Luke's POV
I finally got done getting changed and having to go through stage prepping and I go back into the dressing room to get some alone time. I was not in the best mood at the moment, that talk with Ashton today was stressing me out and I couldn't stop thinking about it. At first it seemed like a fine discussion about an issue and then we always end up fighting in the end. But this time it was different, it wasn't us being selfish jackasses fighting over Daniella, well it kind of was, but all the fights before had been different somehow, this time things got personal and took a turn for the worst. I walk into the backroom and who else could possibly be sitting there but the one person who is making my life miserable yet meaningful at the same time, Dani. I look at her but I don't want her to ask me questions because I know she can tell that I'm upset, she was good at that.
"Luke." she says and I breath in a bit before turning around to look at her.
"What?" I say a bit too harshly, but I couldn't help it at this point everything I said was harsh.
"Is something wrong?" she asks, she never asked that, well she did but only when she knew the answer to that question was yes.
"No, everything's fine why?" I say because I couldn't tell her what was wrong, not just now, but ever, the thing that was bothering me is something I will never tell anyone not even Calum or Michael. It's something I regret but what's worse is I regret it for the wrong reasons.
"Just wondering is all. What did you have to talk to Ashton about?" she says giving me a smirk and raising her eyebrows.
"We just wanted to talk about getting things back on track. You and his' relationship isn't the only one that got distant." I say but I can tell she knows I'm totally bullshitting her.
"Well I'm glad you two are starting to try and work things out. For a second I thought you guys were happy you hated each other. I'm gonna go find Ash." she says in a monotone voice. She throws a quick smile at me and leaves the room. I run my hands through my hair and I sit down on the couch where she was sitting. I'm so tired of this. I'm tired of being angry and upset about everything. But I couldn't help it, even after all this shit I am still in fucking love with her.
Daniella's POV
Luke always makes things so tense and to be honest quite frustrating. I find Ash sitting by the very back of the stage and when he sees me he smiles. I smile back at him and I jog towards him. I sit down next to him and I lean my head on his chest and he kisses the top of my head.
"I'm so happy you're back here. I missed seeing you on the sidelines babe." he says and I blush.
"I missed being on the sidelines." I answer back. He starts to rub my arms and we are both silent for a while taking in the moment and looking out to the seats watching all the fans enter. "I remember the first time I walked into the arena to see you guys perform." I say quietly. I look up into his hazel eyes and he is smiling at me. "I thought that being there seeing you guys doing what you loved to do was the happiest I would ever be, little did I know I was way wrong." I say and Ashton leans down and kisses me and I place my hand on his cheek and slowly move it through his hair. "So, I've always been curious. What was the process you went through before you decided to ask me out?" I asked trying to take my mind off of the real questions like why did you lie about talking to Luke and what that fucking text message meant. He let's out an uncomfortable laugh and he rubs his shoulder with his hand.
"I umm, I had to sneak my way around quite a few fans in order to find you. I remember thinking I was never going to find you in that huge crowd and I thought that maybe you had already gone. So I decided to walk back and then in the corner of my eye I saw you walking towards the lot. My heart, and I'm not saying this metaphorically when i say, it skipped a beat. I jogged as fast as I could over to you and I honestly had no idea what I was doing or what I was going to say to you I just knew i had to give it a shot. So I did." he says playing with my hands. I was about to say something but then I look up and you see Luke. Of course.
"We're on in 3 minutes Ashton. Let's go." Luke says and then he turns around and walks off. Ashton let's out a frustrated sigh and he places a kiss on my cheek.
"Alright, I'll see you after the show babe." he says running off. I smile a bit and I go to the side of the stage to watch the show.
Ashton's POV
"We're on in 3 minutes Ashton. Let's go." Luke says annoyingly as ever. I let out a frustrating sigh and I turn to look at Dani. God it felt so amazing to be close to her again. I almost lost her, and that feeling I had of losing her was the worst feeling I had ever felt. I was scared, miserable, and alone all at the same time. All the negative feelings that went away whenever I was with Dani came rushing back and I didn't have her to get me through them. But I felt like a complete hypocrite about lying to her today. But I had to. I kiss her on the cheek,
"Alright, I'll see you after the show babe." I say and I get up and walk off. My head was filled with so many things. It was filled with thoughts of the music, her, Luke. The conversation I had with Luke today was a conversation I never thought I would have. I couldn't stop wrapping my head around it, I was worried Dani was going to ask me about it sooner or later and I didn't want her too. This was a private issue that would be better off kept secret for the benefit of everyone. Especially Luke.
*After The Concert*
I walk to the back room after the concert to find Daniella. I find her sitting on the couch talking to Calum with a smile on her face. She's so beautiful when she smiles, I missed that. I stop at the doorway and just stand there for a while, watching her. She's the kind of person you can look at for hours and not help but wonder what's she's thinking of. I smile a little and think of all the memories we've had. Our first date, our first kiss, the first time we said we loved each other, and most recently, our first time. She notices me standing by the door and smiles. She gets up and walks to me, wrapping her arms around my neck, I rest my hands on her waist.
"You did really well tonight." She smiles at me.
"Thank you, it's just because I had a very important audience member tonight." I say to her causing her to blush. She was adorable when she blushed. I love that I have that affect on her. Even after 6 months of dating she still gets embarrassed. It was 11 by now but I wasn't tired. I was still buzzing from the show and I really wanted to catch up on the time I missed with Dani. Plus, I really need to take my mind off of Luke and the phone call. "So, the show starts at midnight, should we head out, or...?" I ask gripping her waist. I pull her closer and she starts to giggle.
"Mhmm." She says laughing a little. I kiss her nose and grab her hand.
"Let's go then."
Daniella's POV
Ash and I decided to walk to the Preservation hall since it wasn't too far from the arena. We walk hand in hand and keep light conversation throughout the walk.
"Thank you so much for taking me to this. I know it may not be your favourite thing to do but-"
"Hey, anything you like, I like too. Besides, if it means I get to spend more time with you, then I'd do anything and everything you can imagine." I look at him surprised.
"Wow, someone's feeling extra charming today." He laughs,
"Well you know me, charming as always." He kisses my head and gives my hand a squeeze. We walk by a couple of clubs and such and see a bunch of crazy people dressed up in crazy clothes. Some guy walks up to us with a sign in his hand.
"Hey, are you looking for some temporary companionship? We've got the best girls in town." He addresses Ashton.
"Um, no thank you." He awkwardly declines. The guy walks away and we continue walking. We both start laughing awkwardly at the guys proposition.
"Are you sure you don't want strippers? Who knows, I might not be up for it tonight." I joke. He grabs my waist and pulls me close, whispering in your ear.
"Trust me, I'll make sure you are." I blush and bite my lip. Before we can go into anymore depth on the topic I remember the text and what he had kept from me earlier today.
"Hey babe, why didn't you tell me the writing session ended early?" I ask innocently, not meaning to start an argument. He stops laughing but is still smiling, a bit forcibly, but he's still smiling.
"I'm sorry, I just went out with Luke, we wanted to sort out a couple of things." He looks at me giving me a reassuring look.
"I thought we talked about lying to one another?"
"I wasn't lying babe. I just- I didn't want you to worry. We're fine. Luke and I are practically back to normal." He smiles at me innocently. Liar. From what I saw today, that wasn't true, Luke was upset about something and before he went to talk with Ash, he seemed fine. I was about to ask him another question until we reached the hall.
"Oh, we're here. You got the tickets?" He asks me.
"Uh, yeah." I give them to him and smile a little. We walk into the hall and take a seat in the very front on the floor. He sits behind me and I sit in between his legs. He wraps his arms around me and rests his head on my shoulder. He kisses my cheek from behind and grabs my hand with his. We wait for the show to start and before we know it, the 7 musicians walk out and sit right in front of us. Once they start playing I forget everything. The music is beautiful and upbeat. Ashton also seems entranced by the spell. The man's voice is deep and lovely to the ears. After the show finishes the we stay seated for a while. That was a amazing. Ashton finally gets up behind me and offers me a hand. I take it and leave the room.
"That was amazing." He says as we walk hand in hand back to the hotel.
"Yeah." I reply, still speechless from the performance.
"How about we make this night even better?" He whispers in my ear.
"No," I laugh a little nervously, "I'm not in the mood." I say looking down.
"I can change that." He replies seductively into my ear. I laugh,
"Oh god. I don't know if I want to know what you're thinking."
"I'm always thinking about you." He smiles.
We get back to the hotel around 2:30 A.M. Before we walk inside the hotel room he leans me up against the hotel room door kissing me passionately. I kiss him back and I tug tight at his hair and I move my hands down his back. Without pulling his lips apart from mine he slowly takes one hand and pulls out the key card from his back pocket and opens the door. He opens it slowly as he supports the small of my back so that I don't fall backwards. Unexpectedly he swoops me up bridal style and I giggle and he smiles at me. He throws me down onto the bed and he climbs on top of me, he grabs my hands and pulls them above my head and I intertwine my fingers with his as his kisses start to move down my body. I pull my hands away from his and I place them on his shoulders. They were one of my favorite features about him, they were so strong and muscular and whenever I had my arms wrapped around them I felt safe. I could feel his shoulder blades supporting his torso above me and I let out a soft moan as he moved down to my collar bones. I missed the emotional aspect of being with Ashton but I couldn't help but miss the physical things as well like the way he kissed me and how he touched me gently and delicately.
"I missed you so much." Ashton says. "I missed your smile, your laugh, your eyes, your warmth-" he pauses and gives me a seductive grin. "your body" he finished as he leans back in and he slips his hands under my back and he slowly moves them down as he continues to kiss me. My fingers dig into his back and I kiss him on the sides of his neck and on his shoulders. This felt right. But it also felt wrong because I know that deep down inside I am upset with him.
"Ashton wait." I say sighing. I had to talk about it now before we got back on the tour bus, no matter how badly I wanted to keep going.
"What's wrong?" he asks climbing off of me and sitting beside me.
"I just, I can't stop thinking about why you would lie about talking to Luke." I say hesitantly. He stands up and begins to pace. I was catching on that whenever something was up everyone in this band would pace. I didn't like it when people paced because pacing makes me anxious.
"It's really not my decision to tell you." Ashton finally answers.
"What are you talking about?" I say.
"I didn't tell you because Luke told me not to tell you. Luke wanted to have a conversation without anyone knowing. It was about something that...nevermind the point is is that I didn't want to lie to you Dan. Especially not after how I said I was going to be honest with you last night." Ashton replies back.
"Does the thing you talked about with Luke have anything to do with the text he sent you this morning?" I ask him.
"You went through my messages?" Ashton says angrily.
"No. Well kind of. But not really because technically I only read the little bit that pops up on the lock screen because your phone was buzzing and I didn't want it to wake you-"
"and what did that message say?" Ashton cuts me off, he has placed his hands on his hips and he is towering above me.
"It said 'you had the chance to tell her and you didn't.' and then the rest got cut off." I say. Ashton lowers his hands from his hips and he sits down next to me looking down at his hands. "What didn't you tell me Ash?" I ask desperately.
"I can't tell you. That's something Luke will have to do. And trust me you aren't going to get it out of him anytime soon." Ashton says softly.
"Is it bad. Is Luke okay?" I ask confused.
"HE'S FINE!" Ashton snaps but immediately grabs my hands and begins to rub them with his thumbs. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to shout. It's just that I don't want to see you get hurt anymore." Ashton says leaning me in towards him and I bury my head into his chest.
"If this is information that could hurt me shouldn't I know what it is?" I ask.
"Somethings are better off not ever knowing Dan." Ashton says kissing my head and running his hand through my hair. What the hell did that even mean? If this was information that could hurt me, I want to know before someone else does. I break away from Ashton's arms and I stand up.
"Well that's bullshit Ash-"
"Dan." "No. Don't Dan me. I'm going over there right now. Why don't I deserve to know something that will hurt me? Last time someone didn't tell me anything I ended up on the front cover of a magazine and was labeled the 5sos whore." I say as I walk towards the door and I swing it open and Ashton runs behind me. I walk fast down the hallway and then I bang on Calum, Michael, and Luke's door. I knew they were awake because I could hear the television.
"Luke you open this door right now or-" I am cut off by Calum swinging the door open.
"Daniella what's wrong." Calum asks looking up at Ashton but I ignore his question and I barge into the bedroom. "You tell me right now why you're so upset!" I say in a loud voice. Luke stands up from the bed and looks over at Ashton and then back at me.
"I told you I was fine." Luke replies in shock.
"Oh please Luke you don't think that by now I've gotten pretty talented at calling out you guys' bullshit. Give it up and tell me." I say and Ashton walks over and grabs my arm.
"He's never going to tell you Dan. Unless he wants to lose you." Ashton says and he looks down to the floor immediately as if he said it on accident.
"What?" I say and at this point my head was spinning.
"Nothing." Luke replies back.
"Can you all just shut the hell up!" Calum says furiously. "I'm sick and tired of listening to this constant fucking fighting! Luke this is ridiculous whatever the hell it is you're hiding just tell us. Because at this point whatever the hell it is you're hiding it can't be as bad as when you were hiding the fact that you were in fucking love with her!" Calum shouts.
"Well it is." Luke says back in a scarily quiet voice. He looks up at me and his eyes are glistening with tears. Luke walks out the door and Ashton follows him. I run up to catch him but he turns around,
"Just stay here. I'll talk to him." Ashton says stopping me before I leave the room.
"No we'll talk to him together. As a band." Calum says and Michael gets up from the bed and walks out the door and Calum and Ashton follow him closing the door behind them leaving me alone in the room. I sit down on the bed and I put my head in my hands pushing my hair back. I was starting to wonder whether this whole thing was making me stronger or making me weak.