I couldn't sleep knowing the guys were going to be home in less than 12 hours; it seemed like every time I closed my eyes something else would start running through my mind and I was sent into a spiral of what ifs and new worries. I finally gave up on trying completely and went into the living room thinking I'd find something to watch but the infomercials of the early morning were more boring than watching the back of my eyelids.

"This is ridiculous Bowie," I muttered to myself heading back to the bedroom throwing myself down on the bed before my phone vibrated on the night stand.

I can't sleep boys at Gemma's, Don's? Tara had sent me, apparently I wasn't the only one that was effected by the unknown of tomorrow. I quickly sent her a reply to meet her in 20 minutes and opened my closet to get a jacket to wear over my crop and pulled on a pair of destroyed jeans. The yellow light cast from my end table lamps caused the chunk of leather that I had forgotten about to catch my eye. Happy's cut from the day they went inside was hanging hidden in the back corner. I grabbed it off the hanger and threw it under my arms as I went out to my car.

"A little early for you girls don't you think?" Don asked as we came through the front door leading us towards a booth in the back. "The guys come back this morning right?" He smiled, I guess technically it was this morning, it was a little after 4 when Tara had text me.

"Yes," Tara smiled spread but what was usually a contagious smile just caused nerves to rumble in mine.

"You must be excited," he smiled back at her before sitting beside me in the booth, "And you? Made up your mind yet?" I gave him a confused look, did everyone in town know about Happy's ultimatum? "Vic," he added answering my unasked question.

"Your daughter has a big ass mouth," I huffed at him before looking at the menu like I didn't know exactly what I wanted.

"And my other daughter is as stubborn as they come," he signed.

"I don't know what I've decided,"

"I've known you your whole life Bow," he put an arm around my shoulder. "Take it from someone who has been there longer than anyone else living," of course he wasn't, Clay, Gemma and Piney had also been there my whole life, watching me grow. "You were never as happy as you were with him, I know the shadow of a person you were before him and after him,"

"It's not that simple," I began to argue with him but he quickly cut me off.

"Of course it is, he makes you happy, and if it makes you happy it can't be that bad," he grabbed both menus off the table and headed towards the kitchen already knowing what both of us wanted.

"Did he just quote Sheryl Crow?" Tara asked watching him walk away as well.

"Yeah, I think he did," I couldn't help but chuckle as she joined me.

"So the three of us are in agreement?" Tara began after a waitress brought us our drinks, "We're not going to say anything about the letters to Jax, at least not yet,"

I nodded at the brunette, "Right, but all the while we are going to watch Clay,"

"And Gemma," she added. "It still pisses me off that Piney won't help us,"

"He's a simple guy Tara, he doesn't believe that girls should be mixed up in Club business and the president of the club conducting or covering up the murder of his brothers is big shit,"

"Thats why they should know," she started to argue.

"Shit we have no proof of," I reminded her, "Nothing but a police report and a few letters from JT to his Irish whore,"

"Whom he had a daughter with, she wasn't just some whore to him,"

"Who is a whore?" Don asked setting or food down in front of us.

"If I said your daughter?" I smiled up at him trying to keep in a laugh.

"I'd have to laugh, and then swear I defended her honor," he shook his head and left us again.

"Why couldn't he be Jax's dad?" Tara muttered, she knew we were going to be up against a lot of acting when we did finally see Clay again.

"Why couldn't he be everyones?" I finished for her.

It was a beautiful day once the sun finally came out, I had been driving away from Charming ever since Tara and I had left the restaurant, making one pit stop to leave Happy's cut at TM where I knew Gemma would see it. Before I knew it the clock read 10:00 and I knew that the guys must be home by now, the phone in my cup holder would be blowing up if it was on. Fourteen months and I still wasn't prepared for today, what to say when I finally saw him; would I forget everything that happened and be with him? Ignore him for the rest of my life, when he eventually settled down? Maybe have a family or a few bastard kids with a crow eater? All those questions danced in my head as I drove further away. I used to know exactly who Happy was, but the more I thought I knew it seemed the less I did; I would of never thought he would completely shut me out, I always had a feeling even if I would of called him a month after Harper he would of answered and came back but now I wasn't positive of anything. The gas light went off pulling me out of my trance and I took the next exit with a gas station.

"You've got to be shitting me right?" I said out loud to myself not caring who heard me talk to myself when I stepped out to hear the music playing. I couldn't help but sing along maybe more in self pity than actually enjoyment of the song as I pumped the gas. If it makes you happy was blaring out of the speakers, damn Don.

I didn't need any more direction as I pulled onto the highway again, I knew right where I was going.

Three bikes speed past me when I rounded a corner hours later and I couldn't help but laugh at the blue lights flashing in the distance, they had only been out of jail for few hours and were already up to something, the bikes honked as I passed but I couldn't take my hands off the wheels to wave back , if I let go before I got where I was going I didn't know if I could stay on my path. I parked across from where bikes were lined up beside a sheriffs car, still with the lights flashing and a bunch of guys hand cuffed and sat against wooded posts.

"BOWIE!" I knew Tig's voice the second I heard it, I hadn't spoken to any of them while they were inside, I didn't want to hear anything about them, but now I realized how much I had truly missed all of them, how empty I had been without them.

"Ma'am, get back in your car," one of Roosevelt's deputies tried to warn me as I crossed the road towards the finish line, black eyes met mine and my hand instantly itched to slap it across his face, still feeling the sting of the letter I knew was in my backpack in the trunk.

"BOW!" Chibs and the rest of them started speaking, all but one.

"Bowie," the deputy seemed to know who I was when I pushed past him, it was now or a never a few steps away either I told him 14 months had come down to this moment. "BOWIE MCKENNEY!" the deputy tried again, but I was too late.

I dropped down straddling Hap's lap and hoots and hollers were heard all around us along with the warning from the sheriff.

"What took you so long?" he smirked, the first to speak.

"I've been here all along, waiting for you" I informed him feeling my eyes burn as tears started to build but I slammed our lips together before they got a chance to show themselves. Katie had been right all along, no matter how long he was gone, no matter what happened. I had been waiting on Happy since the first time I saw him, from that very moment I was in 100 percent. Time seemed to stand still and all the cliché shit before a rough pair of arms grabbed me and cold metal wrapped around my wrists.

"Come on," a different deputy cuffed me and sat me beside Juice who was on the end as protests and threats came from the guys but it didn't effect the smile on my face.

"Let them go," we heard coming out of the walkie talkie, "Bring her in," those words echoed through me.

"You heard him," the original deputy spoke, "Cut them loose, bring her downtown,"

"I actually can't, it's my best friends wedding today," I was fucked, Vic was going to kill me.

"Maybe she'll save you a piece of cake,"

"This is complete bull shit," I informed Roosevelt as I sat in his office, "You can't keep me here I did nothing wrong,"

"That is where you are wrong, I can hold you for 24 hours," I don't even think I had been in here for a hour but it seemed like an eternity. Members of the club had been in trying to get me out or at least speak to me, but none of them had made a difference, and none of the ones who left Stockton today had come in, who could really blame them, if I was on probation I wouldn't come in here either.

"I get a phone call," I tried to remember anything from all the cop shows Katie had been making me watch all year.

"You're right you do, which member would you like to call? I'd like to speak with them as well," he held out the phone to me, turning it around so I could dial.

"Hello?" Roosevelt quickly switched it to speaker but grunted as the person on the other line spoke again. "Hello?"

"Wayne? Do you think you could come get me?" I smirked at the dark skinned officer, there was no way in hell I was giving up a sons number.

"I'll be sure she knows the rules from now on," Unser backed out of the sheriff's office before shaking his head at me. "That cost me you know,"

"I'll pay you back how much?" I started following him, noticing he was in a suit for tonight; I didn't even know what time it was, had I missed it?

"Not everything costs in money, come on we are already running late,"

"I'm here!" I yelled as we pulled up to the reservation, "I'm here!" I yelled again as I saw that everyone but Vic was standing at the alter, we had made it just in time. A blond started down the aisle at the same speed that I was running up it and we quickly collided in the middle, and I felt my feet leave the ground.

"I missed you soo much," Jax said into my neck and I drove my head into his shoulder trying to get closer than humanly possible.

"I missed you so much more than that," I assured him and he still kept me in the air as we hugged, every eye was on us. I hadn't felt guilty until that moment for dropping everyone while they were inside, they would of never done that to me. "I'm sorry, I love you,"

"I love you so much more than that," he repeated and finally sat me down grabbing my hand and pulling me up to the front to stand beside Tara who was in the dress that Vic had picked out for us.

"You couldn't find time to change?" Gemma asked from the front row, but she was smiling. I was still in the ripped jeans and crop top long ago I had taken off the jacket in the heat of the police station. "Or a least a whole pair of jeans," they really were destroyed they probably were classified as shorts they were in such bad condition.

"These are my holy jeans," I said back and a murmor of laughs echoed through the aisle, my eyes quickly met his black ones, and for once I didn't look away.

"You just didn't want to wear this damn dress," Tara muttered trying to pull the fabric longer to cover her ass.

"You caught me," I agreed with her.

"Why are the Russians here?" I asked Gemma later that night after the wedding.

"Business Baby," she was watching the table the club was sitting around along with some Russians a little to closely.

"They just got out today," Tara came up behind us sighing at what we were watching.

"I'm drunk," Vic giggled sitting down beside Tara and I later that night. Our table was full of bottles and cans as well.

"Mmhmm," Tara nodded her head tipping back to finish her beer, "Where is Jax?" she scanned the reservation, all of SAMCRO was gone.

"Business Baby," I rolled my eyes mocking Gemma who had left the party hours ago with the kids in tow. I still hadn't spoken to Happy since I was taken in what a romantic reunion we were having..

"I would of killed you," Vic said as I filled her in on my trip downtown. " I was about to march my ass down there and got you," Tara laughed and sat her beer down "I heard about you and Hap," she smiled at me, and Tara agreed that she had heard too. "I knew that was what you were going to do all along,"

"Me too," I told her knowing it was the truth.

"The dynamic duo back together," she somehow found this funny and slapped the table causing half empty cups to spill.

"I think it's cute," Tara added cracking open another can that was sitting on the ground beside her feet as I filled a shot glass for Vic and I. "Besides I bet they fuck like animals!"

"Where is Romeo anyways?" Vic began skimming the crowd, this was definitely more than a wedding, all of the different clans here; Russians, Mayans, Grim Bastards, different charters of the Sons, and of course the CaraCara girls. Since Gemma had left long ago with all the kids the party had become much wilder since the sun sat; the only place that was lit up was the dance floor and the few tables surrounding it. Who knew what was going on in the dark.

"They are up to something," Vic continued.

"You don't say Scooby-Doo?" I laughed at the new bride as we both threw back our shot before setting up some more.

"You girls are wasted!" Jax said as he plopped down at our table, I wasn't sure if it had been minutes or hours; but most of SAMCRO could be seen around the venue now as well.

"Where is Hap?" I asked still not seeing him.

"He had something to take care of," Jax answered not looking me in the eye. I knew what that meant, I had learned long ago that Happy didn't have to take care of something, he had somebody to take care of.

"I have to pee," I said after throwing back three more shots with Jax and stood up on my Bambi feet. Inside the rest room I pulled out my cell calling Hap's last known number, disconnected, of course Juice would of given them all new burners. "Fuck," I muttered looking at myself in the mirror, my cheeks were bright red from the alcohol and my exposed stomach and arms were covered in goosebumps from the cold; also I was pretty sure my flip flops were in a mud puddle somewhere from earlier in the day.

"Hey whore," Ima said coming up to the sink beside me, trying to fix her ratty hair.

"What are you doing here?" I asked the nasty blond who was standing beside me as I washed my hands. I knew she must have been around since they all were but I hadn't seen her yet.

"I thought I was here to get Jax," Ima smiled from beside me.

"You have no chance with him," Jax was utterly and completely in love with Tara.

"I know that, but something interesting happened," her cock sucking smile just grew bigger, "Happy looks good, really good," I felt my jaw lock up like the man in questions usually did. "Jail did nothing but wonders for him, you don't mind do you? I heard he dropped your ass," she got a response from me, but one she didn't expect, one I really didn't either. But the Jack Daniels running through my veins assured me it was the correct answer as I grabbed her stringy extensions and slammed her face into the mirror, shattering it. "What the fuck?" she screamed somehow unscathed. I grabbed her again this time bouncing her face off the sink and the scream that left her body this time did nothing but cheer me on for the next move; but all to quickly plans change as I was lifted off the ground for the second time that day, this time by my other brother.

"Bowie," he tried to calm me as I fought to get down to get her again, she was still crying and screaming in the middle of the bathroom as he lugged me off past the crowd that was now watching her.

"Put me down!" I tried to fight him as he put me over his shoulder, struggling to hit any part of him that I could reach.

"Damn it Bow," I pulled up a knee and slammed it into his collarbone causing him to drop me.

"Call Hap," Opie ordered Jax who was coming over to see what was going on. Tears were welding in my eyes as I opened my mouth to tell Opie it really hurt when he dropped me but something else completely came out of my mouth, and all over his shoes.

"Sorry," I muttered wiping my mouth on the back of my hand before puking all over again; gravity got the best of me as I laid down on the ground watching through though Opie's legs as Happy began putting a pile of bodies into the back of one of Unser's trucks, I recognized two faces as the world started slipping into darkness.

Putlova and Mike.

AN: Yeah, I know... it has been over a year, literally. But this story has been stuck in my mind since and of course I'm back watching the series on Netflix again! I am really interested in making this work again! So let me know what you think

My first order of business was getting Happy and Bowie back together! Are you glad? Upset?

The next chapter should be up in the next few days.

Bailey