He stood there shocked. He couldn't process the information – other than to think that the crap was going to hit the fan big time. The Air Force they could probably deal with – Jacob on the other hand ….!
"Is that all you're going to say?" Sam finally asked, when he didn't say any more.
"Uh … no. I don't … I don't know what to say." He stumbled over the words. It was true; he really didn't know what to say. He knew he needed to reassure Sam, to tell her that everything was going to be fine. That he was happy, etc. etc. But he just couldn't. He really didn't know how to feel, or how they were going to deal with this.
He acknowledged to himself that a lot of how he was feeling was as a result of his recent conversation with Jacob. The man's comments about his lousy parenting had brought up all his guilt and doubts. He was frightened. How could he look after a child? He'd done a terrible job the first time – he didn't want to ruin more lives.
Looking at Sam he could see the tears gather in her eyes. Shit! What was he doing? Walking up to the examination table where she was still seated he put his arms around her and leaned in, his head buried in her neck.
"I'm sorry", she whispered.
He immediately pulled back at that. "You're sorry? Why? You didn't do anything – well, nothing more than I did." He smiled awkwardly. "We knew this could happen."
"Yeah, but I don't think we ever really thought it would."
"Well, there was a chance and we weren't very good at exercising self-control."
"It wouldn't have mattered. Janet says I'm nine weeks along. It happened when my birth-control should still have been working."
"Well, there ya go! There was nothing we could have done differently."
"Are you angry?" she asked quietly.
"Angry? No Sam, I'm not angry. Stunned, confused, scared yes – but not angry."
"You're not happy about this then?" He could hear the anguish in her voice.
Happy? Was he happy about this? She was right when she said that they hadn't really thought this could happen. Oh, they had known it was a possibility but they'd never really discussed it. He had long ago given up any hope of having more children so it wasn't as if he'd spent any time pondering the issue.
It wasn't just losing Charlie that had closed off the dream of a large family that he had always wanted. Sara had had serious problems during her pregnancy and the doctor recommended that she not have any more. He'd offered to have a vasectomy, figuring it was easier, but Sara had said no. She'd opted to have her tubes tied. It had been difficult but they had Charlie and they had put all their love and hope and dreams into him. And then he'd screwed that up.
Sam was looking at the changing expressions flitting across Jack's face. She was frightened. Frightened that he really didn't want a child but, knowing him and his sense of responsibility, she also knew he wouldn't shirk his duty. She laughed ironically – it was always about duty with them!
"I don't know Sam", he finally answered. "I have to think – I'm just – I'm- "
"It's okay Sir. I understand."
"No Sam – no 'Sirs'. I think we're past that now. And don't think that I'm angry or unhappy. I - it's just a shock - "
There was a knock on the door and then it opened. "I'm sorry Colonel but I really need to take a look at your face. " Janet walked in and was worried when she saw the expressions of the two people in the room. It obviously hadn't gone as well as she'd hoped. She was actually kind of surprised at that. With Jack's love of children she thought he'd be happier.
"Oh, okay Doc." He turned back to Sam. "I'll be back and we'll talk some more, okay. Don't worry Sam. Everything will work out fine and you know I'm in this one hundred percent."
"I know." She tried to smile although it was a dismal attempt.
Jack reached out but then lowered his hand. With a sigh he turned to Janet. "Where do you want me Doc?"
"Head down to X-Ray. They're waiting for you. When you're done you can come back here and I'll have the nurses take some blood and we'll check you over."
"Why do you need my blood? The X-Ray should be enough."
"Sir!"
"I know, I know. I'm going."
After he'd left Janet walked over to Sam and put her hand on her friend's shoulder. "You okay?"
"I don't think he wants this baby Janet."
"And I think it's much too soon to even think that way. He's in shock Sam – what did you expect? It's not like you guys planned this – and there's a lot to think about. But you know that no matter what he's going to stick by you through this."
"Yeah, he'll do his duty like always." Sam said bitterly.
"Samantha Carter! Don't you talk that way. Yes, he'll do his duty. That's who Jack O'Neill is and you should be glad of that. There are a lot of men out there who wouldn't. But he's not going to stick by you just out of duty Sam. If you couldn't see it then I could – that man is madly in love with you. It's written all over his face and he shows it every time he looks at you or touches you. I'm sure he's worried and scared but you know what? Once he sees that little human being he's going to fall madly in love with it. That's also who Jack O'Neill is."
Janet's words started to make her feel a bit better. "Do I have to stay here Janet?" she asked. She needed to get away from the Infirmary and be alone for a while. She needed to think.
"No, but I want you to go to one of the VIP rooms and lie down. You need to rest and I don't want you heading home for a while. I'd like to check on you again in a few hours. I'm sure your symptoms are just pregnancy related but it never hurts to be sure."
"Will you call me when you've done checking the Colonel?"
"Of course Sam. Now shoo!" Sam gave a weak smile and headed out of the room. She ran in to Daniel and Teal'c who were waiting outside and were looking at her with worry in their eyes.
"Are you okay Sam?" Daniel asked.
"Yes, just a little anemic. Janet's going to put me on some Iron and I should feel better."
"That's all?" When Sam didn't say anything he grinned. "That's great. We were all worried about you. How's Jack?" He asked then.
"They're doing X-rays right now and then Janet's going to check him out. He was complaining about having to have blood tests."
"O'Neill does not like to have his blood drawn", Teal'c agreed.
"I'm just going to go lie down for a little while guys. Can you stay here and make sure the Colonel is okay. Call me when he's ready for visitors."
"We shall Major Carter. We are pleased that you are well."
"Thanks Teal'c." With a small wave she headed off to a VIP room to rest.
When Jack got back from having the X-Rays done they made him put on a hospital gown and sit on the examining table. The nurses were surprised when he quietly took the gown and changed without any complaints. It definitely wasn't like the Colonel.
He still didn't say anything when they took his blood, temperature, and pulse. Little did he know that his cooperation was freaking the nurses out. They began to worry there was something really wrong.
They both breathed a sigh of relief when the Doc entered and told them they could leave. She then walked over to the table where Jack was now lying down, his eyes closed. The bruise on his cheek had spread and his one eye had turned a brilliant shade of black and purple. He looked, she thought, awful.
"So Colonel."
"Yeah", he grunted.
"I've got your X-rays back and it looks like there's a small crack in the cheek bone. I don't think it needs surgery but I want to keep you over night. You can't be too careful with a facial injury."
"Damn!" he muttered. "Do I have to Janet? I really wanted to go home."
"I'm afraid so. Fortunately it's not too bad so if everything looks okay in the morning I'll let you go. You're going to need a good week off duty and then on light duties for another week or so after that. Hey, it could have been much worse. Just be glad we didn't have to do surgery."
All the while she was talking to him she noticed that he hadn't looked at her once. He had an uncharacteristically somber expression on his face. Knowing it really wasn't any of her business she decided to step in anyway. Things could go south really quickly on this one.
"So, Sam told you?" she said quietly.
"Huh?" He finally opened his eyes and looked at her.
"She told you she's pregnant."
"Yeah" he closed his eyes again.
"I'd say it looks like you're not too happy about it."
"Doc, I don't really want to talk about this right now."
"I know you don't Sir but I think you should. Sam needs you right now and you have to \ deal with this for her sake. I only want to help."
He took a couple of deep breaths and then turned his head to look at her. "I don't know what to think about it Doc. I never thought I'd have kids again. I guess I'm just feeling a little shell-shocked."
"I think Sam is too."
"Yeah, I know. I don't want to make this harder on her and you know I'll do whatever I can to help – it's just that I don't know if I can be a Dad again."
"Sorry Sir, but I'm afraid that choice is out of your hands now. Like it or not you are going to be a Dad again. You can either decide to embrace it or be miserable but it won't change the facts."
"I guess." He looked at her suddenly with the most pain-filled eyes she thought she'd ever seen. "What if I screw this up again Janet?"
Realizing how frightened he was she sat on the table beside him, reached over and took his hands. "We can never predict the future Jack, we both know that. And parenthood is one of the most difficult things we can do – it's also one of the most wonderful."
Squeezing his hands she continued. "I know you suffered a terrible tragedy, and somehow you think you were a bad father because of it. But I just don't believe that. It was a mistake, a terrible, horrible tragic mistake and I'm sure you still suffer because of it. But you know what? I think that mistake will make you an even better father this time around. You, more than anyone, know what you can lose and you'll be even more careful. You'll also make the best of every single moment."
"Jack, don't let fear ruin what is a wonderful thing. Think instead about having a tiny little baby that's a mixture of you and Sam. He or she will be the physical and tangible result of the love you have for each other. Think about that child learning to walk and to talk. Imagine hearing him call you Daddy and you teaching him to ride a bike and skate and all those wonderful things."
"What if it's a girl?" he asked with a small smile.
"Well, you can still teach her to do all those things – and she'll have you wrapped around her little finger. Don't you think you'll be happy to have a little girl with Sam's big eyes and long blond hair? Just think what it'll be like to have her run up and throw her arms around you. I can picture you carrying her around on your shoulders. And of course, you'll have to buy her a puppy because,
- every child has to have a dog … it's the rule", they both said together. For the first time Jack seemed to relax. Pulling his hands free he sat up and gave Janet a hug.
"You're pretty special Doc, you know that?"
"I'll remind you that you said that the next time you complain about your physical!" she grinned. "It's time for you to rest Sir. I'll send the nurses in and help you get settled."
"Okay, but afterward can you send Sam in?"
"All right, but don't overdo it. You both need your rest."
"Yeah, we have a lot to think about and – oh joy – we get to tell Hammond."
"Yes, and you'll have to do it soon. By rights I should have told him myself."
"I know and thanks!"
Again the nurses were amazed at how quiet the Colonel was when they were settling him into bed. Once he was lying down one of the nurses brought him a glass of water and some painkillers. He took them without argument or even without asking what they were. Handing back the little paper cut he even said 'thank you'. It was as Nurse Parker was leaving that she glanced back one more time, worried about her usually obstreperous patient. She breathed a sigh of relief when she saw him staring at the ceiling with a big, lopsided grin on his face.
"Sam, you can go see the Colonel now." Sam looked up and was surprised to see Janet in the doorway. She hadn't even heard it open.
"How is he?" she asked, worried.
"He's fine. There was just a hairline crack, nothing too serious. I'm keeping him overnight to keep an eye on him, just in case, but I'm sure he'll be fine. I've given him some painkillers and he should rest tonight. But first, he wants to see you."
"Oh." Sam didn't move off the bed.
"It's okay honey. I think he's fine – he was just in shock before. Go see him. You'll feel better."
Sam nodded, although she still didn't look happy. Slowly sitting up she made her way to the doorway where Janet was standing. As she left the room the Doctor gave her and quick hug and accompanied her to the Infirmary.
"I'll be in my office if you need me Sam. After you're done I want you to come see me for a quick check, okay."
"Okay Janet." Once the Doctor was gone she stood outside of Jack's room, too scared to enter. Finally, knowing she had no choice, she quietly walked in. The room was dark, the lights off, and she could see the Colonel lying in the bed. She walked up to him and saw that he was sleeping – or at least his eyes were closed.
She watched him silently for a few minutes when suddenly she could see a smile break out on his face. To say that she was shocked was an understatement.
"Jack?" she said before she could help it. Immediately his eyes opened and he looked at her.
"Sam. When did you get here? I didn't hear you come in."
"Just now. I thought you were sleeping."
"No, just thinkin'"
"Oh, what about?" She still hadn't approached the bed.
"Well, I was wondering brown or blue."
"Brown or blue Sir? Brown or blue what?"
"Eyes, Carter, eyes."
"Eyes?" she asked, confused.
"Yes Carter", he said as if trying to explain something extremely simple. "I'm wondering if he or she will have brown or blue eyes."
"He or – oh, you mean the baby?"
"No – I mean the goa'uld in Teal'c's pouch! Of course the baby." He grinned. "See, my Mom had blue eyes and you have blue eyes so, there's a chance the baby could have blue eyes like you."
She just stared at him blankly for a moment and then, without warning, burst into tears.
"Hey!" He sat up and reached for her. Grabbing her arms he pulled her forward and seated her on the bed with him. He held her closely as she sobbed out all her fear and anguish.
After a while he could hear her mumbling into his chest but couldn't understand what she was saying. Pushing her back a bit he saw that her face was streaked with tears. Using the corner of the sheet he wiped her eyes.
"Now, what were you saying?" he asked gently.
"I didn't think you wanted the baby. I thought you were unhappy."
"Hey – I was just shocked. I never thought I'd have kids again Sam. It just took a little while for me to come to my senses."
"And you're okay with this?"
"Oh yeah! I mean, who wouldn't be happy to have a child with a gorgeous, smart mother like you. It gives our kid a chance."
"A chance?" she giggled.
"Mmmm hmmm. A chance to be both good looking and smart. If it was just my kid – well, it'd be- "
"Good-looking and smart", she interrupted. "You're a handsome guy Jack and we all know you're pretty smart."
"You do?" he asked, shocked. "Who told you that? It's supposed to be classified."
She giggled again. "I'm afraid Daniel blew your cover."
"He did? How?"
"He snooped in your house one day when you weren't around and found your books – and some of your old university papers. He said you must be a lot smarter than you make out. Then, of course, we've worked with you for years." She stopped and grew serious. "Are you really happy about this?"
"Yes Sam, I am. Oh, I won't lie. I'm also scared to death. I … didn't do a great job the first time" she put her hands over his mouth.
"You were a great Dad, I'm sure of it and you'll be a wonderful Dad again."
"I'll try – but I'll probably be the biggest worrier on the block."
"Yeah, but that's okay."
"Janet told me to imagine a little girl that looked like you and I kept thinking how I'd feel to have a little tiny daughter who loved me and called me Daddy." This time he buried his face against her. "I can't think of anything I want more."
"It could be a boy Jack."
"Yeah and I'll be thrilled to have another son. You realize though, if we have a boy we'll have to try again. I want a daughter just like her mother. I've set my heart on it."
"Well, we could have a second boy."
"Yup – so we try again."
"Jack! How many kids are we going to have?" she laughed, suddenly feeling lighter than she had in a long, long time.
"Hmmm? Well, that drawing they gave us showed four. I think that's a great number."
"Four children? Wow. A minute ago I didn't think you wanted any and now we're talking four. You know that you're incorrigible?"
"Yup!" he said with a smirk. "We need enough for hockey you know."
"So, you want your own Hockey team, that's what this is all about?"
"Carter!" he said, shocked. "Of course it is."
Laughing she stood up and gave him a kiss. "We both need to rest and Janet's going to be in here in a minute. Go to sleep and I'll see you in the morning." As she turned to leave she had one last thought.
"We'll have to tell my Dad."
"Crap!" In his sudden happiness he'd forgotten that one detail. "Feel like running off to another planet and hiding out for the next 40 years or so?"
"No Jack. I'm not going to hide. I'm sure everything will be fine."
"You can say that. He's not gonna kill you."
"He won't kill you either Jack." Grinning she walked to the door. "I'll protect you Sir." Blowing him a kiss she walked out and right into Janet.
"Whoa! Everything okay Sam?" The Doctor suddenly saw the glowing face of her friend. "I guess so." She suddenly squeaked as Sam reached down and gave her a huge hug.
"Thank you Janet. I love you!" She released her friend and began to walk towards her room.
As Janet watched her leave she said to herself, "good for you Colonel, good for you!"
"Ow!"
"I told you Sir, you're going to have to eat soft foods for a while until your cheek heals."
"Damnit Janet. I don't want to eat pablum for breakfast."
"It's not pablum Sir. It's cream of wheat. The bacon has to go." Sam walked in just as Janet reached down and cleared Jack's plate of any of the more solid foods that were there. His face looked, if anything, worse this morning although he looked quite cheerful.
"Hi Sir." She said. The nurses were buzzing around and she knew they still had to be careful.
"Carter! You've come to save me. Here", he handed her the bowl, "take this stuff away and flush it. It's for babies." He grinned at that and winked.
"You'll get hungry Sir."
"Na, I'll get something later that TASTES BETTER" he called to Janet's retreating back. She just waved her arm and kept going.
"So, how are you feeling this morning?"
"Good Carter, good. How about you?"
"I'm fine. Still a little – nauseous." She looked around carefully.
"Yeah? Janet sure you're okay?"
"I'm fine. This is totally normal and she says it should probably be gone in a few weeks."
"Good." After a brief pause he looked up. "Janet says I can go. I figured we should go see the General."
"I know. What are we going to say?"
"The truth. We'd better tell him everything. He's not going to be a happy camper."
"No, I expect not. Do you think we're going to be charged?" She had begun to worry this morning, as the time to confess grew nearer.
"I doubt if they'll charge you. Some of the higher ups will want my head on a platter. They may let me off if I offer to retire."
"No way. You shouldn't have to retire. You didn't do anything wrong. We both did this together. There's no way just you should be punished."
"Sam listen", he took her hands. "I've been thinking. I really wouldn't mind retiring. In fact, I think I'd like it. When Charlie was little I was gone a lot. I missed so much of his childhood, which just made my regrets that much harder to bear. I now have the opportunity to stay home and actually spend time with my child – our child. I don't think I'd mind that at all."
"You sure you wouldn't mind being away from the action?"
"Hey, I'd have lots of action! There'd be PTA meetings, bake-offs, play dates, gymboree, lots of fun stuff."
"You and all the Moms?" She wasn't so sure she liked that idea.
"Hey, don't be sexist. I'm sure there'd be some Dads too."
Actually, knowing Jack, she figured he probably would enjoy it. He would be an amazing father. The only problem was she was feeling a bit jealous. She didn't like the idea of going to work and leaving her child all day. At the same time she didn't' think she could be a full time stay-at-home Mom forever.
Oh well, none of this had been decided yet. First they had to talk to the General.
"We'd better get going." She said to the man on the bed.
"Yeah. I'll get dressed and be out in a minute."
"We have to tell Daniel and Teal'c."
"I know. Let's ask them to come over to my place this evening and we can tell them there."
"Unless we're in the brig."
"Carter. Don't be such a pessimist. I'm sure Hammond will let us go home – at least today. It'll take a while for any charges to be drawn up."
Both of them wore serious expressions as they made their way to the General's office. The worst thing of all, thought Jack, was that they were going to disappoint Hammond.
"Come in", the General's voice instructed. They took one final look at each other and walked in.
"Jack, Major Carter. What can I do for you?" The General smiled and welcomed them in. When he noticed their expressions he felt a sinking in his stomach. Oh oh, something was wrong.
"Have a seat Colonel, Major." After his two officers sat down he waited quietly, not sure what was coming.
"Sir, Major Carter and I are here to expand on our report about what happened on the planet."
"Expand?" asked the General. "Did something happen when you went back? Dr. Jackson gave me a brief report. Was there anything else?"
"Not when we went back Sir. There was something else the first time – when Major Carter and I were there alone."
"Okay? So, what is it you need to tell me?"
"Uh, that when we told you we had to 'pretend to be mated' we weren't being quite accurate, Sir."
"Not accurate? Please Colonel, get to the point."
"What Colonel O'Neill is trying to say Sir is that we really were mated."
"You really were mated. Excuse me Major but I don't quite understand."
"The tribe – or the Chief actually – 'married' us in a ceremony and then we had to – uh-"
"We had to engage in a sexual relationship Sir." Sam broke in.
The General sat stunned. With a sinking feeling he covered his eyes for a moment and then looked up. "You're telling me you engaged in an inappropriate relationship while on that planet?" He was starting to sound angry.
"No Sir" Jack interjected. "It was not inappropriate Sir. We had no choice. It was either that or S – ur Carter would have been raped and possibly killed." He then went on to explain to the General all the details of their time on the planet, only leaving out their feelings for one another. He figured that would just complicate things.
General Hammond sighed and looked disturbed. "I believe you Colonel, Major. The only problem is we have no way to prove that what you say happened is true. Oh, I know it is" he said quickly as Jack went to interject. "But you know as well as I do there are too many people out there who'd like to discredit the program and the surest way to do that is by going after our premier team." He thought for a moment. "I would never want you to lie and don't repeat this, but I kind of wish you'd left your report as it was."
"We were going to Sir" Jack said. "We were not going to continue with the - relationship – when we returned so felt it really didn't matter. But there's been an added - complication."
"A complication?"
"I'm pregnant Sir."
George closed his eyes. Could it get any worse? "Of course you are Major", he said, resignation in his voice. He sat quietly, trying to process what had been said.
"I'm going to have to make some calls and see what we can do. I'll try everything I can but this could really hit the fan."
"I know Sir. If it helps I'll resign."
"Me too Sir."
"Sam!" Jack started to speak.
"No Colonel. This is my choice."
Sigh. "Okay. Thank you General – whatever you can do will be appreciated."
"Does Jacob know?" The General suddenly looked at Jack.
"Ah, he knows that we had a relationship but not about the pregnancy. We just found out now."
"How did he react?"
Janet clearly hadn't spoken to him yet and Daniel must not have given it away either.
"Uh" Jack pointed to his cheek.
"He did that?"
"Yes Sir."
"Crap!'
"That's what I said."
"Okay you two. I'm going to send you both home. You're both on medical leave for now. I'll get back to you when I've spoken to a few people. You know I'll do whatever I can", he repeated.
"We know Sir and thank you."
"Yes, thank you Sir", Sam added as well. They both got up to leave when the General suddenly spoke again.
"You said that the Chief performed a marriage ceremony?"
"Yes Sir", Jack turned just as he was about to open the door. "They had a public ceremony where I had to feed – Major Carter. We didn't know what it meant at first but then we found out."
"I see – and this was before you – ah ?"
"Um – yes. Quite a few days in fact. We tried to just 'pretend' but they caught on."
"I see. Well, that may make things a little better."
"Better Sir?" Sam asked. "How?"
"Well, there's nothing wrong with married officers engaging in a physical relationship." The General actually grinned. "In fact, I'd say it was pretty much expected! So, if we can somehow use that it might help."
"But there's no evidence of that."
"The necklaces Sir. We can show then the necklaces that they gave us. At least it's something."
"Anything helps Major. Now go and rest you two and try not to worry. We'll figure this out."
As Jack turned to leave again he stopped one more time. "I'm sorry Sir. I know this screws things up for you. We really didn't plan this – we were going to stay with SG1 and put this behind us."
General Hammond considered his 2IC for a moment and glanced at Major Carter. Slowly he smiled. "Then I guess it's a good thing this did happen Colonel, Major. You no longer have to give up your personal life for the Air Force. I'd say it was about time." As the two officers looked back in shock he continued. "I'm not blind you know Colonel, but I am happy for you both. You deserve this. Now both of you – dismissed!"
They walked out, stunned. They were almost to Daniel's office before Jack stopped. Looking at Sam he grinned. "The old bugger! He knew the whole time about us."
"I guess so." She grinned back. Suddenly things didn't seem so bad. They invited Daniel and Teal'c over to Jack's house that night and then left, explaining they were both on leave for the next few days.
Sam wanted to go home and check on her house since she hadn't been back for so long. Fortunately Daniel and Teal'c had kept both of their houses clean. She also wanted to shower and change into some clean, casual clothes. She noticed that her uniform was getting tight around the middle. She still couldn't believe she hadn't figured it out before now. When she took birth control her periods were practically non-existent so that hadn't given it away. Still, the fact that her stomach and breasts were expanding should have given her a hint!
The driver dropped her off first and was then going to take the Colonel home.
"Are you sure you're okay Carter?" The Colonel asked as she got out.
"Absolutely. I've asked Daniel to pick me up on the way to your house. I just need to change and see to a few things. I'll see you later Sir." She closed the car door and waved.
As Jack returned home he was surprised at how relaxed he was feeling. He was in danger of losing his career and right now he couldn't seem to care. He was amazed at the happiness that was coursing through his veins! He was going to have the woman he loved and a family. Suddenly life was looking up.
That evening all of SG1 was together and it was great. For the first time in months everyone was okay (although Jack was frustrated when he tried to eat. Pizza was very difficult with a broken face!). He and Sam decided to let everyone relax and eat before they broke their news.
Once all the dishes were done and everyone was relaxed Jack cleared his throat. Daniel and Teal'c looked over in surprise, noticing the serious expression on their friends' faces.
"What is it guys?" he asked.
"Uh, we have something to tell you." He looked at Sam who nodded. "You know Sam hasn't been feeling well? Uh, it turns out she's – I mean we're – pregnant."
Silence.
"You're what?" Daniel gasped.
"I believe O'Neill has stated that Major Carter is with child."
"I know what it means Teal'c. Are you sure?"
"Of course she's sure Danny!" Jack rolled his eyes.
"No, I mean – how?"
"Daniel!" Sam screeched.
"I don't mean that. I know how – I'm not stupid. I mean – oh hell, I don't know what I mean." He stood up and walked over to Sam. Pulling her up out of her chair he gave her a big hug. "Congratulations! I'm happy for you." He pulled back, smiling and then went over to Jack. Pulling him up as well he also gave him a hug. "So 'Jawk' looks like those pictures were accurate. Way to go!"
"I too wish you congratulations Major Carter, O'Neill." Teal'c actually had a big smile plastered on his face. "You are both fortunate and I know will be very happy together with your children."
"Thanks big guy." He said as Teal'c gave him a hug.
"Thanks Teal'c" Sam said as well when Teal'c came over to her. Once all the congratulations were finished they all sat back down.
"So, does General Hammond know?" Daniel asked.
"Yeah. He's gonna try and help although as far as the Air Force is concerned this is bad!"
"But there were extenuating circumstances!"
"They only have our word for it."
"And ours."
"You didn't meet the villagers."
"No, but we were there the first time, when the city wasn't there. There is also the evidence of the cave drawings. We have pictures, tests, etc."
"Yeah, it may help. It just depends how badly someone wants to get us."
"The Zatarc test."
Jack and Sam looked at him. "That'll just make things worse Teal'c. If they pull those records out it'll look like this has been going on a long time."
"No O'Neill. I mean we can ask the Tokra to bring the Zatarc detector back and they can speak with both you and Major Carter. They will know then that you are telling the truth."
Sam looked intrigued. "That might work Teal'c. Thank you. If it comes to that we can ask the General and he can approach the Tokra." The thought gave her a bit of relief.
"Speaking of Tokra ….?"
"No", Jack answered shortly. "He doesn't know."
"Crap!"
"Yeah, that seems to be the general opinion."
"So! A baby eh?" Daniel grinned. "Sam, do you know what you're getting yourself into? You realize you're going to have two O'Neill's running around."
"Oh heavens Daniel don't scare me!" Everyone laughed although Jack pretended to be hurt.
"Hey – what's wrong with that? And anyway" he went on, "if we're lucky it'll take after Sam."
Over the next few days Jack and Sam waited nervously to hear what was going to happen. They only saw each other in the company of Daniel and Teal'c (who often wandered outside to give them a little bit of privacy). They figured it was best until they knew what was going to happen. They could then honestly claim they hadn't continued with a relationship after leaving the planet.
Finally, on the fifth day they got a call from Walter asking them to be in at 0900 hours the next day for a meeting with the General.
"It'll be okay Sam. Don't worry." Jack reached over and held her for a long time. Finally pulling away she gave him a small kiss and headed to the door where Daniel was waiting to drive her home.
"Don't you worry either – Daddy! I love you", she said softly. Blowing him a kiss she left.
The next morning they stood nervously outside the Briefing Room. Walter had told them he was inside with two of the Joint Chiefs and a representative from the President's office. This didn't look good!
"You can go in now Sir, Ma'am." Walter said to them. As they walked forward he added a quiet, "good luck!" They smiled and thanked him silently. Opening the door they walked in, heads held high.
"Colonel O'Neill, Major Carter, please come in." Hammond said. They walked in and saluted. "Please be seated Major, Colonel."
"After our conversation of the other day I reported the circumstances to my superiors and to the President. Although he obviously couldn't be here Mr. Sothern is here to represent him. The President was directly involved in the final decision."
The General looked around the table at the serious faces of all of those present. "I'll let General Jumper explain what has been decided."
"Colonel O'Neill, Major Carter, I know this has been difficult for both of you and we want you to know we took everything into account when making our decision. George explained in detail what happened, and we've all had the opportunity to read your mission reports. The difficulty in this case is, of course, the fact that there is no way to verify some of your claims." He held up his hand when it looked like Jack was going to jump in. "I don't mean to imply we don't believe them Colonel – just that it would be easier to have outside verification."
General Jumper stopped for a moment before continuing. "As you know, the Air Force is extremely concerned with any appearance of impropriety on the part of its officers. It could easily create rumors of favoritism or harassment when two people in the same chain of command have an illicit relationship." He held up his hand again. "Let me finish please Colonel. Again, I'm not claiming that that's what you had. In fact, we know that the two of you have always acted impeccably."
Jack looked surprised at this. He wondered how they knew that. As if reading his mind Jumper continued.
"We know because it was investigated."
"What!" Jack cried. "Investigated? Who the hell- with respect –did that?"
"I know Jack", Jumper looked at him apologetically. "but it wasn't us. It turns out the NID were trying everything they could think of to discredit you so they commissioned surveillance. When they came up with nothing they closed the file. I heard about it shortly afterward and believe me – a few heads rolled! But in the end, it proved helpful as we were able to show that neither of you had done anything, before this, to require any disciplinary action."
"I never thought I'd have anything to thank the NID for." Jack muttered. Jumper and Hammond both grinned.
"Yes, well, in this case it's helpful."
"What about the uh – Zatarc –" Jack wasn't sure if he should bring it up or not.
"What Zatarc Test Jack?" Jumper looked at him with a completely innocent face (or maybe not quite so innocent, thought Jack). He knew! Jack wondered what had happened to those records.
"Uh, I'm not sure Sir."
"Yes, well, we won't worry about that then. So, what we have here is two exemplary soldiers who have shown themselves to be fine, upstanding officers without a hint of impropriety in their relationship prior to going to this planet, is that right."
"Yes Sir", both officers replied.
"Good. So, the issue is now whether or not you engaged in a relationship out of personal desire or, as you have stated, to save Major Carter?"
"Sir, it was as we stated. Colonel O'Neill saved me from being raped and possibly killed."
"I believe you Major. The problem, of course, is your pregnancy." Jumper grinned, "although I'm sure you don't see it as a problem. Anyway, if it weren't for that we wouldn't even be here. The Air Force is still pretty old fashioned and for two unmarried officers, in the same chain of command, to have a child is not only frowned upon, it's against regulations."
Jack was starting to feel peeved. They knew all this. Why was Jumper repeating it all? Couldn't he just get to the point?
"Of course, it turns out that that's not the situation here."
What? What was he talking about? Jack looked over at Sam and could see the confusion on her face as well.
"It turns out that we don't have an unmarried couple at all. What we have is a married couple who are about to have a child and there's nothing in the regulations that disallow that. It's not common for married couples to serve together in the same unit, but it's not unheard of so really, there's no problem." He looked at the stunned officers in front of him and couldn't help but grin.
"But Sir, I don't – get – we weren't supposed to get married." Jack was confused.
"Well technically you were in enemy territory and officially listed as MIA. You didn't plan on marrying but were in a situation where anything else could have resulted in the death or physical abuse of at least one of you. Is that not correct?"
"Yes Sir", answered Sam.
"Well, you did what you had to do. The preservation of life is the most important thing Major, as long as it doesn't compromise the safety and security of our country or our world. What you did did neither. You did what was right – and so did Colonel O'Neill. You got married in order to survive. That was the only thing you did that was against the regulations – which can be ignored when life is at stake. The – physical relationship – was not against regulations because you were married."
Jack and Sam sat stunned again. They couldn't believe it – they had just gotten off completely. Jack finally looked up at the faces of the four men in front of him. He barely noticed that they were all smiling at him.
"Uh, thank you Sirs. I don't know quite what to say."
"Just tell us when the baby is born Jack. You have our thanks and congratulations. The two of you have done enough for this world that this is the least we could do."
Sothern, the President's representative spoke for the first time. "The President was insistent on this Colonel, Major. He admires you both greatly and wanted to assure you that this would never be used against you. You are both to retain your full rank with all privileges. The President also sends his congratulations and best wishes."
"Tell him thank you, Mr. Sothern." Sam smiled. Jack nodded, still unsure how to react.
"But we're not really married." He suddenly blurted. That stopped everyone.
"Yes you are Jack", Hammond replied. "You told me yourself that the Chief performed the ceremony.
"Yes, but that was on an alien planet."
"That doesn't matter O'Neill", Jumper added. "The US recognizes the foreign marriages of its men and women in arms. You'll have to fill out some paper work to make sure it's official but a declaration to a superior officer is all that is required. You might want to do another ceremony here but you don't have to. You just have to register your prior marriage."
"Uh, okay", he looked bemused. He wondered how they'd react when they listed their witnesses?
The Generals and Sothern all got up, preparing to head back to Washington. Sam was beaming, chatting away to General Cassidy who had said very little to this point. Jack was still sitting quietly when Jumper called to him from across the table,
"Jack, does Jacob know yet?" Jacob Carter and General Jumper went way back. They'd attended the Academy together.
"No Sir, at least not about the pregnancy."
"Crap!" Yup – that was definitely the consensus.
That night Jack and Sam lay curled up together in Jack's bed. Now that they were officially not in trouble – and, in fact, were officially married, they figured they could start being together again.
As soon as they were finished with the Generals, Hammond told them to go home. "You still both need some time off. Why don't you go away for a few days? And if I didn't say it before, congratulations you two. You deserve this."
Jack walked over and gave the General a very formal salute. The, grinning, he stuck his hand out. "Thank you Sir – I know this was your doing and I can't tell you how much we appreciate it."
"Well Jack, it wasn't just me. Fortunately you have some big fans. And we can't forget the NID – they helped too."
Jack laughed. "I'll be sure and send them a thank you card."
Sam walked up and gave the General a kiss. "Thank you Sir. Like Jack I appreciate it."
"You just look after yourself Major. We'll talk about what you want to do when you're back. But right now you need to take it easy and just enjoy being with each other – legally!"
"We will Sir". As they walked out of the briefing room Jack turned and looked back again at the General and wiggled his eyebrows, a naughty smirk on his face. Hammond gave a crack of laughter and returned to his office. Jack O'Neill was certainly a piece of work.
That night, as they lay curled up together in Jack's bed he stared at the woman who was now – legally (God, he couldn't believe that) his wife.
"So Mrs. O'Neill, whatya thinkin'?"
"Just how happy I am."
"Are you?" Jack pushed himself up so he was leaning on his elbow. "Are you really?" he asked seriously. He knew it would take him a while to truly believe this had happened and that they could be together – and that she really loved him!
"Yes – truly and very deeply happy. There's nothing I wanted more than to be with you. On top of that I'm going to have your baby." She pushed herself up and kissed him gently on the lips. "I love you Mr. O'Neill. I want to spend the rest of our lives together and have those four children."
"Sweet!"
They decided to head up to Jack's cabin for a week. They needed the time alone together to dream and plan their future. They also realized that they really hadn't spent anytime alone together as a couple.
Before they left they told Daniel and Teal'c who were, of course, thrilled for them.
"I'd ask you to come with - "
"Don't be ridiculous Jack", Daniel interrupted. "You guys need some time alone."
"Yes, and I do not believe we would be comfortable around a newly wed couple O'Neill", Teal'c added.
Sam giggled. "No, you're probably right!"
"Yeah, definitely right Teal'c." Jack grinned as well. He thought back to the time in the cave. Just like then he planned to spend a lot of time naked – and this time he would not be embarrassed!
Sam knew that she would think of the days they spent at the cabin as her official 'honeymoon'. Now that they were truly a couple there was no longer the guilt or worry. They could simply enjoy each other. The only negative things at all were her morning bouts of nausea – and the worry over her father. She didn't say anything but she was pretty sure Jack knew that she felt badly. She was extremely worried over his reaction to this latest development.
By the time they returned to Colorado they were both looking much better. Jack couldn't honestly say they'd gotten a lot of rest – although they had spent a lot of time in bed! He smirked, remembering some of the things they'd gotten up to in that bed. Oh yeah – he really liked not being surrounded by a bunch of people when he made love. It allowed for much more – creativity and spontaneity.
"Jack", Sam's voice interrupted his very pleasant thoughts, which was probably a good thing as they were seated on a commercial airline.
"Yeah?" he asked.
"You realize that you've never proposed. And I don't have a ring!"
"Oh. You want a ring?" he asked, sounding surprised. In actual fact he had a whole plan in place but wasn't going to tell Sam, not yet.
"Well yes, if you're okay with that?" she asked, a little worried.
"Sure." He leaned back and closed his eyes. He could almost feel her irritation.
"And what about a wedding?"
"You want a wedding too?" he asked, his eyes still closed.
"Well, it would be nice."
"Okay."
"That's all you're going to say?"
"Uh, what else would you like me to say?" He sat up and looked at her.
"I don't know. I just thought you'd be more – interested."
"Sam, I've got the woman of my dreams sitting beside me. She's going to have my child. I am officially the happiest man in the world – no, I take that back. I am the happiest man in the universe – past and present! I can honestly say I've loved you for more than 10,000 years and across an entire galaxy. So, if you want a wedding and a ring I'm more than happy to oblige." He leaned back and closed his eyes.
Smiling, she leaned back and closed her eyes as well. Okay, a ring and wedding were nice but Jack was right. With everything they had those were just details!
They both returned to work a few days after returning from Minnesota. Sam opted to stay earth side, not wanting to endanger the baby. Jack was not going to be allowed to go through the gate until his cheek was totally healed. He didn't seem to mind. In fact, he was still talking about retirement!
They'd been back about a month when he left early one day. He told her he had to go and see an old buddy and that's he'd see her at home. She was going to catch a ride from Daniel.
As she made her way up the walkway to the house she could see Jack's truck in the driveway. He'd made it home before her. As she arrived at the front door she noticed that there was a big note pasted to it which said, in his handwriting, 'READ ME". Puzzled she pulled it off the door and opened it. It had very specific instructions. Sam, you are to go straight up to the bedroom and change into the clothes on the bed. Do not go anywhere else – do not pass go – just get dressed and then come downstairs. Jack.
Curious as to what was going on she walked in to a dark house. The light at the top of the stairs was on so she walked up and into the bedroom. There, lying on the bed, was the most beautiful dress! It was a maternity dress (she finally had to wear maternity clothes now that her belly had grown significantly). Picking it up she held it to her and sighed. It was gorgeous.
The dress felt like it was made of silk. It was a beautiful deep azure color with a high waist and a gathered bust. There was a single strap that crossed from the front diagonally over one shoulder. The folds of material draped softly from under the bust. Holding it up she not only loved the color, but the feel of the fabric.
"Jack O'Neill! How did you do this?" She figured he probably had help. She would have to talk to Janet tomorrow.
After getting dressed she went into the Master Bath. There was another note on the mirror. Taking it down she read what it had to say. Hey beautiful! Look under your pillow and then come downstairs when you're ready. I love you xxxoooo.
After reading the note she quickly did her hair and makeup. She then went into the bedroom and checked under the pillow. Pulling out a velvet box she opened it and gasped. Inside was a gold chain with a diamond pendant along with a pair of diamond studs. Oh boy, was one Colonel O'Neill going to get lucky tonight.
She was finally ready and made her way downstairs. Waiting at the bottom was her husband and lover. He was dressed in a dark suit and black shirt and tie. He looked gorgeous. She didn't say anything, just walked into his arms and kissed him.
The kiss went on for a long time before they both pulled away, gasping for air.
"So, like it", he pointed to the dress.
"Love it! And the jewelry. Jack, you're amazing, thank you!"
"You're welcome. And you deserve them. The dress looks great but neither it or the jewels are half as beautiful as you!" That earned him another kiss.
"What is all this Jack?" As he led her to the living room she saw that it was lit up with candles and there was a table made up with china and crystal. In the middle of it was a huge bouquet of roses.
"Well, I figured we had a bit of an unorthodox courtship and I thought you deserved some romance."
"So you don't think that walking around naked or in animal skins and having sex in front of cavemen was romantic eh?"
Laughing he pulled her to him. "It had its moments, especially the walking around naked part – at least the you walking around naked – or in that little mini skirt. But I must say this dress is a close runner up to that outfit."
"It's beautiful. How did you pick it out?"
"Well, I admit to having a little help. I took Janet and Cassie with me, although I had the final say. I actually found this one", he said with pride.
"You did good Colonel! I can't believe Janet and Cas didn't let on at all."
"No, I swore them to secrecy. Threatened them with the O'Neill special torture if they told."
"O'Neill special torture?" she asked.
"Yeah." He reached over and started tickling her.
"Stop!" she giggled. He immediately stopped, knowing it would bother her with her belly (which he thought was very sexy).
They spent a very romantic evening together. After supper they danced to music Jack had recorded. Finally, when her feet began to get tired, he made her sit on the big chair.
"Just wait there." He left the room and returned a moment later, his hand behind his back.
"What is this Jack?" she asked curiously. He walked over and kneeled in front of her.
"Jack!" she whispered, knowing what was coming.
He reached out and took her hand. "The first time I met you, I knew you were going to be trouble Carter", he started. "I knew that this gorgeous young officer with the big chip on her shoulder" he grinned, "was somehow going to interfere in my cranky, single and very bleak life." She reached out and touched his face gently. Not wanting to put a downer on things he quickly continued. "Over the next few years I grew to not only respect you as the fine officer you are – but to realize that you'd brought back a sense of wonder to my life. Your passion and compassion, your wise innocence, suddenly made me feel alive again – and I had hope that maybe there was something good left in this world."
He took a breath. "Then I discovered, that day on the Goa'uld ship, that you meant more to me than you were supposed to. Without realizing it you had sneaked into my heart and had taken root. I knew though, that it could never be. Instead I just allowed myself to be with you, to work with you, to be your friend. I figured that's all we could ever have. And then" he smiled again, "and then we went back 10,000 years and my dreams came true. Who would have thought that I'd have to go back to the past to win my future?" He brought his other hand forward which held a small velvet box. Letting go of her hand he opened it and brought out the ring. Taking her left hand in his he looked up.
"Samantha – Carter, my Carter, I love you more than words can express. I want you to share my life, my hopes, my dreams. I want to share yours and together I want to bring our children up with wonder and laughter. Will you marry me?"
With a tiny sob she nodded, and then said a quiet 'yes'. She held out her finger and he placed the ring on it. Glancing down she saw a simple solitaire, surrounded on each side by two smaller, blue diamonds. It was simple and elegant and exactly right. She threw her arms around him.
"Thank you Jack. I love you so much!"
"I love you too Carter." he replied, he head buried in her neck- one of his favorite places to be.
"Not Carter – O'Neill!" she murmured.
"Sorry, I'm afraid you'll always be Carter to me. Although I also like the idea of you being an O'Neill." He put his head up and gave an evil grin. "You're my woman now Carter!" He said in a gruff voice. Standing up stiffly he reached down and pulled her up. Picking her up in his arms, he turned and carried her upstairs.
"Where are you taking me Jack?" she asked coyly.
"To my cave woman! To my cave."
This was to be the end but it grew to be too long so tomorrow watch for the epilogue (and the return of Jacob!).