live."
"You're wrong!" I yelled. Then I saw that little necklace around his neck. Stephanie's necklace. The one I broke.
The key to time.
I grabbed it and smashed it on the floor.
"Querida, are you ok?" I opened my eyes to see that I was on my bed. Jesse was looking down at me...he looked different.
He was a ghost.
"Oh my gosh! Jesse you're dead!" I yelled. Jesse just stared at me.
"Susannah-"
"It was Marc, wasn't it? And the creepy guy. Ha, he was so not God. More like Satan-"
"Susannah-"
"-I can't believe this! He did this on purpose and he told me it wasn't your destiny to live and I didn't believe him...because it's not true! He killed you! He did it, not Marc. Oh , he's good."
"Querida-"
"-but not good enough." I looked up at the sky, well, my ceiling. "Do you hear me 'Creepy guy'? It's not going to work! I'm on to you!!"
"Susannah!" He grabbed me and turned me towards him. "What are you talking about?"
"You're dead!"
He laughed, "Good observation, querida. I only have been for 150 years."
"I know but-" I looked up at him. "Wait, what did you just say."
"Susannah, I've been dead for a century and a half."
I sat down on my bed in shock. "What year is this?" I asked him when he sat down beside me.
"2006." He said. "Susannah, are you sure you're ok?"
I shook my head. "I broke it."
He looked at me, confused, "You broke what?"
"I broke time."
(a/n- I was going to end there, but since I can't update for a while...I'll be nice)
"How do you break time?" He looked at me. "Susannah, what did you do this time?"
Oh, he knows me well.
Too well.
"Damn it!" I yelled as I threw myself back on my bed.
"Was it Slater?" Jesse asked. That made me pop back up.
"What month is this?"
"Decemeber."
I smiled, "Good."
The Winter Formal was in two weeks. That meant that Jesse would be alive. That also meant that that 'Creepy Guy' was wrong.
Ha. In your face!
"Susannah, are you-"
I smiled as I leaned back on him. "Yeah, I'm fine." I kissed his cheek, and he turned his head just a little so that I kissed his lips.
Ha ha ha ha ha! I told you I was right 'Creepy Guy'. We are meant to be together!
Um, me and Jesse that is...not me and 'Creepy Guy'.
---4 Weeks Later---
"How do you get yourself into these messes?" Jesse asked me. I sighed and laid back on his couch and buried my face in the pillows.
"Querida-"
"Jesse, I need to talk to you." I said as I lifted my head up and looked him in the eyes. Which I never did, look him in the eye I mean, because his gaze was so intense.
I guess he thought I was going to say, 'We're though' or 'I'm cheating on you', because his expression ceratinly looked like it.
"It's not about us." I said quickly. "Well, I mean, it is. But not like...that." I sat up straighter and looked back at him.
"I'm listening." He said.
"Ok. This may sound a little weird-"
My long, long speech was accompanied by a long, long silence.
"Ok. So. You're from the future?" I nodded. He sighed and said, "Not again!"
"Jesse, I know. But I was right the first time! Why wouldn't I be right now?"
He looked back at me and said, "Ok. I believe you. But let me get this straight. My co-worker is an 'evil demon from hell' and he's after you for some reason and he won't stop until you're dead?" I nodded. "Ok, and then there's another guy that is telling you I was meant to be dead. So you broke his necklace therfore breaking time?"
"Pretty much." I said.
He just stared at me, "Why did I think life with you wouldn't be easy?"
I smiled, "Because it never has been." He laughed and brought me into his arms.
"Oh yeah." I said as I played with the hem of his shirt. "This guy named Mario really isn't your cousin...to make a long confusing story short, he's your brother."
"My what?"
"Surprise!" I laughed.
"Anything else?"
"Um...no. Well, yes. Jack will be evil, well not really evil but...yeah...and in Paul's words, 'It'll all go down on Halloween night'...oh yeah, and I'm part witch."
He looked down at me, "Part what?"
"Witch."
"Ok, Susannah. I believed you at first but this is a little insane."
I sighed and lifted him up just like I did that day with Diego. When I sat him back down he just looked at me amazed.
"Who are you and what have you done with my girlfriend?"
"Jesse!"
"Oh my gosh." He said as he laid back. He muttered something in Spanish and then looked back at me, "Are you serious?"
"Yes."
He looked at me for a little while longer. Then he said, "Just think about what our kids are going to be like." Then he saw my epression and said, "Oh no. How many?"
"One."
"Boy or girl?"
"Girl."
"Who does she act like?" I chose not to respond to that right away. "Susannah!"
"Me."
"Oh gosh." He said again. Then he said, "Well, what are we going to do?"
"We?"
"Well, yeah. I'm not letting you do this alone." Ah, typical Jesse. Some things never change.
"I have no idea." Ah, typical me. Some things never change...unfortunatly.
Then someone materialized in the hall.
Jesse looked over my shoulder and asked, "That him?"
I didn't even have to look before saying, "Yep."
R&R! I promise the next chapter will explain more. I'll post it possibly Tuesday but more that likely Wednesday or Thursday...or today if I can sneak back on!
XOXOXOXO
-SASTMJ
(jessesgirl4eva:)