Being sad, being comforting

Sebastian stared at the empty Whiskey bottle in front of him, he had emptied the contents an hour ago yet his gaze remained fixated on it. Only the thoughts from the previous day remained with him and remained the reason why he had drunk himself into a stupor..

"Detective! You stop! I'm serious!"

Sebastian just continued his trek across the parking lot, he pulled out his keys and pressed the unlock button on his key ring. "I don't fucking want to hear it, so shut up!"

"But Sebastian...Myra, she's still missing...don't you care? I mean...after Li-"

"Shut the fuck up I don't ever want you to mention that name again, you hear me, Oda!?"

Sebastian got into his car and sped off, he was probably just going to head straight to his apartment, read the letter from Myra he told nobody about get angry, wrack what was left of his place again then go to sleep with a bottle of Whiskey like he had been doing since the night of the fire...

He slammed the front door closed and threw his trench coat onto the coat rack, but it missed and landed in a crumpled heap on the floor.

"Fuck it..."

grumbling he plopped down on the couch and stared at the letter hidden beneath the lamp on his end table. he could feel the blood in his body start to boil. He went to reach for the letter with the intent of ripping it to shreds but a loud ringing came from his coat on the floor.

"Ugh...Joseph, just let it go!" he growled standing up to retrieve the annoying cellphone from his coat pocket.

He looked at the name on the screen and his heart nearly burst from his chest...

"Myra...?" he quickly answered it, but his ears were only met by a dial tone.

Sebastian woke up in a cold sweat, he had passed out on the couch, his only companion was a bottle of Whiskey and a burnt out cigarette resting in the groove of his ashtray.

"Fucking Nightmares will never end.."

He put his hand over his face and let out a soft groan as he rubbed his face, slowly he put his legs over the side of the couch and sat himself up. He rested his face in his hands and just took some deep breaths, something Joseph always tried to get him to do.

Knock, Knock, Knock.

"Ugh...Who is it?

"It's me, Joseph...can I come in Sebastian?"

Sebastian got to his feet and quickly staggered over to the door, he tried to compose himself as best he could but there was no fooling Joseph. Gripping the door handle he twisted it and pulled it just enough before the deadbolt chain forced it to stop. He saw Joseph's judgmental gaze staring at him through the small opening.

"What is it Oda...?"

"Would you please stop calling me that, it's Joseph, Not Oda.."

"Fine, Joseph, what do you want?"

"I want you to let me in..."

"And why should I?"

Joseph pressed his thumb and forefinger to the bridge of his nose forcing his glasses to lift up slightly.

"Just open the damn door, I'm tired of playing these games with you."

Sebastian seemed a bit wounded by his words but knew that his partner did mean well... he closed the door, dislodged the deadbolt chain and opened the door for his partner.

"Thank you"

They'd been staring at each other in silence for about 10 minutes before Joseph decided to break the silence.

"Why do you not want to let me in?" Sebastian raised an eyebrow looking over at the front door, "I did let you in.."

"That's not what I mean, I'm talking about emotionally...I know you need to talk but you're being a real ass about it."

Sebastian crossed his arms across his chest and glared at Joseph "Well excuse me for being this way, but I can't help it, the shit has kinda hit the fan in my life as of late, Jesus Joseph, how do you expect me to react?!"

"Well yelling at me won't solve anything, and you getting pissed off over everything doesn't help either! Just talk to me that's all I ask!" Joseph leaned forward placing his hand over his chest, tears nearly welling in his eyes. "I care about you! I know that you have a lot of pain in your heart right now, and I just want you to know that I am here for you.."

Sebastian uncrossed his arms and stared intently at Joseph, his face showing so much sympathy, concern, and pity. He was getting angry at his partner for trying to pry into his personal life.

"Joseph just lea-" Joseph had wrapped his arms around Sebastian, he tried to fight it at first but feeling how tight Joseph was making his hold told him he was not gonna let him go anytime soon. "Jo-"

"Sebastian, it's ok to let people in sometimes, it does not make you a weak person, it makes you stronger...please allow me to help you!"

Sebastian could feel himself crumbling inside, Joseph's words were hitting him right in the pain in his heart. His arms reached up around his partner and embraced him back, and in turn his could feel himself tearing up. "Oh god, I miss her so much, my little angel...and and Myra...why'd she leave me?"

Joseph patted Sebastian's head and comforted his weeping partner, "Shhh it's ok, just let it out, you'll feel much better trust me..."