Better Than Me (Hakoda's POV) By Hinder
I think you can do
much better than me,
After all the lies that I made you believe…
I cried.
Never had I
thought I would cry again since the death of my beloved. But now,
standing behind a tall, mahogany podium, clad in black and covered in
tears, I have proven myself wrong. My black suit had the remnants of
teardrops along the tie and the collar, and I knew that by now my
eyes must have been as puffy as Sokka's face after eating too many
fire flakes. I forced myself to focus on the matter at hand and I
gazed upon the cold, dead body of my little Snow Bear.
"At this time," I
cleared my throat with difficulty, "I would like to render the
floor to anyone who wishes to share their fondest memories of my
daughter, Katara."
This was, of course, just a formality. I knew
that Sokka would be the one to come up here, and he would talk of his
childhood days with his sister. I would laugh weakly when he retold
the story of the fish hooks, and I would cry again when he got to how
she died. This would get everyone else to cry, thus venting the
entire room of bottled emotions. I saw my eldest son stand up, adjust
his blazer, and step forward. I gestured to him to approach the
stand, but halted immediately after I saw him.
"I would like to say a few words about your daughter, Chief Hakoda."
When guilt kicks in
then I start to see,
The edge of the bed where your nightgown used
to be…
He walked amazingly
fast and ignored the curious stares he was receiving from the many
people in the chapel. He lightly shook hands with Sokka and climbed
the steps to where I stood. He was dressed in a suit very much
similar to the one I was wearing, and his eyes were dry and red in a
manner that greatly resembled how I expected mine to look. I knew he
had been my daughter's latest romantic interest, though no one was
particularly clear on how the relationship had turned out, whether or
not they had still been together on that fateful day. Nothing good
could come out of letting Zuko Agni speak the last words at my
daughter's funeral, but I found myself nodding, shaking his hand,
and moving over to allow him space.
His voice shook as he began
speaking.
"My name is Zuko
Agni," he cleared his throat in an uncannily resembling manner to
mine, "And I would like to talk about what I deemed to be Katara's
greatest accomplishments."
Several scoffs were heard throughout
the crowd, but he continued, "Katara was a beautiful, smart, kind
girl who always, always put others before herself. I had the
pleasure to know her in her teenage years which, regrettably, proved
to be her last. Our first encounter was somewhat less than ideal, her
tripping over her own feet and knocking me to the ground in the
senior hallway," a couple of laughs came from Katara's
classmates, "but she eventually got under my skin, the same way she
got under everyone else's. With every passing day, I grew more and
more attached to her. When I finally worked up the nerve to ask her
out, she surprised me by refusing."
Oh no… I told
myself I won't miss you, but I remember,
What it feels like
beside you…
The air was thick around him as he continued, clearing the doubts many of us had where his courtship with Katara was concerned. The way he spoke of her, the loving detail he painted on the picture of my little girl's memoir was so heartbreakingly romantic that I suddenly wished my wife could've been here to hear him. He told us about the time they went on the school skiing trip, where Katara broke her leg and he had to carry her back to the inn. He spoke of the way his stomach flipped inside out on itself whenever she looked at him a certain way. But most of all, he spoke of how my Snow Bear had changed his life.
"I loved Katara with
every ounce of my being," he said, "and I am as torn about her
death as any other person in this room, maybe even more. Katara's
memory is still fresh in my mind, and I feel it is up to me to tell
her last story to the people who loved her."
The room held its
breath.
"Katara was shot from behind on her way to my car. We
had been planning on," his voice gave way, "spending the day at…
at the beach to celebrate the end of term. There was a smile on her
face as she said my name, a-and the only thing I saw as she fell was
the face of that forever damned bastard…" he stopped for a
second, and his panting breath was barely audible on the microphone,
"I don't remember ever running as fast as I did that day. I must
have spent the entire time in between the attack and the arrival of
the ambulance just talking to her, begging her to wake up before I
realized she was gone. But that never stopped me from loving her."
I really miss your
hair in my face,
And the way your innocence tastes…
And I
think you should know this,
You deserve much better than me…
A/N: WoW. This is so not like me. I promise, more comedy in the next one!
R&R, please!!
