Alec's POV

We got a little bit of sleep during Lowell's nap, but he woke up before we did. He did not take it well that his parents were no where to be found the moment his eyes opened. We were already out of bed when Bella came to get us and we ran outside to see the pack still doing their best to fix the problem. I ran right up to the car, crouching down to run under all the wolves instead of trying to make my way around them. My chest was heaving with effort trying to catch my breath as my palms pressed against the glass. Lowell yipped pawing at the window again at the sight of me and Embry and more than anything wanted to I wanted wrap my baby up in my arms.

"Can't we let him out? He's just getting more upset not being able to be with us."

I pleaded with the wolf who in human form was my brother, he was the one who made the choices. There may be things I missed since leaving years ago, but that wasn't one of them. He hated to see me in pain and whined softly, but just looked away from me and over at Sam. The other wolf that he shared the decision making with, neither of them were going to give me what had been asked and I knew that. They wouldn't risk me getting hurt like Emily did, they were trying to protect everyone involved. Embry was just as torn, it was all in his eyes and I was not about to sit here and keep this going.

Edward's head snapped to look at me as I moved, he moved just a second later. He was a lot faster than me, but had a lot more obstacles than me to get past to reach me. My hand was already on the door handle when he pulled me away, so really he helped. The door flung open as Edward put me into Embry's arms and everyone stood tense waiting for Lowell. He sat there for a moment looking at the open door than scooted backwards and tried to crawl backwards into his broken car seat. Embry had an iron grip on me, but that was not about to stop me from getting to my son. Half the work was already done, the other half was just a few feet away. When I tried to step away from Embry him he pulled me closer, his grip biting a bit into my skin, I glared up at Embry as his eyes pleaded with me.

"I want my son in my arms now. Please let me go Embry."

"Don't do this. Please." His voice was so broken.

"He's a baby. He needs his mother. Nothing is going to happen to me. Please let me go. Trust me."

My last two words were so soft it was a good thing Embry is a wolf or he may not have heard them. He was just as broken over the situation as I was, but wanted me out of it and I couldn't do that. He saw the tears in my eyes and looked past me at Jake, Quil, and Paul who all growled as he let me go. Jasper stood beside me at the car and nodded as I wiped tears away and leaned down to see inside the car better. Lowell was terrified, whimpering, still trying to hide from the things that he didn't understand. His tail covered his eyes and any other time would have been really cute, now it just made me feel terrible. With a deep breath to keep the tears away and sound more like my normal self, spoke softly with a small smile.

"Lowell, hey baby. Come see mommy, you're okay."

His head came up instantly at the sound of my voice and stared at me for a long time. Then he yipped and took a running leap at me from the car into my arms that would have knocked me to the ground. Thanks to Jasper, we just bumped into him and he kept us up until I found my balance with the squirming wolf pup in my arms. No one knew how to react now, all of them afraid he would still accidentally hurt me and me thrilled to have my child back not giving him up. Embry asked to hold him for a while and it was still hard even then to give him over to his father . Embry smiled softly and promised to give him back, then kissed my hair and told me I had done the right thing. Lowell was still upset, but he was at least calmer now curled up in my arms though he was too big to fit comfortably.

"What the hell were you thinking?"

Paul demanded now in human form as I watched Embry take Lowell over to the wolves.

"I was thinking that my son needed me and no one was listening."

"That was stupid. You could have gotten seriously hurt."

"He's my son Paul."

He stood there and stared at me hard that when I first got here would have scared me, now I stared back until he chuckled.

"Man, Mama wolf here. No one better ever cross you if they value their life. I feel bad for Leah. Having you for a mother-in-law."

"Ha ha. Like you're gonna be a fun father-in-law either."

Paul's whole body tensed again like when we had asked him to be Lowell's god father. It was starting to make sense now, someone was having issues with becoming a parent. All I could do was laugh patting his arm and jog to the house to get a drink while I could. Lowell wouldn't be pleased if he found me gone even if the wolves hadn't him distracted at the moment. Esme and Bella must have witnessed my risky move by the motherly looks they were giving me. They just got smiles on the way in the house and out of the house. Paul seemed to have recover now and watched the wolves now with crossed arms, glancing down at me at my arrival.

We both stood there a long time watching the interaction, hoping that it would work. It didn't seem to be, but Paul didn't look discouraged which was a good thing. That may have just been because he knew I was watching him for reactions on how things were going. By dinner my cell phone rang and both of us saw that it was Rachael and looked at each other. Emily must have been told that there was something going on, but there hadn't been the time to tell them what. Once they knew they would show up and that excitement may be too much for Lowell. Paul took my phone and walked off to talk to Rachael and took a while before he came back. He was extremely tense when he came back and handed me back my cell phone, it had gone much like suspected.

Lowell was given back to me when he was given dinner, the same time he had gotten too worked up. We sat in the yard, me singing softly petting his fur while he lapped up his milk hungry. The others gave us some space during this time, but watched us closely, intrigued by the way we interacted. It didn't take long for Lowell to crawl into my lap and fall asleep once he got comfortable. My heart was still breaking over the whole situation, but it was a little comforting that he looked peaceful in his sleep. His right ear twitched every so often which I found very adorable despite the situation. Embry sat beside me after some time and pulled me into him wrapping his arm around me and kissed my hair.

"You are great with him."

"Just trying to do my best. Being selfish really. I wanted him and I got him despite what you all said." I whispered.

"It was more than that Alec. You knew he needed you to be able to calm down. You stood you're ground and we're way farther than we would have been if you hadn't of done it. We may not have been happy about it, but you were right."

"What are we gonna do Embry?" The tears started to come back.

"We're going to help him control this, then we're going to move on and have a normal life like we planned."

I laughed brushing away tears."We're anything, but normal."

"Yeah, but that's okay."

"Are all our kids gonna go fluffy on me?" I asked sadly looking at Lowell, but Embry's silence stretched on longer than it should have my attention turned to him."Embry? You okay?"

He didn't look okay, kinda looked like Paul had earlier but a littler paler.

"You want more kids? Even after this?"

"Well.. maybe not right now. Lowell needs us to help him figure this out first. Maybe in a couple years we could try again."

The paleness kept coming and his breathing was no longer even.

"Let's just figure this out first."

I nodded turning my head back to watch Lowell sleep to hid the smile that wouldn't stay off my lips. It was clear that thinking of more kids was too much for Embry at the moment and with the day we had it was fair. Seeing him have a panic attack at the idea was a bit amusing as terrible as that sounds. In hopes of calming him I slid on hand over into his and rested my head onto his shoulder. We stayed like that for a long time until Jake and Quil came over with dinner and asked how we were doing. None of the three could keep there eyes off Lowell like they still couldn't believe that it was happening. That's when it occurred to me with a frown that I hadn't seen Leah, while I hadn't really been looking for her it made sense for her to be here.

"Who you looking for babe?" Embry asked softly watching me scan the whole yard still frowning.

"Leah, has she been here?"

The three looked rather uncomfortable, but Jake spoke.

"She couldn't keep it together so she sent her to patrol."

"Does she know that he's doing better now? It might make her calm down some?"

"I'm sure someone's told her babe."

"Could you go make sure. Please?"

The guys shared a look before Embry looked back at me.

"What if she wants to see him?"

Part of me had been waiting for that question.

"If she can get her shit together and stay calm without waking him up then she come see him. If she can't she better not come here or I will kick her ass wolf or not. All the progress we made today will not be ruin by anything."

Embry nodded kissing my hair again before disappearing into the forest leaving me with my other two favor men. They watched me closely without a word, studying me for a reason that I couldn't figure out. With a playful frown I studied them back trying to figure what was on their mind, like we had done when we were kids. They gave it away when Leah got here, both of their bodies tensing instantly as their eyes flickered from me to behind me. Sure enough about a minute later Embry and Leah came and stood about fifty feet from us. Embry had a tight grip on Leah's arm while she stared at Lowell heart broken sleeping in my lap. She didn't move, didn't even try to, just stood there for what felt like forever before she turned and ran back into the forest.

None of us knew what to say about what just happened, but Jake went to go check on her. He was gone a long time and wouldn't really say anything when he got back, just that she would be okay. When sunset came we had a whole new problem to deal with, where were we going to. Not many places could keep a wolf in due to their stregnth, we hadn't seen his full stregnth yet and didn't know what to expect. Eventually it was decided we would stay with the Cullens at least for the night, not everyone liked the plan. We didn't really have much of a plan, but they were family, they had the ability to help if it was needed and the wolves could get here as well.

The three of us settled into a nice room for the night the Esme had fussed over for an hour. Jasper spent a little time in to make it a little more wolf proof than we said our good nights. Lowell was put gently in the middle of the bed while we got ready and then curled around him. Embry smiled tiredly at me, kissing my hair one last time before he turned the light out. It didn't take him long to fall asleep, his snores gave him away for me it was harder to settle in. Everything from today was still running through my mind, so many thoughts and concerns popping up. It was somewhere around midnight when my tired eye finally fluttered closed.