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Ally's POV
It was a rainy day, Ryan was busy playing with his toys and Austin was busy on the phone with Dez. I was bored and alone with nothing to do. Ryan had been living with me for a week and seemed to be adjusting to life here just fine. He enjoyed playing with his toys and watching movies more than ever.
Though Austin and I weren't back together, it felt as though we were. He lived up to his word about staying over to make sure that Ryan and I would remain safe, it warmed me to know that he really did care. Seeing how kind, caring, and loving he was towards Ryan made it hard for me to keep denying a relationship between the two of us. After all, he did have some pretty good points as to why he didn't do it, and how Cassidy's stupid story didn't add up. Regardless of what I'd previously said, it was still bugging me, the thought of them both being together sickened me, I wanted proof but somehow it felt unfair of me to ask him of that.
I quietly sipped my raspberry and lemon tea, deciding that thinking about this situation probably wouldn't be a good idea. I turned on the T.V and decided to watch one of my favorite movies; 27 dresses. I'd seen it a million times and knew almost every line to the movie, but I still loved to watch it.
Austin's POV
It was nice to talk to Dez again, it'd been forever since we'd actually talked. We'd text here and there, but his main focus was Trish and finding a college he'd truly enjoy.
"So how have you and Ally been?" Dez asked.
I sighed heavily, not wanting to talk about our situation or what went down at the party that night, I hadn't told Dez, and I was sure Ally hadn't told Trish; "Um… we could be better I guess," I muttered.
"What do you mean by that? You two were the happiest couple in the whole entire school it seemed," Dez replied.
"Well… yeah, we were. And then something happened at a party and now she sort of hates me. It's not like I really did anything… I didn't, I just wish we wouldn't have gone to that stupid party in the first place."
"Explain?"
"Well… it's a long story, if you're really willing to listen to it then I'll explain," I said.
"Of course I'm willing to listen, we haven't talked in forever and I hate hearing that you're having a rough time so go ahead, tell me what's up."
"Well… alright…" So I told him everything. Even the part about being knocked out… by a girl, which was pretty humiliating if you ask me. Dez seemed pretty understanding though, adding in his input here and there.
"Sounds like you've got to find a way to prove to Ally that you didn't cheat," he paused; "Though you'd think that she would believe you because of all of the evidence you provided. Your story is nearly rock solid while Cassidy's has a few holes in it. Holes even I know don't add up and I can be pretty dull at times"
"That's exactly what I thought!" I exclaimed, shaking my head. Now I had reassurance that it wasn't just me that thought that my story added up completely and that Cassidy's didn't.
"It must be pretty rough huh? Having to be around her every day knowing that somewhere in the back of her mind she's calling you a liar and a cheater," He chuckled; "You're constantly there for her, you give her your unconditional love, and this is how she repays you."
"I never really thought of it that way… I love her so much that I don't really care much about what she's thinking about me, I care more about rather she wants to get back together or not, because its killing me wondering if I'll ever have a chance again."
"Well, girls can be complicated."
"Yeah, But I didn't know they'd be this complicated. Sometimes I wish I would have just slept with Cassidy. Then I'd at least deserve the hell I've been getting. It really would have been worth it at this point. It's been almost a month since I've kissed her and its starting to drive me nuts. At least Cassidy was willing to kiss me no matter what."
"Oh Austin, you're so stupid. You know that even if you did have the opportunity to kiss Cassidy you wouldn't, she's crazy and kissing her would mean that she'd assume you two were back on again. And I wouldn't blame her this time."
I laughed loudly, Dez was right. Cassidy had to be the craziest girl I knew.
Ally's POV
"At least Cassidy was willing to kiss me no matter what," I felt a tear roll down my cheek as I heard those words. I was so stupid. Of course Austin slept with Cassidy, of course he kissed her. I shouldn't have ever let him back into my life, I was better off without him.
I turned my back to the closed door and plopped down on the floor. Ryan was down for a nap, so if I wanted to talk to Austin, I would need to talk to him now. I waited quietly outside the door as he continued to talk on the phone.
Why did I let myself fall for him, of all people? He was the bad boy, the jerk, my bully, the bane of my existence. It should have stayed that way, he shouldn't have ever been my friend. Of course he'd lie to me, I wouldn't be surprised if he was doing all this just to prank me and humiliate me one last time. Austin couldn't be trusted, not with stuff like this flying around the place. It simply wasn't possible.
Just like it wasn't possible for me to continue to associate with him. He couldn't be my friend, let alone my lover or boyfriend. He needed to go. I felt another tear stream down my cheek as I imagined life without Austin. Months ago it would have seemed blissful and serene, now it seemed dark and weary. But I'd have to make it through. I couldn't be with someone who lied to me constantly. I knew I'd be questioning his every move.
After about five minutes I decided that sitting there wouldn't speed their conversation up anymore. I got up and made my way into the living room, searching for something that would distract me until he decided to come back out here. Watching 27 dresses didn't seem appealing to me anymore. I didn't want to watch someone fall in love when I couldn't. I sat down and decided to drown myself in my thoughts again. It was the only other reasonable answer, one that would keep me distracted until Austin was finished on the phone.
I sat down, my body felt heavy and my head felt light. Maybe Austin was just joking; I was notorious for jumping to conclusions, even in small situations. But I couldn't help but wonder "what if," it was always that one thought that stopped me from forgetting about it.
My very own negative thoughts seemed to be taking control of my life. I wasn't sure how to stop it, but it was too late. I wasn't "Ally" anymore. I was someone else, someone I didn't recognize when I looked into the mirror. I didn't laugh the same way, and when I smiled it felt incredibly forced. My mind wasn't the same, even with Ryan back in the picture. I was torn, scarred beaten and bruised, my body used to be a temple but what was it now? With my bridges burned, my very own unique pattern scratched away, the artwork I'd worked so hard to create was fading. My temple was losing its glory, its shine. It was losing everything that made it mine. What could I do to get it back? Could I even get it back?
I was pulled from my thoughts as I heard the sound of a door opening and closing. I stood to my feet, ready to speak.
Austin walked into the room and stopped in his tracks, the look on his face was blank as he tried to process the look on my face; "Hey Al's, what's up?" he asked, taking a seat on the chair in front of me.
"How about you tell me that Austin, there's a lot I'd like to know," I quipped. I didn't want to sound too angry, but to be honest I was sick and tired of being lied to.
"What the hell are you talking about?" he asked, quirking a brow.
"Why the hell were you talking about how Cassidy was always willing to kiss you on the phone?" I asked,
His confused expression soon turned into an angry one, I tried my best to keep my cool despite being a little afraid of his reaction; "What the hell Ally? Why were you listening in on my conversation with Dez? Wanna tell me that?" He asked, standing up and inching closer to me.
"I was coming to see if you wanted to watch a movie with me, then I realized that you were still on the phone. That's when I heard what you said about Cassidy," I replied.
"So what? That doesn't give you a right to listen in on the conversation, and it definitely doesn't give you a right to butt into my business and ask me about it. I don't need to prove myself to you, I've told you countless times that I didn't cheat on you, I don't know what else you want from me!" He exclaimed.
"Me? Butting into your business? I have a right to, when you're under my roof, eating my food, watching my TV I at least have a right to know why I heard you say what you said on the phone. And what do I want from you Austin?" I paused, I was more than angry at that moment, I wanted to scream, but I didn't want to wake Ryan; "I want the fucking truth how about that?! I'm sick of constantly being lied to; I don't know what to believe anymore!"
"So what now, you're accusing me of cheating on you again? Typical, because you can never ever make up your fucking mind, you're all over the place. One moment you believe me and the next you're accusing me of cheating, and then we're back at square one again," He ran his fingers through his hair and bit his lower lip. I wouldn't deny that it was incredibly sexy, but I was still angry.
"Yes! I am accusing you of cheating on me again, and you wanna know why? It's because I know you've lied about other things before. And to be truthful, I don't even really know much about you. For all I know you could be pulling some prank on me as a last hoorah before you run off to college and leave me here alone with a broken heart."
He stood silently, his gaze focused heavily on me. What was he thinking? Why wasn't he talking?
After a long, unnerving silence, he finally spoke; "This isn't going to work is it?" he asked; "Me and you… together. It's just not going to work is it?" his voice cracked with almost every word he managed to spit out. He sat down once again, not daring to meet my eyes.
"Ally… I love you. But why? I've been nothing but good to you, I support you, I help you and still it's not enough for you. I want you, but I don't want you like this. I can't argue with you like this. I can't continue to feel guilty over something that I haven't even done. It hurts to think about how you might not even love me the same anymore, how you might even be keeping me around until another guy pops into your life. It hurts so bad."
"Austin… That's not at all what I mea-"
"Shh… I think its best for me to leave. I'll live up to my word and come to visit Ryan every day, but besides that I don't want to have any association with you. I want to get over you in an easy, painless way."
I shook my head frantically, tears filing at the rim of my eyes, this wasn't how things were supposed to go, this wasn't the Austin I knew; "Austin, you can't leave… We didn't finish talking and I think there's something else I want to say," I lied standing to my feet.
"No, I don't think there's much else to talk about, and even if there is I don't really want to talk about it, I just want to leave," he stood up and brushed past me, making his way to the front door. Things were going so well, why did my stupid mind have to ruin it?
"Austin I swear if you just stay a little bit longer we can resolve things, this isn't how I wanted things to turn out," I said.
He finished putting on his shoes and placed his hand on the door knob, turning back to speak once more; "No Ally, this is what you've wanted all along. You just haven't realized it yet." Before I could reply, he was gone. I just stood there, wondering where exactly I went wrong.
Austin's POV
It took everything in me not to walk back into that apartment and pull her into a hug. I hated seeing her cry, I hated fighting. But if things were going to continue being the way they were, I wouldn't be able to handle it.
She was right, she barely knew me, and that was my fault. I was so focused on getting to know her, and making sure that she was alright that I'd completely forgotten about myself.
As much as I wanted things to work between us, I didn't see it happening. Not now at least, Ally needed to work on herself and adjust to life with Ryan, and I, I just needed a break. As I drove off that evening, I hoped and prayed that things between Ally and I would eventually work out. Until then, we were just two hopeless hearts, waiting for love to come and find us again.
I hate writing Auslly arguments sometimes. Anyways, HELLOOOO HSAB READERS! Long time no see, I'm sorry about my brief hiatus, again. As you can see I did take some time to edit the story but I haven't fully finished, as I've decided that I can still continue to update stories, despite editing. For me, editing and revising is a really tiring story because I'd rather rewrite the whole chapter. I started writing HSAB when I was fairly young so there's a lot in here that either doesn't add up or I just don't like. Just in case you guys didn't know though, I have made a few changes to the story, like how Ally stood up to Austin, Ryan's age, the whole situation with Ryan in general, etc... you guys will see a lot of that as I finish up the editing process, as I would really like to be satisfied with this story as I near it's ending. As always, thanks for sticking around and reading the story, I hoped you guys liked it as much as I liked writing it!
Guest: Was chapter 24 the last chapter?- No it was not :)
Luckystarz910- Wowwwwww I'm really upset about what happened to Ryan and Jess. I'm worried about the psychological issues and lack of trust Ryan may have towards people now. I hope Jessica safely gets away. Cassidy needs to just back off already. Austin for crying out loud man up and kiss your girl. Ally get tf out of your head. Trust your best friend the guy who was your boyfriend not some trampy vindictive bitch. Smfh. Austin get it together get your girl back and do whatever you have to..to price and convince Ally she's the only one for you. Rant over. :)- Jess did make it back to Colorado safely which I did forget to mention in this chapter. Also yes, :( Austin and Ally just love being in their heads about things. That's how this whole argument began and ended. As always, thanks for all the reviews you leave me, they are greatly appreciated!
Sarono1212- OMG OMG OMG I stayed up till 1 in the morning reading this, crying silently and laughing my heart out. I love this book and your a AWESOME author! I hope you continue to write like this. its very rare to find such a great author who puts a bunch of feelings into their writing. I really hope you'll continue this story. BTW you are officially my fav author. UPDATE SOON PLZ!- Thank you so much for reading my story! I'm glad that I've earned the spot as your favorite author. This update is just for you! Thanks for reading!
Until Next Time De Mi Amor!
Nikki