A/N: Thank you to everyone that review and read this story. Thank you to HAVERA for betting this chapter too. Now I know you guys being dying for Sam and Jules to get together, but remember high school never being easy. But they would have they good happy ending. Please review and tell me what you guys think.

Chapter 25

It was a month later and things hadn't changed between Sam and me. We would speak and talk to each other when other people are around, but we avoided situations where we had to stay alone. He would come to my house sometimes, but I would either be in my room or talking to Steve and sometimes Curtis would be there too. Adrian tried to instigate drama between us when we were alone, but I would ignore her. Some nights I would cry myself to sleep, but I still continue acting like seeing Sam with someone else didn't bother me, or like I was not in love with him. The worst part was that the more I saw him, the more I wanted him and wanted to tell him the truth.

Valentine day arrived and the school was hosting a party and everyone was going as it was on a Saturday night. Curtis and I were going to be playing at the dance and I was excited about it because it was my first Valentine with a boyfriend. Rory, Lucy and I went shopping with Jamie's girlfriend, Melanie and we bought some really nice dresses. She helps us do our hair and we the waited for the guys to come and pick us up. We had decided that we would meet in my house and then Jamie and his friends would drive us there. After the guys picked us up, we drove to the school. It was packed with students and the school staff was there to keep an eye on everyone. Jamie and his friends walked in first and Curtis and I followed them. When we arrived at the tables, I noticed Sam and Adrian. Apparently he had decided to come with her and I felt like crying. They really looked nice together. He was wearing a black suit with a white shirt, and she had this tight red dress, with a very low cut front and all the guys couldn't stop staring at her, including Curtis. After saying hi to everyone we took our sits. I noticed that not a lot of people were dancing it was mostly the juniors and the seniors. Everyone else was either sitting down, or at the sides of the room talking to someone.

"The gym looks really nice." Lucy said.

"Yes it does, but there aren't a lot of people dancing." I said and they nodded.

"You want to dance?" Curtis asked and grabbed my hand and led me to the dance floor. We were dancing to this slow song and all I could feel were his eyes on me. When Curtis turned me around I spotted him in the dance floor with Adrian. She was pressed really close to him but all he did was stared at me and I couldn't take my eyes off him either. Then the song finish and Curtis went to get me something to drink.

"Can I have this dance?"

"Sure Steve." I said and took his hand.

"You look really beautiful tonight." Steve said and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"You sure, you aren't just saying that because you are my friend?"

"I really mean it. That purple dress looks amazing on you. Even with your back open, is not too showy and it's elegant and sexy." He said and I smiled. I was worried that the dress was too much but the girls said it was nice and sexy. It's a purple dress up to my knee. It has spaghetti straps that go around the back and is low cut in the back but just half way. And in the front is a little revealing but not too much and it doesn't even matter, because I have no breasts.

"Thank you, you look nice too."

"So I get to hear you singing today. Are you nervous?"

"No, I am excited, I can't wait to sing." I said and smiled. The song finished and we walked back to the table talking and laughing about something. As soon as we reached the table Curtis got up and automatically put his arm around my bare back and started rubbing it. I didn't want to look at Sam but I could feel the intensity of his eyes on me and I couldn't help myself and I looked his way. He was glaring at me and he looked really pissed. I stared at him for a few more second and turned around and continued paying attention to Curtis and Steve. After a few more minutes Steve went to his table and Curtis and I sat down.

"What?" I snapped at him after a few minutes of him staring at me.

"Why were you dancing with him?"

"He is my friend and I can dance with whoever I want." I snapped at Curtis while wishing it was Sam I was having this conversation with. Talking about Sam how dare he to glare at me for being with my boyfriend and friend when he is with his girlfriend?

"I am sorry. I got jealous for a second I only want you to dance with me." He said and hugged me while kissing me. I relaxed and tried to forget about what just happened. I turned my attention to the girls and joined in the conversation. A few minutes later Curtis excused himself and left us girls alone.

"Jules, Sam has not taken his eyes of you. He is not even paying attention to Adrian and she is really upset about it." Rory said and they giggled.

"I haven't notice." I said and they glared at me.

"Liar, you haven't taken your eyes of him either, and I think Curtis has noticed too."

"Well I don't care. Sam and I are just friends, and we've made that perfectly clear so there is no reason to have this conversation again." I said and took a long sip of my drink and excused myself and went to the bathroom. I had to walk the long way to the bathrooms because the dance was in the school gym. I was washing my hands when I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I stood there and stared at the reflection. I looked so different with make up on and the dress. I felt beautiful and pretty like a regular girl, not just one of the guys.

"You look beautiful, no, you look gorgeous." He said and I jumped, when the hell did he came in.

"Um, it is the dress and the make up." I said turning around.

"Jules, that dress and make up only add to your beauty. You are beautiful no matter what you put on." He said and stepped closer to me.

"Sam what are you doing?" I asked and tried to move out of his reach but I bumped into the wall.

"I needed to see you." He said as he was standing in front of my face.

"Why?" I whispered.

"Just because." He said and I closed my eyes. Why is this so complicated?

"Look Sam this is the girls' bathroom. I don't want people to get the wrong idea about us, why don't you go. Don't do this, whatever this is." I said and tried my best not to let the tears come down my face.

"Why do you keep doing that?"

"Doing what?"

"Why do you keep pushing me away?" He said and stepped back a little.

"Sam what do you want from me, be honest because I am at lose here."

"You didn't answer my question."

"How can I answer yours, when you don't even know what you want? You can't even see what is right in front of you. You know why I keep pushing you away, because I don't know how else to act around you. I don't understand what you want from me or what you expect from me." I said and my tears started coming down my cheeks.

"Don't cry Jules, I didn't mean to upset you. You are wrong, sometimes I just find hard to put into words what this is." He said and stepped closer to me while staring at my eyes. Then he reaches with his thumb and cleared the tears. When he is finished he caressed my chin and past his thumb through my lips.

"I am wrong about what?" I whisper and continued staring at him. He leaned towards my ear and I closed my eyes while inhaling his cologne.

"I've known what I want since I was eight years old and I've always seen what was right in front of me." He whispered in my ear and kissed my cheek. When I opened my eyes, he was gone. I collapsed on the floor and started crying. Few minutes later I heard the door opening and Melanie was standing right in front of me.

"Jamie come in, it's Jules." She screamed and he burst into the bathroom.

"What the hell happened?" Jamie asked and sat next to me. He picked me up and sat me on his lap, while Melanie close the door and sat next to him and rub my legs.

"Jamie, this liking someone is so complicated. He is so complicated; I don't know what to do." I said and continued sobbing in his arms.

"Baby girl what happened, start from the beginning. Sam just said to come here." Jamie said and I couldn't calm down. He actually sent my brother to comfort me.

After a few long minutes, I told them what happened.

"Jules, he loves you and I am tired of you two going around each other acting like you guys don't have feelings towards each other." Jamie snapped.

"But how can I be sure. I am scared Jamie. What will happen if I lose his friendship?" I asked through my tears.

"Jules, it is a risk everyone takes in love. It looks to me that you guys don't know how to talk to each other because of your feelings towards each other. It's like that at first but once everything is out there, it is much better and easier to handle. You need to tell him how you feel, not because of him, but because of you. For your own peace of mind so you can stop thinking about the what if." Melanie said and Jamie agreed.

"Melanie is right, trust me, you will feel much better. If you are not ready to tell him, well tonight is perfect. You are going to sing soon and you are freer when you sing. You tend to express yourself better when you sing. Today it's the most romantic day of the year, use it to sing how you feel Jules, but please take a risk on love. You take risk on everything else but love honey, and I think it is time you do." Jamie said and kissed my forehead.

"Thank you guys. I think I am ready now to let him know how I really feel." I said and they both smiled at me. We got up and Melanie helped me fix my make up and we walked back to the gym. When I arrived Curtis came and hugged me.

"Are you alright, I've been looking for you." He said.

"Yes, I was talking to my brother and Melanie." I said and they both winked at me and I smiled. I spotted Sam sitting next to Adrian and he was sad, hurt and in pain. It hurt me to see him like that because I knew I was the cause.

"Come on baby, it's time for us to sign." Curtis said and led me to the stage. He introduced the band and we started playing. We played a few songs and everyone loved it. It was the end of the night and we were going to play the last song. It was something different and Curtis said I could introduce it because I was singing it.

"Well guys, this is the last song of the night, so grab your special person and joined us at the dancing floor. This song is really special and I believe it's perfect for tonight. It is called "Have You Ever?" It's about how you feel when you find true love, the one you are meant to be with, but you don't know how to express yourself so they don't know how you feel. Sometimes no matter how much you want to tell me how you feel, you just can't find the right words to tell them so things get complicated and half of the time you end up missing out on that amazing love that keeps you up all night. A love so deep and meaningful that makes you cries just because loving that person makes you feel so special and fulfilled. So this song is dedicated to those that can't find the right words to express how they feel towards someone. Happy Valentine" I said and I started singing.

"Have You Ever?"

[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

[Chorus]

I sang the song staring at Sam the entire time. He was sitting on the table and it was like it was just him and me in the entire gym. When I finished signing everyone clapped and I felt like a weight was lifted of my shoulder. I hadn't said the words, but at least he knew now how I felt. When we got off the stage, Adrian walked toward me and slapped me.

"What the hell was that?" She yelled and before she could slap me again, I punched her right on the face.

"I don't know what the hell you are talking about, but you touched me again and I will do more than punch you in the face." I screamed at her while she tried to get up.

"You are such a bitch. You were singing that to my boyfriend." She screamed and everyone was staring at us now.

"It was just a song. Did I ever mention Sam's name, you ignorant?" I yelled at her and she tried to slap me again but before she could do it I punched her again, this time a lot harder and she fell on the floor. Jamie stood next to me but didn't grab me. He knew better than to try to restrain me. Then I noticed Sam arriving and he picked her up.

"We are leaving." He said to her and she started crying.

"Look what she did, she is such a beast." She said and started crying. I made a move to walk towards her but she buried her face in his chest and he put his arms around her. At that exact moment my heart broke because he had chosen her over me. I was about to start crying when the teachers came in.

"What happened here?" One of the teachers asked.

"She hit me. I was asking her a question and she punched me, twice." She said and I felt my blood boiled, I was going to kill her.

"I am going to kill you." I snapped and this time Jamie did grab me.

"Julianna Callaghan, I want to see you in my office Monday morning with your father." The principle said from behind us and Jamie grabbed me and we left.

When we arrive home, I went straight to my room. I was so furious. I couldn't believe that after such a nice night this had to happen. The worst part was not Adrian hitting me, or lying to everyone, was that he defended her. He actually believed her and not me. That hurt more than I could have ever imagined and I couldn't believe that after all I was right. That I did fell in love by myself. That everything is in my head and I cried myself to sleep.

I spent Sunday in my room crying. Jamie would come and check on me sometimes. He said that Lucy, Rory and Steve stopped by to check on me but he told them I was not feeling up to seeing anyone and they left. The only two people I wish had stopped by never did and it just made me feel worse.

It was Monday morning and I was getting ready to go see the principle with my father. I was trying my best to cover my swollen eyes. If I thought I had cry a lot during last month, I could actually name a river after myself for all the tears I had shed since Saturday night. When we arrived at the school I was glad that class had already started, I was not in the mood to see anyone. We sat in the principle office and Adrian was there with her father. When she took her sun glasses off, I actually felt bad. Her face was purple and both of her eyes were bruised. She looked like someone had beaten the crap out of her and I couldn't believe that with two punches I actually did that to her. After we both explained what had happened, the principle decided that I should be suspended for three weeks. He wasn't going to tolerate this kind of behavior in his school and apparently I was the one that crossed the line. Basically they believed her over me and there was nothing I could do about it. It was agreed that Jamie would bring me my school work, so I wouldn't fall behind in school. When my father and I arrived home, he grounded me.

"Jules, I don't know what to do with you. When it comes to Sam Braddock you are a different person."

"No, I am not." I snapped

"Watch your attitude young lady and don't say you don't because I remember all the fights you got into because of him, plus you and Adrian are always fighting over him. I am tired of this situation; I don't want you seeing him." He said and I was shocked.

"Wait. What are you talking about? Sam had nothing to do with this and Adrian is a lying bitch, she is just upset and making all this drama because I beat the crap out of her. I have a boyfriend and I haven't got into any fights because of Sam, and in case you don't remember I've been fighting way before we met." I snapped again. I was so furious that I started crying.

"You need some discipline. You are going to come to work with me every day. I'm going to teach how to show respect apparently your brothers didn't teach you some manners. And again stay away from Sam Braddock or trust me this will end badly. I am not going to have my daughter fighting over some kid that is not even worth it." He snapped and walked away. I just stood there crying. I couldn't believe what he just said that about Sam. I had never got into trouble because of Sam. Yes, I cried a lot because of him but that was all. I wonder why he was acting like that towards Sam. He wasn't like that with him a few years ago. Anyway now he wanted to be my father. Please, my brothers are more of a father to me than him. He was hardly ever at home and he has no idea what is going on with us. I went to my room and I cried myself to sleep.

The next day my father woke me up at 5 in the morning and took me to work with him. We used to arrive home around 8 or 9 at night and then I would have to do my work for school to send it with Jamie the next morning. This routine went on for two weeks, until Jamie snapped at my father and told him he couldn't continue treating me like that.

"You can't continue treating her like this." Jamie snapped one night when we were in the living room.

"Continue like what, she needs discipline." My father snapped back.

"I would understand if she had done something wrong, but she didn't. Adrian lied and you are punishing her without even knowing if Adrian was telling the truth. Look at her, she is getting sick. She can't continue with this schedule of yours. She stays home or she goes back to school, but she is not going with you." Jamie snapped again and I could have sworn my father was a little scared. When my father looked at me and I noticed how his eyes soften.

"Fine she stays home, but I don't want you near Sam Braddock or getting into trouble and Jamie if you ever talk to me like that again, you are the one that will be coming to work with me." He said and walked away. When he was gone from the living room Jamie came and sat down next to me on the couch.

"Jules you need to eat and take care of yourself better. You have lost some weight in the past two weeks with his crazy schedule and all the crying you've been doing."

"Jamie I don't want you to get in trouble." I said and started crying.

"Jules it wasn't fair and for you I would do anything. He is lucky I haven't told Jonathan, Jeremiah and Justin about this. They would be in the first flight out here. You did nothing wrong, it was her."

"Thank you for everything. I will take care of myself better I promise, just don't tell the guy please."

"Alright I promise." He said and hugged me and I lay my head on his chest.

"Jamie, why didn't they believe me? I know I have fought a lot and I am short tempered but I was telling the truth." I said and my eyes started welling up with tears.

"Honey, I don't know, but it is not right. What I don't understand is why dad wants you to stay away from Sam. He wasn't physically involved in this." Jamie said.

"I don't know but I am confused too. He said something about Sam being not worth it. It actually hurt to hear him talk about Sam like that because Sam is nothing like that."

"You are right honey; the boy is worth so much more. He has a golden heart and just wants the best for everyone. You should see him. He is a mess. He is walking around the school like a zombie and lately he is being really busy after school, I think his father has him doing something or maybe he is in trouble."

"Maybe that is why he hasn't stop by." I said to myself.

"Exactly. For the past two weeks Sam has been lost in his own world. I tried talking to him, but he keeps telling me that he is alright but I know something is wrong."

"What about Adrian or Curtis, how are they doing?" I asked because I was too curious to find out.

"Well Curtis is upset because of the whole song thing. I haven't seen him much after school either. He must be busy with the band and Adrian didn't come to school for a week because of her face. She also seems to be busy after school like Curtis and Sam because the three of them leave school as soon as it is finished." He said and got up.

"Oh." I said and watched Jamie walk to the kitchen. I stood there thinking that maybe Sam was with Adrian after school and that was why he didn't stop by or maybe he didn't care what happened to me. I can't be mad at Curtis though because in his opinion I did disrespect him in front of everyone. Few minutes later Jamie came back with some food and we ate while watching a movie.

I spent the rest of the week alone what it was horrible because I had time to think about what happened three weeks ago and how I felt about Curtis and Sam. I felt so bad for Curtis because I should had broken up with him first and then make my move on Sam, but things happened so quick that didn't have time to think about the consequences. When it comes to Sam Braddock I lose all my train of thought and I just move into action. It was the last day of my suspension when someone knocked on the door.

"Hi Steve, what are you doing here?"

"Hi Jules, I wanted to see you, and Sam asked me if I could bring you the assignment for spring break." He said while stepping into the house and sitting on the couch.

"Wait, Sam. What do you mean, where is Jamie?" I asked and sat down next to him.

"Jamie had late football practice and asked Sam to bring it to you. He agreed but then asked me to bring it to you because he had to do something."

"Oh. What do you mean spring break?"

"Jules, starting today we are off for a week." He said and I sighed.

"Damn another week out of school."

"It will be alright Jules, just relax."

"Thank you Steve, you are a great friend."

"You are welcome and you are too."

"So, tell me what are the news and what are you going to do for spring break." I asked and Steve started telling me about school and what was coming up for the rest of the week. After a while I zoned out and started thinking about Sam. What could have been so important for him not to stop by and bring me my homework? Was he really avoiding me?

"Jules, are you listening?" Steve asked me and I looked at my hands to hide my embarrassment.

"I am sorry Steve, I was just thinking about something."

"Let me guess, Sam."

"Yes and no, I was just wondering how he is being. And even Adrian, last time I saw her, her face was really bad."

"She is good. I think she is going away for the spring break."

"Oh." I manage to say because my next question was if she was going alone.

"Jules. Look, don't worry about her. We all know she lied and we don't understand why they didn't believe you but things will get better."

"Thank you Steve." I said and lean closer to him to kiss him on the cheek but I ended up kissing him on the lips. The kiss was nice and sweet but it felt wrong. It felt like I was kissing my brother and I regretted it the moment my lips touched his.

"Jules."

"Oh Steve, I am so sorry. I don't know what came over me. Oh god and you have a girlfriend. I am so sorry Steve." I said and got up and started pacing.

"Jules calm down. It is alright. Don' worry, I won't think anything less of you and I promise not to tell anyone." He said and all I could do was look at him.

"But still, I abuse our friendship, I shouldn't have done that."

"Jules, honestly, it is alright and it was bound to happen sometime."

"What do you mean?"

"Jules when you have two friends from the opposite sex, sometimes the line between friends is bound to cross. Something might change one day and you see something more, but when you actually take the risk, you realize that it wasn't right. If they make a big deal out of it, the friendship will get ruin, but if they are willing to talk about it they can move on and their friendship remains." He said and all I could do was stared at him. He just described my fear towards my relationship with Sam perfectly.

"You are right and that is what I think is happening between Sam and me. I built this illusion and I thought I liked him but in reality, I was just curious and now I ruined our friendship because of it." I said and sat down next to him again.

"Jules let me tell you something about Sam and you." He said and I nodded. He started talking and I listened to everything he said. We spoke for an hour and he told me so much. It was really interesting to see someone else's perspective and I was glad that Steve was my friend. When we finished talking he went home and I went to my room. I thought about everything that had happened and felt sleep.

The following day I woke up and I made breakfast for Jamie and myself. Dad had left for work already and today was Saturday and I was not grounded anymore. After we ate and we did our chores, we got ready and wait for his friends to come over. Lucy, Rory and Steve were coming too.

"Hi Jules, we missed you so much." Rory said and hugged me, followed by Lucy. They were the first ones to arrive and we sat on the living room.

"So girls what is new?" I asked and they both started talking at the same time and telling me everything that I missed.

"Wait you said Adrian and Sam left for the week. Where did they go?" I asked and felt like crying.

"I am sorry Jules, rumors are that they both left this morning. We don't know where and they won't be back until the end of next week." Rory said.

"Oh."

"Look they could be in different places and it could be just a coincidence that they just left at the same me. Let's not jump to conclusions ok." Lucy said.

"It doesn't matter anymore girls. At the end of the day, he chose her over me. I haven't seen him in almost a month, since the party so I guess I got my answer. I was just fooling myself. I am just upset that now I lost Curtis too." I said and cleaned the tears that where falling down my cheeks.

"I don't believe that. Sam really likes you and he must have his reasons for not coming to visit." Lucy said.

"As I said before it doesn't matter anymore. Whatever that was, is over now." I said and got up to open the door. It was Melanie, the football team and Steve. I decided to enjoy my friends' company and forget about everything that had to do with Sam Braddock.

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