Disclaimer: The usual. Oh and obviously I don't own any thing in this except for Emily's past boyfriends and the kids bhahhaha
Soo you may tear up a bit...or a lot in this chapter. It's sad but heartfelt. Blah I'm so tired so if I missed any correction in tonight's chapters, I do apologize. Enjoy my wonderful readers :D
Chapter 25 – To Make You Feel My Love
"I'm sorry Emily. It will be all right. I promise." Emily cried into Jayden's shoulder. She was devastated. Her mom called earlier in the day to let Emily know that her sister had passed. Emily felt like her world fell down.
"Mommy what's wrong?" Hannah and Danny were now three years old. Jayden was almost twenty four and Emily was now twenty two. Emily wiped the tears from her face. And Jayden let go of her.
"Nothing Hannah."
"But you're crwying."
"Don't worry about me sweetie. How was your nap?"
"Boring. Danny is still sleeping."
"I'm sorry sweetie. Do you want me to wake him up?"
"No, I want to spend time with you and daddy."
"Okay sweetie. Mommy will be right back." Emily got up and walked to the kitchen. She took a tissue and wiped away the tears from her face and grabbed a sippy-cup full of apple juice for Hannah. She took a few calming breathes and tried to stay calm for her daughter. "Here you go honey." Emily handed her daughter the pink sippy-cup. She smiled and grabbed it. While Hannah was drinking her juice, Emily heard a faint cry. "I think Danny woke up."
"I'll got get him." Jayden got up and left Emily and Hannah alone.
"Hi Hannah." Emily smiled at her daughter. Hannah waved and smiled while she drank her juice. "Whose the cutest daughter in the whole wide world?" Hannah pointed to herself. "That's right sweetheart! Look!" Emily pointed up to Jayden who was carrying Danny. "It's your brother." Hannah got up and ran to Jayden.
"Somebody thought it would be a good idea to get out of his crib by himself."
"Did he fall?" Emily got up and took Danny from Jayden's arms. "Are you okay sweetheart."
"My head hurts."
"I'm sorry sweetie but don't climb out of your crib again, okay?" Danny nodded. His eyes were still a little red from crying. Emily moved his hair out of his face and looked at his forward. "At least he didn't get hurt too badly."
"Yep, it could have been worse."
Later that night when Emily and Jayden put the twins to sleep, Emily began to cry again. "Emily what's wrong?"
"I just miss her. I wish I could have been there to say goodbye."
"Your sister knows that you love her. It's my fault that you don't see more of her. Don't blame yourself." Emily shook her head.
"No don't blame yourself. I should have realized this sooner. How could I be so stupid?"
"Emily you could never be stupid."
"My mom sounded so annoyed with me."
"I think she was still getting over the events of the morning."
"You should have heard her voice. She sounded so disappointed in me for not coming to visit when they asked me to last month."
"You were supposed to visit her last month?" Emily nodded.
"There was so much going on that I felt it would obstruct what was going on."
"Emily that's not the real reason. You know I would have let you gone in a heartbeat. She's your older sister."
"I still miss her. How can she be gone Jayden?"
"I don't know. Life acts in mysterious ways."
"Why did he take her now? I need her back."
"Emily, it will be okay."
"No, Serena's gone. She can't be gone! She was too young!"
"No one said that it was her time to die."
"You aren't helping Jayden."
"I'm sorry. What do you want me to do?"
"Bring Serena back."
"I can't do that."
"I know." Emily leaned into Jayden's shoulder. She fell asleep crying in Jayden's arms. He carried her to their room and placed her on the bed carefully. He pulled the covers over her and then he laid next to her and tried to fall asleep. He end up staying up for a couple of hours just watching her sleep.
Emily woke up and found herself in Jayden's arms. She noticed that both of them were still in the same clothes they wore yesterday. It was still too early for the twins to get up so she went and took a shower. When she was ready for the day Jayden was beginning to stir. She was going to say something when she heard Hannah's footsteps.
"Hannah, how did you get out of your crib?"
"I don't know! I just good climber!" Emily laughed and picked up her daughter. "Mommy I hungry."
"What do you want sweetheart."
"Cookies!"
"What about apples and peanut butter?"
"That yummy too." Emily put Hannah in her seat and began cutting her an apple. Emily heard a thump and gave Hannah her breakfast before running into the twin's room. She found Danny on the ground crying again.
"Honey you have to stop trying to get out of your crib yourself."
"But Hannah can."
"Sweetie, please don't get hurt. Mommy is very sad this week and she doesn't want to be any sadder."
"Alright I promise not to do it anymore."
"Pinky promise?"
"Yes." Emily held out her pinky and Danny wrapped his pinky around it. She kissed his hand and picked him up.
"Do you want breakfast?"
"I want cookies."
"That's what your sister said."
"Well she is my twin."
"That's true. Danny how does apple and peanut butter sound."
"Yummy." Emily put Danny down in a seat next to Hannah and began his breakfast. Jayden came in after Hannah and Danny were all done eating.
"Did I sleep in again?"
"Yeah, what was it this time?"
"The usual."
"Me? What did I do this time?"
"I don't know. I just couldn't fall asleep. You had me worried with all your crying yesterday."
"Well it may happen again today."
"You're allowed to cry. Has your mom sent any news about the funeral."
"Yeah. It's on Friday. I'll go solo if you want me too."
"No, I want to be there for you. Should we leave the twins with Ji?"
"Yeah. I would let Mia and Kevin watch them but they already have enough on their hands with Tyler." Mia and Kevin got married a year after Emily and Jayden and now had a son named Tyler.
"He's a little rascal isn't he?"
"I don't think anyone can be as crazy as Danny. He decided to try and get out of his bed by himself again."
"That kids got perseverance."
"We pinky-promised that he wouldn't do it again. Right Danny?"
"Right mommy!" Emily took a slice of apple from the cutting board.
"Do you want me to make you anything?"
"No, you take it easy today."
"Jayden, I'm perfectly capable—"
"I got it today Emily." Emily didn't want to argue so she listened to Jayden and went into the living room to watch the news. She gasped when she saw Tim's face. He was arrested again for attempted robbery. She felt relieved that when she returned home, she wouldn't have to worry about him. She saw Jayden leave the room with Hannah and Danny. An hour later he was back and Danny was jumping around.
"Mommy! Look what I can do!" Danny attempted his own kick-punch combo.
"Don't tell me you are already teaching him."
"No he picked that up on his own."
"Born to fight."
"Born to win." Emily didn't cry today but she did feel very sad about her sister. She couldn't believe her sister was gone. She couldn't believe she didn't get a chance to say goodbye.
That night Emily felt the rush of emotions hit her again. "Emily do you feel that?" Jayden tried a different approach with Emily this time. Emily nodded feeling Jayden's heart beat slowly increase. "That's how you make me feel. That's what I feel like whenever I'm with you. That's how I love you."
"I don't understand."
"Emily, I love you a lot. Serena loves you a lot. Don't ever forget that. You haven't lost her forever. She will always be there with you."
Friday came and went. Emily kept the memory of placing the yellow rose on Serena's coffin her memory forever. She remembered crying into Jayden's shoulder again and not sleeping the night after. She remembered saying goodbye to Serena but not in the way that she hoped she would be. She remembered finding some closure but she also remembered keeping Serena alive in heart.
So the last dialog about the whole heartbeat thing was supposed to be a lot more pulled together...last chapters I was like half - asleep or in the moment so much that I didn't realize things I were saying were random or didn't make any sense lol