Chapter 25

Chris pushed open the door and stuck her head in to her sister's apartment "Lil?" she called "Are you home?" getting no response Chris walked into the apartment and closed the door behind her. She made her way up to the bedroom and found her sister curled up on her bed "Lil, are you okay?" she asked her sister as she came and sat beside her sister on the edge of the bed.

Lilly shook her head "Jordan and I broke up" she whispered softly

"Oh no Lil, I am sorry. What happened?"

"He found out about Scotty and me, rather he walked in on Scotty kissing me and it all came out"

Chris sighed "What about the baby?"

"Jordan is suing me for paternity" Lilly replied "And Scotty is furious with me and has requested a transfer. He left today"

"I am sorry Lilly"

"I just don't know what to do now" she said sadly "I took the test this morning, the doctor said it can take a month to get the results back"

"I don't think there is anything more you can do but wait, it will work out in the end"

"I am not so sure Chris"

Chris sighed "Did you want me to get you anything?"

"No thanks, I just want to be alone"

Chris pressed a kiss to Lilly's forehead and left the room.

Lilly sat in John Stillman's office, waiting for him to come back from One Police Plaza. He had called her that morning and told her they had to talk and his tone didn't have it usual warm tone. She had a feeling what this was about and she wasn't looking forward to the conversation with her Boss. By now she'd heard some of the rumours flying around about the real reason Scotty had asked for a transfer out of Central a year after he had been given the promotion, and some of them were pretty accurate. She checked her watch and tapped her nails on her chair and let out a deep sigh. The door opened behind her and Stillman entered, talking on his cell phone. "Certainly Sir, I understand" He was saying to the person on the other end of the phone "Yes sir" he closed the phone and sat down in his chair and sighed.

"You wanted to see me Boss" Lilly asked quietly

"Yes Lil, I did" He removed his glasses and rubbed the bridge of his nose with his fingers "I don't want to interfere with your personal life Lilly but when it starts to affect work I have to step in"

Lilly nodded "I understand Boss"

"Now I don't want to know what happened between you and Scotty, but clearly something did and I want you to be aware that IA may choose to lodge an investigation"

"Did Scotty say anything to you?" she asked softly

"No he didn't he simply requested a transfer out"

Lilly nodded "I understand Boss, but I really don't want to talk about it either"

Stillman nodded "Okay Lil, so how are you feeling otherwise?"

"I am alright I guess, the baby is kicking a lot."

Stillman smiled "I remember when Rita was pregnant with Janie, best time of my Life Lil. Have you decided when you want to go on Maternity leave?"

Lilly nodded "I spoke to HR and they told me that I have enough leave for two months so I was going to take it after the baby is born"

"Very well but you'll have to be on desk duty only for the last month of your pregnancy, I don't want you to exert yourself"

"Thanks"

"My door is always open Lil if you want to talk"

"Thanks Boss" she said again and she stood and left the office.

Scotty's day had not started well. He'd woken up late to start with, having slept through his alarm. Next he'd had to go to the laboratory that Lil had texted him about to give his DNA sample (admittedly this wasn't as bad as he had envisioned as all the nurse had to do was swab the inside of his cheek) and when he'd finally had arrived at work he had felt everyone's eyes on him, they must of heard the rumours about him and Lil.

This is not how he expected his life to be, he always assumed that when he got a woman pregnant it would be his wife. Not his partner. He ran a hand through his hair and sighed heavily.

"Hey, you must be detective Valens"

Scotty turned around a saw a tall brunette woman with green eyes walking over to him "Yeah, hey" Scotty said as he shook her hand.

"Kate Rankin, I guess you're my new partner" She said with a smile

"Guess so" Scotty replied

"Great, well I think Captain Fox was looking for you. Something about giving you the grand tour"

Scotty smiled "Sounds like fun" he replied sarcastically.

Kate chuckled "He's in his office when you're ready" she said as she walked off towards her desk.

Captain Ian Fox was a portly, balding man. He sat behind his desk reading a stack of reports in front of him.

Scotty cleared his throat and Captain Fox looked up "Ah Detective Valens, I see you made it"

"Yeah, sorry about that had a personal issue to take care of this morning I can assure you it won't happen again" Scotty said softly.

"See that it doesn't; now how about I give you the grand tour." Captain Fox suggested as he hauled himself to his feet.

"Why not" Scotty replied and he followed Captain Fox out of his office.

After his tour with Captain Fox he returned to his assigned desk and found Kate waiting for him.

"Thought I'd introduce you to some of the guys"

"Sounds good" Scotty followed her over to the breakroom and over to three men that were standing around the coffee pot.

"Morning guys, this is Scotty Valens. Scotty this is Dale Foster, Malcolm Griss and Andrew Harris" Kate replied "Scotty joins us from Central PPD, Cold case unit"

Scotty shook each of the guys hands and then Andrew moved off to talk to Kate about their current case, leaving Malcolm and Dale with Scotty. "Cold cases huh?" Malcolm inquired with a smile

"That's right" Scotty said as he accepted a mug of coffee from Dale.

"You worked with Lilly Rush right?" Scotty nodded "The Ice Queen of Homicide"

"Wouldn't mind thawing her out though, if you know what I mean?" Dale said under his breath so Kate didn't hear.

Scotty fought not punch Dale out, instead clenching his fist so tight that his nails started cutting into his palm.

Malcolm chuckled "Someone beat you too it Dale, she's six months pregnant"

Scotty clenched his teeth and brushed his thumb over his lip "Yeah heard about that, Jordan Fuller is going with her"

Kate walked back over to her desk and Andrew joined in the conversation "Not what I heard. I heard that it might be some other guy's kid. Rumour was that she was screwing some other guy while Jordan was undercover"

"Know anything about that Scotty?" Malcolm asked

Scotty swallowed thickly "Lil's a great detective and a friend" he began trying not to let his anger seep out into his words "That's all I know"

Malcolm sighed "Well Dale here will just have to use his imagination then" he replied as he elbowed his partner.

"Fuck off Malcolm" Dale snapped "I am a married man"

Malcolm chuckled "Well you're the one who said you fancied her"

The three men continued talking about other attributes Lilly possessed and Scotty tried his best to act like he was one of the guys when all he wanted to do was shut them all up.

Scotty started at the TV, not really taking in the baseball game that was playing. He was snapped out of his trance as he heard a knocking on the front door. He hauled himself out of his chair and walked over to the door and opened it.

"I came over cause you ain't been answering your phone" Mike said as he brushed past his brother. He had been avoiding his family for over two weeks now so it was only a matter of time before Mike showed up to check on him. "Gabriella's Mum stopped by and she told Ma you called off the engagement"

Scotty moved into the kitchen and grabbed two beers from the fridge; tossing one towards his brother before he returned to the couch "Yeah" was all he could say.

"But why, I thought you were in love with her?" Mike asked curiously as he sat down beside Scotty and propped his feet up on the coffee table.

"I was" Scotty replied and he took a sip of his beer, still staring blankly at the TV.

"So what happened?" Mike asked as he picked up the remote and turned off the TV.

Scotty sighed "Lil's pregnant" Scotty replied

Mike frowned "What's that got to do with anythin'?" Scotty looked over at his brother and raised an eyebrow "Oh" Mike whispered as he realised what Scotty was saying "I thought you said that Lil was datin' some other guy"

"She was but we…we kinda had an affair"

Mike grinned "How can you kinda have an affair?"

Scotty growled "Look we were sleeping together when he was undercover, I ain't proud of it but we did. And about six weeks after he gets back she finds out she was pregnant and she's not sure if I am the father or Jordan is"

Mike sighed "Damn"

"Thing is….I am in love with her and I want to be with her but I am not sure I can be after she lied to me"

"If you love her you should tell her" Mike informed him.

Scotty shrugged "I did, but that was before I found out that I could be the father of her baby. She told me that she missed us and I told her there wouldn't be any us"

Mike slapped Scotty on the side of his head, causing him to spit out his mouthful of beer. "What'd you do that for?" Scotty asked in anger.

"You're an idiot you know that?"

"Why?"

"Lil reached out to you and you treated her like crap" Mike replied "What did you expect her to do Scotty? You guys slept together for months and you admit to falling in love with her. Do you really think that she wouldn't fall for you too?"

Scotty sighed "It's complicated" he replied.

Mike shook his head "You planning on tell Ma and Dad about Lil?"

Scotty scoffed "Yeah and have them stick Father Donahue on me like they tried to do after Elisa died"

Mike laughed "I suppose there is no point telling them till you're sure"

"Lil says it will take about a month for the test results to come back"

Mike nodded "Can I ask what you are hopin' for?" Mike asked

"I don't know, I mean I always wanted to be a father. I love kids. But I always thought I'd be married when I got a girl pregnant"

Mike nodded "So did I"

Scotty stared at his brother "What?"

"You can never tell anyone about this but Allie and I were five weeks pregnant when we got married"

Scotty laughed "So that's why she spent most of the time in the bathroom, we all thought you two were…'celebrating'"

Mike chuckled "I wish, she was throwing up for most of the night" Mike put his hand on his brother's shoulder "You know that we'll all support any decision you make Scotty" he said sincerely "But really think about what you want before you do anything stupid"

Scotty looked sheepish "I think I kinda blew it already Mikey, I transferred out of Central, I got a spot at East detectives, still in Homicide luckily"

Mike shook his head "Is there any chance you can transfer back?"

"Not for a year at least, and then only if there is a spot for me"

"Well, I better get going" Mike replied "Emilio wants to play some catch before it get too dark"

"Thanks for the chat though"

"No problem let me know if you wanna talk again"

Scotty walked his brother over to the door and gave him a quick hug.

Never in her entire Life had Lilly felt this lonely. She was surrounded with offers of help from Chris, Kat, Nick, Will and John but she still felt like she was on her own. She missed having someone around the house to help her do the laundry, cook for her and help her out with the cats. She had just reached six months in her pregnancy and was starting to find it difficult to move around and her back and feet ached a lot. At work, Stillman had insisted that she remained at her desk unless she was conducting an interview, telling her it would be better for her to stay off her feet.

Every day she stared across her desk at the empty seat where Scotty usually sat and she had to fight back the tears that threatened to fall every time she thought about their last encounter. She had never seen him that angry or hurt before and she couldn't blame him.

She's heard from Nick and Will that he had settled into his new job over at East detectives and she'd seen him on the street occasionally and a few times at Jones' after work. She tried talking to him once when she was at the bar getting a club soda but Scotty acted like he couldn't hear her and made his way back over to the table where the rest of his new team were sitting.

"Cheer up Lil" Kat had told her one afternoon "It'll all turn out in the end"

Lilly just wasn't so sure.

One month after the Laboratory had run the paternity tests, Lilly came home to find a thick envelope stuffed in her mail box. She saw the logo from the Lab in the corner and realised that it must be the results of the test. All she needed to do was turn it over and take out the results and she'd know who the father was. Trouble was…..she couldn't bring herself to do it

Kat and Lilly walked into the parking garage and over to Kat's car. They were on their way to pick up some files from records and storage. She couldn't help but chuckle to herself when Stillman had asked her to go pick up an old case file. Scotty used to always whine when they had to drive the forty minutes to check old records. Kat had offered to go with her, knowing that she couldn't lift anything.

Lilly sighed heavily and stared out the window "Are you okay Lil? You've been kinda quiet all week" Lilly nodded "Have you heard from Scotty lately?"

"Why would I have heard from him?"

Kat frowned "'Cause you guys are friends"

Lilly shook her head "He hates me Kat"

"I am sure that's not true Lil"

"He told me we couldn't be friends anymore" Lilly replied

"Lil, what did happen between the two of you?"

"There's a chance that the baby is his and I didn't tell him, he found out and now he hates me"

"So the rumours are true?" Kat replied

Lilly wasn't even surprised "He told me that he loved me Kat" Lilly whispered "and I think I love him…..now it's too late"

"It's never too late Lil" Kat

"He's never going to forgive me Kat. When I found out I was pregnant I did try and tell him first but he seemed so happy with Gabriela that I didn't want to ruin it for him on the off chance it was his baby"

Kat pulled up at a red light and turned to face Lilly "Did you tell him that?"

Lilly nodded "No, he'd still mad at me" Lilly reached into her bag and pulled out the envelope from the laboratory "I got the results back yesterday" Lilly whispered.

"Have you opened it?"

Lilly shook her head "Couldn't bring myself to do it. I was going to take it to Scotty and get him to open it but I was afraid of what it would say"

"You're afraid that Scotty isn't the father aren't you?"

Lilly sighed "When Scotty and I were together, something just felt right you know"

Kat looked up as the light changed green and she turned off the main street "Did you want me to open it?"

Lilly shrugged "No, I think I have to do it myself"

Kat nodded "Okay Lil"

Lilly sighed and put the envelope back into her purse.

Out of nowhere a red pick-up truck swerved into their path and Kat tried to break but she couldn't stop in time. The sound of crunching metal and smashing glass was deafening and that's all Lilly could remember before it all went black.

A/n: Don't hate me, I have a plan.