Chapter Thirty
Lila stared at Spencer, wondering if maybe her mind was playing tricks on her. Although she had only been at the santiarium for a few hours, she wondered if it was possible for the psychosis of the other patients to have rubbed off on her. Being able to blend her body with Spencer's was something she had dreamed of for a long time and now that the time had come, she was too stunned to react. Spencer looked at her, trying to gage her reaction.
"Are you sure, Spence? What changed your mind?"
"Seeing you with my mother today. All this time I was so afraid you would take one look at her and run in the opposite direction, but when you didn't....I felt as though you could truly accept me, all of me. So I decided if you could handle her, you could handle me and whatever might happen."
"Spencer," Lila said, taking his hand in hers. "making love with you will amazing because it's with you. Technical skill comes later with practice, but nothing can replace the closeness and intimacy we already share. This is new for me as well, because I've never been with someone I love."
"I'm nervous," Spencer admitted, looking sheepish, running a hand through his hair.
"And that's completely normal. If this is what you want and if you're truly ready, we'll go slow. We have all night."
"All night," Spencer whispered, trying to ponder such a notion. He would just be happy not to sustain an erection for more than five minutes or go off solo.
"All night," Lila whispered back, moving closer to him.
She ran her fingers through his hair and moved his face closer to hers. She kissed him tenderly, wanting to set him at ease. Spencer responded and was rewarded with a moan when he deepened the kiss. Their lips continued to meld together, their tongues tasting and exploring. Spencer's hand crept its way up her nightie and he ran it up and down her soft, smooth skin.
Lila sighed into his mouth and he reached up to cup her breast, which was concealed by a lace bra. He could feel her nipples hard and swollen under the lace and gently ran his thumb against them. Lila moaned, loving the feel of his hands, but also wanting to give him as much encouragement as possible. She moved her lips to his neck, loving the taste of his skin. As she kissed his special spots, she gave him an occassional nip, flicking out her tongue to soothe the sting.
Spencer reached behind her to unsnap her bra. He had never done this before so he had no what idea he was doing. He tugged quickly at the hooks, trying to get them to unsnap. It wasn't working and he his face was burning with embarassment. He was wondering if this was such a good idea afterall when Lila reached behind her to steady his hands.
"Spence, it's okay, relax. We have all night. Start with one hook at a time."
Lila removed her hands and Spencer took her advice to heart, starting with one annoying little hook and moving down until the dastardly lace contraption hung loose off of her shoulders.
"Very good," Lila murmured, rewarding him with a kiss as he peeled the garment away and dropped it to the floor.
"Yes indeed," Spencer agreed, relishing the feel of her warm rounded orbs in his hands. He lowered his head and kissed her neck, moving down to her collar bone. He traced his tongue along that area and he massaged her breasts.
"I love how your mouth and hands feel on my skin," she sighed. "You have amazing hands."
"Really?" Spencer replied, moving his mouth lower still.
"Mmm-hmm," Lila replied, wetness pooling between her legs, longing filling her body. She was excited about finally uniting with Spencer and knew it was going to be amazing.
Spencer gathered the silky material of her nightie in his hands, slowly pulling it over her head. He let it fall to the ground and allowed himself to have his fill of the glorious sight before him. Lila was stunning. Her fair skin glowed in the lamp light and her breasts were a wonder to behold. They were about the size of a grapefruit, although Spencer felt she tasted much better. Her nipples were at attention, aching for his touch. Spencer ran his hand along her bare skin.
"You're beautiful," Spencer said, moving his face close so he could kiss her skin.
He ran his tongue along her chest, along where the faint scars still lingered. Lila ran her fingers through his hair, feeling the self consciousness evaporate slowly. She had always hated those scars on her body, hating the permanent reminders of her weakness. As if reading her mind, Spencer paused a moment so kiss the ones on her arms as well, as if reassuring the scars didn't repel or scare him. He then turned his attention back to her chest.
He let his tongue flicker against her left nipple before sucking it into his mouth. Lila cried out in pleasure, gripping his head as he suckled her, all while twirling his tongue around the swollen skin. After a few moments, he moved his mouth to the other one, lavishing the same pleasure on that one.
"Oh Spence, that feels so good. I...I love your tongue..." she cried out, aching for his touch on her nether region as well.
"I love how you taste. Your skin is so sweet," Spencer marveled, never realising just how palatable another person could be.
"At the rate you're going, agent, you're not going to have much to work on technique wise. I looove what you're doing," she moaned as his mouth moved past her breasts and to her abdomen.
"Good," Spencer replied, knowing the night was still young and he wasn't quite out of the woods yet.
His mouth moved lower still until he reached below her belly button. He hooked his fingers underneath the band of her lace panties, pulling them down. Lila arched her body off the bed, allowing him to pull them off her body. She bit her bottom lip as she watched his reaction. She was now completely exposed, unable to hide any part of herself, including the angry remnents of her last moment of dispair.
Although that had only been a few days ago, it seemed like a lifetime ago. Now it seemed almost unreal that she had ever done that to herself. He gently brushed against them with the tips of his fingers, looking into her eyes.
"Never again," he murmured, his gaze boring into hers.
"Never again," Lila agreed.
Spencer lowered his head and kissed the marks gently before moving his mouth to her inner thighs. He didn't leave an inch of skin untouched by his kisses, also lavishing tender attention on the smooth area of skin above where they would soon unite. Lila watched him, waiting for his next move with baited breath. He ran his hand up and down her inner thighs before his fingers found their way to her entrance. Lila sucked in her breath as his index finger found his way to her wetness.
"Ohhhh Spppenccceee...." Lila cried, arching her hips towards him.
Encouraged by her reaction, Spencer moved his finger around inside of her, loving the feel of her around him. The world spun around Lila, all conscious thought ceasing to exist. After a few moments, he slowly inched another finger inside of her, making her cry out louder. It wasn't long until his thumb began rubbing her swollen clit and the sensation was more than Lila could handle. She cried out louder and Spencer could feel a warm, wet discharge against his fingers. He looked up at her, wide eyed.
"Lila...was that....?" "Mmm-HMM," Lila moaned, feeling light headed from the intensity of the orgasm that had flooded from her body.
"Really? I actually made you....?" Joy and relief flooded through his body, the feeling surreal. Knowing he was able to bring her such pleasure was the most incredible feeling in the world.
Lila nodded, running her fingers through his hair, anticipating his next move. Spencer moved his face towards her entrance, running his tongue along her entrance. He didn't really know what to do, so he decided to treat this as if he were kissing Lila as he always did. His mouth moved against her inner most feeling, his tongue exploring every inch of her. Judging from her loud verbal ques, he decided he must be doing something right, so he continued.
It wasn't long until he was rewarded with another rush of her pleasure. He lapped it up with tongue, loving the taste of her. Lila pulled on his head, bringing him back up to her. Their lips were crushed together, separating long enough for Lila to pull off his t-shirt. Now it was Spencer's turn to feel vulnerable.
Although Lila had seen him shirtless in the pool, this felt different to him since she could actually see him. There was no darkness to shield him. She lowered her mouth, flicking her tongue over his erect nipples. He could now understand her reaction to this only minutes ago because the sensation was outstanding. He let out a moan, loving the feeling of her mouth on him. Lila continued lower, kissing her way down to his stomach.
"I love your body," she said, letting her tongue flicker into his belly button.
"Ohh? T...that's gooooddd..." Spencer said shakily, deciding that attempting to use complete sentences at this moment in time probbaly wouldn't work.
"Yes it is," Lila moaned, pulling down his boxers and pajama buttons at once.
She was rewarded with the sight of his erection. It was large, thick, and standing at attention. Her mouth watered, wanting nothing more than to taste him. Her mouth moved lower, teasing his inner thighs with kisses and nips until she absolutely had to have him. She wrapped her hand around his throbbing member and twirled her tongue around the tip.
Spencer let out a loud squeel, his body shooting up from the bed. Lila smiled and used her other hand to steady him as her tongue slowly wrapped around him. He reminded her of a large, even yummier tootsie roll. She couldn't help but wonder how many licks it would take to get to his center. She closed her mouth over the head of his penis, sucking on it as her hand turned around him.
As her mouth accepted more of him inside, he hand moved lower until it switched to the other parts of his male anatomy. She moved her head up and down, her tongue not missing an inch as her hand went to work as well. The feeling was unlike anything Spencer had ever felt before and he almost fainted from the sheer thrill. He rested his hands on her head, gripping onto her hair as she continued her magic. It wasn't long until he could feel himself about to release.
As much as he wanted to, he didn't want to let go like this. He wanted to release when he was inside of her, united to her.
"L...Lila," he choked out.
"Hmm?" she asked, shifting her eyes to his, all while still moving her mouth against his.
"I...I need you. I want to be inside of you," he said.
Lila smiled and gave him a final lick before kissing her way up his body. Their lips reunited and Lila laid on her back, pulling him on top of her. Spencer positioned himself on top of her, the moment of truth before him. Lila sensed his nervousness and rested a hand on his cheek.
"Just take your time, Spence. You've been amazing so far."
"Yeah, so far," he muttered before reclaiming her lips. He rested his palms on the mattress, kneeling between her legs. Lila ran her hands along his back, looking into his eyes.
"I love you," she whispered.
"I love you, too," he said.
Lila ran her fingers through his hair, looking into his eyes as he inched his hips forward. The head of his shaft was the first part of himself to claim her heat. Being his close to her was electrifying and he prayed he could complete the act this time. After taking a deep breath and closing his eyes, he thrust forward, filling her with his enormous member. Lila sucked in her breath, gasping.
"A...are you okay?" he asked, trembling as he remained still, his erection aching to continue.
Lila nodded. "Y...yeah. It's just that...."
"What?" he asked, panick apparent in his eyes. He had done it again. He had completely messed up and made an ass of himself. Again.
"Y...you're so big. M...much bigger than I'm used to."
"I...is that a goo thing?"
"For me it is," Lila said, smiling coyly, wrapping her legs around his waist.
Spencer let out a whoosh of relief and began to move inside of her. Being united with her was beyond his wildest dreams. Although he had read many books, nothing in literature had prepared him for the euphoria of becoming one with the woman he loved. Lila helped him set the pace slow and steady, her hips moving in rhythm with his. At long last she finally understood the difference between having sex and making love.
Although she had been with other men before, they paled in comparison to Spencer at this very moment. She felt herself melting into him, not knowing or caring where he ended and she began. Their lips moved in time with each other, every part of each other's bodies explored, well loved. Lila gripped onto his back and arched her head back, crying out in pleasure as Spencer sucked and nipped her neck. Spencer could feel her body shudder and her walls contract around him as she flooded his member with the sweet sensation of her release.
Spencer picked up the pace, his thrusting more urgent as he ached to join her in the feeling. Lila tightened her legs around his waist and moved her hips even faster, wanting him to fill her with his pleasure. Spencer bucked his hips violently one last time, looking into her eyes. She wrapped her arms around him, holding him close and he reached the end.
Spencer finally gave into the sensations, releasing deep inside of her, gasping and crying out as his seed left him. His grip became like a vice around her, pulling her body closer to his as he gave one last shudder. Lila's arms never moved, holding him tightly as he rested his head in the crook of her neck, collapsing on top of her. After a few moments, he removed his now satiated member from her being. Lila turned so they were now laying on their sides. She gently smoothed the hair from his eyes and when she met his gaze, she saw wetness pooling inside of them.
"Spence, are you okay?" she whispered, feeling concerned.
Spencer nodded. "I'm fine, Lila. I..."
Lila waited with baited breath, not knowing what he was going to say. Finally, he was able to get the words out. And when he did, they were the sweetest thing she had ever heard.
"I'm just so glad it was you," he whispered, holding her face in his hands.
Now it was Lila's turn to unleash her emotion. Spencer wiped her tears away and they continued to hold each other's faces in their hands.
"You were so incredible, Spence. Being with you was....magic."
"Well, I *am* a magician," he chuckled, rolling over onto his back.
Lila giggled and rested her head on his shoulder. He wrapped his arms around her and kissed her again.
"I never understood the difference between having sex and making love. I just thought the individuals using those phrases were playing sematics," she relied.
"And now?" Spencer asked, looking at her.
"Now I know," she replied, looking deep into his eyes. They kissed each other slowly and deeply before Spencer reached over and turned off the lamp. They gathered each other close and fell asleep in each other's arms.