Renesmee's P.O.V] the next day I woke to my alarm clock going off and Jake's arm tightening around me. I smiled up at him. "We have to get up." I said softly kissing his lips. He sighed." Five more minutes." he groaned. I shook my head and rolled over removing his arms and getting dressed.

He sighed and rolled on his side standing up and walking into the bathroom starting the shower before closing the door. I smiled and shook my head tying my shoes before heading down stairs.

I walked into the kitchen seeing grandma stirring scrambled eggs while humming. '' Where's Lexi and Seth?" I asked sitting down. She glanced around shrugging. "Guess they're still sleeping. Up late last night," she said fighting the smile on her lips as she winked. My eyes widened. "Oh..." I laughed. She nodded and continued stirring.

I pursed my lips and tapped the counter looking outside. A fire burning in my throat. My focus zoning on just it. It going desert dry as my stomach began to churn making me feel sick. I stood then as I heard foot steps.

Grandma glanced up her body tensing. "Nessie?" She asked cautiously. I glanced at her. "Honey maybe you should hunt." she said slowly stepping towards me. I nodded not giving it another thought. I the jumped through the back door taking off into the trees.

What was wrong with me? I have never been this thirsty before. A part of me wondered if this is how a full vampire felt. I then shook the thought off as two grizzly bears came into view.

I crouched down and sprung letting instinct take over as I drained them both dry. Still feeling thirsty I ran for a heard of elk draining them before the fire dimmed down and the sickness went away. I sighed re leaved before I headed back home.

When I reached the back door Jake was waiting for me worried. "You alright?" He asked as I walked up the steps of the back porch. I nodded and he laid a hand on my back as we walked inside.

I sat down on the stool beside lexi who looked dead tired as she picked at her eggs. I grinned at her and she looked up. "What?" "So why'd you stay up so late last night?" I smirked. Her cheeks becoming eat red. I laughed and so did Jake as Seth glared playfully. "Oh please like you two haven't stayed up all night!" she snapped. My eyes widened and I smacked her playfully. "Shh!" she grinned and uncle Emmett came down stairs. "What about staying up all night?" he asked sternly his brows furrowing.

My eyes winded. "Nothing." we said at the same time. He nodded and sat at the table reading the paper.

We both sighed in relief before we grabbed our bags saying our goodbyes before leaving. This time Brandon was stuck at home with the flu. Of course Leah kept him home; something about being around the other germs was bad. So she kept him home, leaving Lexi and I alone for another burning day at school.

We climbed into my car and I started towards the school. "So did you talk to Seth yet?" I asked. She sighed and looked out the window." No I'm going to talk to him tonight." she sighed. I nodded. "Are you sure about this. I mean you and Seth could have a normal life when you get old enough." I said glancing at her. She sighed. "Yeah but I don't want a normal life. I want to be with my family. I want to be able to protect the ones I love if it ever came down to it ness." she said gripping the door.

I sighed. I knew what she ment by a fight. If the volturi ever showed their damn faces around here again. She didn't want to run and hide. I understood her frustration, I felt the same way, but she didn't understand any of the consequences are. "I couldn't do anything to keep my birth parents alive; I won't loose my parents, not again. I won't loose you or seth or anyone."

"You won't." I sighed. She shrugged. "Not now. Not when I'm changed, I can fight back." I ground my teeth. Lexi had a point a good one at that, but she needed to understand what she was sacrificing.

I sighed shaking my head. No negative thoughts. I pulled into the parking lot and got out, her taking her time. I rolled my eyes knocking on the window. "Lex come on!" I growled. She grumbled and opened her door. "There!" she growled and then slipped making me grab her arm. I laughed and shook my head and she grinned. Us walking inside the school. Heading for class.

Once school was over Lexi and I got in the car. She sat as still as stone as I drove. Glancing at her from time to time but nothing seemed to change. I sighed as we headed straight home. But when we hit the dirt road her body tensed making her look cold and rigid. "What?" I asked. She sighed, "I don't want to talk to him yet." she whispered. I sighed and put an am around her. Hugging her slightly before I got out.

"Hey Lex." she looked up at me and I frowned. Remembering the small girl who was my best friend in brazil. The small girl who watched her parents die. Now this girl wanted to do anything to make sure it didn't happen again. "It'll be okay." I whispered. She looked at me closing her eyes before nodding ad opening her door.