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Chapter 25
Holly could feel Gail running her fingers through her hair, and she could hear Gail whispering something, thinking that she was asleep,
"you know I love you-" she paused and Holly continued pretending to sleep "- but I feel selfish Hol, I've dragged you into my world which is dark and destroyed, I've pulled you into my dark world and I can never forgive myself for that, I'm broken and ruined, I don't want to drag you into that too" Gail kissed her on the forehead and got out of bed, Holly felt her heart break all over again, she wanted to reach out and pull Gail back to her, to kiss her, to hold her and tell her everything was going to be okay, but she couldn't, she kept her eyes closed until she heard the bedroom door click closed, she let out a breath she didn't know she had been holding, it took her a few moments to realise what Gail had just said,
"Gail!" Holly yelled as she sat up in bed, she heard feet running down the hallway,
"Holly are you okay?" Gail said clearly panicked that something had happened, Holly instantly pulled Gail onto her lap and peppered her face with kisses,
"I'm-" kiss "-perfect-" kiss "because-" kiss "-you're-" kiss "-here" she kissed Gail slowly, Gail smiled warmly,
"you really need to stop yelling like that, I nearly twisted my ankle running to get to you" she said as she caressed Holly's face,
"I like it when you run to me" Holly said smirking slightly,
"oh I bet you do" Gail said cheekily, without warning Holly pushed Gail backwards and climbed on top of her, Gail found herself on her back, her t-shirt flung on the floor and she was pressed down into the mattress with Holly in between her legs,
"I love you Gail" she said before she kissed her hard, Gail moaned her nails dug into Holly's back, Holly sucked on Gail's tongue which made Gail arch into her,
"Please Holly" Gail whimpered,
"what do you need?" Holly husked as she kissed her way up and down Gail's neck,
"I need you inside" Gail moaned, Holly held herself up on one arm while the other travelled down slowly, she could feel Gail's ribcage and she paused, her hand resting on the bones she could feel, she looked into Gail's eyes, her blue eyes were filled with so much turmoil, sorrow, confusion, love and lust, Holly gently nudged her nose against Gail's, their foreheads touching,
"keep your eyes open for me" Holly said has her hand continued moving towards its destination, finally she reached where Gail needed her the most, she rubbed her clit in slow tight circles, she heard Gail gasp, Gail wrapped her arms around her neck before kissing her sloppily, Holly thrust two fingers into Gail and she saw Gail's eyes widen before relaxing a little, she set a relentless pace, pumping in and out, Holly loved looking into Gail's eyes while her fingers moved in and out of her, she loved the pleasure, love and desire she saw, and just for a few moments, the sadness was gone, it was just her and Holly, no one else, nothing could hurt her. Holly curled her fingers touching that rough spongy spot, and she thrust in and out furiously, Gail was moaning and panting loudly,
"Hol Holly oh Holly" she moaned out, her eyes never once leaving the brunette's, Holly pushed in as deep as she could go, and Gail came hard, she went limp under her, Holly kissed her forehead and covered her with a blanket, Gail would be out of it for a while, Holly knew she didn't sleep well last night, she could tell straight away from the bags under her eyes, it gave her some time to herself to reflect and think about what she was going to do.
Holly was pacing the lounge wearing nothing but an oversized sweatshirt, they weren't leaving the cottage until tomorrow, and Holly was thinking about what she could do to support Gail and if she was honest, she didn't know what she could do, so she rang the only person that would know,
"hey mom",
"hey honey, i'm glad you found Gail, how is she sweetheart?"
"she's okay-" Holly paused and Claire waited patiently "-she's okay considering",
"oh honey" Claire said sympathetically, she loved Gail like she was her own, in the short time they were together, she had really bonded with her,
"I want to help her, I don't know how, she's in so much pain, she's been hurt so much, I just want her to be happy, to be okay again" Holly said close to tears, Gail was listening from a distance, she didn't mean to but she was about to enter the lounge after she passed out earlier, when she heard Holly speaking so she thought it'd be rude to…interrupt ,
"you're doing everything you can, you're fighting for her, you're making sure she knows you're there, that's the best you can do dear, she knows honey, she knows you love her",
"thank you mom, I needed to hear that, have a good day, bye, love you",
"anytime, you too, I love you too sweetheart" Holly hung up and put her hand in front of her mouth trying to muffle her sobbing, she collapsed to the floor, she felt arms wrap around her,
"Gail…" she said softly through tears,
"I'm sorry baby, don't say I don't need to apologise because I do, I'm sorry, I am so sorry for putting you through this, I love you" Gail moved Holly into her lap where she held her while she sobbed, Gail rubbed soothing circles into her back,
"listen to me Holly-" she cupped Holly's cheeks and turned her head gently to face her, "- I love you, okay? Do you hear me when I say that? I love you Holly Stewart, I'm fucked up right now, I know I need to get help, and I'll do it, I won't let this beat me, I promise you Holly I promise" she said before kissing Holly slowly and softly,
"I love you too Gail Peck" she said kissing Gail with more force, Holly moved so she was straddling Gail, they both knew there would be no foreplay and Gail slipped her fingers into Holly's wet opening, which earned a gasp, she moved her fingers in and then completely out before thrusting back in hard, Holly was moving up and down her arms flung around Gail's neck while her head was thrown back in pleasure,
"oh Gail-" she moaned "-fuck baby" Holly moaned,
"that's it, forget the world, it's just me and you" Gail husked, while she added a third finger, which made Holly grind down harder and moan even louder,
"oh god-" she panted, "-I'm close",
"let go" Gail said softly as she sucked on her pulse point, Holly cried out as she came all over Gail's hand, she buried her face in the crook of Gail's neck and kissed her neck, "Hol I would carry you but i'm too-" she paused, "i'm too weak" she said her voice full of shame, she used to be able to carry Holly without a problem, but now she could barely hold a cup of coffee, she was lucky with the position they just had sex in because if Gail had to take complete control and use her strength she wouldn't have lasted long before she got tired.
Holly lifted her head and kissed Gail's temple, "you will build your strength up again, it's going to take time, but you need to start eating properly again, it's scaring me how much weight you've lost-" she stood up and pulled Gail up with her, Gail refused to meet her eye, she hated feeling weak, "-sweetie-" she paused and tilted Gail's chin, "-look at me-" Gail reluctantly looked at the chocolate brown eyes that had captured her heart, "-things can only go up from here, we will go through this together" Gail smiled, and kissed Holly softly,
"thank you for picking me up from the ground" Gail said quietly,
"anytime" Holly responded.
Later that evening.
"Gail I made a lasagne-" she paused her yelling "- with cheese sauce obviously!" Holly yelled from the kitchen it took a few moments and then she heard Gail padding down the hall, she felt arms wrap around her from behind,
"mmm smells good-" she paused "-oh and the lasagne does too" Holly chuckled lightly,
"come on dork, lets eat" they both took their plates into the lounge where they were marathoning Harry Potter.
Holly had almost finished her food whereas Gail hadn't even gotten halfway through it, she could tell Gail was really trying to eat it but she was struggling,
"Gail you don't have to eat it if you're full" Gail looked at Holly gratefully,
"sorry I just didn't want you to think we took one step forward and two steps back, it does taste really good though, I just can't finish it" she said honestly,
"your stomach has shrunk honey, it's going to take some time for you to be able to eat bigger portions, you'll get there soon enough, as long as you're eating enough and trying, it's all I can ask for" Holly said as she kissed Gail's cheek and stood up taking both their plates into the kitchen, she returned a few minutes later holding two wine glasses,
"mm red wine, perfect" Gail moaned, Holly shook her head,
"is that all it takes to get you to moan?" Holly asked teasingly,
"oh wouldn't you like to find out" Gail sassed, Holly raised her eyebrow.
"Dov did Gail take any of her stuff with her when she moved out?!" Chloe yelled from Gail's old bedroom,
"she took what she wanted to and left the rest behind!" he yelled back, he entered the room and looked questioningly at Chloe,
"what? I'm just looking for some clean bedsheets" she said innocently, she continued rummaging through the draws when she came across something that felt a lot like…
"no freaking way!" she said excitedly as she jumped up and down,
"what is it?" Dov said trying to look at what was in her hand,
"ah ah ah no, I don't think so, get out" she said still beaming,
"Wha..Come on Chlo what is it?" he asked impatiently,
"Dov Epstein if you want to have sex ever again you will get out" Dov ran out the door, she whipped out her phone and snapped a picture before texting Gail,
'Chloe: Hey Gail, I think you may have forgotten something… 8 inches I'm pretty impressed ;)'
Gail nearly choked on her wine, Holly had to pat her on the back a few times,
"what made you choke?" Holly asked curiously, eyeing Gail's phone,
"n..nothing" Gail stuttered,
'Gail: that's not mine and get out of my room'
Chloe smirked,
'Chloe: liar, I don't think Chris and Dov use Strap-on's, and you moved out! Remember?'
Gail choked and again Holly patted her on the back,
"Gail what is it?" Holly said poking her cheek, Gail turned bright red,
"she found the strap-on" she mumbled, Holly frowned,
"what?"
"she found the strap-on" she said a little louder, this time it was Gail who had to pat Holly on the back,
"h..how? when? GAIL!" she squealed out,
"I must have forgotten to pack it" Gail said quietly, Holly let this process in her mind for a moment before she burst out laughing,
"hey it's not funny! I'm mortified!" she said jabbing Holly in the ribs,
"oh lighten up! You find it funny too, you're laughing on the inside!" Holly said as she began to tickle Gail who tried to get away but Holly was on top of her,
"okay okay it's funny it's funny!" Gail managed to get through laughs, Holly eased off,
"are you going to tell her?" she asked seriously,
"tell her what?" Gail asked looking up, confused, at Holly who was still on top of her, Holly's voice dropped,
"how I fucked you-" she paused "-how you dragged your nails down my back-" she paused and nibbled Gail's ear, "-how you screamed my name-" she kissed her neck "-how I pushed all 8 inches into you-" Gail's breathing became heavy "-how I made you squirt-" Holly's hand slowly inched it's way to Gail's stomach "-how you rode me-" she kissed Gail and pushed her tongue into her mouth before pulling back "-how you held onto me while I fucked you hard"
"er..um n…no" Gail stuttered, Holly grinned and kissed her softly,
"good, so you better reply to her" Holly said as she sat up and poured them some more wine, Gail shook her head, trying to get the images out of her head,
'Gail: Are you sure about Dov…? I hope you didn't touch it because… it has been used' Gail smirked, and Holly narrowed her eyes looking suspiciously at Gail,
"what?" Gail asked trying to look innocent,
"nothing.." Holly said her eyes not once leaving Gail's,
Chloe stared wide eyed at the strap-on and dropped it,
'Chloe: ew Gail! Why didn't you tell me?!'
'Gail: What did you think I did with it? Use it as a microphone? Ooooh maybe you thought I ran around pretending to be a unicorn!'
'Chloe: I just.. touched where... GAIL!'
'Gail: Me and Holly are laughing at your freak out right now'
'Chloe: This conversation never happened!'
'Gail: you can pretend this conversation never happened but the fact is that you just held something that has been-' Holly glared at Gail before she could finish typing,
"Gail Peck finish that sentence, I dare you" never one to back down from a challenge Gail continued typing,
' -inside me, and you see that hook on the other end? That's been inside Holly, good evening Chloe!' she pressed send and Holly just glared at her, Gail pouted and put on her best puppy dog eyes, Holly could never be mad when Gail gave her that look, she rolled her eyes and kissed Gail,
"I think we just scarred the poor girl" Gail laughed,
"that was kinda the plan" Gail said with a smug look on her face.
"Chloe! Seriously what did you fi-" Dov burst into the room "-no! I did not see that! Nope Nope Nope!" he chanted as he backed out the room covering his eyes, Chloe just stared at her phone, then at the strap-on then at her hands,
'Chloe: I'm scarred for life GAIL!'.
Kind of a lighter chapter!
Next few chapters, a new case is introduced the team.
We will see more of the others, especially Andy and Sam.
Gail goes to her first Therapy session since the attack from her mother's thugs.
A possible proposal.
So stick around! There's a lot more than what I've given away!
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