A/N WE HIT 10,000 VIEWS! Yay thanks guys! I re-watched this episode and just HAD to write something for it. Omg I loved JJ in this episode! Disclaimer: Yes, I used some more quotes. I don't own CM etc. Please Review, I'm begging! On with the story...

"Either you will try that again and I will watch you kill yourself, or you will quit, and I will watch you wither and fade. Either way, I win," Askari said.

"No," JJ whispered.

"Yes," Askari said.

"No!" She wouldn't let him! She wouldn't- she looked up. He wasn't there. Askari was dead. It was all her imagination. She was talking to a delusion. Is that textbook? She didn't think so. But Askari was winning. By letting him get to her like this, even after his death, he was winning.

Yes, he took her baby, but she wouldn't let him take anything else from her. She had to remind herself that she didn't have a choice taking the job in Afghanistan. She was forced out of the BAU, she didn't leave by choice. The loss of her child wasn't her fault, it was Askari's.

"No," she said again, this time calmly and with determination.

No. Askari wouldn't take anything else from her. She had a wonderful husband and a beautiful son. She had family in her team, especially in Spence and even with Kate, who had been there less then a year.

No. She had something to live for. She had Henry and Will. She had a great and rewarding job, and great friends. She wouldn't trade any of it for the world. She couldn't let Askari take that from her. He was dead. She was alive. She had that over Askari.

And with one final 'no' she promised herself that she wouldn't let Askari ruin her. She stood up and took one last look in the room, before leaving, more than ready to go home.

Twenty minutes later she walked through her front door, put her work stuff away, and walked up to Henry's bedroom. She stood in the doorway just looking at him for a few minutes before walking over towards his bed and kissing him on the forehead. She then walked towards her bedroom, and turned on the lamp, pulled out her pajamas and got changed.

"Hey you're home," Will said sleepily, his southern drawl even more prominent than usual.

"Yeah. I love you," she said quietly.

"I love you too. You okay Jayje?" he asked, sitting up, seeing the still haunted look on her face.

"Askari... I'm letting him win," JJ replied quietly, sitting down on the bed next to him. She could already feel her determination from earlier fading.

Will moved towards her an put an arm around her, "Sweetheart, you know it's completely normal to be upset around the date of-" but JJ cut him off.

"God, Will. You're sounding like Spence! It's not normal... It's... I was hallucinating Askari. Is that 'normal?' And I made a stupid decision in the field today that could have killed me. I had no idea of knowing..." her voice trailed off.

"Jayje, your job is just one dangerous decision after another. What made this one any different?" Will asked.

"Because I let my emotions get the better of me and I almost didn't care if I got out of there, Will," she replied.

Will was quiet and JJ said, "I can't let Askari win. I can't do that again and let Henry lose his mom. And I can't let this-this feeling take everything from me."

"And it won't," Will said. "This is just a bump in the road. Askari won't win. You're stronger than him JJ. I've seen you kick the shit out of UnSubs, comfort families that have just lost a child, and I've seen you fight for what you believe in. And every time you fight for something, you win. Just by keeping going, you've already beat Askari. You're here and he's not. You've already won, Jayje. Just because a year later, you're having trouble, it doesn't mean he's winning. It just means your human," Will assured her.

JJ laid her head on his lap, "He took our baby, Will," she whispered, tears running down her face.

"I know. I know sweetheart..." Will whispered back. He rubbed her back as she cried, until she finally fell asleep in his lap.

The next morning, a good 3 hours earlier than usual, JJ woke up to her six year old climbing onto her and Will's bed. Instead of jumping on their bed like he usually did on the mornings she was home, he just climbed under the blankets between her and Will.

"I love you mommy," Henry said to her, cuddling up to her side.

"I love you too baby," JJ replied, kissing him on the forehead, feeling better than she had in over a week. She smiled at Henry who was already starting to fall back asleep next to her and she knew that Will was right. Askari couldn't win because she already had. She still had Henry, and she wouldn't let anyone or anything take him away from her. Especially not Askari.

A/N-According to the producers, JJ eventually tells Will about the miscarriage so I went with that bc I wasn't sure which way to go on that front. Please Review!