"Please say something Sheri" James pleaded as I just stared at him.
I had all sorts running through my mind but none of it wanted to make a vocal appearance.
"You don't need to move out" whispered from my lips.
"I can't stay here and watch this though Sheri... I can't. Honestly" James replied.
"Why didn't you tell me before?" I asked.
"You were with Logan before, then Kendall broke your heart like a dick...then you said you wanted us to do what we did... I was going to suggest maybe being closer than just friends but you read that bullshit Kendall wrote and that was it... bye bye James" he moaned.
"What do you mean bull shit? James don't start attacking Kendall just because I'm with him now" I snapped.
"I'm not attacking him. Just open your eyes Sheri. He doesn't love you he is trying to find an easy fuck" James said hurtfully.
"What? James why are you being so nasty? You tell me you are in love with me, then go in to attack mode" I questioned.
"I'm trying to protect you. You promised you would use your brain but now your planning to sleep with him already after only a few days!" James replied.
"That's got nothing to do with you. Look James I get that your jealous, im sorry that I don't feel differently for you. We had fun okay... that was all it was... you should of been honest with your feelings in the first place, I wouldn't of done it." I said feeling sorry for him. The memories of his affection playing on my mind. It all made sense now.
"Me be honest? Maybe when Kendall is done pissing all over you, you could ask him about being honest!" James replied angrily.
"Kendall has been honest with me, he has told me things that he didn't even want to about himself James... don't do this!" I begged, not wanting another rift between us, especially after what we did together.
"If Kendall is so honest why didn't he tell you weeks ago that Logan was screwing that cass chic behind your back!? Because he knew about it Sheri. But trust-worthy Kendall didn't do the right thing and tell you, no! Kendall preyed on you and took you for himself as easy pickings!" James said sounding emotional.
"Your lying" I said welling up as Logan's betrayal still felt raw. "Kendall didn't know anything about that"
"He did Sheri!" Logan told me the morning he got back, he said that Kendall came home once when she was here, Logan was worried he would tell you. Why didn't he tell you huh!? Your just a game to him. When are you going to realise that" James replied.
"YOUR LYING!" I screamed.
Logan burst in to the room. "Sheri? What the hell is going on!?" He asked.
I looked at Logan, actually scared to ask for the truth. Kendall was next to enter the room to see what all the noise was about.
"Ask him!" James said through gritted teeth.
"I hate you" I said to James and barged past Logan and Kendall who stood in the doorway.
I went in to my room slamming the door and cried on my pillow. Kendall couldn't of known. He just couldn't!
Why could no men in this world be nice? I was sick of it. The sobs were coming out of me loudly but I could hear the three boys shouting at each other.
A set of footsteps stomped down the stairs and I heard the front door slam. I wondered who that was?
The next thing to make a noise was my bedroom door being gently knocked.
"GO AWAY!" I shouted at the door. I felt so immature, but I was only sixteen, I had no parents to look after me. All I had was a bunch of lying boys.
"Sheri its Kendall. Please! I want to talk to you" he soothed through the wooden door.
"Is it true? Did you know?" I asked.
The door clicked open and Kendall invited himself him, closing the door behind him. "No its not true" he whispered as he sat on the end of the bed, he ran his hand down my leg in a comforting way. "Sheri, maybe I should be the one to move out" he said sadly.
I lifted my head off of the pillow. "You haven't done anything wrong" I blubbed, wrapping my arms around him.
"Even so, Logan and James are obviously not happy that I'm with you... I can't compete with Logan Sheri, he is your keeper!" Kendall said peeling himself from me and getting up.
"Where are you going?" I cried as Kendall made his way to the door.
"I'm going to pack my things" he replied softly.
"No! No please!" I begged scrambling off my bed.
"Why is James lying about it?" I sobbed, sucking in big breaths.
Kendall shrugged. "Logan is too, I think it's all his idea... Sheri im done with their stupid games. If im not here then they will leave you alone" he said calmly.
"Kendall I love you please don't go" I begged again. "We can just ignore him, James can go and Logan can go fuck himself. All I need is you" I said drying my eyes.
"Really?" Kendall asked. "I find it so hard to live in Logan's shadow" he added.
"We don't need anyone else. Please... im begging. Don't leave me here on my own" I said taking his hand.
Kendall thought it through. "I'm not sure Sheri.. I mean Logan controls you. I'm not sure I can be in a relationship with an ex boyfriend so involved still" he said to which I started crying again.
"Baby... please... I love you" I begged.
"I love you too Sheri... this is the last straw though baby girl. Those two idiots are conspiring against me to break us up... is that what you want?" He asked.
"Of course not!" I said shaking my head.
My bedroom door knocked. "Sheri can I come in?" Logan said to which Kendall raised his arms in the air in exasperation on hearing Logan trying to get involved again.
"See this is what im talking about Sheri." Kendall moaned.
"He is just looking out for me" I explained.
"Looking out for you should be my job. It's got nothing to do with Logan anymore." Kendall snapped. "I'm not prepared to share you Sheri. It's him or me!" Kendall replied.
I opened the door to see Logan's worried looking face on the other side. "You okay?" He asked.
"I just want you to leave me alone from now on. You have cass to think about. Kendall will look after me" I whispered out to him.
Logan eyed kendall in my room like he was the devil. "You guys okay?" He asked regardless.
"What do you care?" Kendall moaned at him.
"What?! You know what Sheri means to me!" Logan snapped back at him.
"Yeah enough for you and James to make up a load of crap about me. I didn't know you were fucking that bitch behind Sheri's back." Kendall replied.
"What?! Yes you did! Kendall why are you lying?" Logan said getting really wound up.
"See what I mean?" Kendall said to me. "They are trying to make me out to look the bad guy" Kendall finished.
"Sheri he knew! I have no idea why he is saying he didn't." Logan said looking even more worried.
"Sheri he is lying to make me look bad, he doesn't want us together!" Kendall argued. "You believe me don't you baby... I've never lied to you! I've got no reason to lie to you" he said looking worried he was about to lose me through no fault of his own.
I looked at Logan who just shook his head. His eyes spoke our secret language which said 'listen to me, not him!'
I took Kendalls hand. "Logan I think you should leave" I said quietly.
"What? Sheri this is bull shit! He is trying to control you!" Logan said staring daggers at Kendall.
"No you are, Logan!" I replied.
"Can I talk to you in private Sheri... please" Logan pleaded.
"No... Logan it's done, you have cass, I've got Kendall. Let's just cut our ties and let me live my life yeah" I explained feeling angry.
"Sheri I took you away from your father who physically abused you but I've led you in to the arms of someone that is trying to isolate you from the rest of the world. Why would I lie to you about this?" Logan asked softly. Only looking at me.
"It's time to let me go" I said looking right back at him, not getting drawn in to the argument. I believed Kendall. Logan didn't want me, but he didn't want anyone else to want me either. He was using James as his pawn.
"Sheri don't do this" Logan said as a last ditch attempt.
In that last look I saw a flash of something in his eyes. Resentment. In that instant I knew I had made the right choice. "Get your self and your lies away from me" I said with tears now falling again.
Logan didn't say another word. He gave Kendall one last look of death then turned on his heels and left.
"You okay?" Kendall asked softly as he scooped me in to his body.
I nodded my head, Then shook it to say no. The tears came thick and fast. I was completely lost without Logan. He was my piece of home, my comfort blanket.
"Sheri listen to me. I'm gonna look after you okay" Kendall said as he rocked me from side to side. "Don't worry about a thing. I won't let anything or anyone hurt you again... I promise you" he soothed. "I can do this... do you trust me baby?" He asked.
"I do... 100 percent" I cried.
"Don't cry okay, Logan isn't worth it." He said in to my ear as he held me.
"James just told me he has feelings for me" I admitted looking in to Kendalls amazing green eyes.
"What? He is having a laugh isn't he! Sheri he Is forever saying how immature you are. Him and Logan are playing a really clever game together... I mean why else would James move out? They have organised it so Logan had an excuse to stay and control your every move... I won't let them Sheri" he said holding me tighter.
"Why is Logan doing this?" I asked.
"I'm not sure" Kendall replied. "I guess he doesn't think I'm good enough for you" he sighed.
My mind whirred with everything I had seen and heard today. I honestly had no clue of who was telling the truth. Kendall didn't really have any reason to lie, but nor would Logan. I guess if James really did like me then he would want to make me dislike Kendall, but he may just want to protect me like he said.
Even if I did ask Logan privately if Kendall had found out about cass, Logan had lied so much to me, I'm not sure I would believe him. Then what if he told Kendall I had asked him. Kendall wouldn't take kindly to me going behind his back.
I was so confused.
I spent that night in my room cuddled up to Kendall. He was only anything but caring.
"You still want to go to the beach today?" He asked.
I rubbed my eyes from my nights sleep. I looked over to the clock to see it was almost 11am. "Yeah... more sleep at the beach sounds good" I said with a yawn.
Kendall crawled on top of me. "Lazy bones today aren't we!" He teased as he made himself at home kissing my neck.
"Mmmm im really tired" I said not wanting to ever leave my bed.
I heard Kendall chuckle at my laziness. "You grab some more sleep, and I will grab us something nice for a picnic at the beach." he said sounding far too jolly.
"Sounds like an amazing plan" I replied giving him a sleepy smile and a kiss on the lips.
I enjoyed his kiss. Once again it sent me to unknown parts of the universe that only a schmidt kiss could take me. Kendall left me to go back to sleep... which I did.
I woke up again to something moving my bed. I opened my eyes to see Kendall sat on the edge. He was injecting his insulin. "All okay" I said giving his back a rub. He had a vest on and some shorts. He wore a baseball cap, which looked odd. I was used to seeing his hair frame his face. He was beautiful.
"Yeah im all set. Just gotta pack this" he said putting his medicine away in a back pack. "Then we don't have to be back at a set time... you gonna grab a shower then smelly" he smiled poking his finger in to my side.
I laughed at him then wrestled him down to the bed. "I'm not smelly" I said with a sad face.
Kendall kissed me but I pulled away before I got sent to oblivion and wasted even more time stuck indoors. "I will be five minutes!" I said making my way out of bed and heading towards the bathroom.
Once showered, dressed and ready to go. I got in Kendalls car and memories of our first meeting entered my mind. It was crazy how much all our lives had changed.
I had a good look around the interior of the car. It had no air con like Logan's flashy convertible, and some of the dash was broken. I smiled. "How come you haven't bought a new car yet?" I asked as he drove us to the beach.
"I like this one. Reminds me of who I am and where I came from. I know it's not as fabulous as Logan's but he comes from a better background than me" he explained looking a bit embarrassed.
"Logan doesn't have a better back ground than you baby" I said giving his leg a rub.
"He was already rolling in cash" Kendall said rolling his eyes.
"I guess, but his home life was terrible, his mother treated him like shit... money doesn't fix families" I sighed.
"Well... whatever. I don't want to talk about Logan" Kendall snapped.
"Okay... sorry" I replied, but Kendall remained silent.
It worried me that I had annoyed him. I made a mental note to not mention Logan again. Which in truth was going to be hard as any happy past events in my life did involve him.
Kendall cheered up as we got to the beach. He wasn't intending for me to catch any sun today I realised as we got carried away with our kisses and Kendall ended up on top of me, I was only in my bikini, I could feel everything so intimately as we kissed.
"I planned to lose my virginity to you last week... it's a shame you went home to Kansas" I said enjoying the weight of him in between my legs.
"We have a long road ahead of us for you to lose your virginity to me Sheri" he replied smiling. "... but I'm gutted" he laughed.
I chuckled at him. There was no way on earth I was going to tell him about already losing it to James... several times over.
"Maybe I could please you tonight" I said giving him a little stroke of his hardness. I was still on my period so knew nothing that intimate could happen but I was prepared to wank the life from him.
"Really?... that sounds amazing" he smiled. We spent so long kissing and getting turned on that by the time we came to eat our picnic it was more dinner time.
Kendall passed me some food he had packed. It was some fancy looking pasta salad thing. "This is really nice Kendall, where did you get it from?" I asked.
"Kendall grinned at me. "I didn't buy it. I made it" he said still smiling.
I raised my eyebrows in mock astonishment. "not just a pretty face are you" I replied.
"nope I'm a fantastic cook! You should see my choc chip muffins I can bake Sheri... you will melt! they are orgasmic" he said smiling away at his own talents.
"Orgasmic huh?" I laughed. "I will look forward to those" I said.
After we had eaten we went for a stroll along the beach. "What do you think people will think when they find out we are dating on the show and in real life?" Kendall said giving my hand a little squeeze.
"I'm not sure... I think it's cute though. It's not long til the show airs. I bet it will go mental after. People will recognize us all over the place. I'm looking forward to doing season two though. I never thought in a million years that I would be an actress." I said feeling excited, trying to imagine what the future will hold for me.
"Yeah it is cute" Kendall agreed throwing his arm around me. "You should try and get a few more acting jobs though Sheri, now season one has finished don't think I haven't noticed your lack of education that your receiving." He said pulling me in closer.
"Yeah I know... it's okay though, it's always been lo.." I stopped talking realising I was about to go in to a Logan related conversation. I gave Kendall an apologetic look.
"Logan is right on that one though, you need school" he replied.
"I guess. Shall we get a movie and some junk food tonight?" I asked changing the subject.
"Yeah okay, we can watch it in my room, I like it just you and me, getting to know each other properly" he smiled.
"Me to kendy... I love you" I replied.
"Love you too sheri berri" he chuckled.
I smiled, although James and his sher bear nick name came in to my mind. I wondered where he was now. I expect he was at his sister's.
Kendall and I got ourselves a dvd and a bunch of snacks. I saw Logan briefly in the kitchen at home. He gave me a small smile but I blanked him, he was on the phone, I expect to cass. I didn't want him thinking he was forgiven or that I needed him back. I had Kendall now.
I curled up next to Kendall on his bed as we watched our movie. I traced out little shapes on his t-shirt with my finger. He was perfection to me. His tiny waist made my mouth water.
"This film isn't as interesting as I first thought." I said sexually In His ear.
Kendall smiled and turned to face me on his bed. "Your beautiful you know!"
I blushed at his romantic side. As I leant in to kiss him I placed my hand up his shirt. Feeling his gorgeous warm body, his chest perfectly smooth.
Kendalls own hand made it in to my top, his hand slowly, and cautiously feeling it's way on the outside of my bra.
"You want me to take it off?" I asked nervously.
Kendall answered by taking my top off himself, he unclipped my bra in seconds, and enjoyed himself by getting his first look at my bare boobs.
My self esteem took a bit of a blow as I realised so many boys had seen my tits now.
Is this what it was all about? I felt a bit slutty but just because I had whorish tendencies didn't mean that Kendall had to miss out now I had grown a conscience.
I let Kendall have full access of me. He made himself at home by touching and kissing me all over, he took his own shirt off then lay on top of me.
The combination of his beautiful smell, his kisses, his bare skin and his cock that was trying to impregnate my leg as it rubbed up against me in his shorts was too much for the both of us.
Kendall pulled away. He gave me several smaller kisses on my cheeks and my nose. "Your the best things that's ever happened to me." He whispered.
"You're so lovely Kendall" I replied.
He smoothed my hair down with his hand then ran it down the length of my bare arm.
It felt so good to be touched by him.
I let my hand wonder freely in to his shorts feeling the hardness of him in the flesh for the first time. He was no where near as scary big as James and his porno star cock but it felt nice in my hand.
I tugged away gently just to entice him to kiss me more. I felt him go for his second love bite on me just below the one I already had.
I liked the feel of how he did it. It was gentle and sexy.
"Are you ready Sheri?" He said breathing really hard as I still tugged on him.
I gave him a kiss, expecting the 'are you ready' to mean he was about to blow his load in his pants as I wanked him.
"Im ready" I whispered back.
Fear then took me as Kendall pulled away from me, leaving my hand empty. He pulled up my skirt and began pulling at my underwear.
Instinctively my hands went to stop him.
"Baby... Baby.. stop. What are you doing?" I asked in a jokey way as I didn't understand why he was getting so carried away.
"I thought you wanted this?" Kendall said as he stopped in his tracks. "You said tonight was the night" he added.
My eyebrows knitted together trying to gather some knowledge of where on earth he got that idea from.
"No kendall I meant ... you know... Give you a wank. I'm still on my period. I can't have sex yet" I said sadly.
Kendall kissed my neck again. "Sheri I really wanna do it... don't you?" He said as he took a break from the kisses to talk.
"Yeah I do... in a couple of days when I come off" I said trying to explain.
"I don't mind about the period." he then said as he started kissing my neck again. "I really want you babe" he continued.
"Kendall I can't.. not while I'm on." I said again slightly disgusted.
"But I need you so badly Sheri, your turning me on like anything" he replied followed up by more kisses. I could feel a third love bite coming on the other side of my neck.
I began to feel nervous. "I'm not sure I'm ready yet Kendall" I said trying to back track. But this made it worse.
"Don't you love me?" He asked stopping everything he was doing.
"Of course I do... just I don't feel comfy doing it while I'm on my period that's all!" I said sounding a bit arsey.
"I didn't have you down for a tease Sheri" Kendall said, his face still inches from my own.
"Baby Im not teasing. I just meant I could please you by tugging you off" I said now sounding desperate. He was making me feel like an idiot.
"Well if it's all about you..." He said and started to get off of me.
I stopped him. "No... no kendy of course it's not. It's not about me. It's us yeah?" I said trying to reason with him.
"You shouldn't get a guy going that bad, promising him something else then changing your mind Sheri... it could get you in to trouble with the wrong kind of person" he said with no emotion.
"I'm sorry, I thought you knew what I meant" I whispered feeling really dumb and very insecure.
"You do trust me don't you Sheri?" Kendall said looking me dead in the eye as if to check for any hesitation.
"Yeah of course" I replied trying not to shake my head or move, or even blink.
"Prove it then silly" he said gently kissing my neck again. "Let me fuck you sheri to prove it" he finished trying his luck by pulling at my underwear again.
"I just don't feel comfy with it coz im on though Kendall" I whispered out grabbing his hand again.
Kendall got off me. "Fucks sake Sheri, don't you love me? Don't you trust me? Not much point in us being together if your not comfy with me" he said grabbing his shirt and attempting to put it on.
I took it away from him. "I do, I do love and trust you, you know I do"
"So we can fuck then?" Kendall asked now with a smile back on his face.
I looked at Kendall feeling all kinds of wrong. "Sure" I whispered scared that if I said no he would break up with me again. Anxiety then took over as Kendalls hand began tugging at my underwear.
author note: thanks to gaby for the review, James never gets a break in my stories huh lol. also thanks to karina on twitter for her hilarious feedback and of course you talia for your daily commentary on this story. thanks to every one else who is reading it. will update tomorrow (24th aug).