Thank you all for answering my question :-) After reading your opinions and reading a lot about the topic, I decided that Mia and Claire weren't the right choice, as neither of them has given birth to a child before...

Another thing, I am going to be away on vacation, so I won't be able to update again before May 27th...

Disclaimer: All characters belong to E.L. James

Ana

I never thought that it would be so hard to find the right surrogate for us. At first Christian and I were sure that it wouldn't take more than a month or two to find the right woman. Boy, were we wrong. The biggest problem is not that there is no one willing to carry our child for us, but that the women we have met so far all weren't right for one reason or the other.

At first Claire and Mia offered to do it for us, and while I liked the idea to have someone close to us do that for us we decided against it in the end. The main reason was that neither of them had a child so far and Claire even miscarried once. They both don't know how it feels to be pregnant and Flynn told us that we had to consider that Mia or Claire wouldn't be able to give the baby to us once it is born. That would not only leave Christian and I utterly devastated, because how could we even think about suing his sister or my best friend who also is his brother's girlfriend, but it would also ruin our family. So, we decided to use the help of an agency.

We have met 5 possible surrogates so far and neither of them seemed right for us. One only waited until the lady from the agency left her office and told us that she knew who we are and that she wanted 5 million dollar for helping us. Christian nearly lost it and told her in no uncertain words that she was the last woman on earth he would consider to carry our baby and I agreed with him. After all once this woman would have been pregnant with our baby she could have demanded even more and also it is illegal to pay a surrogate for her help in the State of Washington. Of course we would pay for her doctors appointments and the hospital, but that is all legal and who would do that anyway if the couple whose child the woman is carrying would leave the surrogate to pay for everything?

Another woman came in with her husband and at first we really liked them, but after doing a severe background check it turned out that the woman had called the police several times because her husband is you very much, but not being the one who carries my child is nerve-wracking enough, but also worrying that her husband might beat her and our baby get's hurt in the process... I don't even want to think about that. Though Christian actually contacted her again and offered her our help should she decide to leave her husband. So far we haven't heard from her, which makes me sad, but some women are just to scared to get out of an abusive relationship.

Number three was dismissed by me, because she looked at Christian like he was a meat sandwich and she had not eaten in weeks. And if that wasn't bad enough, she also slipped a note into Christian's jacket letting him know that she was also willing to carry only his child and to conceive it naturally. That pissed me off so much that I convinced Christian to contact a different agency. And number four seemed to be perfect for us, but then her records showed that she had a drug problem in her teenage years and though she is clean for almost twenty years now it was a deal breaker for Christian.

Then there was the last woman we met that wanted to become our surrogate... not really sure what to say about her. She was nice, but both Christian and I couldn't see her carrying our child. And that is why today we are meeting with another couple. The woman's name is Judy, her husband is called Connor and they already have 4 kids age 4 to 10. He has his own IT-company and she is a stay at home mom. From the background check Christian did on them we know that they have both never did drugs or had any troubles with the law. They are married for 14 years and Judy is 34. The best thing though is that she already was a surrogate for her cousin and she is now looking for a couple that might even want more than one child, so she can carry all children for them. Christian and I want at least two more kids. So, maybe Judy is the one we are looking for.

I sure hope she is. We have tried to find the right surrogate for four months now and every time it turns out the woman we met isn't the one we are looking for I feel depressed. Judy and her husband have invited us to come meet them at their home, which is a first, but we liked the idea as it is much more personal than meeting in an office at the agency. Of course we had to ask them if it was okay for us to bring security, but they were cool about it. I just hope that this time Judy is the right one for us. It's bad enough that I can't carry our baby myself, but the process of finding the right surrogate is getting frustrating.

"Baby, are you ready, we want to leave in 20 minutes, Mia is already here to watch Mason."

"Yes, I am ready... or do you think I should change? Do I look okay?" It's already june and it is unusually hot in Seattle. So, I am wearing jeans shorts, yellow tube top and sandals, but now I am worried it is not appropriate.

"You look beautiful, baby. Besides this is not a business meeting and it is freaking hot, if it was appropriate I would walk around naked all day" he says with a wink and now that gives me a visual I really enjoy.

"Baby, don't look at me like that, because there is no time for us to fuck before we have to go." he groans and I look at my watch. We still have fifteen minutes, hell I want him now.

"Yes, we still have 15 minutes. Get naked!" I order and shake my shoes off while I had for the bathroom, we better take this show under the shower. It's so hot we need a shower after having sex anyway, so to safe time I figure it's best to already be under the shower.

"Horny, baby?" Christian chuckles. "Why yes, Mr. Grey and you are still dressed, maybe I need to give you a good visual" I smirk and undress quickly so I am naked in front of him. Then I get onto tiptoes and whisper in his ear.

"I am so wet for you, I need you to fuck me really hard... you can even fuck my ass if you want to"

Christian sucks in a sharp breath and his eyes darken dangerously. I know he likes it when I tell him what I want and I just have the time to pull my hair into a bun before he is naked and his lips find mine.

He lifts me onto his hips and wrap my legs around him while my fingers fist in his hair. Christian moves us into the shower switches it on and pins me against the wall.

"I really hope you are ready, baby, because this is going to be real quick" he murmurs while kissing down my neck.

"I was born ready, Mr. Grey" I moan and he chuckles. "Good to know, " He chuckles, puts me to my feet. "Bend over and hold on to the wall" he orders and when I do he pushes two fingers inside me and groans.

"Oh fuck baby, you are soo ready!"

"Told ya" I giggle and he lands a firm slap on my behind.

"No time for giggling now, baby!" and with that he thrust his cock deep inside me and I moan loudly. His fingers dig into my hips and he starts to move fast and deep just like I need it.

When his pace slows down I want to protest, but he pulls me upright and wraps one arm around my waist while he thrusts his thumb into my mouth.

"Suck" he orders and I do until he tells me to stop and bend over, so he can fuck me hard again and when I feel my orgasm building he pushes his thumb into my rosebud and I come screaming his name and hear him crying out my name.

A couple of moments later I am in his lap on the floor of the shower and smirk at him.

"I don't know about you, Mr. Grey, but I feel a lot more relaxed now." I tell him. He laughs and kisses the tip of my nose. "Me too, baby."

As we get back downstairs we find Mia pushing Mason through the family room in his Lightning McQueen ride on car. He loves this car that he got for his first birthday 7 weeks ago. He also started to walk 4 weeks ago and he is so fast that I am constantly running around trying to catch him or stop him from getting into things. But I love this age, he is exploring his world and learns new things every day.

"Ok, Mia, we are leaving now. We should be back in time for dinner, but if we are not here until 6:30 pm, then please feed Mason, he get's really cranky if he has to wait for his dinner and I don't want him"

"Sure, can I take him outside in the pool?"

"Yes, his swim diapers are upstairs, don't forget to put his hat on and his sunlotion. There is a bottle of baby sunlotion in his nursery by the changing table. And never let go of him in the water and never let him out of sight while you are outside with him..."

Mia's eyes widen with every word Christian says and finally she holds her hands up. "Relax Christian, I have watched Mason before, we are going to be fine. Now leave!"

We both kiss Mason goodbye and finally leave the house. On the drive over to Judy and Connor's home I starting to get nervous again.

"Relax baby, everything is going to be fine. It's just the first meeting." Christian says and squeezes my hand.

"I know, I just wish that we already found the right surrogate. It's like everytime we meet a new possible surrogate something is wrong about her. What if we never find the right one?"

"Baby, this is just the sixth woman. We don't even have to pick a surrogate in this state. We still have enough options, I know this is hard for you, but we will find the right one."

Hearing him say this I give him a small smile and take a deep breath, he is right. We just have to keep looking. And we are in the lucky position to already have a child, so even if we won't find the right one, it's not like we will never be parents.

Arriving at their home I am pleasantly surprised, the house is beautiful and when we knock a blonde woman in her early thirties opens.

"Hi, you must be Christian and Anastasia... oh sorry, is it okay if we call each other by the first name? I hate being formal." she says with a smile and I like her immediately.

"Sure, and please, call me Ana. Oh, and this is Taylor, our security chief." I explain and she leads us into the house and outside to the patio.

"My husband will be here shortly, he is driving our oldest son to his soccer practise and our two younger girls to his parents house. It's easier to talk without three kids running around. Can I offer you something to drink, it's so hot today."

"Yes, that would be nice" Christian says and soon we are sitting down each with a glass of homemade lemonade and it's kind of an awkward silence.

"So, I guess you two have questions?" Judy breaks the silence.

"Yes, well why did you decide to become a surrogate?" I ask, if she wants money, this gives her the opportunity to say so and we can end this right now.

"My cousin April and I are as close as sisters, she is two years younger than I am and we grew up together after her parents divorced and her mom moved in with my parents. April already had a baby and wanted another one, she got pregnant quickly, but the pregnancy was very complicated and she nearly died during labor, the baby didn't make it and she wasn't able to get pregnant again. She was heartbroken because she didn't want her daughter to be an only child. She had her eggs stored when she was younger, because at first doctors told her she might not be able to conceive naturally, so I offered to carry the baby for her. I already had my three kids and my husband had a vasectomy because we don't want more kids. After I had her child I thought, maybe I can help another couples having a child. I enjoy being pregnant and my husband is okay with me doing this, that's why I contacted the agency."

I really like her answer and she didn't even mention money, so this obstacle is out of the way.

"So you are okay with carrying a baby and giving it away?" Christian asks.

"Yes, I don't know how to really explain it, but carrying my cousin's child was very different from carrying my own child. With my own children I would have murdered anyone who would have dared to take my child away from me, but with April's baby it was like I am only the vessel. When I see Michael, that's his name, today, it's not like I feel oh this is my baby... it's like April carried him herself. That is why I want to do it again. Having children is the greatest gift in life, so if I can help others to receive this gift I'll do it."

"Have you met other couples before?" I ask.

"Yes, but I told them I wouldn't do it. Actually, this is the one question I have... and I know this is pretty personal, but why do you want a surrogate to carry your baby?"

I tense for a second, but decide to go for the truth. "I had a very difficult childhood. My mother was abusive and when I was 15 I was raped. All of that left me with severe scar tissue. I was told that it was nearly impossible for me to get pregnant and that it would be a high risk for my life to try anyway. My husband and I agreed that we would store his sperm and my eggs and use the help of a surrogate. Shortly after we did that and my husband had a vasectomy it turned out that I was pregnant. I was almost 13 weeks pregnant when my uterus ruptured and I started to bleed heavily. I had to undergo emergency surgery and the doctors had to perform a full hysterectomy on me in order to safe my life. That was nearly three years ago and since we adopted a little boy we want him to have siblings."

"I'm very sorry, Ana. I wouldn't have asked, but the last couple I have met told me the wanted to use my helped because the wife didn't want to gain weight and go through labor. For me it is important to help a couple that wants a child and can't have one without my help. If someone is just to posh to push or doesn't want to gain weight, they have to find someone else."

Wow, that's simple disgusting. There are so many people out there who are desperate to have a child and a healthy woman considers to use the help of a surrogate just because she doesn't want to gain weight and go through the pain of childbirth, that's just crazy.

"Well, I can assure you if I would be able to carry a child we wouldn't be here right now."

"That's good. So, how soon do you want to have a child?"

"As soon as possible" Christian and I say at the same time.

"I see, well if we decide to go through with this we can go right through with the procedure. The only thing you have to know is that if I get pregnant before christmas I am going to visit my family over the holidays which means my family and I would fly out to Wyoming for two weeks."

"If we do this I would like to offer that you use our private jet. It's more comfortable than flying with a commercial flight." Christian offers and Judy frowns.

"I don't want anything out of this. The laws are very clear about that and my husband does very well with his company. You don't have to do that."

"Judy, I guess I should say this now, but I am a control freak when it comes to the safety of my family and if you should carry our child this extents to you too. So, this is mostly for my peace of mind." Christian explains and I stop myself from snorting. He is not only a control freak when it comes to the safety of his family, he is control freak in every way.

"Good to know, so what else do you want to know about me?"

"Have you ever taken any kinds of recreational drugs?" Christian ask and I look at my hands, I know we need to know this, but he is really straight forward.

"No, I have never taken drugs, smoked and other than a glass of wine with in the evening I don't drink either. I know it sounds boring, but I was never even drunk in my life."

"Good, and ... I know this is not a usual question, but has your husband ever been abusive towards you?" Hearing him say that I want to kick Christian. I know this is important for us to know, but that's why we will have Welch do a background check.

"No, my husband is the sweetest man on earth, he would never hurt me or our children, in fact, we are strictly against any form of physical punishment when it comes to raising our children. And of course, we would never get into a physical fight either."

Thank God, Judy doesn't seem offended by that question. "What I like to know is if you want to stay in contact once the baby is born?"

"Well, I don't know... I don't want to be the godmother or auntie Judy or anything like that, but it would be nice if you would agree to send me a picture once a year. And of course, if at some point your child would like to meet me, that would be okay too. But this is all really up to you, it is your child and I just want to help."

Christian and I have talked about this a lot. We don't want the surrogate involved in our every day life, but meeting her once or twice a year would be okay with us.

"My wife and I already talked about this and sending you a picture will be no problem. We can even meet once a year if you want to."

A while later her husband arrives and I have to say he is a really good-looking guy, not as good-looking as Christian, but then again, who is? At least now I know why she never ogled my man, she has her own hunk and when I catch her gaze we both smile at each other and it's like she knows exactly what I am thinking. We are both two really lucky ladies.

Since her husband is here, Christian involves him too by asking him some questions.

"So, Connor. I have to ask are you really okay with your wife doing this?"

"Yes, Judy loves to be pregnant and I think she is even more beautiful when she is pregnant. Of course, I am not looking forward to the dry spell after she gives birth, but show me one guy who does" he smirks and Judy slaps his thigh.

"What, just stating the truth, sweetness." he says and she rolls her eyes.

"Okay, moving on. I do have a question that is really important to me." Connor says and looks a bit uncomfortable. "If we decide that my wife is going to help you and she is pregnant with your child, will you announce the pregnancy in the media, because I don't want my wife or kids harassed by the press."

Before I can answer Christian beats me to it. "We are not going to announce the pregnancy. This is our private life and though we have experienced that some people like to sell out every tid bit of our life they can get their hands on, this will stay secret until the baby is born. If Judy is photographed with us she will only be a pregnant family friend. So far the media doesn't know that Ana can't have kids and we would like to keep it that way until our baby is born. That is why I also have to ask you and anyone else who is involved in the process to sign an NDA."

"Okay, I guess we can do that, but what if this gets leaked?"

"In that case I have one of the best security teams in the states that will make sure that your family is safe at all times."

After talking about a lot more things and them signing the NDA Christian and I leave. We agreed to think about everything for the next two days and then Judy wants to call us. If it was up to me, I would say she is the one, but I know we have to wait for the extented background check Welch is running on them. I hope nothing bad shows up in it.

Two days later

Christian and I have talked a lot about Judy and after receiving the background check this morning we have agreed that she is the right surrogate for us. We also talked to Carrick as he wants to help us with all the legal stuff we have to get ready before we can start.

All we need now is Judy's answer. I have checked my phone every ten minutes since this morning. I am just so nervous, if she says no I don't think I will want to meet another possible surrogate anytime soon. In the evening after Mason is in bed Christian and I are outside on the patio waiting for the call and when my cell phone rings I have Christian answer it, I am just to nervous to do it.

He talks and talks and I have to get up and start to pace. Please say yes... please say yes...

"Baby?" I look at Christian and his face is giving nothing away as he hands me back my phone.

"What did Judy say?" I ask and a slow smile spreads across his face. "We are going to meet at the agency with them and my dad tomorrow afternoon. Baby, Judy said yes!"

I can't help it. I start to cry like a baby and hug Christian. It's really happening. We found the right surrogate and if everything goes well, next year around this time we will have our baby here with us. In this moment I couldn't be happier...