Carries P.O.V.
Looking out the planes tiny window at the rapidly approaching ground I couldn't help but let out one of my rare smiles. I was going to see Aaron today, and I realized how much I really missed him. His wedding wasn't until tomorrow, but we were still arriving this morning because a huge storm was supposed to hit tonight. I had decided that I wouldn't go and see him at any point over this trip, because it would make it to hard to turn away from him. I turned my mind away from thoughts of him and back towards Aaron, who I really was excited to see. It had been a while since I felt any genuine emotion that wasn't sad, or upset.
"Please put all of your seats and trays in the upright position, as we are approaching our destination. Thank you." The female flight attendants voice rang out, symbolizing that our flight was almost over, and I was almost back to the place where I first started to feel at home. I was going to be staying at Aarons, while my mother was staying at a hotel in Forks.
As soon as our plane stopped moving down the runway I jumped up. My mother shot me a look but for once didn't say anything. After we escaped the chaos of baggage claim and made it to the parking lot I saw Aaron and Jessica waving next to their car. I ran towards them, wheeling my suitcase behind me. As I got there I ran and hugged Aaron, then smiled awkwardly at Jessica. My mother ran up behind me and stared sobbing at Aaron as she hugged him. Aaron rolled his eyes behind her back and I had to laugh. It felt good to be home. Aaron pulled away from my mother suffocating hug and opened his mouth to talk, but was cut off by my mom.
"You don't know how much I missed you Aar-bear! And Jessica it's so good to see you too!" As my mom continued her annoying greetings Aaron tried ushering them into the car. I stayed out and helped him load the suitcases, then we all got into his car.
About fifteen minutes later we pulled up at the Forks motel, which was more like a log cabin then a hotel. At first my mom wrinkled her nose at it, then her expression returned to that annoying cheery one.
"Oh, how charming! It's so quaint and adorable!" Jessica smiled and nodded her head eagerly.
"Ya mom, that's why we chose it. So we're gonna meet up with you for dinner at our house later tonight, right?" My mom nodded and started to say something but Aaron interrupted her. "Okay see you later love ya." Then he got back in the car and drove away. We drove in silence for a while but then Jessica interrupted it with a giggle.
"Aar-bear?" I saw Aaron blush slightly at hearing his childhood nickname.
"Don't even get me stared," Aaron said in a low voice, but Jessica kept laughing. As soon as we pulled up to the house and got out Aaron grabbed her hand and dragged her into the house mumbling, "don't mess with me." I didn't want to know what they were doing inside. I dragged my suitcases into my room and flopped down on my bed, feeling somewhat happy though I didn't think I could ever be completely happy again. I looked at my watch and realized the final dress fitting for Jessica and I was in an hour. I went into the bathroom to fix my hair and was shocked at what looked back. My face was lifeless, and my once piercing eyes were completely empty, non-responsive. No wonder everyone was so worried about me, I barely even looked like myself. And I wasn't myself, not without Collin... I jumped back up to distract myself from thinking about him. I grabbed the dress and went to usher out Jessica so we wouldn't be late to the dress fitting. After the fitting we would be heading home to make dinner for my mother.
At the dress fitting I couldn't help but appreciate the dress. It was a light turquoise color that complemented my dark hair and light eyes. It was strapless, and tight on top then flowed down towards the floor. It had some sequins sown in under the chest, and looked beautiful. Jessica also looked amazing in her wedding gown. I really was happy for Aaron, even if I think they rushed into this. After the fitting Jessica and I hurried home to see Aaron in the kitchen, attempting to cook. There were pots and spices everywhere, and he was reading a cookbook with a confused look on his face. Jessica laughed hysterically and I cracked another rare semi-smile. All I could think about was how pathetic of a cook Collin was... Distractions, that's what I needed. I ran in to help
Aaron cook, and after a while the kitchen and food returned to look normal.
"Aaron, why in the world would you even try to cook? We both know you suck at it." Aaron just shrugged, and I gave him a look.
"I wanted to impress mom and Jessica," he mumbled under his breath.
"Really Aaron? You should know that cooking is the one way you can un-impress them!" He just nodded his head, knowing I was right. "Remember when you were in fifth grade and we tried to make mac'n cheese and we nearly burned the house down?" He laughed at the memory and we continued to remember good childhood memories until dinner was done, and the table was set. Jessica hadn't helped at all, but I didn't mind. I had missed spending time with Aaron. I had just finished changing when mom rang the doorbell. Aaron went to greet her, and the hellish dinner began.
"Sweetie, the kitchen is still in one piece! Did someone help you?" I knew Aaron was embarrassed, and really wanted to impress her and Jessica so I cut in.
"Yup! Well, I helped him clean up but he gets full credit for the cooking." Aaron shot me a smile to show his thanks as my mother raised her eyebrows questioningly.
"Well then, I guess Jessica is a good influence on your cooking skills." Both Aaron and Jessica beamed at this. Then my mother put her arms around the two of them and ushered them into the living room, yelling over her shoulder "Carrie get the plates will you?" I sighed and went back into the kitchen, feeling as far away from being a family as I possibly could.
"Ah dessert time already!" The meal had been going on for an hour, and it was finally time for dessert as my mother had pointed out. Aaron brought out a huge store bought chocolate cake and everyone but me dug in. Ever since the... incident in the woods I couldn't bring myself to do anything that would make me somewhat happy. Even if it was as simple as not going to the mall with Jackie, or refusing a piece of cake I stayed away from anything that made people happy. I felt guilty knowing that I was doing something for myself, after the torture I caused Collin. Of course by now he probably moved on and found another girlfriend. After all he was the perfect boyfriend, he could probably get any girl he wanted. The pain in my chest was excruciating, from me even thinking about Collin being with another girl.
"Mom, Jessica, Aaron, do you guys mind if I go for a quick walk on the beach?" Everyone looked up surprised to see me there, because I hadn't spoken once all night.
"Sure sweetie, have fun. Just come back soon because the wind is starting to pick up and once the storm starts it'll be to dangerous to be near the waves." I nodded so she knew I would head back for the storm and I got my keys and went into Aaron's car. On the drive over to the beach I internally punched myself at my stupidity.
Why in the world would I go back to the beach, the place Collin and I loved being at the most?
Before I knew it I was out of my car, and at the spot I went on my first date with Collin, when we had a picnic. It was where we shared our first kiss... I needed to get rid of those memories, to clear myself of all things Collin. Ignoring the fact that the wind was going fast, and that it was pouring I decided to go for a swim. The waves were bigger then what was safe, but what did I care? Maybe dying wouldn't be so bad, if I went to heaven. Then again heaven would be hell if Collin wasn't there. That's it, I'm going in. I took off my pants and top and dove headfirst into the oncoming waves. The water was freezing, and it cleared the jumbled thoughts from my head. I surfaced again above the waves and swam out deeper and deeper. I knew that I was being ridiculous, and that I could easily die, but I just didn't care. Nothing mattered to me anymore, I had nothing to live for. Before I knew it I was 50 feet away from the shore, and was in the middle of a huge storm. The waves were crashing over me, pushing me down. I tried to fight against the water, but eventually it got control over my body. I was underwater, and I couldn't even figure out which way was up. I knew I was going to die, but still I was completely calm. Even as I felt my side hit a huge rock underwater and I felt an excruciating pain come up my side. I would welcome death with open arms, if it meant ending this miserable excuse for a life. Because I knew I was going to die I decided it was all right for me to think of Collin, and I did. I saw his beautiful body and heartwarming smile. I could hear his angelic deep voice, and smell his musky woodsy scent. Underneath the gigantic, roaring waves I smiled a real smile for the first time in months. I would see Collin soon, in my own personal heaven. Goodbye world, goodbye Collin
A/N So last time we only had 2 reviews (Come on guys, you can do better than that!) And the winner of most loved book is Eclipse because of "the drama". This weeks question. Who is the better parent, Charlie, or Renee? And why! R&R!