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Enjolras couldn't help but feel disappointed when he woke up alone, Eponine was no longer at his side and he found himself frowning. Looking at the clock he was shocked to see it had already gone midday, he couldn't remember the last time he'd slept in this late, he did realized that he had the best sleep he'd after in the last four hours and couldn't help but wonder if it was to do with Eponine being at his side.
Brushing the curls out of his face he rolled out of bed and left his bedroom, heading towards Eponine's hoping she was in there as she was right, they needed to talk about last night. When she told him to kiss her, he was shocked at first but then once he'd done it he never wanted it to stop.
Opening the door to her bedroom, he saw her sat on the edge of the bed tying the laces on her shoes. Eponine's head snapped up at the sound of the door opening as she spotted him stood in the doorway and gave him a small smile before going back to tying her laces.
"You said we needed to talk" Enjolras said rubbing the back of his neck as he stepped onto the room, closing the door behind him.
Eponine sighed standing up from the bed and running her hands over the front of her t-shirt to straighten it out "I need to know if you have any feeling towards me, I know I said I would wait until you're ready but after last night I can't help but notice the mixed signals"
"What do you mean by mixed signals?" Enjolras leant against the door, sliding his hands into the pockets on his shorts.
"One minute you make me think you have feeling towards me because you're open with me then the next you're pushing me away, you won't look at me and if I try and get close to you then you walk away"
"I'm sorry"
"I don't want you to be sorry, I just need to know if I'm wasting my time by waiting" she told him, she knew she was being fooling by sitting around and hoping he'll come to her and declare his love for her. This isn't a movie after all and things like that don't happen in reality but she's sick of the mixed signals and wanted to know.
"Sorry" Enjolras mumbled looking down at his feet like a child who has just been told off by their mother.
"Will you stop saying sorry" Eponine cut him off, if all he was going to say is sorry then this conversation isn't going to go anywhere. At times she wondered how messed up she was to fall for a guy who is clueless about relationships, why couldn't she fall for someone who will turn their head just to look at a woman talk down the street and not a someone who only looks at woman who are in black and white inside a book.
"I don't know what you what me to say" Enjolras looked back up at her, hoping she would help him with the words he couldn't find.
"I want you to tell me if I am wasting my time. I want you to tell me if you have any feeling towards me other than a friend. I just want you to say anything" she threw her arms up into the air, her annoyance at him breaking out to the surface. What she really want to do was rip his head off his shoulder and cut it open to see what was going on inside but she couldn't do that so her only option is to ask him.
"I don't know all this feeling stuff is new to me. I don't know what is real and what isn't" taking three large strides he stood In front of her. "Believe it or not, for the first time in my life I don't know what to say and I don't know what I want"
"You kissed me; you must have some idea of what you want" Eponine looked into his blue eyes hoping to see something that would give her the answer she is searching for.
"You told me to kiss you" Enjolras shot back at her, his own blue eyes looking back into her chocolate brown eyes.
"Yes a peck, not whatever the hell that was last night, fucking hell Enjy I was seconds away from ripping you clothes off" Eponine brushed the hair out of her face shaking her head at the blonde man in front of her. "If I told you to jump out of that window would you do it?" she asked pointing to the window on the opposite side of the room to them.
"Why would I jump out of the window, that's would be stupid" he looked at her as if she had lost her mind.
"Well I told you to do it, just like I told you to kiss me last night"
"That's different" Enjolras shot back the second Eponine had stopped talking. He took a step closer towards her, closing the small gap between them.
"How is it different?" Eponine placed her hands onto her hips glaring at him.
"I don't know, it just is different. I'm confused"
"I know why it's different" a smirk replacing the glare.
"Enlighten me" a smirk appeared on his face as his hands moved to his hips mimicking Eponine.
"It's different because a part of you wanted to kiss me but you will not allow yourself to admit that it's true"
The smirk dropped from Enjolras's face and his shoulder slumped as Eponine's words set in, was she right? Did he want to kiss her but doesn't want to admit it to himself? The room fell into silence as Enjolras thought about what she had said and Eponine stood waiting for a reply, something she knew would be him denying what she said to be true.
"You know what" Eponine broke the silence making Enjolras look back up at her. "I'm done, I'm not going to sit around and wait any longer. I'm going to ask Chetta is I can move in with her until I find somewhere else to live because I can't be around you anymore. It just hurts too much. Don't worry I'll still help you with your mother but after that I don't know anymore" Eponine finally decided to give up, she wasn't going to sit around any longer and wait, she's been doing it to long and if Enjolras wants to keep denying everything then he can but she's not going to sit and watch it happen anymore.
"Now if you'll excuse me, I said I would meet your sister" Eponine pushed past him, her shoulder making contact with his arm as she did so. She took on last glace at him, noticing his head down as if he was admitting defeat.
Eponine grabbed her bag and shook her head at the scene in front of him, she's never seen Enjolras look so down as he did, she'd never seen him defeated before and apart of her wished she could take back everything that she had said but she wasn't going to be a push over again. She is going to stand by what she said.
She felt tears build in her eyes as she walked out of the bedroom, taking once last glance over her should as she left. "One last thing, the reason you're denying it all is because you're afraid of commitment" she said making Enjolras turn around to look at her making her wish he didn't because the look on his face hurt more than his body language.
"I know you're committed to your studies and all that crap but when it really matters you're scared. You stay away from women because you're scared you'll end up like your father. You told me about how he walked out on his family and you're scared to commit to someone in case you did what he did. You're scared of allowing someone on into your life in case it gets to serious and you end up walking out"
Enjolras stood and watched as she walked away from him until Eponine was out of sigh before sinking down onto her bed, placing his head into his hands. For the first time in a long time he felt like crying. He didn't want to lose Eponine in a friend way or whatever other way there is to lose her. It's clear to see he fucked up but he can't help but wonder if what she said was true. Was he just scared of commitment because he didn't want to end up walking away like his father did?
Eponine jumped feeling to hands land on her arms from behind and she prepared herself to turn around and hit whoever had laid a hand on her but stopped when she saw the blonde and pink in front of her.
"Sorry I tripped over the curb" Charlotte smiled straightening herself up.
"You're lucky I was about to punch you" Eponine laughed knowing that would have been a fun story to explain.
"Luckily I spoke when I did, I don't think a black eye would go with this outfit" Charlotte joked as both girls looked at her bright pink outfit.
"our plans have changed, I've texted Grantaire and we're going to meet him so I can get really drunk while I try and find a new place to live" Eponine grabbed hold of the blonde's arm, dragging her in the direction of the bar where she agreed to meet Grantaire at, hopefully he'll already have a drink waiting for her when she arrives.
"Wait" the blonde brought them both to a stop, surprising Eponine at how strong she was so someone so small. "What happened and why do you need to find somewhere else to live?"
"Two words" Eponine held up to fingers. "Your brother"
"What has he done this time, I need to know what I'm going to kill him for" Charlotte placed her hands onto her hips and stood her ground at the side of the road, blocking the way for anyone else to pass.
"Let's see I put myself out there with my feelings and he tells me to give him some time which I agreed to, then he kissed me last night and then I asked him if he had any feeling towards me and he says he's confused" Eponine said in a rush not knowing if she should be saying all this to his sister but she did ask.
"He's confused as in he might be gay?" Eponine couldn't help but laugh; only Charlotte would jump to that conclusion.
"No, he's confused about what he wants"
"Well that's a downer" Charlotte sighed "I was up for having a gay brother but that doesn't explain why you need somewhere new to live"
"I told him I couldn't just sit around and wait any longer and I can't live in that house with him any longer. It's just too hard, seeing him every day and wondering what could be. Now are you coming to get very drunk with me or not"
Eponine started walking towards the bar again without waiting for Charlotte's reply. It's now that she is regretting making Courfeyrac and Jehan admit their feeling towards each other because she could do with having some no strings attached angry sex and Courfeyrac is always down for angry sex.
"Wait up then, it's not easy to run in heels" Eponine slowed down her pace allowing the blonde to catch up to her. "For what it's worth I think you did the right thing"
"Then tell me why I regret it" Eponine asked unable to get the look on his face out of her mind, that is the main reason she wants to get drunk so she can forget that look of defeat.
"Because you've given up and now you have nothing to hope for" Charlotte linked her arm through Eponine's as they continued to walk "Without that hope you feel empty and it's making you regret doing what you did because you want that hope again. I personally think that as human beings we need something to believe in, to hope for and something to dream about, without any of those things we feel empty"
"I still feel like running back and telling him I didn't mean any of what I said"
"You can't do that, it might not seem it now but it will be good for the both of you. With you gone he'll finally realize what he wants. I know he's my brother and I should take his side because I want him to be happy but I'm not going to. What you didn't realize is when you offered to wait for him, you allowed him to ignore how he feels because he knows you'll always be there but now you're not he's finally got to decided what he wants. Give it time and everything will work out"
"Everyone says your brother is the smart one but I think it's you, yes he might be book smart but what does that really mean. Whereas you're just smart, you understand things he never will" Eponine have her a weak smile, she always thought Enjolras was smart but it's his sister who is really the smart one, as everything she said Eponine understood.
"Enough, let's go and get drunk and flirt with random men until we can't stand" Charlotte started walking fast, dragging Eponine behind her even though she had no idea where they were going.
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