Chapter 25: Goodbye my lover
Castiel got home at 3 am. It was late, especially because it was Monday and he had school that day. But it didn't matter to him; he could miss classes for one day. What mattered to him was Sam. Castiel got upstairs and he was glad to see Sam sleeping peacefully. After hours trying to make him relax and fall asleep. Castiel lay down next to his boyfriend carefully, not to wake him up.
Sometime after Gabriel came home. He checked Sam and Castiel, who were asleep. Then he went to his room and lay on the bed. Dean invaded his mind, how he was stupid and Gabriel felt like he wanted to hit him. But he couldn't forget the kiss. Gabriel shook the thought away. But he still felt the taste of Dean's mouth.
At the morning, when Castiel woke up, he felt the miss of Sam's embrace. He opened his eyes and Sam wasn't there. He heard someone knocking on the door. Dean. Castiel quickly got downstairs.
"Where's Sam?" Dean asked him.
Castiel searched Sam with his eyes, in the living room. "I…"
Then Sam appeared, coming out of the kitchen.
"Sam…" Castiel could see he wasn't alright.
Sam got near them and looked at Dean. "Ok, you won. I go with you." He said sadly.
Castiel felt his heart stop for a moment. If the couch wasn't behind him, he was sure he had fallen back.
Dean was surprised too. But still, he let a prideful smirk show in his lips.
Sam looked at Castiel in shame. He got close to him. "I'm sorry." He said sobbing.
Castiel reached Sam's face with his hand. "It's ok. I understand." Castiel said almost crying. Sam crushed him against his chest in despair. Only then Castiel cried.
As Sam and Castiel were saying goodbye, Lucifer and Gabriel joined Michael in the hall, wondering what was happening. Then Gabriel saw Dean, who looked meanly happy. Dean looked at him and he showed a disappointed look. But Dean ignored it.
Sam raised Castiel's head, making him look at him. Seeing Castiel break in tears Sam kissed him passionately. The tears instantly stopped.
"I want you to have this…" Sam said taking off his necklace with the silver lizard.
"No. I can't. Your mother gave it to you…"
"My mom said it decreases someone's miss. And she said I should give it to someone that would miss me… Please take it."
"Ok." Castiel nodded.
Sam put the necklace on Castiel's neck. "And promise me something…"
"Anything you wish."
"Promise me that you won't do something stupid because of me."
"What do you mean?"Castiel didn't understand was he meant.
"I mean a depressive state in which you may die." Sam said worried. "I understand… I'll miss you too, a lot. But just don't…"
"Sam, what happened before was different. I thought you were dead."
"Promise me." Sam insisted, almost begged.
"Ok, I promise."
"Sam. We gotta go." Dean said.
"Just a minute." Sam let go of Castiel and turned in his brothers' direction.
"Thanks, for letting me stay here." He told Michael.
Michael had foreseen the day when Sam would dump his brother, but this was different and he didn't blame Sam. "You're welcome." And Michael nodded with a small smile.
"Goodbye, Lucifer." Sam said turning to him.
"Now that I was starting to like you… Who's gonna make Mike shut up, now?"
Sam smiled a bit. "I think you'll do that."
"Can I ask you something?" Sam asked Gabriel.
"Sure."
"Take care of him…" Sam looked slightly at Castiel.
"You didn't need to ask. I'll always look after little Cassie…"
"Thanks, anyway."
"Take care of yourself, kiddo."
Sam nodded.
Before he leaves Sam kissed Castiel tenderly one last time. Castiel hold Sam's hands, not wanting him to go. As Sam stepped away Castiel slowly let go of his hand. Castiel's heart broke completely when the door closed. And so he went to his room.
The trip went in silent. Sam didn't talk to Dean during hours. He just kept look out the window of the Impala, crying silently as they got far away from Castiel's house.
Dean pulled over for lunch. Sam was still quiet. "Oh, don't sulk at me. It was your choice." Dean said tired of Sam's bad mood.
"Why did I have to choose for starts? We're brothers. You're my family. I thought we would always be together. You shouldn't question that. You don't have the right to question that." Sam spoke after hours of silence. "Sometimes…you're really a jerk."
"If I'm such a jerk… why didn't you stay?"
"You wanna know why? Because I wasn't alright. And I won't be alright…whoever I chose. I'm a wreck and if I had stayed Cas would be a wreck too."
"What, you're like Siamese twins?" Dean interrupted.
"He cares about me. Enough to pain him to see me hurt."Sam shouted. "Just like I'd give anything to not see him cry." He admitted quietly to himself, out of statement. "So I couldn't do that to him. But you… you just don't care."
"This is what you might call a tragedy from the human perspective."
Sorry for being so short... But I hope you liked it.