Hope you enjoy! Please read and review! Lightening and realization… Two sides of the same coin. Lightening is a bolt of thunder… like when you eat ice cream for the first time. Or have sex for the first time. Well… more like sex. Realization is more like a snail. It digs a hole under your feet and you don't get it till you're falling. Slow and painfully. Slow and painfully
Derek is still asleep in his bed. Morgan is on her knees on a chair, she is looking out. A grimace of surprise appears on her face and she jumps down the chair and runs to the bed. She takes her pillow and starts hitting Derek.
Morgan: uncle! Wake up!
Derek: what? Whats going on? (he talks sleepily, his eyes still closed)
Morgan: wake up! (she hits him once more and he finally opens his eyes)
Derek: what? Don't you feel good? (she takes his hand and pulls him out of bed. He strokes his eyes following her to the window)
Morgan: look! (she points to the porch where three chipmunks are running and playing. A smile appears on Derek's face)
Derek: you see? I told you there were a lot. Just have breakfast now and we'll go to feed them later (he goes near the fridge and takes a plate out. He sets plates and glasses on the table and the little girl goes sitting. She takes her fork)
Morgan: pancakes?
Derek: sure (he sits down with a bowl of milk and cereals. He pours her a glass of orange juice). That's the best way to start a new day (Morgan is eating huge bites of pancakes. Derek looks at her, he swallows and looks down to his bowl)
Morgan: are you ok? Does your tummy ache again?
Derek: no, I'm fine. Can I ask you something?
Morgan: sure…
Derek: why do you think I was mad at you? (Morgan keeps silent and puts her fork down). Sweetie?
Morgan: weren't you? (she looks up and Derek notices her eyes are lucid. He stands up and kneels besides her chair)
Derek: I have never been mad at you.
Morgan: so why did you just leave? (Derek swallows once more noticing the sadness in her eyes)
Derek: I was mad at Auntie Addison, not at you. We had a fight and… uncle Richard called me and… I decided to move here…
Morgan: so it was not because of me?
Derek: honey… I love you (he hugs her) and I've missed you so much…
Morgan: I love you too… (Derek lets her go)
Derek: eat your pancakes… Our little friends are waiting for us outside (Morgan resumes her breakfast, Derek puts his bowl in the sink, he wipes some tear away)
Mark arrives at the nurses station, already in his scrubs. He meets Callie there.
Mark: morning (he massages his neck and Callie eyes him suspiciously)
Callie: morning… Little Grey had you sleep on the couch? (she keeps writing her chart. Mark leans on the counter with an elbow, his mouth close to her ear, a smirk on his face)
Mark: she had me… many times…. Not sleeping at all (Callie turns to him, she sees his smug expression)
Callie: so did you finally get laid?
Mark: told you she couldn't resist that much to me…
Callie: remind me to thank her (she looks up to him). You'll stop being an ass, won't you?
Mark: I wasn't
Callie: you so were. A frustrated, moaning, complaining pain in the ass.
Mark: thank you for supporting me (she starts walking down the corridor and he follows her). How did it do?
Callie: what?
Mark: your romantic dinner… (she stops abruptly and Mark nearly bumps into her)
Callie: I have a case now (a frown appears on his face to see her nervous face). I'll tell you later, ok?
Mark: when you want (she gives him a small smile and leaves)
All the residents are in the locker room changing. Meredith is tying her shoes, her stethoscope around her neck. Cristina is sitting near her on the bench, yawning and stretching. Meredith eyes her.
Meredith: dirty night?
Cristina: I wish … Owen went to Mummy…
Meredith: why don't you go too?
Cristina: sure… She already hates me… A shouting orgasm wouldn't make me go on top of the ranking…
Alex: why not? It's not that you'd be shouting by yourself… (Cristina looks at Meredith who is laughing). Every mum wants her son to be happy…
Cristina: to be happy… not to be screwed…
Meredith: this kind of screwing would make him happy…
Cristina: like you'd make Derek with She Sheperd in the next room
Meredith: I would make him everywhere… (Meredith lets out a breath and Cristina looks at her. She swallows realizing she must have touched a nerve).
Cristina: I'm sorry… It was a stupid thing to say
Meredith: don't worry. We are friends. Friends are supposed to talk and laugh about sex. It's just that I miss him.
Alex: he can be ready…
Cristina: I guess Derek is more than ready…
Meredith: I don't know. He used to talk about sex. Being flirty and all that stuff… Now… he doesn't even mention it.
Alex: he was in a hospital, Mer. We know that the two of you are wild at home and in OC rooms. But his room… I guess it would have been too much even for him.
Meredith: I think he has some issue… With himself… with scares and everything…
Cristina: have you talked to him?
Meredith: sure… with all that he's got in his plate now he surely needs his wife complaining about no sex…
Cristina: he needs his wife. And to go back to normalcy. Is there normalcy in your life without sex? (Meredith breaths out)
Alex: don't you dare to say yes… With all that I had to stand in the last years… (he closes his locker room)
Cristina: you shocked little Karev… (Lexie comes into the room, a wide smile on her face)
Lexie: hey (she opens her locker singing. Everyone looks at her)
Alex: you know Mer…
Meredith: what? (her brows are still up)
Alex: it must be genetic. Greys are addicted to sex (he leaves the room and Lexie turns to face them. She notices everyone is looking at her)
Lexie: what?
Meredith: nothing. We are just jealous as we are getting any (she stands up and pats her shoulder). I'm proud of you (they go out and Lexie is alone)
Lexie: I'm proud of myself too…
Owen is coming out from his mum's house. He closes the door behind himself and finds his uncle in front of him.
Owen: I told you not to show up here.
Sean: your mum's not home. I wanted to talk to you.
Owen: we have nothing more to say to each other. Go away (he tries to walk past him but the man takes his arm and stops him). What?
Sean: I'm trying to help you…
Owen: help me?
Sean: it's important, Owen. It will take just two minutes (Owen opens the door and they go into the house. His uncle lingers in the hall looking around). This place didn't change at all.
Owen: you know mum. She likes to keep things like they were (Sean touches an old frame of his brother). What did you want to talk about? (his uncle's eyes search the room and then settles on him).
Sean: you need to call the police
Owen: excuse me? (his uncle sits on a chair and hides his face)
Sean: I owe some money to a money lender.
Owen: what?
Sean: when I was released… I bet…
Owen: why in hell can't you just stay out of troubles?
Sean: I think I just can't. It's written in my DNA.
Owen: how much?
Sean: 50
Owen: for Christ Sake (he rakes a hand through his hair)
Sean: I didn't… I didn't want to come to your mum or to you. But I was scared.
Owen: it is a bit late to be scared.
Sean: I know…
Owen: why don't you call the police yourself?
Sean: I have no evidence. But you can have it…
Owen: how?
Sean: they plan to come here (Owen sits on a chair). They know you are a surgeon and… they think you may have jewels or something… (Owen strokes his eyes)
Owen: so I should prepare them a party…
Sean: yeah
Owen: how could you drag my mother into this again?
Sean: I'm sorry
Owen: stop saying you're sorry! You are just a selfish who can keep his ass off troubles. And put us always in the lines
Sean: I know. But I want to repair this. That's why I'm here.
Cristina and Teddy are outside Evan's room. They are checking the morning labs.
Teddy: Enzymes are still high
Cristina: we should do something…
Teddy: I know… But we have to wait for Dr. Hunt to check on the patient
Richard: doctors (they both turn to him). How is he doing?
Teddy: heart is still in distress. I suggest surgery. But I needed dr. Hunt to give his consent.
Richard: Dr. Hunt took a day off today
Cristina: what? (Richard looks at her but avoid answering)
Richard: I'm going to check on his vitals (he goes in the room with Reed and Teddy. Cristina pulls her cell out and dials a number. The answering machine starts its message and she hangs up. She goes in the room where Richard is reading the chart). Parameters are fine. What do you suspect?
Teddy: a stroke (Richard raises his eyes to her, the chart still open)
Richard: in a 7 years old?
Teddy: I know it's rare but it could be. Yesterday I thought of opening him up and take a look. But since the first surgery was more complicated, I'd try to make a scan first.
Richard: why?
Teddy: Dr. Yang?
Cristina: if we are lucky the scan could reveal the malformation which causes the problems.
Richard: if we're lucky?
Cristina: better than opening him up blindly (Richard is about to speak when Teddy comes in Cristina's help).
Teddy: I think that, what Dr. Yang is trying to say, is that we can have a chance to see the problem. And then making surgery when all is clear. Opening him up without knowing… the procedure would be longer and his little body got already so much stress… (Richard eyes them both)
Richard: ok, proceed. But keep me informed (he handles Teddy the chart and goes away. Teddy leans on a desk and starts writing)
Teddy: so… what about Owen?
Cristina: I have no idea. He told me nothing yesterday evening. And today he's not answering the cell (she tries to call again but all she gets is the answering machine). It's off.
Teddy: he is kind of a bungler… you know him. Maybe he just forgot about something he had to do.
Cristina: yeah… maybe
Teddy: don't worry about him. I'm sure he'll call you (she gives her a small smile). So… are you in?
Cristina: sure Dr. Altman
Alex joins Mark in a patient's room. He lingers at the door noticing the doctor is talking to her patient, a 65 years old. Mark throws a glance at him and keeps writing her chart.
Mark: this is your doctor, Mrs. Walsh
Walsh: weren't you my doctor?
Mark: I am. But Dr. Karev is too. He is my resident. And he'll take care of you today, have you in labs and prepped for surgery.
Walsh: is he good?
Mark: great… you'll like him
Walsh: I still do. But I'm too old for him (she sends Mark a mischievous look that he doesn't see as he's writing).
Mark: you are great, Mrs. Walsh. And after this you'll be even better (he closes the chart and gives her a smile). Now we leave you alone for two minutes, ok?
Walsh: ok. See you later (the two doctors go out and enter a conference room. Mark sits)
Mark: you're late
Alex: sorry. I got stuck in the pit.
Mark: you left me with her alone… (Alex shrugs and crosses his arms in front of his chest) That woman eats men…
Alex: what is she scheduled for? (he sits near Mark)
Mark: lifting to arms and lips. Apparently her date dumped her for a younger woman. She wants to shine up a bit.
Alex: how old is she?
Mark: 69
Alex: I wouldn't have said it… She looks much younger.
Mark: she does. And, what's more important, she feels.
Alex: that's good.
Mark: do you think so?
Alex: I mean… it's good that women take care of themselves even if they are over… their youth. And that they keep being light hearted.
Mark: I agree. But, in our job, there's nothing more dangerous that a mature woman who just can't accept the ruling of time.
Alex: and do you think Mrs. Walsh can't?
Mark: haven't you noticed how she mapped your ass? And how her eyes never left my…. low parts?
Alex: I've kind of noticed she was drooling on you.
Mark: it was not me. She feels younger, she sees herself younger. And she thinks others see her younger too. And it can be true, but not in the way she thinks.
Alex: sorry… I didn't get the meaning of what you were saying.
Mark: I'm saying she thinks… (Mark lifts his eyes and sees the puzzled expression on Alex's face) Never mind. Just make normal labs on her. I have to visit a patient to dismiss him. You find me in room 2657 if you need me. And when you're done with her… (he pats Alex's shoulder and leaves)
Derek and Morgan are on the ferryboat. Morgan is running on the deck.
Derek: Morgan… wait (she stops, the wind moving her hair)
Morgan: I wanna go there (Derek joins her and takes her hand)
Derek: and we are going there. Just wait for me, ok? I don't want to call granny to tell her you fell off the boat (Morgan breaths out)
Morgan: I'm not a kid anymore, Uncle. I know what is dangerous and what is not (she turns around and pulls him towards the railing. Derek picks her up)
Derek: do you like the ferry?
Morgan: yes. Mum never takes me at home. She says it's low and old. She used it when she was a kid and now she prefers the subway.
Derek: it's sad.
Morgan: really sad. And scary.
Derek: I think that too. So… these supporters of yours… Do I have to worry?
Morgan: what are you, jealous?
Derek: no
Morgan: you are jealous!
Derek: maybe, a little… Just protective, ok?
Morgan: ok (she smiles widely)
Derek: so… anyone in particular?
Morgan: John is my favorite.
Derek: and how is he?
Morgan: dark hair, blue eyes. It looks a lot like you.
Derek: I'm flattered.
Morgan: if your baby is a boy, could we get married?
Derek: you'd be a little too old for him…
Morgan: you're older than Auntie Meredith.
Derek: true… we'll see what happens, ok?
Morgan: ok (she kisses him on the cheek and they both look at the close city of Seattle)
Meredith joins Cristina who is leaning against a nurses station sipping a coffee.
Meredith: hey…
Cristina: hi.
Meredith: how is your day going?
Cristina: fine. I'm doing a surgery at 15. 7 years with heart failures. Tough case. You?
Meredith: I'm on Nelson's post ops. Nothing special (they keep silence for some seconds, Meredith's cell beeps and she reads the text on it). Derek's coming for lunch with his niece.
Cristina: it's good if he comes here.
Meredith: I don't know… How is it going with Owen's mum? No more hard photos?
Cristina: no. And I had quite a fight with him yesterday about that. He was disappointed I spoke about the photos.
Meredith: men… they just can't laugh about themselves. I haven't seen him today…
Cristina: it appears he took the day off. Without saying a word.
Meredith: maybe he got the flu…
Cristina: maybe. He hasn't answered the phone so I don't know (Meredith's pager beeps)
Meredith: it's one of my post ops. See you at the cafeteria in 30 minutes?
Cristina: ok…
Mark is sitting at the cafeteria eating a sandwich. Callie arrives setting her tray on the table. She sits breathing out loudly.
Callie: hey… I thought you'd be in an Oc room retrieving the lost time
Mark: I can wait till tonight. And Lexie is in the pit suturing a kid who fell with his bike on a cactus.
Callie: ouch… (she bites her salad)
Mark: so… did the two of you find an agreement?
Callie: kind of… Arizona doesn't want to carry a child. And I don't want to carry one if it's not hers. So I think adoption is the best option (Mark looks at her)
Mark: mmm
Callie: what?
Mark: nothing.
Callie: Mark… talk (she slams the fork on the table and Mark flinches). Sorry..
Mark: how much are you satisfied about this agreement?
Callie: it appears I'm not.
Mark: so why did you stop arguing?
Callie: because I think it's all I can have.
Mark: so if you push Robbins will run away?
Callie: I've got this feeling
Mark: look… I'm not the best counselor… on the contrary. I might be the worst. But you're young. And beautiful.
Callie: would it be different if I was ugly?
Mark: no. Just let me finish, okay?
Callie: sorry…
Mark: you're young. And you can make a baby in the traditional way. I mean… not absolutely traditional but… carry him. What is the difference between adopt a baby who is not yours and carry a baby who is not yours?
Callie: theoretically, nothing.
Mark: theoretically?
Callie: having babies for lesbian couples if sort of taboo, Mark. What if this is just egoism?
Mark: you want to build a family with a person you love…
Callie: who happens to be a woman. A baby would need a mum and a dad.
Mark: it's true. But take a look around. I've grown up alone. The closest thing I had to a mother was Mrs. Sheperd. Derek grew up with a lonely mother. Meredith… her dad left her and her mother was never around. There are ideal families. And there are screwed families. I think a kid needs someone who loves him. You're two women, nobody can deny that. And I can't tell you if what you want is right or wrong. But what I can tell you is that you're two good people. You'd do your best to raise a kid. It's up to your conscience, to your cultural and religious background to understand if that's enough or not.
Callie: I know. It's just that my religious background is kicking my conscience right now.
The residents are sitting at the cafeteria eating. Alex arrives and throws his tray on the table. It's full of cakes and biscuits.
Avery: have you a glycemic cryses?
Alex: patient's crises.
Cristina: so it's true…
Reed: what?
Cristina: he has a 70 years old after his bones (Meredith giggles)
Alex: she's after everything who breaths' bones.
Cristina: what are you, shocked again? (Avery laughs)
Alex: just imagine your grandma hitting on me… Would you be happy? (the others seem to shiver at the image). Yeah… just what I thought… I need this… (he hates a bite of chocolate cake)
Meredith: I told Derek's mum to bring her niece at my place tonight. I'll go to the trailer to talk to Derek.
Alex: not to talk to him (he keeps eating huge bites of cake)
Meredith: whatever… (she raises her eyes and sees Derek approaching with Morgan). Ok.. all of you, shut up now. Derek is coming here with his niece. No sex talking with her niece here.
Cristina: are you afraid she can take example?
Meredith: yeah… I'm already the slutty intern. I don't want to become the child's misleader. So shut up (she stands up to meet Derek, a wide smile on her face) Hey (she kisses him on the lips and then sits down again. Derek sits too with Morgan on his knees. The girl is eating an ice cream)
Derek: good morning
Morgan: hi (the guys look at her smiling)
Cristina: she looks like you
Derek: she's my niece (he kisses her, Meredith clears her throat)
Meredith: so… what did you do this morning?
Morgan: we've fed chipmunks and rabbits and fishes. And then we had a run on the ferry.
Meredith: it sounds funny!
Cristina: it sounds boring to me.
Morgan: it was funny… I have a thing for ferry…
Cristina: it must be Sheperd's trademark
Morgan: why are you so mean with uncle? (Cristina's eyes narrow at the question, the others start to laugh)
Derek: yeah, why? (he sets a chip in his mouth laughing)
Cristina: don't shield behind an innocent, Sheperd. Ferry are old and low
Morgan: it's what mum says
Cristina: you see? Mums are always right
Morgan: are you a mum too? (Alex nearly chokes on his coke)
Cristina: no. But I'm always right anyway (all their pagers beep simultaneously and they stand up to leave)
Reed – Avery – Alex – Cristina: dr. Sheperd (he gives them a nod and stands up setting Morgan on a chair, Meredith stands up too)
Meredith: I have to go.
Derek: I'll call you later
Meredith: no need. I'll come to the trailer tonight (she kisses him and rests her hands on his chest). And Morgan and your mum will go to my place
Derek: naughty plans, doctor Grey? (he gives her a smirk and Meredith smiles)
Meredith: maybe (she kisses him again, licking his lips). Wait and see. Hi Morgan (she leaves running and Derek sits back)
Bailey enters the scrub room and meets the Chief.
Bailey: chief… you paged?
Richard: yes. Altman is going to perform a heart procedure on a child who had a splenectomy yesterday. Can you assist?
Bailey: sure.
Richard: I've already paged Adamson. She'll be here too.
Bailey: ok (she has started to scrub in).
Richard: I have a meeting with the Board. We need to re asset some department (Bailey looks at him bewildered)
Bailey: already? You said you could buy some time…
Richard: I'm not talking about Derek. There… I think I can joke them around. I'm talking about general.
Bailey: what about general?
Richard: Derek was planning this for some time. We had agreed. Since what happened, it's up to me to close the circle.
Bailey: can you just stop using metaphors and crap like this?
Richard: I'm going to propose you as head of general (Bailey's mouth falls open). Since you overcome the peds crisis… the position fits on you.
Bailey: are you going to retire, chief?
Richard: no, I'd say no. But I've never lived a situation like this.
Bailey: what do you mean?
Richard: the person I chose to take my legacy is in the woods… again. And I see nobody now who could follow my path. You will, someday. But you still need to grow. I made my time, Bailey. As chief, I made my time. The only way, the only place where I still can do, give something is beyond this window, it's in there. That's why I want to name you Head of my… our department. This place needs a change, this place needs brand new. I raised my kids to do better than me. You'll do better. You have to do better (Cristina and Teddy enter the room, they both get they are breaking something)
Teddy: I'm sorry… We can wait out if we…
Richard: we're done. Fix that child. I'm gonna try to fix mine (he goes out the room)
Mark joins Alex who is waiting outside Mrs. Walsh's room.
Mark: you paged?
Alex: yes… I think you should see this (he handles him the patient's labs)
Mark: leucocytes and platelets are very low…
Alex: yes. Can she have surgery like this?
Mark: no. The risks of bleeding are too high (he is flipping the pages of the exams).
Alex: is this because of hormones?
Mark: Yes, but not hers, by the way. What she takes to look like a fancy woman. Her body is flowed with crap. And it starts failing (he closes the chart). Let's go in there (they enter the room and find the patient reading a magazine. She drops it smiling when she sees them coming)
Walsh: here are my favorite doctors…
Mark: Mrs. Walsh…
Walsh: you can call me Emily… (Mark sits on the bed smiling)
Mark: Emily…
Walsh: good…. So, are we ready to give me my perfect new lips?
Mark: to tell the truth there is some problem… (her smile fades)
Walsh: what kind of problem?
Mark: dr. Karev…
Alex: your exams showed low levels of leucocytes and platelets.
Walsh: what does this mean?
Alex: that your body is in distress and can not produce the right quantity anymore.
Walsh: so, is it bad?
Mark: not as long as you're fine. But enduring a surgery right now could be dangerous.
Walsh: can't you inject them?
Mark: these are not things you inject without reason.
Walsh: but there's a reason here. I need to have this surgery.
Mark: you don't need surgery, Emily. You want it. It's kind of different.
Walsh: but you agreed…
Mark: I did. And I'd do again. But not if your health can be compromised (woman's face hardens and becomes serious). I know what you're thinking. I'm not the one who wants to cheapen plastic surgery. I do that for a living. But I can't suggest you a not necessary surgery who could kill you.
Walsh: dr. Sloan… you're over worrying here. This can't kill me. I have done many injections till now. Nobody has ever told me about side effects.
Mark: they should have. Using… abusing hormones and botox at your age…
Walsh: my age? That's really rude to say to a woman
Mark: it's really rude but it's the truth. And the truth, in my job, is the only thing which counts. I can't let you have this surgery as it could kill you. The rate of leucocytes in your blood is under any recommended level. You've a great chance to get a mortal infection after the surgery. If you survive the surgery… As, we had a problem, we couldn't stop the bleeding as your blood is platelets less.
Walsh: so that's the point… you're afraid to surgeon me as you could make no mistake?
Mark: I'm the best. But complications happen. And I don't want to kill you if it's not strictly necessary.
Walsh: well… release me as I'm going somewhere else
Mark: Emily…
Walsh: it's Mrs Walsh to you
Mark: Mrs. Walsh… I highly recommend you not to try this surgery. Nowhere. And take this advice… No surgeon should accept to do that. If someone does, just question his reasons. I'm sorry (he stands up and they both leave)
Alex: do you think she'll back off?
Mark: I hope… but I don't think so (he signs a form and handles it to Alex). Let her go
Cristina is on the catwalk looking down in the hall. She notices a woman going into the front door and she recognizes Hunt's mum. She quickly goes down the stairs to meet her.
Cristina: Mrs. Hunt…
Sandra: Cristina! Sorry I'm late …
Cristina: late?
Sandra: for our dinner… (she notices Cristina's puzzled expression). Has Owen said anything to you?
Cristina: no… To tell the truth I haven't talked to him the whole day. He didn't show up at work and never answered my calls. Is he fine?
Sandra: I think so. I met him at home this morning. And he told me to come here to have dinner with the both of you in town (Cristina's face tenses). But I may have misunderstood… (Cristina is silent). I just go home… never mind… (she turns to leave and makes some step to the door)
Cristina: Mrs. Hunt … (she makes some step towards her and the woman turns around) I'm sorry… I'm sorry…. Maybe he just forgot to tell me. It's not important.
Sandra: it is. Are you worried about him?
Cristina: yeah… with your brother in law in town… Owen's always alert
Sandra: I shouldn't have asked his help. I messed up your life.
Cristina: don't say that. Owen cares about you. And I'm happy he cares (silence lingers in the air)
Sandra: so dinner…
Cristina: sure. Where are we supposed to meet him?
Sandra: at Sam's, in half an hour.
Cristina: I go to change then. Do you want to wait in the cafeteria?
Sandra: yes. I love your cappuccino
Derek is walking down the corridor holding his niece's hand. He looks down at her smiling.
Derek: would you like to see something special?
Morgan: more special than chipmunks?
Derek: far more special
Morgan: ok then… (they walked at the end of the corridor and turn left. They stop in front of the nursery and Derek picks her up to let her see through the window. Morgan's face lights up in surprise) They're cute!
Derek: yeah… they are really beautiful
Morgan: why are they so tiny?
Derek: we are all tiny when we are born
Morgan: mum told me I was big.
Derek: you were big amongst the tiny… I remember when I saw you for the first time. You had all this beautiful red hair. You were the cutest baby ever…
Morgan: I'm hungry
Derek: let's go (he carries her to the elevator and they step in when it opens. Derek sees Bailey in and he nods to her)
Bailey: Sheperd…
Derek: hi Bailey.
Bailey: I find you well
Derek: I'm, thanks (she goes back reading her chart and Derek looks at her. He swallows) I'm sorry (Bailey keeps reading) I'm sorry (she looks at him)
Bailey: are you talking to me?
Derek: of course I am. I'm sorry for yesterday morning. I had no reason to talk you off like that (she shrugs, her eyes fall on Morgan)
Bailey: and the beautiful princess is…
Morgan: Morgan… I'm his niece (she stretches her little hand and Bailey shakes it)
Bailey: I'm Miranda. And you're kind. Not like your uncle (Derek giggles)
Morgan: why do you laugh?
Derek: because she's funny.
Bailey: I'm not funny. I'm Bailey.
Morgan: is she your friend?
Derek: kind of.
Morgan: I like her
Bailey: thank you
Morgan: she doesn't look at you like all the others…
Derek: why? How do the others look to me?
Morgan: I don't know how to say it…
Bailey: I can try for you (Derek turns to look at her, a warning look on his face) All the others look at you like you're a candy to eat. Am I right?
Morgan: yes (she giggles)
Derek: I'm going to show you who is a candy right now! (he lowers her head and starts kissing her neck)
Morgan: let go of me! You are tickling me (Bailey laughs. The elevator joins the ground floor and Derek lets go of his niece, he sets her down and they step out of the elevator) Hi Miranda
Bailey: bye Morgan (she raises her eyes to Derek) Sheperd…
Derek: Bailey… (the elevator is going to close but Bailey stops the doors)
Bailey: Sheperd…
Derek: yes?
Bailey: thanks for the Head of General thing (Derek nods and gives her a smile). And you know… it's not that bad you resigned. It would be a pain in the ass to work under you (the doors close)
Teddy enters the elevator finding Arizona and Callie together.
Teddy: hey
Callie: Teddy (Arizona just gives her a smile)
Arizona: good day? I heard you saved a baby…
Teddy: yeah, we did it. And yeah, good day.
Arizona: it's always a good day when you save a kid
Callie: it's a good day when you save a life in general
Arizona: why in general? I mean… do you think it's not good in cardio, neuro or plastics? (Teddy and Callie look at her stunned)
Callie: I meant in general like… in general. It's good to save a life everywhere. In general.
Arizona: oh… sorry. I didn't get it. I heard that Sloan's patient went away cursing him…
Teddy: yeah… she wanted a lifting or something and Mark refused to do the surgery.
Arizona: is it for this?
Callie: yeah… why do you ask?
Arizona: nothing… It just sounded strange that Mark Sloan had refused to touch a woman for ethical reasons (Teddy and Callie look at her again, more stunned than before)
Callie: Mark is a great surgeon. He doesn't say people into Ors just for the taste to do it.
Arizona: if you say so…
Callie: are you mad or something?
Arizona: no
Callie: so why are you bitching?
Arizona: I'm not bitching
Callie: you are
Arizona: I'm…. Teddy… Am I bitching?
Teddy: a little bit.
Arizona: oh come on… I was just making conversation.
Callie: doubting our fellow attending professionalism.
Arizona: and why do you care?
Callie: because he is my fellow attending and my friend.
Arizona: ok (she looks at the elevator ceiling). To be precise he is not your fellow attending.
Callie: he is
Arizona: he's not. You are not an attending (Callie and Teddy turn once again to her. Arizona looks innocently at Callie). Technically there is dr. Branson.
Teddy: who is Dr. Branson?
Callie: an old dinosaur who does not step into this hospital from… the break-up
Teddy: I have ever met him indeed…
Arizona: still the attending though…
Callie: the chief has me do the main surgeries, the paper work. Everything (Teddy notices the furious look Callie is giving Arizona). And by the way… you're an attending just because Dr. Stark stroked dead doing his job (she storms off the elevator leaving Arizona behind. Teddy is silent, she just mutters a hi to Arizona and leaves)
Mark enters Richard's office. He knocks once on the open door.
Mark: did you page me, chief?
Richard: yes, come in (Mark gets closer the desk and sits) Do you know what is this? (he handles him a paper and Mark reeds, his eyebrows go high in surprise
Mark: a liking form?
Richard: yes
Mark: I didn't know we had one. What do you want me to do?
Richard: nothing. Just tell me why a patient of yours, Mrs. Walsh, just filled a two pages form full of complains (Mark raises his eyes)
Mark: that woman will be the death of me (he strokes his yes tiredly)
Richard: I'm going to ask you something and I'll ask you only once
Mark: shoot it
Richard: did you hit on her?
Mark: excuse me?
Richard: I'm just embarrassed to have asked you once. Don't have me repeat it please.
Mark: what are you, kidding? (Richard keeps silent) You're not?
Richard: no
Mark: that woman is 69, she could be my mom, my very old mum. My girlfriend could be her grand niece. Seriously, chief. I could be a whore some time ago. But I've never been that whore.
Richard: why does she hate you so much then?
Mark: because I released her without doing the surgery.
Richard: what kind of surgery?
Mark: a lifting to arms and lips
Richard: and why did you do that?
Mark: because she had a severe failure to her immune system. She could die because of post op and surgical complications. Why? Is she suing me?
Richard: no… I was just curious…
Mark: I'm sorry?
Richard: I was reading some random form and I picked hers up (he waves the form, a small smile curls his lips)
Mark: what? (Richard seems to fall back to reality)
Richard: what?
Mark: nothing. You looked thoughtful.
Richard: it was just… a thought
Mark: ok… can I go now?
Richard: sure (he stands up). Have you seen Derek today?
Mark: no. But I heard nurses gossip about his beautiful niece. So I assumed he came here. Did you meet him?
Richard: no. I'm going to leave him some space. And wait for the right time.
Mark: if it ever comes… Night, chief.
Richard: dr. Sloan…
Cristina and Sandra enters the restaurant.
Sandra: it looks nice.
Cristina: it is. And steak is fabulous. Excuse me? (she stops a waiter) We have a reservation.
Waiter: what name?
Cristina: Hunt (he checks on a list and gives them a smile). This way… (he leads them toward a corner of the dining room. Cristina is going to seat when she realizes the table has just two blanketed spots, she turns towards the guy but he has left. Sandra seems to get her feeling)
Sandra: Owen is going to be here soon. We'll add a plate for him (she sits and Cristina does too. She looks around the room and gives a small smile to Sandra)
Lightening and realization.
And then the third one.
Understanding…
We face doubts and taboos.
Meredith enter Derek's trailer. He is leaning against the sink washing vegetables. He turns to the door and they share a smile
Derek: hey (he dries his hands with a towel. Meredith comes closer and kisses him)
Meredith: it's good to be here. It was a long time
Derek: too long time (he kisses her)
Meredith: naughty thoughts, dr. Sheperd? (their lips are two inches closed, Meredith notices the smirk on Derek's face)
Derek: maybe (he strokes her cheek). But you wanted to talk…
Meredith: it's not important (Derek kisses her neck)
Derek: it was… (he stops kissing her to look into her eyes)
Meredith: I'm ashamed…
Derek: why? (his expression changes into concern)
Meredith: because I missed you.
Derek: Meredith… (her name rolls out of his tongue with a sweetness that makes Meredith shivering)
Meredith: for so much time I couldn't touch you and kiss you and love you. I know I'm pathetic… (Derek kisses her)
Derek: you're not. So you're missing making love…
Meredith: a bit
Derek: on a scale from 1 to 10?
Meredith: 11
Derek: so my vegetables and romantic dinner…
Meredith: maybe can wait…
Derek: they can (Meredith pushes him on the bed and they lay side by side kissing each other). What about Mc Peanut… won't we hurt him?
Meredith: no… he'll be just fine. And he has to get used to intruders…
Derek: intruder…
Meredith: intruder… many intrusions
And get they were taboos just in our mind.
As what we want, is what our loved want.
But sometimes, besides love and affection, competition can raise its ugly side.
Callie enters the apartment slamming the door behind her, she nearly bumps it on Arizona's face.
Arizona: you're acting irrationally, do you know that? (Callie hides her eyes and turns around)
Callie: irrational? Do you have an idea of what you did in there?
Arizona: it looks like I don't. Tell me.
Callie: you misspoke of a fellow surgeon. Who appears to be my best friend.
Arizona: best friend? Mark's your best friend? I thought I was.
Callie: don't change topic!
Arizona: fine. So I hurt your dear best friend Markie. Then?
Callie: then you humiliated me. You made me feel like crap! I had never felt this way before, not even when Webber told me Bronson was going to stay.
Arizona: you felt so good you changed hospital (Callie's eyes narrow in surprise)
Callie: I'm not doing this.
Arizona: what?
Callie: going on with this conversation. As I know I'd say something which I might be regret for the rest of my life. So I go to bed. Good night (she turns and goes towards the bedroom)
Arizona: and where I'm supposed to go to sleep?
Callie: there's a room for the attendings on the 3d floor. Since I'm not an attending and you are, go there (she shuts the door and Arizona breaths out sitting on the couch)
And it's too late to repair the damage you've done
Realization… (Arizona starts crying on the couch), acceptance…
We know we should deal with them.
But deep inside, we still keep room for hope.
That people can change.
That there's always a reason for what happens.
Cristina and Sandra are walking down the sidewalk to the house.
Sandra: I think Owen played this joke to let me know you.
Cristina: he didn't need to do that. I mean… I'm not always that friendly person but… I'd accepted to go out with you (Sandra smiles)
Sandra: you're not rude or anything. You're just private… Like Owen. Despite me and my photos (Cristina giggles, they turn the corner and stop suddenly noticing the police cars in front of the house), What the hell… (they both hurry to the front door where an officer tries to stop them)
Officer: you can't go in, madams
Sandra: that's my house. And my son should be in there.
Officer: Owen Hunt's your son?
Sandra: he is. Why do you ask? What happened here?
Cristina: oh my God… did something happen to him? (she pushes the man aside and steps in. Her eyes wander on the room, there are objects on the floor everywhere. She then spots Owen sitting on a chair, his head in his hands). Owen… (she gets closer)
Sandra: son… (he raises his face and Cristina's eyes narrow in horror to see a deep cut on his eyebrow)
Cristina: what happened? (she kneels in front of him)
Owen: nothing, I'm good.
Cristina: I'd believe you if you hadn't hole on your face (two other officers come out from the dining room pushing a man whose hands are closed in handcuffs. Cristina looks at him and then at Owen)
Sandra: Sean…
Sean: he'll explain you everything (he goes out)
Cristina: is that your uncle?
Owen: yes
Cristina: seriously… what happened here?
Owen: we had the guy who was blackmailing him arrested (he touches his forehead and his fingertips come back dirty of blood. He raises his eyes to meet Cristina's)
Cristina: so that's what all this was about? The day off, the dinner and everything.
Sandra: Owen
Owen: I just wanted to be sure you both were out of here
Cristina: you can be sure (she stands up and goes away)
Believing we've solved a problem can be the door to a bigger one.
People do not change.
Despite how much they try.
Despite how much we want to believe it.
(Bailey is in an empty Or performing a test)
You can focus on changing your perspectives but, finally, it's like fighting against the force of gravity.
You want north and find south.
Hence… realization…
Derek is trailing hot kisses on Meredith's neck. She is wearing only her bra.
Meredith: Der….
Derek: mmm (he is trickling her earlobe)
Meredith: can you just (he bites her ear) stop doing that? (she giggles)
Derek: why?
Meredith: because you're driving me crazy. I'm here naked. On your bed. How is it that you're still fully clothed?
Derek: as you're lazy… And it's up to me to make everything (he lowers his head on her chest and Meredith closes her eyes. She suddenly rolls on her back shifting position with Derek who is now looking her from down. He takes her face in his hands and kisses her)
Meredith: I know you're for the kissing
Derek: all for kissing
Meredith: but I want you now (she pushes his hands down on the pillow and kisses his jaw)
Derek: take me for a ride, Meredith (she kisses him once again, a mischievous grin on her face)
Meredith: let's get rid of these clothes (she slides backwards teasing Derek's body. She stops when she is sitting on his lap and looks down at him. His face seems to have tensed but she bites her lower lip in an anticipating pleasure. She takes the hem of his t-shirt and raises it a bit. The smirk on her face fades immediately realizing that Derek's arousal has disappeared in seconds, he is looking at her with wide, frightened eyes. He is kicking on the bed like he wanted to scoot away from under her, his breath is labored and hollow) Derek…
Derek: get off
Meredith: what… (he hides his face in both hands and Meredith sits on the bed leaving him free. He stands up from the bed and go leaning against the wall, his face buried against it, his hands to support him. He is breathing heavily and Meredith stands up. She realizes his arms are shaking. She stretches her hand to touch his shoulder blade but Derek jumps behind to avoid her touch)
Derek: Meredith…. don't… (he gestures her to stay apart. Her heart aches to notice the pain and fear in his eyes. His chest is raising and falling quickly. Meredith sits on the bed waiting for this panic attack to pass)
Realization hits you with the power of a train and leaves you breathless.
And you just start wondering how your eyes could be watching without seeing…
Owen enters Cristina's apartment. She is on the couch drinking some wine. He stops in front of her.
Cristina: are you done signing autographs?
Owen: excuse me? (she stands up and goes putting the glass in the sink, her cell is ringing but she doesn't take it) Cristina…
Cristina: how could you do that?
Owen: he asked me…
Cristina: so he gets to ask now? After everything he put you through? He gets to ask and you do?
Owen: it was the only way
Cristina: it was not. You could call police and let them do the job. Are you in some kind of permanent highness?
Owen: what…
Cristina: since you decided to stay here you've been behaving like a suicidal. First the car blown away, then this. Are you trying to hurt yourself?
Owen: I'm not. You know I'm not. Look… I get you're mad. I lied to you. But I just wanted you to be safe while I did this (Cristina crosses her arms in front of her chest). It was the only way. I know you don't get it, but it was. My uncle wanted to help us.
Cristina: please…
Owen: he wanted to help us. He came to me this morning and I couldn't turn my back to him. As if I had, I'd have damaged my mum. It was the only way to get rid of him and the trail of his problems. I'm sorry if I worried you (he gets closer, Cristina's cell keeps ringing). I love you, you know that…
Cristina: you had to tell me
Owen: would you have let me do this? Would you have been at the hospital working calmly? No… you'd have been scared. And I wanted to spare you this (her cell rings again and Cristina takes it)
Cristina: what the hell, Meredith! What… (she stops talking and starts walking through the room) What? Where are you? Wait there, I come (she closes the phone and takes her coat) It's Meredith, I need to go (she goes out and Owen follows her to Mark's)
It breaks the cottoned silence you were living in…
Lexie and Mark are in bed together. Lexie's head is on Mark's naked chest.
Lexie: and how was she?
Mark: who?
Lexie: the woman who were crying out against you when she left the hospital.
Mark: she was… sad
Lexie: sad?
Mark: yeah. She couldn't accept getting old, she pretended to be young and attractive.
Lexie: you call this sad?
Mark: I do. As she is probably a lonely woman who can't find any satisfaction than appearing. She has nobody to stop her when she's acting silly and that can be bad. Her body can look good outside but inside has been long abused
Lexie: I didn't know this side of you…
Mark: I thought you knew every side of me by now
Lexie: maybe (she raises on her elbows to kiss him). Maybe there is one left…
Mark: let's go find it then (he rolls on her and they start kissing. They are interrupted by someone knocking loudly to their door. Lexie stops and looks to the door. Mark keeps kissing her neck)
Mark: let it. They'll go away (he kisses her but the knocking does not stop and Lexie pushes him away) Damn it (He stands up and puts a towel around his hips, he goes towards the door while the knocking is still going on) I'm coming (he opens the door and Cristina enters without waiting and without making comments on his outfit. Owen is outside too) Please come in (he mutters in an ironic mode)
Cristina: get dressed
Mark: what? Why?
Cristina: Meredith called me. She was at the trailer with Derek and something happened. She was scared and told me he wants to go to the hospital
Mark: what?
Cristina: look, I don't know. Just get dressed. I need to take care of her and you take care of him, ok?
Mark: I come (he goes into his bedroom)
It breaks curtains and reveals what we fear the most: truth, facts, the ghosts in our closet
(Mark takes Derek to his car while Cristina is hugging Meredith)
Just when you started to feel safe
(Derek knocks to Dr. Wyatt's door, he goes in)
Dr. Wyatt: Dr. Sheperd (he closes the door and wipes some tear away. He feels Dr. Wyatt's look on him but she doesn't speak, he keeps stroking his eyes)
Derek: I'm sorry… (his voice is broken)
Dr. Wyatt: no way (she pours him a glass of water and sets it on the table near the couch. She goes back to her desk to leave him space. He lingers at the door some more time and then goes sinking onto the couch. He drinks the water and sets the glass down, he rakes a hand through his hair and breaths out loudly several times). Do you often have panic attacks like this? (Derek feels her weight on the couch too, looking down his knees he sees her sitting beside him. He shakes his head)
Derek: it's the first (he nearly chokes on the last word)
Dr. Wyatt: breathe… just breathe (she looks at him for several minutes without saying anything)
Derek: would you still be my therapist?
Dr. Wyatt: why shouldn't I?
Derek: I thought you just treated staff…
Dr. Wyatt: I do indeed.
Derek: I'm not staff anymore
Dr. Wyatt: well… I think I can do an exception for you… And if you don't come back here, I'll finally mail you my bill
Derek: I think I can live with that… (his elbow is propped on his knees and he strokes his eyes. Dr. Wyatt stands up and comes back to her desk)
Dr. Wyatt: when do you want to restart?
Derek: I'm quite free by now…
Dr. Wyatt: ok… (she looks at her planner). Let's say tomorrow at 14?
Derek: ok
And no matter how much ghosts are scary
(Owen and Alex are in Meredith's kitchen. Alex is eating cereals reading a magazine. Cristina comes back into the room and sits on one of the stools)
Owen: how is she?
Cristina: I don't know. She kicked me out and won't stop crying…
Alex: what happened? Sheperd couldn't get it up? (Owen sends him an incredulous look)
Owen: do you think this is about…
Alex: I don't know. I just know Mer went there for that.
Cristina: it must be something sex related anyway. She said they were kissing and sexed up and then Derek froze… and started acting like an haunted animal…
Owen: I think the best thing she can do is hear him out. He looked much worse than her in that trailer.
Alex: is he still there?
Cristina: he asked Sloan to take him to SG
Alex: wasn't he feeling good?
Cristina: I don't know (she leans her face to Owen's shoulder. He looks at her and clears his throat)
Owen: has Meredith said anything particular to you?
Cristina: what do you mean by particular?
Owen: what she did before he panicked or… anything
Cristina: no. Just muttered something about getting on top of him and trying to pull his shirt off. And It's not like I want to know any more detail. Why?
Owen: I think she… (he trails off shaking his head)
Cristina: what?
Owen: he could have had a flash back of what happened
Cristina: while having sex with Meredith? I think it's a strange association.
Owen: I think it's not strange (he stands up and goes towards the stairs. Cristina follows him)
Cristina: where are you going?
Owen: to tell her (he joins Mer's door but Cristina pulls his arm to stop him)
Cristina: what are you doing?
Owen: explaining her what happened
Cristina: I don't think it's the right move
Owen: it is. It's painful but it's right. I was there. And I get it. Derek has panicked because something Meredith did brought his brain back into that elevator. She needs to know not to do it again.
Cristina: don't you think it's not up to you to do it?
Owen: who then? I'm one of the few people who really knows what happened in there (he swallows and opens the door. In the darkness of the room he can see Meredith lying in the bed on one side. He nods to Cristina who turns on the light in the hall). Meredith?
Meredith: I'm fine. I just want to be alone.
Owen: you are not fine (he goes sitting on the bed. Her back is facing him. Cristina is on the door). You are probably wondering what happened to Derek. You're not fine.
Meredith: you are right. Because one second he was talking about our baby and flirting and be the sex god he has always been. The second after he looked like he hated me.
Owen: it's not about you.
Meredith: how do you know? You weren't there. You didn't see that look on his face…
Owen: true (he looks to Cristina and she nods) I think that, somehow, for some reason, he remembered Gary Clark (Meredith turns to look at him)
Meredith: excuse me?
Owen: it takes nothing Meredith. A smell, a movement, a noise. And his brain went there (Meredith keeps silent. Owen breaths out and rolls her on her back. Before she can say anything he kneels astride her)
Meredith: Seriously? In front of her? I don't like threesome. Even if Derek didn't finish me off I'm not going to screw you in our bed! Get the hell off!
Cristina: Owen… what are you doing?
Owen: I'm trying to find the best way to show her she did something he did.
Meredith: "I did something he did". What is this, a tongue - twister?
Owen: no. Were you like this?
Meredith: what…
Cristina: Mer (she gets closer the bed). Tell him… trust me (Meredith searches Cristina's eyes and then looks at Owen)
Meredith: yes.
Owen: and then?
Meredith: I pulled his shirt on (Owen takes the hem of her shirt and discovers her navel)
Owen: like this? (Meredith nods and Owen breaths out). You did what he did.
Meredith: Derek told you? (Owen goes off the bed and starts walking to the door)
Owen: no. I saw it (he closes the door behind him)
When facts jump out of your closet…
When realization finds its way out of the ground
It is much more scary.